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This one is probably the most important in helping understand Blue. It takes place at the same time Red was saying goodbye to Phantom Venin.
Recommended music: Tokyo Underground Opening 1. I recently got reminded of that Pokemon Special edit.
Pokemon Tales: Red Side Story 5: B-Side Part 5.
S1 - Parallel
As soon as their battle with the giant Tentacruel was finished and they received a message saying that they would safely return to Vermilion City, Blue began worrying about the fact that Red was right there with her and that it meant he could try to talk to her about her leaving. She definitely didn't feel ready to do that. She looked quickly in his direction and noticed that instead of walking up to her, he went in the opposite direction. What could that mean? Did he actually believe that the things she wrote were the whole truth and was that really enough to convince him that they needed to travel separately? But the thing that made her feel ashamed was that she felt some unconscious hope that he would actually try to get the information out of her. If he didn't, then it seemed like she was fooling herself and their relationship wasn't as important to him as to her.
She looked at the other people gathered around and quickly deduced that they were all fighting together because they gathered around Red. To someone who could make friends so easily, someone with a mean attitude, like her, wasn't worth bothering about. Those were the thoughts that made her inform Lt. Surge that she was going to rest, while in truth, she just wanted to get away, in case Red would return and she would have to deal with her fears becoming a reality.
After sitting down in a dark corner somewhere, she looked at her hands while still trying to deal with the mess of thoughts that was confusing her mind further and further. Bell and Tori stood beside her, looking at each other as if hoping that the other one would have some kind of idea on how to cheer up their trainer.
"Red isn't like that." she spoke up, even though she didn't immediately recognize that it was her voice that said those words.
It felt like her confidence and trust in Red joined forces and punched through the ceiling of her worries to deliver a message to her. She didn't think about what was important. She was assuming the worst case scenario even though she never was the kind of person to do that. She knew what weakened her so much that she would have those kind of baseless thoughts. She couldn't get rid of that. Both the positive and negative parts of her mind were what made her the person she was. That didn't mean that she couldn't take control and apply logic, even if her feelings wanted her to do otherwise.
"I have to believe in him." she said, this time almost completely sure of herself.
She finally reached a conclusion. She knew Red and through all these times they spent together, he believed in her and never gave her a reason for why she shouldn't do the same for him. It was her own worries that tainted the image of him that she had in her mind and heart.
It didn't change the fact that she wasn't ready to face since she still wasn't confident enough that she would be able to handle the situation in a good way but she knew that if they ever met and Red would demand her to explain herself, it would be because he was ready to learn the truth. But that was just one of many options. Red wasn't an inquisitive type so there was a chance that he didn't care about any additional stuff and just wanted to have things back to normal, to them travelling together and having fun. Blue's biggest worry was what she could say so that neither of them would be hurt. But, could Red actually be hurt by words?
"Gaaah. Stop it!" she grabbed the sides of her head since she started getting a headache from overthinking all that stuff "You'll deal with it when it comes to it!"
She laid down on the floor, looking at the stars.
"When." she repeated "Definitely a "when"."
I feel a lot of worry when writing, probably even more than Blue does about her whole situation, and the reason is that I think a lot of the stuff I write can be looked upon in a negative way. I went a lot deeper into how Blue deals with this stuff than I did with Red, and that could be misconstrued as me making Blue more vulnerable because she's a girl. That's probably partly true but more so, it just shows how simple-mined Red is in comparison to her. Green is a good medium. He would probably be as worried as Blue if it was him in that situation but he would deal with it better. I don't want this to become a standard for how I write females but it's still kinda unfortunate that this is how the first main female character came out. I'm probably overthinking it. When Chapter 17 is done and you'll get the whole picture, there probably will be people who'll go like "Yeah, I get it". I already feel dumb about it. It's not like really need readers to feel sympathy towards Blue. If you do, then that's okay.
Moving onto other stuff. I've got no money to afford a Switch, not to mention any games on it, but I've been reading up on Pokemon Let's Go and watching some videos on YouTube and while I don't really have a strong opinion about the catching system or whatever else people are bothered by, I think that there are some cool ideas in those games and maybe I'll do my twist on one or two of them sometime in the future.
Another thing I've noticed is the Bellsprouts. I haven't been following trailers so I don't know if people knew about that before playing the game, but you can catch Bellsprouts at the beginning of the game, on Route 1, Route 2 and in Viridian Forest. But only in the Eevee version(In Pikachu you have Oddish). Bellsprout and Eevee? Sounds familiar? I just thought this was a cool coincidence.
I think I said that Chapter 17 is already started but I'm kinda sick at the moment and I can't look at a screen too long so I won't write it too quickly. I'll still do my best to deliver it as soon as possible. Until then, Merry (insert the holiday you're celebrating here).
