I am terrible sorry I am just posting this chapter. I have had a pretty rough couple of months. My mother had a stroke (she is fine, doing therapy), my dog had surgery, I was diagnosed with a mental illness and I still feel pretty ashamed about it. No I am not crazy, or depressed or bipolar. I have borderline personality disorder... No I do not have multiple personalities, I have a hard time letting go of traumatic shit in the past that needs to be let go. My emotions are consuming me and I pretty much am stuck in a world of negativity. I am doing therapy and getting better. I just need to release my emotions and feel like myself again. This is my healing zone, writing fanfiction. So I have not given up on this story. I am glad there are still fans of the show Inuyasha reading fanfiction written by awesome writers and are reading my stories and appreciating my work. Thank you! This chapter is has no lime/lemon because it will be in the part 2 of this chapter. Anyway, here is chapter 3, part 1.


Utsukushiki Omoide

Chapter 3 - You are mine to protect, Part 1

Kagome walked into their bedroom chambers with a towel around her form and watched Sesshomaru as he stood in front of a tall mirror, straightening up his haori then threw mokomoko over his right shoulder. He turned around giving her a soft look as she came up to him. She wrapped her arms around the daiyoukai's neck and allowed her towel to drop to her ankles.

She giggled as she blushed at him sweetly, "Oops."

"Kawaii, but I'm not falling for it," smirked Sesshomaru as he released himself out of her embrace. He walked over to the bed and picked up a blue sapphire silk kimono with white crescent moon patterns along the rim of the collar and the sleeves. He turned around. "You'll be wearing this, koi."

Her brown orbs widen as she walked and grabbed the piece of clothing from him and examined it. She looked at Sesshomaru with soft eyes and smiled, "This is beautiful, Sesshomaru! I don't know if I should be wearing such expensive silk."

"Nonsense, you're this Sesshomaru's mate. You are to be Lady of The Western Lands," he said with his smooth cooing voice as he cupped her cheek and gently stroked his thumb along her cheek. "There is a very important matter I need to deal with before we have breakfast this morning. I will get a servant to aid you in putting on your kimono along with doing your hair and makeup."

"What's going on?" asked Kagome as she gave him a concerned look.

He sighed as he dropped his hand from her face and frowned slightly. "This one needs to deal with an irritating unexpected guest."

She raised an eyebrow at him and he sighed again moving away from Kagome heading toward the shoji door. "You will understand when you come for breakfast."

With that, he left the room leaving his mate to get ready and wait for a servant.

Kagome walked toward the mirror and placed the clothing against her body seeing how it would look on her and smiled, "I am to be the Lady of The Western Lands and rule with Sesshomaru."


"Enter, pup."

Sesshomaru opened the shoji door and entered his study seeing an inuyoukai woman staring at him with her golden orbs, piercing an icy glare at him. He stared back at her with an icy glare as well while closing the shoji behind him and growled softly.

"Mother," growled Sesshomaru as he glared at her. She was sitting in his chair behind his desk. Lady Mother continued to stare at him with an icy glare from her pools of gold. Her long silvery locks were in two high ponytails flowing to her waist. Her features were similar to Sesshomaru's having a blue crescent moon in the middle of her forehead. She had two magenta lightning jagged across her cheek one on each side. She wore a purple and white kimono with a green and yellow butterfly designs on it. Around her chest was a blue outer wrap that had a fur pelt along it.

A small smile graced upon her purple lips, "Sesshomaru."

He growled louder and moved over to his desk still giving his mother an icy look. "I see that you still don't know your place mother, seeing that you're in my seat. What is it that ails you?"

She chuckled and glared at him as she began to flare her youki at him. "I am your mother, therefore I sit anywhere I please. Just because you have been living here and ruling our lands, doesn't mean that I don't know my place. After all, this is still my castle as your father left it to me to give to you when your mate becomes Lady of these lands. Now, take a seat, my sweet koiinu."

He flared his youki back at her growling angrily at her while his eyes began to bleed red. "Mother, I suggest you step down from this Sesshomaru's seat."

She yawned extending more of her youki, overpowering Sesshomaru's and gave him a bored look as she began to pick at her painted claws. "Still speaking in that stupid narrative, are we now? Are you done having your little tantrum? I have important matters to discuss with you and as your Lady Mother, I will not step down. Now, take a seat before I make you. Do I make myself clear, Sesshomaru?"

The daiyoukai's eyes slowly went back to normal continuing his growling and sat down in front of his desk sending his mother death glares. 'That damn bitch.'

"Speak."

She gave him a smirk as she sat back and crossed one leg over the other pulling a mirror out of her kimono sleeves. She revealed Kagome getting dressed with the help of her servant in the master bedroom chambers. "That ningen is your mate."

He frowned as his cheeks slightly went pink and went back to having his icy look on his face, "What gives you the right to spy on me and what is mine?"

"I always keep a very close eye on my koiinu." smiled Inukimi as she gave him a soft look as she placed the mirror on the desk. "I have been wondering how you were doing when the news broke that the Shikon miko had returned... Yes, I know about Touga's hanyou son's death. There was a task that needed to be dealt with, which was your little miko. I've been watching both of you and the way you have been changing, Sesshomaru. That miko has impacted you more than that Rin girl ever since she came back from her disappearance for three years. I've seen the way you look at her... It is the same look your late father would give me many long years before that weak little ningen bitch came along and became his concubine. I guess it is in your father's blood to be tamed by a ningen and not a real bitch."

Sesshomaru watched his mother frown as the painful memory flashed back. He sighed softly as he stood up and walked toward the window in his study. He wasn't expecting his mother to keep a close eye on him, but he knew she would not be content with a ningen becoming Lady of her lands. He looked out of the window thinking about his mate. He knew she was perfect for the role of his Lady and his people's Lady of these lands. He would have to convince the Lady Mother that she would be good. "Hai, she is my mate. She is a powerful miko, to be frank. Her name is Higurashi Kagome. She is strong-spirited, an enigma, brave, caring, mouthy, kindhearted, loving... she's just perfect to me. This Sesshomaru could not resist her need for affection. I tried and I realize that she was who my beast wanted, needed. I fell in love with a ningen... At first, I was ashamed, but I accept that I am just like my father, mother."

Inukimi sat in deep thought and sighed softly, "I am wrong, Sesshomaru. You are not like your father, koiinu... As much as your father did hurt me terribly, I still love him though he is long dead gone... All I ever wanted was for you to find someone who made you see and understand love and not be constantly hateful and cold. You have lacked compassion for far too long and though that little girl helped, this Kagome girl helped you see more of what love is. I would like to see for myself if this ningen is worthy enough to retrieve my title as Lady of The Western Lands. A miko that is powerful could do good for the Western Lands, considering the fact that there aren't many female inuyoukai's of our kind... she would be able to birth powerful pups... maybe a different direction won't be so bad, considering our outstanding history and reputation."

Sesshomaru turned around and stared at her and smirked. He was happy to know his mother would cooperate with him. "Indeed. We would have powerful pups, having the ability to have both reiki and youki would be great for an heir to take over my duties in the future."

Golden eyes locked at each other as she gave him a warm smile. "I wish to meet this girl and if I approve, then you have my blessing, Sesshomaru."

He nodded his head, "Hai, you will meet my mate in the dining room for breakfast. I am sure she will not disappoint you."

"Good!" she grinned as she clapped her hands together as she gave her son a motherly look, "Now, give your mother a hug."


Kagome gasped as the servant finished putting on her makeup. She stared at the mirror as she saw how beautiful she looked. Her hair was up in a high bun with a tiger lily flower tucked in her bun. She wore a soft blue eye shadow and a red lip stain on her lips. The kimono hugged her body revealing her curves.

She turned around and stared at the servant giving her a friendly smile, "Arigatou. I look amazing!"

She bowed and stared at Kagome with her dull lavender orbs giving her a smile small. She was an ice youkai with short blue hair with purple streaks. "Douitashimashite, milady. I am very pleased. Now we must head toward the dining area. Lord Sesshomaru will be waiting for you there."

Kagome nodded and hurried to the shoji door, "Please lead the way, er - what was your name again? Forgive me for my rudeness."

"Mizu, milady," said Mizu as she opened the screen door. "Now come along, Lady Mother does not like to wait a long time on others."

"Lady Mother?" asked Kagome confusedly as she followed behind Mizu down the hallway.

"Lord Sesshomaru's mother."

"Oh shit," gulped Kagome as they continued to head toward the dining area. 'Yeah, he was right... this is definitely important. I hope she isn't like most moms who are overly protective of their sons.'

The miko studied the scenery as she continued to walk down the hall behind Mizu. There were paintings along the walls of previous rulers of the Western Lands. She sighed and smiled to herself. 'One day, Sesshomaru and I will be painted with our little ones just like the rest of his ancestors... If they do accept me, a miko and a ningen.'

A few months after Kagome returned to Feudal Japan

It had been a few months since Sesshomaru told Kagome about Inuyasha's death. The inutachi were told about the tragedy and grieved over their loss, giving Kagome the space she needed and being there for her when she needed it as well. Even Sesshomaru would check up on Kagome every now and then.

"Please keep applying the paste on your son's back every couple of hours. It'll help with the burns. I will return to your village in a week," said Kagome before leaving the hut with her belongings.

She sighed softly as she began to leave the village she visited while travelling alone. Her reiki was growing and she was also doing her best to keep focused. She missed Inuyasha, but she knew he wasn't going to be brought back alive. She missed his presence and she was appreciated of Sesshomaru checking up on her every now and then. He was her friend and a better friend than what Inuyasha was to her. They spent a lot of time together talking, and him teaching her new things.

As Kagome climbed up the hill and disappeared along the pathway in the forest she felt his strong demonic presence. She giggled as she stopped suddenly, "Hi Fluffy!"

She heard a gentle growl and started laughing as Sesshomaru jumped down from a tree and gave her an icy glare as he grabbed her belongings. "How many times does this Sesshomaru have to tell you to stop calling him Fluffy?"

Kagome continued laughing as she walked past him. "Until you learn to approach me normally and not follow me like a stalker. But I know you're just being a big softy and protecting me like how Inuyasha would have."

Sesshomaru made his famously 'hn' and followed after her. "A daiyoukai such as myself is not fluffy!"

They walked in silence for a few hours. The sun was starting to set and Sesshomaru was looking for a good spot for them to camp for the night. The miko glanced back at the daiyoukai a few times. For the past few months, he had become a good friend toward her. He listened to her and talked to her more than his brother would have done. But for these few hours, he was quiet. 'I wonder what's up with him. He usually isn't this quiet with me.'

Sesshomaru noticed the few glances she exchanged at him and stopped walking. "We won't be back in Edo until tomorrow night. We should camp around here until dawn."

Kagome stopped and turned around to look at him smiling, "Awesome! I'm getting tired anyway. Can you sniff out a good spot where there's a hot spring? I am dying to soak my aching muscles!"

"I'm going to pretend that I didn't hear your insult... I already found one, about a five-minute walk from the pathway. We will camp near the hot springs for your safety," said Sesshomaru walking past the girl and into the forest, "Come, this way."

She followed him until he stopped near the spring.

"We will camp here. Over to the left is the hot springs," confirmed the daiyoukai as he turned to look at the miko giving her things back to her and pointed to the direction of the hot springs.

"Arigatou, Sesshomaru," chirped Kagome as she gave him a small smile.

The daiyoukai nodded his head and they began to set up camp. The silence was killing Kagome as watched Sesshomaru make a fire and while she unfolded her sleeping bag. She knew something was wrong with the way the inuyoukai was quiet with her. She got used to him being very vocal with her and with his silence, it was just odd.

"Sesshomaru, you've been quiet. Are you upset because I called you Fluffy?" asked Kagome as she looked up at him with her brown orbs filled with concern.

He finished starting the fire and got up looking down at her with his golden orbs with a small frown, "Iie, you are beginning to go into heat."

"Oh," squeaked Kagome as she blushed at him. Inuyasha had told her years ago about what happens to youkais when a female goes into heat. "Gomen ne. Does it bother you?"

He shook his head as she sighed with relief, "It does not, but it puts you in danger considering the fact that you are pure... you will be a target for male youkai's in the area because they would want to mate you."

"Ugh! I really was hoping to not hear that. Is that why you stayed close by to me while I was attending to those villagers for the past few days?"

"Hai, your scent was starting to change so this one is here to protect you."

Kagome's eyes soften as she gave him a weak smile. "You don't have to protect me. I'm capable of taking care of myself considering the fact that my reiki has gotten stronger and I can control it. But I do appreciate it."

"Good. I will fetch dinner. Try not to get into trouble while I'm gone. I should be no more than ten minutes."


The evening went by quickly. Dinner was fetched, cooked and eaten with small talk between Kagome and Sesshomaru.

"Alright! I'm going to bathe... can you watch over me since I'll be in great danger if I go alone?" teased Kagome as she got up and dusted the dirt off her miko outfit.

Sesshomaru rolled his eyes causing her to laugh. "You aren't in great danger, Kagome. Your scent is much more... appealing. It has been a long few days of hanging around a ningen village, so I do wish to bathe as well. How about a compromise? I'll summon a barrier around us where no one will disturb us that way you can bathe with ease and this Sesshomaru can enjoy a relaxing soak with his friend."

Kagome stopped laughing as she began to blush. 'A bath with Sesshomaru? It shouldn't be a problem, I mean he's just protecting me so no funny business happens. We're just two people; a ningen and a youkai taking a bath together as friends. I know he would have respect and boundaries. I trust him... he's been here for me during my mourning and helped me this far to be a stronger person.'

"Fine, as long as you don't stare at my private parts," blushed Kagome as she turned her back to him and began to head toward the spring. "I'll go first, come when you hear me get in the hot spring."

"Very well, miko. I will meet you there," agreed Sesshomaru as he watched her walk away.

The girl from the future got to the hot spring and quickly undressed and plunged herself into the water, "Okay! You can come!"

Sesshomaru came up to the rocks and began to take off his haori. Kagome watched him as she stared at his chest and began to blush madly, 'Sesshomaru has such a friggin hot body... wait, this is your friend you're thinking about, Kagome! Keep your thoughts together, before this heat messes him up!'

He smirked at her, golden orbs meeting innocent brown orbs as Sesshomaru was about to untie his hakamas. "Turn around... I can smell your arousal starting to linger in the air."

"Gomen!" Kagome laughed nervously as she turned around and continued to battle her dirty thoughts. 'Fuck! His godlike body is turning me on! Girl, get a grip of yourself! If I continue to have sexual thoughts, who knows if it'll drive him to the point where he wants me because of my scent and not me.'

After a few moments, Sesshomaru merged himself into the water away from the miko and groaned as he rested the back of his head against the rocks.

'I wonder if he sounds like that when he's in pleasure,' Kagome bit her lip fighting back a moan after having another dirty thought as she turned to face him in a dark shade of red.

His eyes were closed making him look so peaceful and very sexy. His hair flowed gently around him in the water. Though he was not so close to her, Kagome couldn't keep her eyes off Sesshomaru. It was her first time bathing with a male and it was him! He was this great fearful inuyoukai that many people feared and she was sitting in the same hot spring as him!

Kagome gulped as her face was still flushed. "Uh, Sesshomaru?"

"Hm?" he slowly opened his eyes and looked at her gently causing her to shudder.

"I don't think I can bathe with you here," she blurted out as she began to play with her fingers.

He gave her a small chuckle and ran his claws through his silvery locks, "Neither can this Sesshomaru... your scent is driving this one to be... what is this term you use? Nuts?"

Her innocent brown eyes looked up at Sesshomaru as he stared at her with lust causing feelings to stir within her. "Gomen ne... I have never had a bath with a man before. I mean Shippo has bathed with me plenty of times, but he was just a child. It's just... it's hard to not stare at you..."

'Because you're so fucking hot... and these feelings... I can't stop thinking of what he would do to me because I want him to. I shouldn't even be having these thoughts right now! We're just friends! He wouldn't want a ningen. I'm weak compared to him!'

"Does my nudity bother you, Kagome?" he purred at her as he stood up and began to stalk toward her.

Kagome squeaked and moved backwards, "I-iie! It's just..."

Her back hit the rocks around the spring and sank her body more into the water having the level of water reach her chin. Sesshomaru chuckled and sat down in front of her.

He grabbed her chin and kissed her nose, "You have not been this close to a man... it is understandable. Do not be afraid."

The young miko gulped as she stared into his lustful gold eyes. "Gomen ne..."

"You're rambling too much. Stop apologizing you silly miko... I told you, I would protect you. Why would this Sesshomaru dishonour himself and most of all you when you're in such a vulnerable state?" the daiyoukai said as he cupped her cheek and rubbed his thumb gently so his claw wouldn't scratch her.

Kagome grabbed his hand and held it as she gave him a weak smile, "Iie... but I am making it hard for the both of us, especially you."

He let out a hearty chuckle and squeezed her hand, "You have been making it hard the moment you returned. You drive this Sesshomaru mad... but it is fine. As long as this Sesshomaru does not see you in pain and protects you."

"Sesshomaru," she softly said as her eyes soften. She leaned forward about to give him a kiss on the cheek but instead Sesshomaru planted his lips on hers kissing her hard causing her to gasp against his lips.

He pulled back giving her a soft loving stare. "Stop feeling bad... You are mine to protect."

End of Flashback


So that was the first part of chapter 3. Hopefully, I will be able to post the second part of this chapter soon. Thank you for reading and reviewing! They are always appreciated. Until then,

Ja ne!

A Lost Child From Heaven