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Episode 19


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The TARDIS.

A distinctive kind of craft that from the outside looked to be the shape of an outdated blue police box, but was much bigger within the interior, a separate kind of universe, and the door that connects it from this to the outside world. A ship that was capable of setting sail across space and time throughout the Multiverse. A box made out of living beats of time calculations and transdimensional equations. A microcosm block transferred from pure mathematics itself.

Shidou Itsuka, soon to be about fifteen years of age, had many kinds of memories when it came to the TARDIS. And this was one of them. A special kind of moment. At this point, he was it was recently after a special occasion, a wedding to be precise. And when talking about things from a chronological point of view, this was the second wedding that he had. The first was with the woman he loved and still does...but she was no more.

Even after these many years, he still could not find it within himself to let these feelings go. He could not help it. He still truly and deeply loved his long-deceased wife, Rinne Sonogami. He thinks about her every day and still does. And he thinks of this as he can see the bright horizon of an Earth-like planet that was being inundated by the sun's rays. This Earth-like planet was not Earth nor another Earth. It was another planet in another universe.

While Shidou was currently in a master bedroom room, one that was a bit Victorian in style, what can be seen from, well, he supposed you could call it as kind of like a window that reflects the outside, but it's not a kind of window that could be penetrated from the outside, because firstly, it was not really there, so in a sense, it's merely one way and only those inside can see what lay outside, but not vice versa. And he was seated on the soft surface of the side of the white sheet of the bed as his amber-brown eyes were simply taking in the beautiful atmosphere and the twinkling stars in the heavens that are cloaked in the deepest blanket of the night.

His heartbeat palpitates with a heavy breath and his mind was now in deep thought. Memories make him remember him standing on an altar, and of course, remembering the vows that he had just uttered recently. Now, he had tied the knot. Sona Sitri, the woman who had always been there for him, supporting him even in his darkest of moments, was now officially his wife. Now, most men would be elated, maybe even excited, or have other feelings that would sprout in a newlywed. But this is not really what Shidou Itsuka is currently feeling.

If anything, there was a mixture of hesitancy and guilt, as well as a soothing sense of calm and relief. He loves Rinne, he loves his wife, and that would never change. But then, there is also another dilemma. The fact remains that Shidou, over the past two years and then some, carefully thinking things over and developing strong bonds while asking for some needed advice from others in a discrete manner, ultimately made a fully conscious decision, one that he would not take back and did not regret such a decision, officially married Sona Sitri. Of course, a secret in this case due to many valid concerns, many of which he definitely agreed with.

And now, currently, he was sitting on the bed and watching the rays of the sun touching upon the planet. It almost felt like one is watching a kind of 3-D painting, and yet what is happening is a very real experience. Not too bright and not too dark either.

He had recently changed his clothes, from a bridegroom's clothes to his regular clothes that are reminiscent of his past life. A dark blue jacket and a black shirt, but of course followed by a pair of grey short pants that touches the knees, and his feet now have a pair of dark blue slippers on. And he had just taken a quick shower before sitting on the bed.

Thinking about it now, this was officially the start of their honeymoon, a very long one especially if you have a time machine like the TARDIS. In this case, a well-deserved break after...well, everything. For over two years and then some, as Kamen Rider Black and eventually as Kamen Rider Black RX, Shidou can now be considered to have a lot more personal experiences on his belt in dealing with all kinds of evil, all kinds of people, in many kinds of situations that would leave many people sick to their stomach, and that's of course counting the more than a hundred years of being stuck in the War as well. The Doctor had volunteered in advance that he would be the quote-on-quote driver of their honeymoon. If Shidou were to think about it, he and his wife essentially became companions at this point. Some part of Shidou worried a little bit if only because of the general track record of anything relating to do with the Doctor and with marriage throughout the several millenniums of the former's life, but he digress.

Speaking of the Doctor, last he recalled, he was still busy dealing with the control console and was conducting a thorough recheck on the engines, so they are gonna be stuck drifting here in this specific time zone and inter-universal coordinates for the time being. Not that he could complain about it since he gets to experience such a beautiful sight from the window. And of course, Shidou wouldn't have to worry about his and his newly wedded wife's privacy being intruded. But then, that's one problem, and then there's another problem.

Inevitably, it's gonna be brought up at some point and he ultimately realized that he cannot skirt the issue any longer. The issues about...the more intimate aspects between himself and Sona that would be explored at this point in their life. That was the major problem that he would need to face. He was a married man once again after all, and all of the consequences that fully entailed. Kissing is one thing, and he and Sona had done that plenty of times, and some of which may have involved them making out a bit before eventually stopping themselves from continuing further than that. But...this one is another matter. There was a kind of general awkwardness to this that would probably be felt by someone who has even yet tried to do it and he could imagine it in similar cases with first-timers.

What should I do from here on out? Shidou asks.

He was eventually taking something from his shirt pocket. A wedding picture. One that the Doctor, back when he had a different face than the one he currently knows now, had taken after travelling back to a precise point in the deep past and managed to snatch it with discrete methods before eventually returning back and giving it to him as a Christmas present. But of course, Shidou was taking another photo out of his shirt pocket. It was of course none other than the most recent one, the one between himself and Sona Sitri, still wearing her bridal dress and the bouquet of flowers.

When comparing pictures, the tone felt rather different in nature, and yet, the same kind of love, genuine and unwavering, was still there. Now, he had two women that he loved now. The woman from before, his first wife, the woman he could never forget and tries his utmost to honor her memory even long after she is gone, Rinne Sonogami. And then, the woman that he was with right now, the woman who supported him through the dark years, the woman that he owed so much, his second wife, Sona Sitri. He loved them both and keeps them both close to his heart.

A few minutes later, he simply put both pictures somewhere in a nearby drawer, scooting over with a hop on the side of the bed, and pulled the handle gently and close it. Then he remained silent as he continued to stare up into the stars. Oh, and did he forget to mention that there was a perpendicular planet that was also encircling around and the sun's rays touch upon the atmosphere of the planet too? Of course, there was the bright blue gas giant that was nearby. The Earth-like planet was merely a moon in this case. An Earth-like habitable extrasolar moon which is called Pandora. The gas giant in question was called Polyphemus.

This part of the Alpha Centauri System has quite a history, as much as Shidou could remember from the history lessons. It was one of those cases where humanity was clearly on the wrong side. Because down on that Earth-like planet, eventually, a few hundred years from now, humanity, or more specifically in this case, the Resources Development Administration (RDA), considered in the history of this universe to be the largest single non-governmental organization in human space, would eventually try to take the planet for themselves in a more...shadier kind of way to put things mildly.

Well, that's what it was supposed to happen in part, but then, that was the original timeline, before the War. During the War, the Doctor, when he had a different face that he didn't like to talk about for the most part, for it was the face that rejected the name of the Doctor and the face that was actually the first face that Shidou would encounter during the War, once made a subtle interference in the timeline in a form of a side quest that may not really have any bearing at all in the War due to the insignificance of it. He essentially took the head off the snake before most of everything else could unfold and made sure to keep the peoples of Earth and the Navi in relative terms of peace. The Doctor of War indeed. And this was the timeline that ultimately solidified once things got turned back to more normal conditions in the Multiverse. The RDA themselves would probably not be a problem either since the Doctor had managed to pull out a lot of blacklist files concerning them. Safe to say, they would never have quite the same power as they used to be, or really, not have much power left after all is said and done.

So things became a bit different. Whether that's good or bad would basically be up to whoever you ask. But then again, Shidou thought, that's a problem with the War in general. Many changes tend to stick in the long run, even to the point of being permanent and unchanging. ...And this is him simply diverting his thoughts to a more preferable topic instead of the inevitable present situation.

"...Shidou."

A soft, soothing voice would be heard from his sensitive ears as his face turns left. He finds a modest-looking Sona Sitri, having already changed from her bridal outfit and currently wearing a simple white shirt with dark violet lines and a dark violet long skirt that touches the knees. And with the rays of the sun and with the added benefit of having come out of the shower, it made her appearance seem a bit too spectacularly stunning, enough that Shidou felt that he may feel his breath drawn away. Along of course with a gulp from his throat.

There really was no denying that Sona was very beautiful. In each situation, Shidou felt that her kind of beauty seems to evoke a particular sense of reminiscence and comfort in him. It made his heart ache and a spark of flames seem to engulf it with every beating it took. And of course, there was the settled confliction within him as memories of past conversations would roll within his mind.

Shidou smiled, covering up his inner turmoil, although he knew it would be futile since those violet entrancing eyes were more than capable of spotting a hint of subtlety. He supposes that one could also chalk up to the fact that he was quite a terrible liar sometimes even when he is quite good at keeping personal secrets. But in this case, he vowed a long time ago that he would never lie to Sona nor keep any secrets from her. They say that honesty is the best path when it came to a relationship, and it more or less holds true. By being completely honest, it worked out for them in the long run and their amicable friendship turned into something much deeper, much more real, something that he never thought that he would ever feel again with another woman besides his first love. He never really thought that things would come to this. By the time Sona draws near, she would sit down beside him and touch him gently on the shoulder.

"How are you feeling right now?" She would ask, direct but empathetic.

Shidou's smile turns a bit dim as he looks out the window to his frontal vision. "...Apart from simply staring at Pandora and Polyphemus for the last few minutes, I'm just...just thinking about us...and how we go about things from here on out."

Sona, being sharper when it came to such subtleties, would slightly widen a bit due to the delicate care of this kind of discussion. She places her left hand on the sides of her glasses while making a hesitant expression. "Oh...yes, I suppose that's true. We are officially married now after all...after more than two years."

"And well...can I be honest...?" Shidou's eyes turn to Sona's eyes. "...I...You should know that I never regretted this decision...of marrying you, of taking you as my wife, and of sealing it with a kiss to prove such an act. But..." His eyes lowered a bit. "...I...I still..."

Sona, showing an understanding expression, smiled softly as her hand now touches his left face. "You still love your wife, the wife before me."

"...Yes," Shidou nodded with a grimaced expression.

"Shidou, that is not a bad thing," Sona reassured as she caresses her husband's face. Clearly, even now, he was still undergoing a few dilemmas. "It only meant that the love you have for her was real and genuine. In fact, it's quite an admirable quality to have, something that seems like a rarity by personal experience."

"But what about you?" Shidou asked, concerned. "Some part of me felt like...like..."

As Shidou couldn't finish the sentence, Sona would finish it for him with a soft smile. "If you are worried about how this may not be fair at all to me for even thinking about your wife from before when you already have me now, then let me tell you now that you do not worry about such things. Shidou, for the past two years and over the many discussions that we have had, I have had to deeply reflect upon our relationship and how it goes from both of our backgrounds and thus eventually lead to the choice of myself to fully acknowledge to marry you as my husband. Since I knew you, I knew that you are a person that deeply cared about the woman you gave your heart to. And..."

Sona's face would lower a bit and smiled softly. "...And I've already said this before, but I, in good conscience, cannot replace her in your heart."

"And you don't and you never have too," Shidou reassured as his left hand touches her caressing her right hand. His eyes were serious. "You are your own person, and Rinne is Rinne. I cannot compare between you two nor can I see you as another replacement to drown my sorrow. You are so much better than that and deserve to be treated as not somebody to be a replacement, but as someone who could stand by my side, someone that I considered to be closer to me than anyone else, someone that I could confide to when I needed it the most. You gave me the strength that I needed to carry on even in spite of my many bundle of issues, to keep pushing forward even if everything seem bleak, to keep myself from falling down the rabbit hole. And I'm grateful for everything you've done for me."

And then, there was silence. And then, a soft smile came from Sona's lips that uttered. "And I'm grateful to you as well. You've also supported me in your own ways and you respected me more than enough as a person, for that, I'm truly grateful. But then," A hint of concern was seen in Sona's smiling face. "I also feel that this particular problem that we are currently discussing isn't just about loving yet another woman, which leads me back to the subtleties."

"We are married after all," Shidou smiled softly, with a hint of sadness and guilt. "But...considering what married couples actually do, and seeing as this is basically our wedding night, well..."

"Yes, you are worried about that part," Sona muttered softly with a sad smile, already knowing what her husband would have in mind. "For what is worth, I have never really done that kind of thing with anyone...up until now..."

"...Yeah, I know...but..." Shidou muttered with a bitter sense of guilt. "That would also apply to me as well, seeing as I never even got a chance to actually do it with Rinne due to the lack of time."

"Ah...I see..." Sona looks rather bashful a bit, turning her head a bit before looking at her husband again with a hint of understanding. And there was a certain level of guilt as well. "You are still worried that you may be betraying your wife from before by even attempting to do something with me?"

Shidou could only nod in a sober kind of silence. "I know we've already discussed something like this a lot, and I've asked plenty of advice from other people about it, but even with these kinds of reassurances, it just felt...just felt...very painful for me to consider...to let this loose...and with you to whom I respect and admire deeply, I feel like I may be a bit unfair to you or even unfair to Rinne for thinking something like this."

Sona shakes her head. "No, you're not being unfair. If anything, I would say that you are a very considerate person who does not just do something without thinking it over. It's one of your more endearingly admirable traits."

"Being kind then..." Shidou muttered softly as he looks at her eyes, and his heart could not help but feel drawn to these eyes that sparkle with a hue of violet. "...That's what Rinne would say to me as well..."

"...And I would agree," Sona softly muttered.

And both of them would simply stare at each other in silence, with both of their eyes locked on. Their breaths seem synchronized at the moment, and they seem to speak through their eyes and other expressions. They felt drawn to one another by instinct. Shidou felt a kind of coldness that needed a bit of warmth and the woman that was right beside him, caressing his cheek, and would seem to be magnetically attractive in its own way. His heart felt like a tug of war. A kind of respect and guilt bubbling up from the inside. Was this right? Should he make the first move?

And then, his eyes felt drawn to those lips that were mesmerizing and tempting. He did not know what to do in this situation. Give him a situation where he would fight villains every day of the week, he would do it. Give him a situation about school work and assignments, or even studying for exams, he would do it. But then, this was a different kind of situation that was now right here and now.

In light of the circumstances, both Shidou and Sona agreed in the past to acknowledge their own personal boundaries and to save their acts of pure intimacy for when they eventually make it official. And they kept that resolution out of a desire to not put pressure on one another, especially with regard to Shidou's personal issues, and to understand the current lives that they both lead.

Now they were married for real, and both could not help but feel their feelings and their instincts drew to one another, as if the gates would finally let them pass. And time felt so very slow to them. And then...as their faces would draw near...their lips touch, forming a spark that erupted from within their minds and their hearts felt like skipping a beat. And as they felt their moving lips and the cuddling amorous sensation, they felt their thoughts and simply let go.

"("Sorry...Rinne...")" A thought occurred to Shidou as his face felt like he was being pulled by gravity towards the woman who was also drawing near.

And their bodies slowly draw near as they felt their breath joining together. Sona would wrap her arms instinctively around Shidou's shoulders. Shidou would place both of his hands on her waist. And with a light moan and heavy breaths, they each touch and part with soft vacuum sounds, savoring every moment as their heads swayed. And their positions would change slowly as Shidou would gently squeeze Sona's waist, causing her to draw near to Shidou and would sit on his lap while continuing their interior dialogue. They were content to simply take to this position, still getting used to it as their mouths were asking permission to enter, and they were given as the kisses turn very passionate and stimulating.

And then, Shidou, while kissing Sona, made the first move as he touches the sides of her shirt and removed it, with Sona raising her shoulders to make things easier before putting them back near his neck, and now, her skin was exposed, and the only thing that remained was her white bra that holds both of her peaks together, and her peaks were, while not as well endowed as the rest of her fellow devils', was quite accommodating, or even alluringly tempting. And Shidou could not help but add a few kisses in between towards the peaks and the neckline, making Sona moan and groan with a pleasurable kind of feeling. And then, Sona, as she was kissing Shidou, would do the same as she would remove all of the buttons of his shirt which would expose his toned muscular skin that made her feel a bit hungry as her mouth would lead her to kiss those tonal parts, making Shidou groan and gritting his teeth as he could feel the whispering breath that was making his chest a bit heavy. At the same time, Shidou would remove her skirt as it fell to the floor, with the only thing seen being her dark violet panties, and he would also remove her bra, unclipping it from the back.

And they were continuing their lip service as their hearts grew and their thoughts were one as they now further explore their skin. All they now thought at this moment was the one or the other, and the feelings, the emotions, and everything that they have seemed to come together and release like a never-ending wave that washes in the metaphorical sea shore as the dim light of the sun compliments their appearance. And as they explored one another, they would share the guilt, the pain, and everything else with each kiss that came like a blow of wind that shivered down their spines. And now...as Sona would pick a light peck to the lips as a final touch, she would eventually lower herself down to the floor, careful to make her step. Eventually, as she was now in position, she would use her delicate hands to remove the pair of pants, removing it as it fell to the floor, with the only thing being seen was his white underwear.

And now, there was a bit of hesitation on Sona's part as her eyes turn towards those amber-brown eyes that were drawn to hers. What she was essentially about to be attempting...it felt...quite weird in a sense. But nevertheless, a part of her could not help but be curious, and that was one of her specific traits, as she felt allured to what was down there, while her throat seem to gulp. Overall, she felt quite...awkward and unsure. With her hesitant expression, she slowly removes the underwear and slowly sees her husband's more private section for the very first time, something that she would see for the first time as her heart felt like skipping more beats.

How does one actually describe this kind of situation? She could not say. Too many feelings were slowly making their way around her mind and heart. Now what? That's the question. She could not just sit there and stare at it forever, but there was a part of her that felt hesitant. And so, the only thing she did was look into the eyes of the man she loved. And that man looked conflicted and hesitant as well, which in one sense relieved Sona since it felt like she was not alone in this. But then, they were always together in everything. And with an expression like this on his face, she can guess just what this was, and it was something that she could not hold her husband against.

And so, Sona took a deep breath, more than a few times as she held the heir with a certain manner of grace. And the touch was a bit soft, rather warm, and would bring her a kind of fuzzy feeling. And she slowly, while simultaneously looking at the eyes of the man, would draw her mouth near to the heir and can already smell a kind of salty and amorous smell. It made her hesitant for a bit as the sense of smell took over, and then, she felt like her mouth was feeling dry. And...she would slowly draw near...and after one final look of trust that connect them both...would slowly kiss the tip...before softly kissing it and licking the sides a few times sends the husband gritting his teeth as he felt a kind of vibration...and then she slowly draws her mouth to a close...and bring it in...

"...Grrrrrm."

"...Hmmm."

...And Sona could taste the bitter saltiness as she slowly continued while keeping in mind her teeth. For both parties, it does feel awkward and there was a slowly consuming thought of pleasure, and there was also an outpouring of guilt as memories seem to haunt them both. Shidou, putting both of his hands on the bed and somewhat gripping the sheet, would grit his teeth as he felt mixed signals from his mind and from his heart as the euphoric physical sensation. He could honestly not deny that he was finding a sense of pleasure, seeing this woman now getting down on her knees, and in spite of the general awkwardness, would take his own prized possession into their mouth and continued to contract the muscles of her lip and mouth just for it, feeling the whispering and howling breaths. Shidou raises his face upwards and he would see the night sky above and the twinkling stars that never lost their shine.

Even now, conflicting feelings arose. This was now officially his first time doing it with someone else. Someone who wasn't Rinne... Would he even be forgiven for something like this? Yes, he thought about it, as carefully as he could before things lead to this point. He did not regret marrying the woman who was doing this kind of thing with him. But still...that did not mean he wouldn't feel this kind of guilt...

"...Grrrrrm."

"...Hmmm."

He felt his frustrated feelings, feeling as if he was unfair, because even now, his thoughts about Rinne were still there and could not help but turn there. But his thoughts were also turning to Sona who was making him feel relaxed and soothing, with her life-giving breath granting him what felt like...peace...

And even as he looks into her face which was groaning a bit, it felt warm, it felt wet, like he was floating at the sea. His eyes were still looking at this woman with respect while making sure to keep sitting properly in order to accommodate the already exasperating situation they both find themselves in since this was essentially their first time doing it together. Her mouth was quite slow as if trying to savor the taste that made her feel like her mind was going blank. She felt like her mind seem adrift somewhere else as she continues on and on. In fact, it seems to her to be going on for hours. And in those same hours, she knew by instinct that Shidou was definitely holding back as if to accommodate her and her mouth and also in order to save it all for later.

Sona wanted Shidou to relax from his inner turmoil that she already knew by heart. It was why she even attempted this kind of tactic. Never before she could have imagined herself doing something like this with another person. And yet, here she is doing this with someone, and it was someone that she fully trusted with all of her heart. But of course, even she was not spared of the guilt that worms through inside her. That, at this very moment, right now, if one were to flip and twist the perspective a bit, she seem to be stealing someone's man. And it would also leave somewhat of a bad taste in her mouth that still continues to feel the soft skin that lay on the surface of the platform which just emphasizes just how weird this position was.

And in the next moment, Shidou would gently grab Sona's face, making her look into his eyes which were turning into a spark of pale yellow while Sona's eyes were turning a bit violet. Both seem very thirsty as they both move forward and kissed each other, making them groan a bit. And Shidou could taste the bitter aftertaste that was there. As they release their mouth-to-mouth resuscitation from each other, both Shidou and Sona would stare at one another. And then, Shidou would lower his eyes down before instinctively looking at Sona, who nodded with an open mouth that was catching breath and thirst upon seeing him look down.

And with his wife's permission, Shidou would put his hands towards her waist and would slowly remove her panties as they dropped from the floor. Like with Sona, Shidou could not see the lower region for the first time, which made him very conscious and his heart felt like it was leaping because of how close they now were and the logical consequences for such a thing. They were just right there, and yet, Shidou feels hesitant because considering that this was the first time they are actually doing this.

"...Sona," Shidou muttered with a concerned look in his eye.

"...I know," Sona muttered softly, looking at him with trust.

And then, they both made a simple passionate kiss that made them embrace one another as they both felt their chest coming together and the intimating parts softly collide but not go in, grinding between them, making the underground hardening even more so. After the kiss, they slowly move their faces away...and then they would get into a more comfortable position. Shidou was straightening his back while sitting in proper posture while he can feel the arms that were wrapped around him and the hands that were touching his back. And Sona would slowly lift herself up while getting into position. Nice and easy...

"...Ah..."

Sona's eyes would widen as she felt something very foreign that was touching her from the tip. It made her twitch a bit, and she could feel the wet surface of the tip. Shidou would gasp a bit as well as he felt a kind of electric shock that sparked from his nerves that transmitted from lower down and made the underground twitch. And then, she slowly dove deeper as her hands were gripping the husband's back, and the more she did so, the more she gritted her teeth as she felt some kind of mixture between a little hurt and pleasure, but mostly pleasure. And Shidou was gritting his teeth as well, groaning as he felt something warm from underneath. He felt like he was deep inside something and his heartbeat was increasing. by the minute.

"...Ah...Ah...Ah..."

And they went slower and deeper. Now they were one and the two were widening their eyes as their breaths felt synchronized at the precise moment, and both were gritting their teeth. And afterward, Sona would slowly remove her glasses while keeping her position and breathing steady. She carries her glasses in her left hand, and Shidou, being accommodating, would put the glasses somewhere on top of the nearby desk to his position.

Now they were fully connected as one and Shidou would look into the face of Sona Sitri whose eyes were no longer obscured by her glasses. It now revealed a face whose eyes flashed with a heated interest and intensity that complimented the light of the horizon from the window, and he can feel the delicate hands wrapped around his neck. And they mostly stare at each other, with their eyes locked on as they get used to the sitting position they now find themselves in.

"...Sona..." Shidou muttered softly as he was panting.

"...Shidou...I love you..." Sona muttered softly as she wanted.

"...I love you too, Sona," Shidou spoke with an honest tone as his eyes focused only on what was right in front of him.

"...Please...want me...Shidou...right now..." Sona muttered softly of her a little selfish request as she could not help but say it for her husband, and with her hands placed to his cheeks.

"...I...I want you, Sona, right now..." Shidou genuinely said. It felt like his mixture of emotions would swirl as he cannot help but focus on his wife more.

As they feel their underground joined like a pair of train tracks and just even a movement sends shivers down their nerves that sparked like electrical currents, their minds now felt drawn to each other, and all they ever wanted right now, at this very moment, was each other. Shidou was now Sona's. Sona was now Shidou's. And they slowly savored this particular moment, trying to ease their positions.

And then...

"...Hmmm."

They took the first step as Sona and Shidou slowly move. Sona would slowly rise up and go down, while Shidou would use his hips to come along and join her movements. And both groan with a mix of pleasure and guilt and other complicated feelings. For on this night, they were all there is. Nothing else seems to matter. Now it was their time.

"("Sorry...Rinne...But...right now...I love Sona too...")" Shidou thought with a sober thought as he felt his instinctual conduct being warmed by the bittersweet entrance of the womb. His breath was panting heavily as his mouth was wide open in order to catch his breath.

And thus, a grind comes again, and again, and again, up and down. They were simply content to take things slow and show their love for one another, expressing it deeply and profoundly. They would savor particular this moment and picture it in their minds that seem to be at a constant adrenaline. As Shidou felt the slow constant thrusts, he would place both of his hands on Sona's waist and gently massaged it a bit, making Sona give a moaning cry as her face turned to a hungrier look. They both kissed passionately under the pale brightness of the sun and the twinkling of the stars. They kissed as they moved. They were close as they hug. They seem to prefer this kind of position a lot, making it stick for so many minutes that would pass by.

How much has it passed since they have been doing it? Seconds? Minutes? Hours? And they never seem to grow tired despite their heavy synchronized breaths that were felt from the hair of their skins. That was kind of the benefit between an enhanced cyborg and a former human, and a devil. Stamina tends to be of a non-concern which meant that they are more than free to have a bit of exercise that the average human may not be able to hold out from.

The deepest embrace was felt from their chest as their mouths joined and locked on to one another, refusing to let go. A hard thrust, both up and down, showed a thrilling experience that was now slowly budding up from inside them. Both man and woman were swaying to the rhythm and refused to let go.

I don't want to let this woman go, Shidou thought as his movements swayed from his hips, embracing Sona and feeling her body heat and how pleasurable it was to feel her peaks land on to his chest. And he never stopped his kisses each showed a particular meaning of raw desire. With every thrust, Shidou wanted nothing more now than for this woman to be his. And he would drive out all of his frustrations, all of his fears, and every bit of his concerns towards this woman, as his breath lay with heavy panting and with the tongue-tied twisters.

I don't want to let this man go, Sona thought as she moved up and down slowly but surely, embracing Shidou and feeling her peaks bounce off towards her husband's muscular overtones. As a circulation of blood flowed like a rush hour, so did she feel the constant feeling of guilt and remorse, as well as raw desire and pleasure intermingled from within her. She is more than aware of just how much her husband loved his wife, and she could not fault him for it. She in fact did not desire that such pure love would be expunged. At the same time, a part of her could not help but feel some sense of insecurity. She shouldn't of course because she knew just how much her husband loved her and treated her with the same amount of respect. But still...she wanted Shidou to look at her, to desire her, to be with her, in her, and through her.

And as they kept going, with both of their hips thrusting upon one another like there was no tomorrow, some of Sona's thoughts drawback to a particular wedding picture that her husband had shown to her which was right around the month of December. It was the wedding photo that her husband had with his first wife, one that had been given by the Doctor as a Christmas gift, the most precious and rare of its kind because of how little too impossible it was for something like that to be retrieved. When she first saw it, already she could tell just how much her husband loved his first wife. She was in fact quite beautiful. The light pink hair and those soft light brown eyes that spoke of a mixture of feelings, both happy and sad.

The picture in a way was quite tragic in hindsight. She thought, so this was the woman that her husband loved. She could at least tell why that was the case. Just from the picture, Sona already had gotten the idea that she was a saint by nature, a very kind and compassionate woman, just as much as Shidou described her. Sona has a way of reading between the lines even with the very few details that she could be provided with.

And at the same time, both Shidou and Sona, as they gasp for breath, felt like there were certain tears that came from their eyes, each and in their own way. A mixture of conflicting feelings swirled around them as they raise high and low, not stopping even as their tears leaked and the salty taste that they would lick from their mouth as bittersweet kisses launch on them with no reprieve.

"("I'm...truly sorry...Sonogami...Rinne...I...I don't...wished...to dishonor...the love you have...But I...I really loved...your husband...too...")" Sona thought with guilt as her body racked with absolute and delightful pleasure, and her eyes were glowing brighter.

And such guilt was a drive that made them slowly go to a medium speed and with lip locks all the way. They were now getting the hang of things. And with each interval, Shidou would kiss her right and left nipples, sucking them like he was a thirsty infant in need of nourishment, making Sona gasp a bit in exhilaration and slight happiness, since that part of her anatomy had always been a sore spot for her.

This was their very first time doing it, and already were both parties enjoying it as they vent out everything they have ever had for years. Now, they were free to reign themselves upon their passions as they stick themselves together. They were inseparable now and no one could ever separate them. They were a true family now. The man was the husband. The woman was the wife.

"Ah! Ah! Ah! Ah! Ah! Ah! Ah! Ah!"

And eventually, they would go quite fast. And it seem like the husband's and the wife's aura were brightening dimly with a hue of white, lighting up this dimly dark bedroom, with the only light being found on the window. And their eyes glowed on each other, fixated on each other. Sona's expression was now of a happy and burning desire, as her silent mouth would speak for itself, showing the pleasurable experience through her face, one that would embolden Shidou to maintain a more balanced but faster motion. And their insides squeezed tightly. And eventually, the tip hit the cervix part of the woman, making her moan a bit loud but not too loud, as at the same time, there followed one deep kiss after another.

I'll never let you go, both Shidou and Sona would silently think to themselves. And they could not even think of sharing one or the other with other people. They were their own. They were theirs alone.

Something seems to be happening to them. It's like...both of their souls felt deeply connected at that moment. And the Kingstone from within Shidou appeared to be reacting to Sona due to both her and Shidou sporting such dim bright hues of light. All of their five senses felt like they were one. They could feel everything about them. It almost felt like they were one single body, and yet that was not so. They were two persons forming the conjugal act. They were espousing their love through their actions.

"I love you...Sona..." Shidou muttered as he continued to thrust with heavy panting. Sona paid close attention as she was also panting heavily. "I love you...right here...right now..."

"...Me too...I...love you...Make me yours..." Sona muttered with a heavy panting breath.

And Shidou, as he kissed Sona deeply, tried to double his efforts as he and Sona were drawing hard and fast, and each attack felt even deeper than before.

"HMPH! HMPH! HMPH! HMPH! HMPH! HMPH! HMPH! HMPH! HMPH! HMPH! HMPH! HMPH! HMPH! HMPH! HMPH! HMPH! HMPH! HMPH! HMPH! HMPH!"

This pure white skin, that bob cut hairstyle that made her a noble dame, that strict persona that hides a more accommodating side, the modest figure, all of it was his, Shidou thought as he continued his excited depths, releasing his frustrations out, and...he even felt a kind of calm within his heart...more than he had before...was this the benefits of this kind of act? To become one, pour out one's frustrations, one's concerns, one's many thoughts, and turn it into a sharply inducing drive that essentially makes you thrust yourself harder upon this woman who had given him the help that he needed.

The dark blue hair, that handsome but sorrowful and kind face, that dependable personality even in the darkest of moments, the man who continued to give his all and to give her the respect she deserved, the man who was always so very sweet, it was something Sona desired the most. The man was hers and no one else. And she, with her own frustrations, continued to muster with every thrust that showcase her rawest desires and the deepest guilt, as if silently apologizing to the loved one of her husband that had passed away. A light feeling of her heart had asked for forgiveness while she at the same time could not help but feel the love and pleasure of this man.

"You...You are...mine...Sona...Am...I...being...too selfish...about that..." Shidou muttered, gritting his teeth and deeply embracing Sona while still moving his backside. He can still feel the smooth back with his own two hands, both gentle, and felt the desire to lightly massage it.

"...Hmm...No...Hmph...No...you're not..." Sona panted as her eyes glowed with excitement.

"...Then...you're really...mine...then..." Shidou muttered softly.

"...Yes...Hmph...I'm yours...Hmph...Make me yours..." Sona said as she groaned, with her hands gripping her husband's hair.

And they still put themselves under a lock and key upon the bittersweetness of their mouth and tears. It felt like their minds were one at that particular moment. And the sweat that accumulated from their skins as if they were working out felt more intensive and grounding. And even with the guilt that joins them together, the feelings turn to something else, and it feeds off the passion and lovemaking of the situation.

...And then.

"HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM!"

...One single release from the husband and from the wife as both of their lips locked on to each other. It felt like multiple fireworks had gone off. And then, both husband and wife separate their mouths, with their breath felt from each other's faces that were now looking at each other with the purest feeling of satisfaction, and the aura grew much brighter like sparkles before it would slowly recede. And as they got their breath back...

"Hmmm..."

...They kissed again, in a softer and finishing tone, with a few moans that came forth from their mouths. From the inside were the scattered and conjoined traces of their love that form from the intensity of their feelings. And they were more content to stay in this kind of position. And they can feel both of their heartbeats as they lay each other's chest bare on their front.

And now, there was nothing that was felt except peace and calmness.

And as the few minutes passed, they would slowly begin to shift their position on the bed, still conjoined to one another. Eventually, they lay down on the bed and take up a more appropriate position. Each of them was now in a deeper embrace, and their griding halts were still connected with one another. And even as they lay to rest, they still continued their love for each other, feeling each kiss like the spark of a little flame that seemingly never goes away, no matter how many things would try to put it out.

And they still continued their soft kisses until...both of them would stop to look at one another and spoke in an honest tone.

"I love you, Itsuka Shidou," Sona spoke.

"I love you, Sona Sitri," Shidou spoke.

And then, they made a deeper kiss that added to the finishing touch. And of course, afterwards, they were simply content to be in one another's embrace as they both fell into a deep form of sleep. And for what was worth, Shidou Itsuka, Kamen Rider Black RX, never had any form of nightmares in this sleep. Now he has found a sense of peace that he never felt before in such a long time.

'The Things That I Want' by Shidou Itsuka: A breath of fresh air. A warm glass of milk and cookies. For the rising sun to shine. To get some needed relief. To make up for past sins. To keep moving forward. And right now, even as he missed his wife and daughter that are no longer here, more than anything, he wanted Sona Sitri, the woman that was now under his embrace, the woman who would rebuild him back together, and maybe someday...even start another family with her.

He loves Sona Sitri, now and forever, and nothing would change this, no matter how far apart in space and now matter how distant was time.


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