KAGEYAMA

"I don't know how to explain it," he states before eating more pizza. "It's seems to be this unspoken bond between you guys."

"We always had that," I reply.

"I know but this is different," he replies. "Not a bad thing. I think it's pretty cool you guys are still super close." I stare at him wondering if he is thinking about Noya. "I'll let you get to it." He quickly leaves before I can even say anything else. I wonder if he is taking Noya not coming back hard. Noya is still travelling the world. We thought he just wanted to live a little but now it is clear he is running from something. He doesn't want to be here in Japan. I wasn't super close to Noya so I definitely won't be asking. I head back upstairs sitting our plates down.

"I'm going to go wash up and then we can get started," I reply.

"I am more than ready," says Hinata waving his hands. "I poured our drinks already."

"Thanks," I reply grabbing my bag. I head into the bathroom still in awe. It is huge to me. Since I am sharing it with two other people that is very helpful. The bathroom has a tub and a separate shower thank god. I know some places tend to have one or the other. The owner chooses a modest oak color. The tile is brown and beige giving the bathroom nice earth tone colors. I prefer this over white. Any color over white! I might add a plant in here. I get washed up satisfied that I smell fresh and clean. I certainly don't want to smell sleeping next to Hinata. I head back into the room.

"You didn't change your clothes," states Hinata.

"Neither did you," I point out. I remove my shirt as Hinata stands up removing his. We are stealing little glances at each other acting like children. I didn't get to see much of him but that is for the best. We get dressed in our clothes sitting on the futon. Hinata takes a bite of his pizza before sipping his liquor.

"God, I hope I won't pay for this tomorrow," he says.

"I'm sure you will be fine," I reply. "I won't let you go to far." I smile lazily at him as I sip from my own cup. I take a bite of pizza happy that it is still warm.

"You know Asahi is bi right," he says. I almost spit out my drink. He should really warn me before saying something like that.

"Are you serious?" I ask. "I mean how do you know?"

"I don't know," he replies. "Didn't you notice how he purposely withheld what guest is coming over? I mean he doesn't have to tell us the person but noticed he didn't say he or she. I am thinking it is a he."

"Wow…." I reply. "I would have never thought that. I mean it's none of my business."

"None of mine either but something I noticed," replied Hinata. "I'm actually working on my gaydar and bi-dar." He giggles. "I don't even know if that is a thing."

"You really couldn't tell I was gay?" I inquire.

"No," he replies. "You come off as very straight. I was afraid you would find out about me one day, but it never happened. I never thought anything of you not having a girlfriend since it was that one girl. I also know volleyball is everything to you." I smile.

"Yeah, it is," I reply. "I want to be on the Olympic team so bad. I can't have them finding out that I'm gay." Hinata nods in agreement.

"I can't have them finding out about me either," he replies. "I found a great bar for you to go to by the way."

"Hinata….." I mutter. I go back to eating. "Should we even be doing this if we don't want to be found out."

"Oh, come on," he replies. "We can get in trouble for being there. For all we know we thought it was a regular bar. It will be so much fun! No one is saying you have to fuck the first guy you meet. I want you to be free. See what is like to be around our people."

"Our people?" I question. "You aren't even gay."

"So," he pouts puffing out his chest. "I can be included."

"I guess so," I reply. I don't really care but I remember hearing something about gay people not liking bi people. Hinata is really pushing me going out to this gay bar. I'm not going to lie I really don't feel like doing it. I haven't had sex and I will be damn if I am giving my virginity to a damn stranger. I would like to be in a relationship, but I don't if or when that is going to happen. I'm sure it won't be any time soon.

"What are you thinking about?" asks Hinata.

"Just stuff," I mumble. I clear my throat. "So, uh what did you pick out to watch?"

"Just some of the matches of upcoming teams," he replies. "This will allow us to know what to focus on. Now hear me out. I know it is up to the coach to decide but seriously we should still do our own homework."

"I couldn't agree more but we're drinking," I chuckle.

"Even better!" exclaims Hinata. I laugh as Hinata pulls up the first school I know we are going to be playing. "They have some decent fresh meat I must admit but they are beatable." I chew as I study the screen.

"Is it just me or are they trying to a do a quick attack?" I ask. Hinata drinks from his cup.

"Totally!" he exclaims. "I swear ever since our 1st year doing the quick attack everyone tries to do it." He isn't lying. The quick attack is nothing new in the world of volleyball but someone being able to do this as young as we were at the time was unheard of.

"I guess more teams want a secret attack," I reply.

"Facts," he replies. "As if we would allow them to get better than us." I smirk because we aren't going down without a fight. Hinata and I finish our pizza and alcohol quickly fixing a second cup. Thankfully the food has us good and mellow. Hinata looks so cute with his cheeks all rosy and red. We cut the lights off laying on the futon with the laptop playing some anime he was trying to get me to watch. "Kageyama, what kind of guys do you find attractive?"

"What!" I exclaim turning towards him. I'm laying on my back as Hinata rolls on his side.

"You know you like guys," he replies. "What kind do you like?" I blush deeply.

"I don't know Hinata," I reply.

"Come on," pleas Hinata hitting my shoulder lightly. "I like tall guys with board shoulders. They have to get my sense of humor. Having them understand my passion for volleyball is a plus. For girls I would prefer her to be my height or shorter. I want her to be an excellent cook, the girlie type. Like she has to wear lip gloss or something." I begin to laugh.

"Fucking really," I reply. None of the girls in school took him serious. I don't think he would have been able to pull a cute pretty girl who is a great cook. I am not going to even bring up his height. "Lip gloss."

"Wearing a little makeup is fun," he replies. "I would like for my girlfriend to like wearing it." I blink realizing he said wearing making is fun.

"You wear make up!?" I ask. Hinata smiles but nods his head yes. What the hell. I am shocked but deep down getting turned on. I can see Hinata wearing light makeup. Whatever the hell that means.

"Shhh….don't tell anyone!" he whispers as if someone is going to hear us. "You never told me your type."

"I really don't know," I reply.

"You watch porn," he retorts. "Gay porn. Something has to be helping you get off from the obvious."

"Hinata…" I mutter covering my face. He clears his throat.

"We are best friends," he replies. "We can tell each other anything. I couldn't help but noticed the guy in the video was small."

"He wasn't that short!" I defend dropping my hands from my face. I do like to watch the videos where the guy is short, lean but slender. Them having a bubble butt is plus but not needed. I like watching them cream all over themselves….

"Kageyama….calm down," says Hinata. "You're um…..excited." I glance down seeing my erection. I promptly cover it with a blanket. I didn't think he would see it. Does that mean he was checking out my dick? "I told you, you have a type. What's got you sporting that hard beef stick." I chuckle because he managed to make me feel less embarrassed.

"I like guys who are smaller than me," I explain. "Nice ass, toned body, um kind of cute with a dazzling smile that warms my heart."

"Um," hums Hinata. "You clearly know what you like in looks what about personality?"

"Someone organized such as much myself," I reply. "It is important to me that they are my friend as well as my lover. I want to be able to be around them all the time, the rest of my life." Hinata's eyes become emotional.

"That's beautiful, Tobio," he says causing my eyes to widen. That dazzle in his eye was there as he said my name. Hinata and I will use each other name from time to time.

"Whatever," I mutter shifting trying to get my body to calm down. It's not like I can take care of this hard on right now.

"Not whatever," he replies. "Don't worry we will find someone for you."

"Me?" I question. "I am fine being alone."

"Are you really?" he asks.

"Yes," I reply. "What about you? You seem to want to be in a relationship."

"I do," he replies. "People make love sound so great, and I really want that. It's not something that should be rushed."

"Yeah," I reply. "Yet you are pushing me."

"It's different," says Hinata. "I want you to be comfortable. It's going to be hard to get a guy when you are acting so scared."

"I am scared!" I admit covering my face. "I don't see how you can do this."

"You will," he replies. "When we go out to the bar. The important part is to be yourself. I will show you how to relax in such an environment. Promise."

"Okay," I reply. Hinata reaches out grabbing my hand and I let him. I could use the comfort. As I drift off to sleep, I realize I know so little about truly being myself. Lucky for me my best friend is here to help me out of my shell.