HINATA
A MONTH LATER
Nothing seems right anymore. No Miya, no Kageyama. I don't even know where to start. I guess with Miya since he led to what happened with Kageyama. I didn't mean to drink that much at all. I wanted to numb my feelings that evening. It's hard to know you are the only one emotionally invested and the other person isn't. I don't know why I believed Miya point of view of me would change. He's a pro volleyball player and can have anyone he wants. Kageyama…..I don't even know where to start. I felt so bad for jumping his bones, well with my mouth at least. I wasn't expecting him to touch me in the way he did. It was amazing. It's slightly fuzzy in some spots but I certainly remember the way he spoke to me, the way he kissed me. How my body trembled with my peak coming down on me hard and fast. My cheeks heat up at the memory.
I'm heading out of the doors at the bookstore. I had a lot of interviews and just accepted a new job recently. Apparently, companies like Kageyama version of my resume. I'm not complaining because I landed me a good position. I never saw myself as receptionist. It's not far from the house at a dentist office. I'm excited to start. Working at the bookstore sucks without Kageyama. It is November with winter in the air. I will be able to afford a car with my new job. That will be nice because it is getting cold as hell out here. Been through worse in high school though. I approach the bike rack seeing that mine is messing.
"What the fuck!" I exclaim. I look around in shock not believing it is really gone. I can't just call Kageyama. He is at work. God I hate that I can't call him easily anymore. I must remember he is in a professional setting. He can't be pull out his phone easily. I hit my fist on the side of my leg as Miya pull up. I watch him roll down the window.
"Hey," he shouts. I just stare at him a minute. What is he doing here? Miya has been texting me here and there, but I wasn't in the mood to talk to him. I'm still not in the mood to talk to him.
"Hey," I reply after a minute.
"Don't look too down," he replies. Miya smirks at me. "I have your bike." I sigh.
"Please give me my bike," I request nicely. "I am tired, and I just want to go home."
"It's chilly out tonight," replies Miya. "I'm sure you could use a lift." He is not wrong. I am use to biking in the cold as that is what I did during high school. Makes great for training as well. "Come on Shoyo. You got me looking like a stalker here."
"Fine," I huff. The cold is the main reason I'm agreeing to this. I walk over opening the door getting inside. It is warm here. I rub my hands together thankful for the heat. Miya begins to drive.
"How you been?" he asks.
"Good," I reply looking out the window.
"I have been trying to reach you," he says slowly.
"I know," I reply. I can tell he surprised but he recovers quickly.
"Seriously Shoyo," he replies. "You're going to act like this over me being with Yaku."
"It's not about you being with Yaku," I reply. "We're not together right. That means I don't report to you. I can speak to you when I feel like it." Miya chuckles.
"Someone is fired up," he replies. "You make valid points I can't argue. I'm surprised Kageyama is letting you walk."
"He isn't," I reply. "He started his new job. I will be starting mine in next week."
"New job?" he questions. "I can't believe you are actually leaving the bookstore."
"Yeah," I reply with a light shrug. "We got to move on at some point."
"Why are you saying we?" he inquiries. "You and Kageyama are two different people."
"We are," I agree. "We both have a lot of similar goals."
"I see," replies Miya. "You know I missed you these last few weeks." I roll my eyes. When he use to say that I would swoon, be excited, over the moon. Now I don't feel that way. "What? You don't believe me?"
"I didn't say anything," I reply. He did this to himself. I would have happily biked home. Miya quiets down making me feel better. He pulls up to the house. I get out of the car quickly. "Thanks for the ride." No need in being rude.
"No problem at all," smirks Miya getting out. He pops the trunk pulling my bike out as Kageyama pulls into the driveway. I watch as Kageyama glances our way. Something tells me he had a bad day. "You want to come over tonight? I'm sure you could use some good action." I feel disgusted looking back at him.
"No," I reply.
"No?" he asks carefully. "I know you haven't had any?" I haven't but that is none of his business. "I know you. I know you are dying for some." I walk over to him grabbing my bike.
"Some things change," I reply. "People change…" Miya stares at me before quickly kissing me. I turn my face out of the kiss.
"What are you doing!" I exclaim. I glance around to see if Kageyama saw but he is long gone. I look back at Miya. "What the fuck was that?"
"I was giving you a taste of what you miss," he replies. I hate the fact that I do miss him. I must remind myself what I feel isn't real. He doesn't care about me at all. I do need some dick. When does self respect come in? For me, that moment is now.
"Um hm," I reply. "I'll see you around."
"Hey, can we hang out sometime?" asks Miya. "We are friends right." I think about what he is saying. I honestly don't know if I can go back. "Shoyo….."
"Yeah, we're cool," I reply. "I have to go."
"Text me okay," he says eagerly. I nod. "Promise."
"I promise," I reply. Miya smiles before getting back into his car. I usually don't break my promises but this time I might have to. I put my bike on the inside of the garage before heading into the house. I see Yamaguchi and Asahi in the kitchen giggling.
"You're not doing it right!" exclaims Yamaguchi.
"Hey guys," I reply making my presence known.
"How was work?" asks Asahi. I walk into the kitchen seeing they are cooking steak.
"It was okay for my last day," I reply. "Why don't you guys ask Kageyama for help? You know he is a meat master."
"Yeah, he didn't seem like he was in a good mood," replies Yamaguchi. "He had that look on his face like when we would lose a game." Oh, that's bad. I only got a quick glance of him earlier.
"I'm going to go check on him," I reply. I jog up the stairs knocking on his room door.
"Come in," says Kageyama. I peak into the room. Kageyama has only unbuttoned his shirt. Damn he looks good. I close the door for privacy. "Hi," he says lowly. His face looks stressed, stern.
"Um hey," I reply staying by the door. "I heard you had a bad day at work." Kageyama removes his shirt completely. I swallow hard thinking maybe I should have taken Miya up on his offer. I shake my head focusing on my friend.
"My manager is a total asshole," he replies. "He steals from the younger people at work. He doesn't know anything about sequel like he should. How the hell is he a manager!"
"That's not cool," I reply walking over to Kageyama. "Don't let that discourage you. Your higher management team will recognize you."
"I don't see how," he replies. "I have fixed two major problems with our clients, and he stole the credit." I grab his hand to comfort him.
"I promise you they will find out," I say confidently, squeezing his hand. "Be yourself. Remember your average is above average." Kageyama stares at me. He leans in kissing me. It feels like it has been forever. I noticed Kageyama hasn't been as hands on lately. It's not a bad thing but it has me appreciating his touch more than ever. I sigh into the kiss because it is always so perfect. Kageyama feels just as eager as his hand slides under my shirt gripping my lower back. Kageyama ditches my lips latching on to the side of my neck. "Haa….." He groans in response as his hand tenses on my back.
"Shoyo….I want to have sex with you tonight," he says surprising me. Before I can form another thought he licks the side of my neck before sucking my flesh between his teeth. I gasp in surprise at his slight aggressive nature. It's different than I'm use to. I can tell he is confident. I moan as he continues to suck on my neck.
"A-are you sure?" I stammer.
"Um hm," he hums with flesh still in his mouth. I moan as his hand begins to travel up and down my back.
"Okay….." I whimper. "I need to shower." Kageyama stops kissing me.
"Can I join you?" he asks. I was not expecting this at all.
"You want to join me?" I ask confused.
"Well yeah," says Kageyama as he begins to unbutton his pants. "I know you have to prep. It's fine." Fine? I barely prep around Miya. "I'm suppose to be learning right." Yeah sex…not that…. I stare at Kageyama.
"Um I'm going to be honest I'm nervous," I reply.
"Nervous?" asks Kageyama. "For what?" He walks over to me grabbing my hand.
"I usually prep alone," I say lowly.
"Do you want to?" asks Kageyama softly. "You can if you want." Kageyama is clearly comfortable with this. I should be too. I smile at him.
"I think I'm fine now," I reply. "Let me grab my shower stuff." I head towards the door.
"Shoyo, my room or yours?" he asks.
"Yours," I reply. "This is your night." Kageyama smiles at me. It looks like he has long forgotten about his bad day at work. I head into my room excited but scared that we are moving forward with this. I mean everything has been fine so far. This is different and I know it. I grab my items before healing into the bathroom. I beat Kageyama there. I turn on the shower adjusting it to a temperature I like. I sigh thinking about Miya. Part of me wants to reach out to him but the other side me knows it is best to move on. We are clearly not on the same page. I hate that deep down that bothers me. My thoughts are interrupted by Kageyama walking into the bathroom. He closes the door locking it. He removes his robe with me turning away.
"Um, I forgot to ask how your last day at the bookstore was?" he asks.
"It was just another day," I replied, stepping into the shower. "They were sad to see me go."
"Of course," replies Kageyama, stepping in behind me. "They are losing their ray of sunshine." I chuckle.
"I don't know about that," I reply.
"Have you been down at work too?" he asks, wetting his washcloth.
"What do you mean?" I ask afraid to face him.
"You seem kind of sad lately," he says slowly. I don't even know what to say. It's true. I don't want to talk to Kageyama about Miya. That would be weird.
"Just thinking about school or whatever," I lied. "Training, school, starting a new job."
"It will be worth it," replies Kageyama. "I'm really enjoying the pay increase. I can't wait for you to enjoy your pay increase too. You can get a car." I chuckle.
"Yeah, that will be sweet," I reply. I can't wait to have a car like Kageyama, Miya, Yamaguchi, and Asahi. They can drive anywhere, go anywhere. The freedom I will be able to experience! Kageyama and I discuss what car I want as we clean up. I don't know a lot about cars, but he does. Kageyama likes looking at cars for fun. I like to wash up twice before focusing on the area that will be getting a lot of attention. I feel myself becoming nervous, but I remind myself it is just Kageyama. I add plenty of soap to my fingers when I feel Kageyama kiss my neck from behind. My eyes close as I lick my lips. This is not the reaction I would usually have. I blame not getting any. I'm more sensitive than I usually would be.
"Let me help you…" he whispers. My eyes open. Help?
"I-I got it," I stammered.
"Do you?" asks Kageyama. "You're shaking?" I glance down at my hand to see it is trembling lightly. Kageyama turns me around. I can feel my cheeks heat up instantly. Kageyama kisses me softly. I feel myself melting as I kiss him back. Kageyama nips at my lip for a moment before passionately taking my mouth once more. I groan as he backs me up against the tile. I have to bend over to prep. I can't do it from this position. I certainly don't mind this making out session in the shower. It is getting me warmed up for our activities this evening. Kageyama spreads my legs as he stares at me. I'm in a state of shock and I can't speak. He rests my left leg on top of his. Is he really….
"Hah….." I moan as Kageyama slides a finger inside of me. I drop my head embarrassed as I become hard immediately. He is cleaning me. I shouldn't be this excited. My body trembles as I struggle to focus my mind. Soon as I lift my head I am greeted by his lips. I sigh into the kiss as his lips are lightly damp from the steam in our shower. Kageyama groans as he kisses me passionately. Oh how I miss his intimate kisses, touches. Kageyama is lighting a fire in me. He begins to pant heavily into the kiss as he continues to stroke me. After a few minutes I forgot what it was we were doing. "Don't forget to check?"
"I did," says Kageyama. I pull out the kiss staring at him. When? My eyes were closed enjoying our kiss. I wasn't sure if he was checking or not. Kageyama kisses my neck almost distracting me once more. Wait a minute….he is way too calm…..has he done this before. Kageyama takes on my stare as he slides two digits in. I gasp for air as my right hand grabs his shoulder. "You're so tight Shoyo…." I feel like I'm becoming dazed as he slowly explores. What would he even know about me being tight. The way his fingers are moving. My body is beginning to tingle.
"T-tobio….." I stammer my voice laced with desire. It's hard for me to think. I haven't had physical sex in weeks. My body is loving every minute of this. "We are s-suppose to be cleaning."
"We are," he replies. "I'm also stretching. Mid as well." I begin rolling my hips staring into his eyes. What is he thinking behind those tense eyes. I watch as his cheeks turn red. Oh Kageyama… He kisses me curling his fingers. My voice squeaks as he touches my spot. He groans. "That was it….."
"What?" I choke out.
"Your prostate," he says lowly. I can hear how aroused he is. Hearing his voice go deep has my dick twitching in anticipation. Kageyama repeats the movement causing me to howl. I grip his shoulder as my hips thrust. I'm riding his fingers blown away by how good this feels. Kageyama is causing me so much pleasure. I didn't think he would be blowing my mind so soon. Kageyama kisses me as I pant into his mouth. His left hand softly touches my damp waist as the water continues to rain over us.
"Ah….." I whimper as he tickles my spot. Kageyama stops kissing me.
"You're going to cum…." he whispers before kissing my neck. Fucking hell Kageyama. My hand grips him tighter as my breath hitches.
"Aaagghhh…..haaa….." I cry out as my climax takes me by surprises. I tremble against the wall, bending my back causing our chest to meet. Kageyama moans, dropping his head resting on my shoulder. His panting is beginning to tickle my neck. I gasp for air as the orgasm flows through me. Been so long since I felt like this. The last time I did was when Kageyama touched me after our outing to the bar. Kageyama slows his fingers to a gradual stop while kissing my neck. "Tobio…." He's so hard right now. I stare at his throbbing erection trying to calm down my inner beast that wants to destroy him.
"Let's rinse off one final time," he replies. Kageyama grabs his washcloth. What the hell just happened. I was so not in control. I am suppose to be helping Kageyama, not the other way around. I grab the washcloth with my mind racing. We finish up in the bathroom before heading to his room. I watch as Kageyama removes his robe. I clear my throat. Some things need to be addressed.
