HINATA
"Tobio, are you okay?" I ask. He just became pale. Kageyama shakes his head blushing.
"I'm fine," he replies. "I am going to check on Keiji."
"For sure," I reply. "I'm going to fix another drink." I know this will be my last one. I should be able to last the rest of the evening buzzed. As I head into the kitchen I hear Bokuto cheering glancing over that way. I guess that means he is winning. Sugawara wonders into the kitchen.
"Hey," he greets. "How is your night going?"
"Great," I reply thinking to how good Kageyama just made me feel. Everytime I think he can't get any better he does. It has been a few weeks since I got some to. The kisses, the touches, the way he worked me…..Sugawara chuckles.
"You are glowing," he says.
"Am I?" I question touching my cheek. Sugawara nods as he pours some hennessy.
"It's not a bad thing," he replies. "It is that season!"
"Yup," I reply going with more whiskey. I hold up my cup as Miya approaches me.
"Shoyo, come with me please," he says grabbing my hand. "Excuse us." I don't even have time to respond as he is pulling me into his room closing the door shut.
"Miya, I don't want to talk," I sigh. I don't want him ruining my mood. I feel relaxed thanks to Kageyama. "I'm fine living my life. You can live yours. It's not a big."
"It is a big deal!" he exclaims. "I have been trying to talk to you and you are ignoring me."
"Look," I reply. "I am not trying to be rude. I don't owe you shit."
"Shoyo I like you," he replies cutting me off. I blink in confusion. Fucking what?
"Wha….." I drone. Miya gives a nervous smile grabbing my hand.
"I like you," he replies confidently. "I was hoping we could give things a try. You know…be in a relationship."
"What about Yaku?" I question. Yaku was all over him this evening, holding hands and everything else.
"I told him I was interested in a relationship with you," he replies. He shifts his eyes. "He left so I don't know how he really feels about it." I am sure he is hurt. Yaku looked like he liked Miya as much as I do.
"I…I don't know what to say," I mutter. I really don't. I didn't see this coming at all. "You want to be with only me?" I know Miya likes to get around. There was a time I use to could see him being with one person, me. Now I don't know. He nods his head yes. "You mean it?"
"I do," he replies.
"No one else?" I ask my eyes watering. I don't want to give him my everything for him to cheat on me.
"No one else," he confirms.
"Then yes," I reply. "I will date you." Miya grins leaning in kissing me. I turn out of the kiss after a moment feeling weird since I just had sex with Kageyama.
"Did you want to stay the night?" he asks wrapping his arm around my waist. "We have a lot of catching up to do." I chuckle.
"I have some things to take care of at home," I reply. Mostly showering. "However I can swing by tomorrow."
"Great," he replies leading me over to his bed. We both sit down. I feel anxious for obvious reasons. "Tell me how you have really been Shoyo. I miss hearing from you." I smile nodding my head. There isn't much to catch him up on. I mostly was into my school work and training. I hear a knock on the door interrupting our conversation. "What?"
"Hinata's people's are ready to go," says twin.
"That's my queue," I say standing up. I reach for my empty cup. I am glad to be leaving. Once I am clean I can truly focus on the conversation at hand.
"Don't worry about that," says Miya. "I'll toss it."
"Um thanks," I reply before heading towards the door. Miya grabs my wrist.
"Shoyo, can I ask you a question?" he says. I chuckle.
"You just did but yeah," I reply.
"Who gave you that hickey?" he inquires. I subcousily place my hand over it.
"Doesn't matter," I reply. "I'm with you." I lean in kissing his cheek.
"You don't want to tell me?" he asks.
"I don't see the point," I reply. "It's nothing serious. I wouldn't want to know about all of your partners." Miya nods in agreement eargerly. Yeah I thought so.
"Sure you don't want to stay the night?" he asks.
"I'm sure," I reply. "I will be back tomorrow." I can't help but smile because he is impatient to see me. It's nice. I walk into the room seeing Kageyama with his keys in hand.
"Kuroo!" exclaims Kenma. "Get up!" Kuroo groans letting me know he drank too much. "See this is why I hate when he drinks."
"It was probably the drinking game," says Bokuto. "Your boy was killing it." Akaashi rolls his eyes as Tsukishima speaks up.
"L-let's go," he slurs. "I'm tired…."
"Tsukki, are you drunk?" I ask in shock. I was with Miya for the rest of the evening so I had no idea he was drinking that much. This is unusual. Tsukishima is self aware. He had to know he was reaching his limit. Tsukishima doesn't like the question moving to the door.
"I'll be downstairs," he says.
"You guys should get him home," replies Miya. He leans down kissing me. "I'll see you tomorrow babe." I blush not use to this new relationship. Miya is being so sweet. Is this what it is like to be in a relationship with him and not friends with benefits.
"Yes," I reply. "I'll text you when I get home." Miya grabs my hand kissing me once more. I smile before turning and heading out the door. I'm the last one in my group into the car. Kageyama had the car running. I open the door getting into the car. "Thanks for waiting."
"Sure," replies Kageyama. I get buckled in as he takes off. Tsukishima is leaned up again the window with his hoodie covering his face.
"What you guys got planned for the rest of the night?" asks Akaashi.
"Not much," I reply. "Just going to shower, probably go to bed."
"Same," replies Kageyama.
"Tobio, did you want to come back to my place?" asks Akaashi.
"I have something I need to handle," he replies. Kageyama sounds so serious. I wonder what it he needs to do.
"Alright, let me know if anything changes," says Akaashi. "I'm glad to have tomorrow off."
"I know it was a rough week for you," replies Kageyama. Akaashi begins to go into how the clients have been picky because of the holidays. I always thought people would be happy during the holidays. You never know though. We pull up to the house with Tsukishima stumbling up the steps.
"Did you need some help?" I ask.
"No!" he slurs. Tsukishima can barely unlock the door. He keeps trying to put his key in the lock and is missing the small hole. I step up unlocking the door.
"Are you sure you can't come by tonight?" asks Akaashi in a sweet voice. I glance over my shoulder seeing Akaashi grab Kageyama hands. He really wants some time with Kageyama. He may want to reconsider whatever it is he has to do. I'm sure he can do both or it can wait. Let me mind my business. I head inside to give them some privacy. I walk upstairs heading into my room. Tsukishima room is dark. I bet he crashed on that bed not even taking his clothes off. I turn on my side table lamp not wanting a lot of lighting. I remove my clothes tossing them in the dirty bin. A knock comes to my door as I put on my robe.
"Yeah Tobio," I reply. It can only be one person.
"Is it okay for me to come in?" he asks.
"Of course," I reply. Kageyama opens the door walking inside. He closes it. "I will make sure to be quick with my shower."
"Okay," says Kageyama. I can tell something is wrong by the look on his face.
"Kage, what's wrong?" I ask walking over to him. Kageyama looks like he is going to cry but he blinks the tears away. He takes a shaky breath.
"I love you Shoyo," he says firmly. My face hits the floor. Please tell me he is joking. I feel like the wind has been knocked out of me.
"Tobio…" I mutter.
"I don't know when it happened," he sighs running his hand through his hair. "I just realized it tonight."
"Um are you sure?" I ask. "I mean maybe it is just because of how close we gotten."
"Knowing you the way I do now made me love you more," he says stepping into my space. "I can see us living a happy life together. You get me in everyway possible." My eyes water.
"I don't love you….." I say above a whisper.
"I didn't expect you to," he replies. I can see he is hurt in his eyes. Oh no. I don't want to hurt Kageyama. He needs to know the truth.
"I'm in a relationship now," I explain. "With Miya. We made things official tonight." Kageyama shakes his head looking annoyed.
"He doesn't love you," he replies. "Why tonight?"
"Love has to have time to grow" I say defensively. "This is new. I don't care if it happened tonight or not. I'm glad Miya asked me out."
"His actions speak louder," says Kageyama. "He was out fucking other people just yesterday but suddenly today he is into you. Really Sho?"
"He knows what he wants and that is me!" I hiss getting upset. "Don't talk about my boyfriend that way." Kageyama rolls his eyes.
"Whatever Shoyo," he says. "I can't be friends with you."
"What!" I exclaim. "Just because I don't want you!?" Kageyama seriously can't be this petty.
"You don't get it," says Kageyama. "I love you. The kind of love I have for you I can't just be friends with you."
"What about Akaashi?" I ask.
"I figured out tonight what I wanted," he replies sadly. "I want you. We can be friends at some point but not right now. I….I can't…."
"That's not fair!" I cry. "You promised me nothing would change!"
"I'm sorry," he apologizes emotionally. "I didn't think for a second this would happen. I didn't think I would love you like this." Kageyama suddenly stops talking. Is this really happening.
"Tobio please…." I whisper. I have known him for so long. I can't picture my life without him.
"I have to put myself first," he replies. "I can't believe you don't feel anything for me." I stare at him wiping away a tear.
"I do care for you," I reply. "Just not in that way." Kageyama nods his head.
"Yeah, I need space," he replies. "Good luck with Miya." Kageyama walks out of my room. I stare at the door regretting sleeping with him. I would have never done it if I knew this was going to happen. I angrily knock my stuff off the nightstand. I head to the bathroom to take a shower. I scrub harder wanting to forget everything that happened tonight minus Miya becoming my boyfriend. I smile but it doesn't reach my eyes. How can it when I know I lost my best friend. I sigh feeling so stupid for not seeing the signs sooner that he was falling for me. Kageyama hasn't changed at all. How could I know?
I head into the hall glancing at Kageyama room that is currently dark. I go into my room trying not to be sad about what has happened. How can I not? I feel like I hurt him which is something I didn't want to do. I lay down in bed having a hard time going to sleep. Kageyama is on my mind heavily. I awake the following morning deciding to fix myself breakfast. It will help lift my spirits because I am continuing to feel down about everything.
"Let's see," I say outloud. "Pancakes, some bacon….that should do it." I decide I will drive to Miya's following breakfast. I get started on mixing the pancake battery when I see Yamaguchi leaving out of Asahi room. He looks so angry….. Yamaguchi makes eyes contact with me. He balls up his fist walking over to me. "Hey….are you okay?"
"No, no I'm not," he replies folding his arms. He glances at the ceiling. "Asahi broke things off with me this morning." My heart falls.
"He did!" I exclaim. "I had no idea you two were dating. I'm so sorry."
"No need to apologize," he replies. "We weren't dating. We were going to be…..fucking Tsukki…." Yamaguchi starts crying. I run over to him hugging.
"It's going to be okay," I sooth.
"No, it's not!" he snaps breaking out of my embrace. "Asahi won't commit to me because he wants to protect Tsukishima's feelings. What about my feelings!" I don't even know what to say. I can't imagine turning down Miya to protect Kageyama feelings. I really like Miya. I have wanted this for so long.
"I…I wish Asahi didn't do that," I mutter.
"Exactly," he replies with much attitude. He sighs closing his eyes for a moment. "I really enjoyed being with Asahi. I like him. I wanted us to be something."
"I know this is hard," I reply. "Cutting back on the time you spend with someone you care about can be hard." Yamaguchi stares at me coldly.
"Is that what you are doing to Kageyama?" he asks flatly. I am not only taken back by his question by his tone.
"I'm not doing anything to Kageyama," I reply calmly as I can. "I only see Kageyama as a friend."
"You sure about that?" asks Yamaguchi. "The sex you guys have doesn't sound like friends." I blush deeply. "Sorry but it is pretty easy to hear you two. You sound like lovers not friends." I walk away from Yamaguchi going back to my pancake mix. I clear my throat.
"You can't really tell that by sound alone," I reply. "This isn't about me right now."
"It's not," admits Yamaguchi. "However you made Kageyama cry. I could hear him. He didn't know I was there of course. I never heard him cry before….." I stare at my pancake mix feeling sick now…..I made him cry.
"I didn't mean to hurt him," I reply. I sniffle a little becoming emotional.
"I don't understand," says Yamaguchi confused. "You guys are so good together."
"I'm in a relationship with Miya," I reply looking at him. "Like I said I only see Kageyama as a friend." Yamaguchi shakes his head.
"You're making a mistake," he replies. He doesn't know that! He doesn't know anything! He is speaking on raw emotions from his own shit.
"Yamaguchi," I reply fed up. "I know you are hurt by what happened with Asahi. You are clearly projecting."
"I'm not!" he exclaims. "Both of you are fucking stupid." Yamaguchi angrily stomps over sliding on his shoes slamming the front door. I jump a little feeling bad all around. I can't help it that I am not into Kageyama like that. Why is that such a bad thing.
