Hello, so here's a new one. I see you're not fans of Sam, and I get it! But here's some more. Hope you like it and thanks for the reviews.
After what happened with Quinn in the locker rooms, something changed between us. Quinn had always been very physical with me but in a pretty innocent way, like holding my arm, hugging me, small things. After that she was bolder, and it made me a bit uncomfortable, partly because I really liked this girl and I really felt things when she touched me. But the other part was that she was doing this kind of thing with people around.
Like at school, she came to the table and kissed my cheek and, you know? People notice that type of shit. Or, the other night for example, we were at Puck's friend's bar, again. Yeah it's like our spot, there's a lot of college kids around so as long as we're not wearing our uniforms we're good for day drinking.
Well, we were drunk, Puck not that much, Quinn grabbed me by the waist in such an intimate way, and maybe it means nothing but people stare! I'm just not ready for that, especially since we're nothing but friends. But, why doesn't she do that when we're hanging out at my house? Or an empty classroom, or something private, you know?
Is frustrating to say the least, and I know I shouldn't read much into it, but when I get home my mind just starts wandering, and trying to figure out what intention Quinn has. But when I catch myself daydreaming a lot I stop to remind myself that Quinn just plays games and she's not into me like that, but she's single now and I'm single so might as well just let these things happen.
Everything between us was going good, Sam and I hooked up again once but it was nothing. Quinn again wanted to know everything about it and Puck was kind of encouraging me to keep things going with Sam.
-I don't know why you're not making it official.
Puck said while he put our drinks down on the table and sat next to Quinn. We were again at the bar. We're not like alcoholics, it's just a cool place to hang out after school.
-Official? Me and Sam? Dude that's never gonna happen again.
-You're single as fuck, you know? And you're just hooking up with him, so what's the difference? Is like, you're already being loyal to him, and I know for a fact he's not fucking around.
Puck said and he placed his arm behind Quinn, just resting there, and for some reason that fucking bothered me, I was trying to keep up the conversation but my eyes couldn't stay away from his fucking arm.
-So what? Besides, you're single too.
-Yes, but I fuck.
-Sex is overrated, dude.
-You're just saying that cause you ain't getting any.
Quinn laughed a bit too much, you know, puck is not that funny.
-I agree San, you two actually make a very cute couple.
-Yes, the white dude, taking over the latina's heart. Is just like pocahontas.
Puck said and I flipped him off.
-You're an asshole
-I never said I'm a nice guy.
There it was again, Quinn laughing at that shit. HE 'S NOT FUNNY! What the hell is going on?
Quinn never moved and Puck's arm was still around her, not really touching her but it was there and I needed a break. Although sometimes it is a bit annoying I do like Quinn's physical touch and I needed it right now. Sit with me, not with Puck!
-I need to go to the bathroom
I stood up and waited for Quinn to say she'd go with me, as usual, but she didn't. I splashed a bit of water in my face, I guess the beers were doing their work, I calmed down and Quinn bursted in laughing at something Puck said probably.
-Are you okay San?
Quinn asked as she fixed my hair
-You seem mad
-I just feel like you guys are having fun without me, you know?
I felt stupid as soon as the words came out of my mouth.
-We're having fun, together
-You're sitting and laughing with him, I'll just go home.
-San, are you drunk?
Quinn said with a goofy smile
-No
-I'm drunk, come on let's go back
Quinn grabbed my hand and we walked out, I sat down and she went back to her spot next to Puck, I, against my own will, rolled my eyes and Quinn laughed.
-So that 's it?
Quinn stood up and sat on my lap
-You're jealous because I'm sitting with Puck? I only did it because you told me no to do these things in public and you know I can't keep my hands to myself if I'm next to you.
Quinn said and I got red in the face, Puck just laughed and lit up a cigarette.
-Is not that, it's just not my day okay? And please, sit somewhere else. Can I have one dude?
I asked Puck for a cigarette and Quinn sat next to me and rested her head on my shoulder.
-This are red, I don't smoke your girly mentols or whatever the fuck you smoke.
-It's okay bro, I'm out of cigarettes so, whatever.
-Aight
Puck said as he handed me one and lit it up. I smoked and although this was stronger than my usual, I was fine.
-Give me some
Quinn said and I was surprised as she has never smoked before, but ever since her mom had a new job and is not at home that much she is getting herself loose.
Puck tried to give her one but she refused and took mine.
-I want this one
I don't know why but I found the way she did it super sexy. She smoked, didn't even pass it and then blew it. Puck and I just laughed.
-I don't know why you guys like this
-I only smoke this cause I can't be high all day, is a replacement
I said and Quinn laughed.
-Have you done that thing where you blow the smoke on someone's mouth?
Quinn asked with a hand on my jawline, I knew exactly what she was trying to do.
-Yeah, we're not doing that.
After that, with Quinn next to me I kind of forgot I was mad at them actually and an hour after puck dropped Quinn in her house and then me and the day was over.
I took a shower to take the bar smells off before mom or dad got home, did some homework and called it a day.
I had to admit I was super jealous about Quinn and Puck, but Puck is a player and Quinn is not stupid to fall for him, besides she's giving me so many hints that she likes me, which is hard to miss. All those thoughts kept me up all night.
The days passed, senior year was halfway over, everyone was worried about college, careers, and the future. Just thinking about it made me anxious, I just wanted to enjoy these last few months of being young, just hanging out with my friends, with Quinn. We haven't really talked about college, all I knew was that Quinn was super smart, Puck wasn't going to college and I had two scholarships for Kentucky and Ohio, I just had to shake pom poms for the rest of my school years tho.
I was at glee club practice and obnoxious Rachel got me off my train of thought when she bursted through the door crying about whatever college she was going to, didn't really care about her that much to pay attention, Finn and Kurt went to comfort her very fast. I just wonder if she knew what was going on with her boyfriend and Kurt. Just gross.
-Everyone's crazy about college hu?
Quinn said and got my attention out of the three drama Queens making that scene.
-Yeah, where are you going? Yale? Harvard?
Quinn huffed and rolled her eyes a bit
-I wish
She said with a sigh
-I'm going to community college
I looked at her like I was waiting for it to be a joke.
-Quinn, you're super smart. I know you don't show it but you're a book nerd, and I've seen your grades.
-Well, no one offered me a full scholarship and I can't afford, not even 50% of tuition, is just not gonna happen. My sister went to community college so I guess that's my destiny too.
Quinn didn't have it easy. She told me her father left them for a "tattooed tramp" and her mom got depressed and into alcohol and honestly her household was messy. That's why she hung out with us that much, she just didn't wanna be in her house and I understand.
Our backgrounds were pretty different, my parents were never home but money was never an issue, and also abuelita would stay over to make sure I eat cause she said I was all skin and bones. But if you ask me, I don't even know what my parents do for a living, they wear suits and travel, and that's about it.
Quinn had it rough, her mom worked at Walmart and her dad didn't help them. Her sister got married and left the city, her family lived in another state. She didn't have much support here in Ohio, basically it was her mom, me and Puck.
Puck on the other side, he was rich-rich. He just likes to play it cool, but his mom was a doctor. I don't know anything about his dad other than "he's a loser who can't even help himself". He doesn't help them but Puck's mom has land and shit and his grandparents are like old money. Puck is humble though, you'd never guess his house was that nice. He always worked on his dumb pool cleaning business, but he didn't really need to.
-Well, community college will have one of the best brains Ohio could offer
Quinn smiled
-Do you have any plans, San?
-I think I'm going to Kentucky
-Cool, you'll rock their cheerleaders uniform.
I rolled my eyes
-Is red too, I'm sick of it
I looked down at the uniform that I've been wearing for 3 years. Of Course I looked hot as hell in it, but most importantly, it gave me a high status at this school. Quinn sighed and replied with a smile.
-You'll look great in whatever uniform you wear. But just so you know, you can do much better than shake pom poms and cheer for a sports team.
-What is better than Santana in a tiny skirt?
Puck interrupted us and made me laugh, I hit him in the arm playfully.
-I'm for real, I wouldn't come to this hell hole if it wasn't for all you gorgeous ladies in those teeny-tiny uniforms.
-What's your plan, Puck?
-For what?
-After high school?
-Well, I'm definitely not going to college.
-Why?
Quinn asked, surprised. It didn't really shock me.
-What college would accept me? And if one does, I wouldn't go, cause what kind of college would it be if they'd take ME?
-There 's hot girls.
I said to encourage him
-Well good news for you
Puck said in a lower voice
-College girls like to experiment and they usually do with femmes like you.
-Shut up!
Luckily Mr. Shue interrupted us with some lame song that he wanted us to learn. I stopped caring about his lessons when I saw that it was pointless.
Me and Mercedes were an awesome duo, like, we would have the whole glee club vibing with us, but he would still pick Rachel. Not that I care, it just made me furious to see her act like she is better than us when she was fucking mid.
I had an awesome voice and no training, plus the confidence to perform in front of whoever, mostly thanks to Coach Sylvester. And Mercedes, God that girl was born talented. Her whole family could sing, she was a lot better than Rachel but Mr. Shue would never accept that. I think he's racist. Others say it's because Rachel is a cry baby who would make a scene if she doesn't get what she wants, so he just does whatever that little diva wants. I think it is a bit of both.
After glee club, Coach Sylvester was doing crazy stuff as usual so practice was canceled. I was on my way home when Puck stopped me.
-Dude, is chanukah
I was walking out with Britt when he approached us.
-Chanu what?
Britt laughed
-Chanukah, hanukkah, whatever.
-Congratulations?
I was a bit confused and Britt was amused by my confusion. I just heard Puck sighed heavily.
-My mom told me to invite you over for dinner, tonight's the first night. They miss you, and Monica is always asking me about you, you haven't been at my house since forever.
Monica was his little sister, she idolized me and Puck's family were awesome but they kinda wanted us to date and that's just never gonna happen. The boy's a whore and I'm not into him.
-Sure, I'll be there, I miss your family
-I got this bomb ass weed my buddy Carl got me, we can smoke before dinner.
-Sounds like a plan dude
-You can come if you want to
Puck said, acknowledging that Britt was there.
-I'm good, but thank you
-Alright, see you Santana.
I went to Britt's house to study for a test and then headed home to get ready for Puck's dinner. I was excited to see his family, I didn't know much about his Jewish traditions but they always welcomed me for their dinners and festivities.
I got to his house at 6:00 PM and met in his car. He was already there grinding some weed and putting it on rolling papers. I got in and the smell hit me.
-It 's medical dude.
Puck said with a proud smile.
-Smells fucking good
-Wait till you try it
He rolled a joint like an expert and passed it to me. I lit it up, let the smoke fill up my lungs and let it out. I couldn't help but cough and Puck was laughing. It was his turn and he coughed so much he needed water. We both laughed and enjoyed the weed.
-I have to talk to you
He said while I was making a playlist.
-Well, do it.
-I'm flunking, I don't think I'll graduate with you guys.
-Dude, I don't know why. You're so fucking smart, you helped me pass history.
-History is the only one I'm not failing. But if I don't pass geography with a B I'd have to repeat the year.
-Dude, how so?
-I missed too many classes, I tried talking to miss Feld, but my charm wasn't enough
-I can help you study, you'll pass the test.
-I already talked to ma, and she said that she just wants to see me happy, and if I needed to repeat the year, it was okay.
-You're mom's the best, you know that?
-I know. There's one more thing
-What is it?
-I'll tell you after dinner, come on, Monica is crazy about seeing you.
I had a good time with his family. The food was great as always and his sister showed me her new room decoration and pictures of her friends and said she was training to join the cheerios when she gets to high school. The kid was adorable and I love Puck's family and the thought of him not graduating really had me down, but I still enjoyed the night, as high as I was.
After dinner we took dessert to Puck's car and smoked some more, you know, just to enjoy dessert a bit more.
-Are you gonna tell me now?
I was curious about what he wanted to tell me, he just looked at me and inhaled hard and I got a bit worried.
-Fuck. Okay. I have a fucking crush on Quinn.
The words felt like a bucket of cold water just hit me. I knew something was going on between them but, Puck? A crush? I think I've never heard those words coming out of his mouth.
-You? A crush?
That's all I could manage to say.
-Yeah. You know how I realized I fell for this girl? I went to breadstix, tryna clear my mind from Quinn so I hooked up with the hot waitress I always wanted, and when it was time to do it, I couldn't.
-So, basically, you think you're in love because your dick couldn't get hard.
-I mean, that's one of the reasons. She's fucking awesome dude. She likes marvel movies, she likes star wars.
-So you like her nerdy ways?
-Besides she's so hot dude, right? I'm surprised you don't have a crush on her. Have you seen her ass? And her face? And her smile? Bro, I'd make her 10 fucking babies. She's just so beautiful.
Every word felt more painful than the other. I never told Puck about how I felt for Quinn but I thought he knew. And it hurt that the guy was kinda serious about it. He wasn't talking about sleeping with her, he really liked her.
-Are you going to tell her?
-I don't know dude. I've never had a girlfriend. What do you do in this case?
I hit the blunt just to clear my mind. I didn't know how to take this.
-Beats me bro. I've never had one
-But you're a chick, you know about this stuff.
-Just, tell her how you feel
I was crying on the inside. I didn't want that. I don't want them together. Puck is my special guy and Quinn, she's just, she's not for Puck.
-And you know what's fucking me up?
Puck asked as he reclined his car seat.
-What?
-Finn's my boy, you know? And he really cared about this girl
Great, he's worried about Finn's feelings. What about mine, asshole?
-Finn? Fuck Finn dude. He fucking cheated on her.
-I can't judge him
-He's an idiot, and you'd be one if you don't go after her.
Why did I say that? I didn't want that. I want Quinn for me!
-I don't know what to do dude, I feel nervous when we hang out now. When she sits close to me, when I catch a bit of her perfume. When I see her smile. I just want to protect her from everything.
-I've never thought I'd see the day you'd fall in love dude.
I wanted to cry but I did my best to hold it in. Puck wasn't a good person. I'd never say that, but his mind wasn't right, his mom told me about his medication and how Puck refused to take it, so the way he behaved, unaware of people's feelings and just breaking every rule possible was because he didn't take his medication. And I wasn't better than him.
I wanted to tell him "No dude, move on, I saw her first" but Quinn wasn't an object, it felt childish and I had to admit it, if Quinn wanted anything to do with me, she would've by now.
I got an uber on the way home, Puck insisted on driving me but his whole family was there, I told him I was fine. On the way home I tried to clear my mind but I was just too fucking high, so I called Quinn.
-Hi San
-I just want you to know something
-Are you okay?
-Remember when I told you I liked you? Forget about that. I'm over it Quinn.
Of course I wasn't over it but, Puck was in love, and he had a fair chance with Quinn, not me. So, I step away, let my friends be happy with each other, and I guess I have Sam to be miserable with.
-San, what's going on? Are you high?
-Yes, but still, I'm moving on Quinn.
-You don't like me anymore?
-Just as friends.
-That's all we are. I don't understand.
-Look, Puck likes you, okay? So, forget everything I've told you before. Forget about me, liking you. I'm over it. I'm over you.
I sounded angry. I couldn't fucking help it.
-Puck likes me?
-Yup
-He told you?
-Yeah
-And now you don't like me?
-Yes sir
-Why?
-I moved on Quinn.
-San
-That's it, alright? I'm good. I'll see you on monday
The uber driver had to listen to my high school drama. I got out of the car and didn't even say thank you, that was rude. I just wanted to sleep, forget about this. Forget about Quinn and support my friend. Love is a good thing right? And he's in love, so it'll be what it'll be. Fuck it.
I've always been a go with the flow person. If I can't change something, fuck it, I won't worry. And if I can, why would I? Things come as they are, you know? Destiny's a bitch. That's it.
Monday came and I basically ignored Quinn the whole day, and I didn't see Puck with her or anything, he was acting foolish with the guys as always. Talking about farts, and porn and whatever they talk about. I zoned out honestly.
Mike started dating this glee club girl Tina, the other asian at school so no surprise. She started hanging out with us and she wasn't that bad. The only one's I can't stand are Rachel and Kurt.
She was asking me a lot about weed so she was definitely curious.
-You should come and smoke with us, Puck and I know a spot where you can see the whole city. Is actually cool.
-But what if my parents find out.
-When you get home just go to sleep, you'll be sleepy anyways.
Tina agreed and we got together after school. Puck took us to McDonald's drive thru, we ordered a bunch of cheeseburgers and chicken nuggets and then he drove to our spot.
It was a little hill, no houses around, just trees and you could see the whole city. We put on some music, the glee girl was into some indie rock that was pretty chill, so we just smoked and the weed made her pretty chatty, it's like, I've never heard her talk before, now she doesn't stop. It was cool though, she was just saying dumb shit and had us laughing.
Puck had good weed so the girl got knocked out about 20 minutes after, not even a cheeseburger helped her, we saw her sleeping already so Puck started talking.
-Do you think I should tell Quinn how I feel? Senior year is almost over and I know we don't have that much time together so, I should make it count.
-Do you want to be like her boyfriend or some?
-Yeah, like the real deal.
-Do you think she will say yes?
-Yeah, I mean, she likes me, right? What else would she be hanging out with us for?
-Cause we're friends dude. But go for it.
Puck smoked some more and passed me the blunt, my body was numb and my feelings were too. I'd never show him how I felt for Quinn. He could be happy with her, and she just doesn't like me that way.
-I really like her San
The tone in which he said it really broke my heart. I knew then that he was serious about Quinn and whatever was going on with me and her needed to stop. Suddenly Tina came back to life.
-So, you're like, in love with Quinn?
-Holy shit girl, you scared me, I thought you were sleeping.
Puck said, taking a hand to his chest. The car was filled up with smoke and the weed had hit us. I just couldn't move that much, and that was okay, I didn't want to.
-My eyes are closed but my mind is alive.
-Okay but don't tell anyone about this, alright? Not even Mike, cause He'll tell Finn.
-Again dude, Fuck Finn.
Next day at school I got stuck with Tina just to remind her to not say a word about Quinn and Puck and she agreed. The day was pretty calm, again coach Sylvester canceled training and Quinn stopped me as I was walking out with Britt.
-Are you leaving San? Do you have plans?
-I was just walking Britt to her car.
-Can I join you?
Quinn said looking at Britt and she agreed, whatever. We walked Britt to her car and she asked me if I needed a ride, I looked at Quinn.
-Please come with me, we need to talk. I'll buy you lunch
-I can't say no to free lunch B.
I smiled and she offered to drive us wherever we were going, Quinn agreed but was super serious the whole ride to the small restaurant. It wasn't a long ride, it lasted just the length of a song.
We got to the restaurant and sat across from each other, Quinn's plate was nearly untouched unlike mine, cause I smoked a bit with Puck after class. I couldn't help but notice the nervous energy coming from Quinn. There was something on her mind, something she wanted to say, but she seemed to hold back. I tried to look her in the eyes but she kept looking away.
-So, what's up with you Q.
-What's up with me? What's up with you? You ignored me yesterday, and today, you called me the other day and acted super weird.
I took a bite from my sandwich, trying to ease the tension, I didn't have much to tell her.
-What do you want me to say? I was high
-You're always high
-You never had a problem with that.
Quinn stayed silent and just watched me eat, I couldn't stop and she looked so impatient. I wanted to reach out, to ask Quinn what was bothering her, but I waited, still no words and everything was starting to get super awkward.
-What's on your mind Quinn
-Eat, Santana, and wipe your mouth please
She passed me a napkin and I noticed I had mayo on my lips, I laughed a bit and cleaned it off.
-Look, if this is about Puck, yeah the kid likes you, he's for real.
Quinn sighed.
-I don't know what to think
-I mean, he's cool, you obviously get along, he said you like some marvel shit
Quinn smiled and my heart broke, that smile told me everything, she had feelings for Puck too, I had this bit of hope that it wasn't reciprocated but no.
-Yeah, he's really nice, I mean, with me, the whole school fears him, but I think they don't really get him.
-Yeah.
Quinn kept looking at me, never touching her food, she was so silent so I had to fill in to make it less awkward. My mind had only dumb shit to talk about, like asking her if she would rather date coach Sylvester or be Mr. Shue's daughter. I can't remember what else I was saying, all I know is she was laughing.
-What are you doing for the holidays?
Quinn asked me all of the sudden
-My family is coming over, lots and lots of people. Is it going to be loud, you?
-I'm going to Philly with my mom's family
-That's cool, bring me an eagles t-shirt
-Ugh, I forgot how much you like sports.
The atmosphere felt a little bit lighter, Quinn didn't touch her food so I decided to pay and as I was leaving Quinn stopped me.
-I need to go to the bathroom, come with me
I followed her, hearing someone pee always made me laugh, I know is dumb, I held it in and just waited for her, she came out and washed her hands, she looked at me and her stare was something to dream about.
Quinn got close to me and held my hand, I just let her.
-Santana…
Quinn said as she placed her forehead resting on mine, our lips were nearly touching, I panicked but didn't move. Was she going to kiss me?
-I don't know how I feel about Puck
Why did she say that when our faces were inches apart?
-Okay?
I took some distance, the whole thing was intoxicating and I needed some air, but I felt Quinn's hand on my jawline, so delicate, just bringing me closer but not close enough, her eyes were closed so I closed mine, and then I realized. Was she trying to kiss me to figure out her feelings for Puck?
-San, kiss me
I wanted to separate but I couldn't, i just slightly shaked my head.
-No
-San…
Her hand never left my cheek, and I loved it, but this is not what I wanted. I felt her head moving a bit and I knew she was going for my lips so I moved, she ended up kissing the corners of my mouth.
-Why not Santana?
Quinn asked, still with her eyes closed but with her head now buried on my shoulder, I couldn't help myself and started passing my fingers through her beautiful blonde hair, she responded by hugging me by the waist.
-I don't want this Quinn. We're friends, and if you're trying to kiss me to see if you like Puck better, just save it. I don't wanna be with you like that anymore.
-I don't wanna lose you, you're the only person I care about
-You won't lose me, just… stop doing this kind of thing alright?
She nodded and we hugged and walked out.
The whole way home I was hating myself. Why are you so stupid Santana? I should've just kissed her, she'd definitely like me better. But what kind of an ass hole would I be to do that right after Puck tells me how he feels.
When I got home I had the feeling that I just lost Quinn, not that she was mine but she was for sure going to date Puck, and my idiot self decided to call the next best thing… Sam. I called him, we hung out, we watched a movie and abuelita made us some food and that's it. It felt alright, but feeling Sam's hand on my tigh while we were watching the movie didn't feel nearly as erotic as Quinn holding my hand in that fucking bathroom.
The holidays were just around the corner, school was over for a bit and I heard that Puck and Quinn had an unofficial date. As far as I know from Puck, he didn't tell her how he felt, they just had dinner and he drove her home.
I was alone at home and soon, Quinn and Puck were going to be a couple. I felt so left out, so alone and I remember this jock from school had a party and I just had a message from Sam.
Sam: Hey Santana, are you going to Dave's party? Brittany told me she was going, I can pick you up.
Good ol' Sam. Right on time
Santana: Yeah, can you pick me up in like an hour or so?
Sam: Yes, of course
I got ready, did my hair and everything, Sam was there right on time and didn't give me a hard time for making him wait a few minutes, he opened the passenger's door for me, he smelled like expensive cologne, he was wearing just a black tee and some jeans and He pulled it off like no one else.
He let me play some music as long as it wasn't Lana cause he was in a "party mood". He picked up Britt and Mercedes too, he was bringing us drinks, he did everything right.
We had fun and it was time to play one of those stupid kissing games and I just wasn't in the mood so I walked to the kitchen and watched everyone play. He had to kiss Brittany but he took the shot instead.
We were a bit drunk and just talking with friends and suddenly he held my hand. For some reason he took my hand and kissed it in a very gentleman-y way. He was adorable and it felt nice but it was nothing compared to when Quinn accidentally brushed my elbow, you know?
We were all drunk except for Britt, and I wanted to go home.
-Ugh, I shouldn't have drive here
Sam said trying to gain some balance
-I can drive
Brittany offered
-Are you sure?
-Good idea Britt, you guys can stay at my house
They agreed and Britt drove us there, we were obnoxiously singing and having a good time, Britt didn't need alcohol to have fun. The four of us stayed in my room, we talked for about an hour or so, it was fun. I thought Sam was going to try something but no, he just spooned me and kissed my cheek.
-Goodnight Santana
He said falling asleep almost instantly. Sam was good, he was a great guy, it was nice to sleep like this, with his toned arms around me, he smelled good. What else could I ask for, right?
The next day I still didn't hear from Puck or Quinn and was feeling weird and lonely so I called Sam and asked him to hang out at my house and he came. We watched a movie again but this time I didn't waste my time, since I had an empty house.
We took things to my room and I was quick to take Sam's clothes off. As I said before, he is attractive, familiar, he's good, but when I felt his lips on my breast I couldn't take the image of Quinn's lips brushing against mine out of my mind.
-Sam…
-Mmm yeah, I love your voice.
I had to say his name just to remind myself that it was him and not Quinn, and I guess he took it as a compliment. We did our thing and I had to fake it and after that we were just laying in bed and Sam was telling me some lame story about what his family does for christmas, and the idea of Puck and Quinn dating and pushing me aside hit me. It won't be the three of us again, it'll be Quinn and Puck, and the little third wheel. I hated that fucking thought.
-Seems like you have fun on Christmas.
I didn't pay attention to whatever his family does but he was quiet so I guessed it was my turn to talk, luckily he kept going.
-Yeah, my brothers love it, it used to be exciting for me too when I thought Santa was real.
-Sure, yeah. Sam, we should date
-What?
He chuckled.
-Like, I should be your girlfriend.
-Santana, I've asked you two times to make this official and the first time, you told me that it would "ruin your rep" and the second one you told me I'm just a "boy toy"
He used air quotes to make a statement, and he was telling the truth. I did say that, but like, I don't want to be alone anymore.
-That was before I realized how hot and awesome you are
I said with my hand caressing his still naked torso.
-I think that's over Santana, I know I don't really mean nothing to you.
-So you just come to my house and fuck me but don't want a compromise? I thought you were different.
I know I was wrong, I never took him seriously nor cared about his feelings really, he was just my safe booty call.
-You're the one who called me. Santana, I was in love with you, it really broke my heart when you dumped me. You have been my crush since I first met you. But we're way past that.
-Ugh, God. Just leave, okay?
I know I was an asshole, I didn't even want him, I just didn't wanna be alone. He got dressed and just left. It was for the best, he deserved better.
Just a day before Quinn leaves and my family arrives Puck picked me up at my house, he said he was buying us dinner, he then picked up Quinn. He was really nice, we went to Breadstix and I ordered some good ass pasta.
Puck was the cutest and had a hanukkah gift for me. It was a Lana del Rey hoodie that I loved, and some good chocolates. He didn't have anything for Quinn which surprised me but later I found out why.
He drove me home and about an hour later he texted me.
P: Dude this sucks
S: What happened?
P: Well, I told Quinn how I felt and asked her to be my girlfriend. I had some roses in the trunk and everything, but she said she wasn't ready.
S: well, that's not a no
P: Is definitely not a yes
S: Just give her time dude
P: You think so?
S: For sure
It really surprised me, I thought Quinn was going to say yes when the time came, but nope. Now our whole thing in the bathroom was more confusing.
I texted her to see what happened and didn't have a reply. Then I texted Puck again.
S: Fuck dating dude. I haven't told you but, I tried with sam
I just wanted to be empathetic.
P: What do you mean?
S: I told him, I TOLD HIM, we should date. ME, it had to come out from ME, and he blew me off.
P: Dude, you called him a Boy toy, lol, I'm surprised the kid still talks to you
S: Whatever, why is he still sleeping with me if he was 'sooooo offended by it"?
P: Cuz ur hot
S: Men suck
P: Women suck too, just so u know before u try it with one
I think he was still clueless about my feelings for Quinn, how? I don't know, maybe the fact that he had a crush on her blinded him from everything else, but even Britt noticed that me and Quinn had something going on.
I didn't get a text back from Quinn and didn't feel like texting Puck anymore. I helped abuelita clean up the guest's bedroom because a lot of family was coming over, and just ended my night with her.
Quinn, Sam, Puck, whatever thought I had about them could wait.
So, I know you won't love this one. Quinn and her mixed signals again. Puck is after her. The SamTana situation, I'm nervous about this one, and I know it is going slow but this is a long one! Anyway, I hope you liked the whole drama.
