By the time Jax got back from his meeting with Father Kellan, it was already late. Walking through Maureen Ashby's house, where he and the club were staying along with Gemma, it was quiet, which was probably a good thing since Jax really wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone right now, especially not Gemma. He knew that Gemma would want to know what the Father had to say about Abel, and Jax just didn't want to deal with her right now. Besides, he would tell everyone else what he learned in the morning.
After grabbing a beer from the fridge, Jax took a seat at the kitchen table as he grabbed his cell out of his pocket. Going through his contacts, he found Tara's number. He and Tara had really been going through it these past few weeks, ever since Abel was suddenly taken from them. To make matters worse, Jax had slept with Ima, which was the biggest mistake he had ever made, and he would regret it for the rest of his life; he would do anything to make it up to Tara.
Of course Jax knows that it would take a while before Tara would actually forgive him and even if she does forgive him, he knows that she will never forget that it happened or the fact she was the one who caught him and Ima together that morning. Before Jax left for Belfast he stopped by the hospital to talk to Tara and try to apologize for what happened and of course that didn't go well.
-flash back-
Tara sat at her desk, trying to focus on getting some paperwork done while attempting to distract herself from what had happened that morning. After Jax hadn't come home last night, especially since their conversation earlier that day, she knew he would be at the clubhouse. She decided to go there to talk to him again and to see if they could work through whatever issues were plaguing their relationship. However, upon arriving at the clubhouse, she discovered clothes strewn across the floor in Jax's room and spotted Ima standing by the bathroom door with a smug expression on her face.
Tara should have smashed Ima's face against the wall but instead Tara walked straight out of the room and left the clubhouse. She didn't want to go back home since she knew that's where Jax would be looking for her, so instead she ended up in her office and try to get some work done.
" It's open." Tara said as she was still typing away on her keyboard not taking her eyes off the screen.
" Hey, can we talk?" Jax asked as he walked into Tara's office and closed the door behind him.
Tara scoffed as she shook her head." Really? you want to talk? hmm, I figured you would still be in bed with Ima with your dick being buried inside of her." Tara retorted as she really wasn't interested in hearing what he had to say right now.
Jax sighs heavily as he places his fists into his pockets." Look, I am sorry about this morning.I didn't want you to find out this way." He said as he looked down the ground instead of looking at her but he could feel her eyes and her glare at him.
" Why did you do it? " Tara asked as she shook her head.
Jax sighs heavily once again. " It was the only way I can think of to push you away. I know it was a dick move and it probably shouldn't have happened but it did happened and I can't changed it."
" Yeah, well you got what you wanted though. You've been trying to push me away ever since all that shit went down with Abel and looks like you finally succeeded. Telling me that you and Abel aren't my family. Why would you say something like that? After everything I did for you and for Abel. You know how much I love that little boy . So when you said that, it really hurt me Jax."
Jax nods his head." I know and I'm sorry. "
" Your mom said that you're trying to protect me."
" I am trying to protect you Tara."
" From what? "
" Halfsac, Abel. Donna. Take your pick."
" God you're so full of shit Jax. You both know for a fact that nothing is going to happened to me. This is you're way of taking the coward way out. I mean it's obvious that you still hate me for what happened to Abel. You still blame me for what happened to him. Even though you don't want to admit to yourself. So you got what you wanted Jackson, me out of your life." Tara said angrily.
Jax nods his head as he knew Tara was right." Listen, I came here mainly to let you know that we're heading out to Belfast to get Abel back, and Gemma is coming with us."
" What about Stahel and her going to Prison?"
" I guess her and Stahel came to some kind of agreement." Jax answered as he shrugs his shoulders.
" So, when you said we, are you talking about the whole club is going?"
" No, only half of us are going. Piney, Tig, and Kozik is staying in Charming to watch things at the clubhouse and to look after you too."
" Thanks and I do appreciate that, but I can take care of myself Jax."
" Yeah, I know that Tara. Look I know what I did with Ima has hurt you and I crossed the line."
" You crossed the line? Jax, you betrayed me and my trust. I told you cheating was a deal breaker for me Jackson. I honestly don't know how we're going to get pass this or if we ever will. "
" I know, maybe after I get back from Belfast with Abel. Maybe we could figure something out. Why did you come to the clubhouse this morning? "
Tara sighed. "Well, since you didn't come home last night, I knew the clubhouse was the only other place you could have gone. So this morning, I figured that I would come by and we could talk and try to work out our problems. But when I walked in, I found you in bed and clothes strewn all over the floor. To make matters worse, your whore walked out of your bathroom wearing one of your Reaper shirts with a smug look on her face."
" I am sorry about that. She shouldn't have done that."
"What I should have done was slam her face against the damn wall. She's lucky that I didn't, since I didn't want to risk it due to my condition."
"Your condition, Tara? What's going on?"
Tara sighs deeply as she folded her hands on her desk." I am pregnant."
" What? Are you serious? "
" Yeah, I found out about it a few weeks ago."
Tara, why didn't you speak up earlier?
" How the hell could I Jax? I couldn't even talk to you especially with everything that has been going on and every time I did try to talk to you. You didn't wanna listen instead you just kept shutting me out. When I tried to get closer to you, you pushed me away and this morning you made it very clear that you didn't want to be with me anymore."
" Tara, I... "
" Jax, just go to Belfast and get your son back. we'll talk when you get back."
Jax sighs heavily as he closed his eyes for a moment and flipped his cell shut instead. Taking a swing of his beer which made him cringe a little. He seriously can't wait to get back to having good beer back home. He's not used to this kind of beer.
" You got in kinda late. How did it go with my uncle?" Trinity asked.
" it went alright." Jax answered without going into much details right now. What are you still doing up?"
Trinity shrugs her shoulders as she walked over to the fridge and grabbed herself a beer." Not much of a sleeper really." She said as popped the cap off and took a drink." You doing alright? looks like you got something on your mind Jax."
Jax shook his head. "I'm just tired, Trinity. I'm going to take a shower and try to get some sleep." He said as he got up from the kitchen table. "Good night, Trinity." He added as he walked out of the kitchen.
The next morning, Tara walked out into the compound of the clubhouse. As she looked around the compound, Tara snorted a little; she couldn't believe that she was there of all places. She would rather be at home sleeping in her own bed, but since there had been a break-in yesterday, Tara had no choice but to stay here.
Good morning. Want some coffee? Piney asked, sitting down at the bar.
"Yeah, thanks," Tara offered as she walked over to the bar and sat down beside him. Miles, one of the new prospects, poured her a cup of coffee.
" Did you get any sleep last night?"
Tara nods her head a little as she took a sip of her coffee." Some, but barely though."
" You know that we won't let anything happen to you right?" Piney asked as he gently placed his hand over Tara's.
Tara nods her head." Yeah, I know, it's just I don't understand how or why someone would actually do something like that. I mean luckily nothing was stolen or anything, but that's my home. It's the home that I share with Jax, and I just feel violated."
" Have you tried reaching out to Jax?"
Tara shook her head as she took another drink of her coffee setting her cup down." No, and I'm not going to. Right now Jax's main focus is to find Abel and bring him back home safely." Of course Tara had thought about calling him last night, one of the reasons why she couldn't sleep last night. But she decided not to.
" I need to get ready for work. Thanks for the coffee." Tara said as she got up from the barstool and heads towards down the hall to get ready for work.
Piney looks over at Miles." Hey, keep your eyes on Tara.Watch her back and if anything happens call me or Tig. Also make sure you have a gun on you at all times. Understand?"
Miles nods his head."Understood. I will make sure nothing happens to her."
" Good." Piney said as he got up and walked out of the clubhouse.
AN: Normally I don't update this fast or quickly. But I was in a writing mood and I decided to update this story already. Thanks for the reviews and for the favorites and follows. Like I said some events will be the same and some invents will be different. Anyway happy reading and as always leave reviews. Next chapter is coming soon.
