Kurt wakes up the next morning in another man's bed.
Sebastian's bed, to be precise.
Sunlight streams in through the slats of the blinds, highlighting stripes of gold through Sebastian's hair and across his face. He looks so different like this, asleep and unguarded, peaceful.
They hadn't meant to fall asleep together. Once Kurt had calmed down, Sebastian had surprisingly offered to sleep on the couch to let Kurt have his bed. He'd insisted, actually, despite Kurt's protests, and so Kurt had found himself in Sebastian's bedroom, in Sebastian's bed, all alone.
And, god, it was like he was trying to make up for the past year and a half he hasn't cried with all the tears because he started again and he couldn't stop, the sobs wracking through him uncontrollably and he hates this, it's embarrassing, all this time he hasn't cried and this is where he loses it.
But Sebastian hadn't said anything in the living room, and he didn't say anything this time either, when he'd padded into the bedroom and crawled into the bed to wrap Kurt up in his arms once more.
It felt warm and safe and he hated himself for how much he needed it.
He hated himself for how much he didn't even care that it wasn't Blaine.
Hated himself that he was almost glad that it wasn't.
They'd fallen asleep like that, wrapped up in each other.
He'd expected to feel numb this morning, numb like he's felt for the last god knows how long, and he does a little bit, but it's not quite the same now.
Part of him feels… relieved, maybe. Like a burden has been lifted. And it's ridiculous, because things are undeniably worse now, Blaine asked him to leave and he'd even mentioned divorce, and he's not sure how serious that was but he does know it must have come from somewhere because Blaine isn't in the habit of saying things he doesn't mean.
But it doesn't scare him. He almost…
No. He does not want to divorce Blaine. He loves Blaine, he doesn't want a divorce. He tries to quash the idea down before it's allowed any more space in his mind.
Kurt loves Blaine. Kurt loves Blaine. You don't want to divorce someone if you love them. You don't want to end a marriage with someone you love.
… Right?