Awake and Alive
Characters: Damon, Kat, Silas (mentioned), unnamed doctors
Summary: Set in S5. Based on the song "Awake and Alive" by Skillet.
Pairings:
Datherine
*I Know What You Did Last Summer*
I'm at war with the world and they
Try to pull me into the dark
I struggle to find my faith
As I'm slippin' from your arms
It's getting harder to stay awake
And my strength is fading fast
You breath into me at last
I'm awake and alive
Now I know what I believe inside
It's my time
I'll do what I want 'cause this is my life
Here (right here), right now (right now)
It was a nebulous night, as Katherine sat in the driver's seat of Damon's car, human and injured, trying to stay awake, but she knew it was useless. Everything was going black and it all seemed so far away. She'd tried running, knowing Damon wanted to hand her over to Silas. She knew he had to have had a reason, but she would never know what that reason was. She'd never get the chance to say goodbye or to tell him the truth about her feelings for him, either.
Half an hour later, after making up his mind to look for her, he spotted his wrecked car. He could see her still inside and he could smell blood. By the smell, he knew she was injured but hoped he could save her. This was all his fault. He'd broken his promise to protect her. She'd ran because of it.
He blurred to her side of the car and forced the door open. He then assessed her condition, scanning for what her wounds were. He saw her lower stomach and thigh bleeding, along with blood on either side of her head. He could hear her barely breathing and her heart slowing. He knew it was from her wounds.
He gently pulled her out of the wreck, in his arms, and layed her down. He knew she needed the hospital, but also knew she probably wouldn't make it in time. As he made that assessment, he heard everything stop altogether. He knew he had to bring her back, whether he hated her or not. She'd been right. A part of him didn't want her to die.
He kissed her, giving her air, and then began heart compressions, trying to revive her.
"Come on, Katherine; Breathe. Come back to me. You're a survivor. You always survive. Please, Katherine. Now is not the time to give up or be stubborn."
Ten minutes later, she began to wake up, coughing.
"Damon," she half-whispered with blurry and dim vision.
"Hey. Welcome back," he said, before gently pulling her into his arms and getting to his feet with her in his arms. As he did, she rested her head on his shoulder and wrapped her arms weakly around his neck.
"Stay with me," he said, before blurring to the hospital.
A few minutes later, he got her to the hospital and she was rushed down the hall with a breathing mask on.
He could only watch, as they rushed her down the hall to save her life. He could only hope she would survive. She had to. He needed to apologize for almost handing her over to Silas. He'd made a mistake and wanted to make up for it, even if he couldn't make it work. He had to try.
I'll stand my ground and never back down
I know what I believe inside
I'm awake and alive
I'm at war with the world 'cause I
Ain't never gonna sell my soul
I've already made up my mind
No matter what I can't be bought or sold
When my faith's getting weak
And I feel like giving in
You breathe into me
I'm awake I'm alive
Now I know what I believe inside
Five hours later, after she was in a recovery room, Damon was silently seated on her bedside, waiting for her to come to. She was in bad shape and they'd had to revive her a couple of times, but they'd brought her back and she'd survived. Now she just had to heal. He was happy that she hadn't given up, because the Katherine he knew fought like hell.
A few weeks later, she was fully healed and Damon took her home with him. He apologized to her and she forgave him. They even rekindled their relationship.
*Dead Man On Campus*
Now it's my time
I'll do what I want 'cause this is my life
Here (right here), right now (right now)
I'll stand my ground and never back down
I know what I believe inside
I'm awake and I'm alive
Waking up, waking up
Waking up, waking up
Waking up, waking up
Waking up, waking up
Waking up, waking up
It was a beautiful night, as she stood on the clock tower, overlooking the town square, ready to step off to end her suffering. She'd just found out that she was dying of old age at a rapid pace and had a few months to six months, give or take, to live. She didn't want the pain of dying of old age.
Before she could turn around and jump off the ledge, she had a thought about Damon. If she died, what would happen to him? He finally loved her once more, as she did with him. She knew how deeply he felt things. Thinking this through, she realized that he'd be devastated and probably end up wreaking havoc everywhere. That's what made her realize that she couldn't do this to Damon. She couldn't kill herself; especially, without a goodbye.
*500 Years of Solitude*
In the dark
I can feel you in my sleep
In your arms I feel you breathe into me
It was a beautiful day at the boarding house, as Katherine lay in bed after having a heart attack the night before, Damon seated on her bedside. He wanted to give her peace in her last moments, so he gave her old memories that only they shared. Their most fondest memory of all, he gave to her last.
*Flashback-As I Lay Dying*
Forever hold this heart that I will give to you
Forever I will live for you
I'm awake I'm alive
Now I know what I believe inside
Now it's my time
I'll do what I want 'cause this is my life
Here (right here), right now (right now)
I'll stand my ground and never back down
I know what I believe inside
I'm awake and I'm alive
Waking up, waking up
Waking up, waking up
Waking up, waking up
Waking up, waking up
It was a nebulous night in the woods in 1864, as he chased after her. He was still human and loved her unconditionally.
He caught up to her and now they stood against a tree, her back against the bark, him just inches in front of her.
"Why must you run from me?" he asked her.
She smiled.
"Because I know that you will chase."
"Then let me chase you forever," he replied.
"I'm not going to feed you, Damon. If you want it, take it. Choose," she instructed.
She cut her collarbone with a fingernail.
"I choose you, Katherine," he said, before drinking from the wound, learning to take what he wanted without consequences.
*End*
*Present*
Damon left her head and kissed her goodbye when she became no more. He was silent, as he looked at her. He was grief-stricken. They'd found love with each other, only for her to die, this time for real and permanently. He refused to become a monster because of his emotions though. He was better than that now.