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Little Toy Bikers and a Woman on the Run
Chapter 148 Prepaid
Tara felt like she was back in high school when she was insecure and a little crazy. She needed to talk to Jax, but she couldn't decide if she should call and ask him if she could come over or if she should just turn up on his doorstep.
It would be easier for him to say no to her if she called him. If she turned up on his doorstep, he would be more likely to invite her inside, but what if that blonde slut Scarlett was there? He could still invite her in, but that would be more humiliation than she could bear.
Caller ID and cell phones had ruined the old call his phone and see if he's home hang up calls, but there was a away around it. She could get a prepaid phone and use that to call Jax's home phone. He would never know it was her and it beat driving past his house looking for lights in his house.
As far as Scarlett, that was easy too. If Scarlett's car wasn't parked outside Jax's house, she wasn't inside.
Now that she had her plan to contact Jax figured out, she just had to wait until the right time. She would just have to guess on that.
When she and Jax first met, she used to get so nervous about talking to him that she felt like she was going to throw up. Her fear of throwing up in front of him only heightened her anxiety making her stomach even more upset. She had managed to keep her food down, but there was always a first time. That was just another problem she could solve. No eating for three house before talking to Jax. That should help with the vomiting situation.
The night he came into the hospital, she hadn't been Tara Knowles old high school girlfriend. She'd been Dr. Knowles, a medical professional. She'd hidden behind her medical training, but she felt like a fraud playing a part. She was afraid she'd be exposed as that same screwed up, mixed up and troubled girl from high school.
Talking to Jax had been fairly easy that night because it was all medical and she used her medical training to talk to Jax. When she went to talk to him this time, there would be no medical identity to hide behind.
She definitely needed to apologize for breaking the news about the baby's paternity the way she had. That was the reason she was going to Jax's house. Maybe she should just leave it at that and wait for a better time to dredge up the past. In other words, be a coward.
No, she had to find out where her relationship with Jax stood. She needed to know if there was any chance at all of them getting back together. It was better to find out now then waste years in Charming hoping to catch Jax between crow-eaters.
She picked up the prepaid phone, her hands shaking and her stomach tied in knots and called Jax's home phone.