Chapter 19

"Unexpected proposal"

I fell asleep around 3 am, and to my knowledge, Niko was still knocked out. I was past tired, and I was given the advice to go to sleep in the other room while my brother cared for Niko. He told me he was used to late nights, and he was concerned for Niko.

I was awakened around noon by my brother telling me Niko had recovered and was awake for about a half hour. He said that he gave Niko a drink and was shooed away by him, and he locked the door. I wanted so badly to smother him with love, but the locked door obviously prevented me from doing so.

My soft knock on the door was to not let him think he was being attacked again, and to not give him more pain from his assumed headache.

"Niko?" I called lightly. "Baby, let me in. Let me see you. I want to know you're okay."

"Just leave me alone."

"Sweetheart, please let me in. I know you're hurting more than just the physical pain. I still think you're a hero. You saved me."

"I did nothing but lay on that fucking floor. I am useless."

"No you're not!"

"I'm too fucking old for this shit."

"Babe, let me in. I'll make you feel better."

I heard him sigh deeply even from the other side of the door. It was a good five minutes before he let me inside. The room was dark, with the blinds pulled down and the light off. I can now confirm he had a huge headache as well as a head injury. Talking softly and slowly was important.

"How are you doing?"

He remained silent. I slowly approached him as he stood in the middle of the room. I don't know what his actions were going to be. Once I was directly in front of him, I held his arms down with my hands.

"Where do you hurt?"

"My heart." Came his depressed reply.

I figured it was because his pride was hanging by a thread. It was up to me to help him. I believed he was crying when I was asleep because the room felt full of melancholy.

"Niko, baby. What can I do to make you feel better?"

"Nothing. I never thought I would feel this useless. A goddamned twenty something year old knocked out an Army veteran. Shows how life is a cunt."

I normally don't like that word, but I wanted him to say what was plaguing his heart. I nonverbally convinced him to carry on by lightly caressing his arms.

"I can't believe I was overpowered by a young shit. You were the one to take him out. I never wanted you to become like me."

"I became like you to protect you. Like you do for me."

"You shouldn't have to protect me!" The sudden rush of anger made him fall back onto the foot of the bed. He held his head to prevent himself from passing out again.

"Relax, Niko." I say in front of him.

"Just go away. I don't want you here with me when I am like this. I am weak. I am old. I am trash."

His words of self abuse only made him spiral downward into a deeper depression. I've dealt with depression in my patients at the retirement home, but it was easily combated with a stupid witty joke, or a surprise gift. Niko's depression was so dark and deep that it even pulled me along. This was beyond my skill, but I still wouldn't give up on him.

I moved closer to him and cradled his head. He resisted a little. I figured his sadness was crippling him. He would have easily pushed me away had he not been feeling drained. I started to massage his scalp to relax him a little. I hoped too that it would allow him to let the hours go, so he can start on a better note tomorrow.

"Are you hungry, babe?"

"No." He whispered. I could tell it was working a little.

His breath became slow and shallow. I felt his anger and depression fading away. I felt so close to him. His hopelessness allowed me inside his aching heart, and I was able to help him climb out of his hole.

I eased him back on the bed. I wanted him to lay on his stomach to massage his back. Before he laid back, I removed his bloodstained shirt. I told him that removing his shirt would help him relax after he protested a little. He laid on his stomach and propped his head on a pillow. I could tell he got comfortable when he let out a deep sigh of content. I find his phone, and I play some of his music to help him forget. I texted my brother with my free hand while my other one rubbed between his shoulder blades. I asked him to bring my lotion, so I can go for all his senses. The music from his phone gave his ears something to listen to, his body was being massaged, and his sense of smell was a way to give him an escape. My brother's reply came asking me if we were decent.

You don't mind seeing Niko half naked, do you? He just has his shirt off.

I could tell my brother made some gross noises, but he did pull through for me and mostly Niko. He handed me the lotion I asked for and left the room, closing the door behind him. I kissed his back before I lotioned my hands. I wasn't sure if he fell asleep already, because he made no motions as I massaged his back. The only way I was sure he was half awake was when he moaned deeply at my motions. The lotion scent filled the room. I could tell he was feeling pretty good.

"I swear, you're an expert at this." He said into his pillow.

I smiled behind him. I was hoping he'd say something.

"I love you, Niko Bellic. No matter what happens, what happened to you, what you did. I'll always love you."

He unexpectedly turned under me to face me. He held an intensity I never saw on a man. His eyes screamed at me to kiss him. My body responded to his silent demand, and I enveloped him in my kiss. His arms wrapped around my body ensuring to not let me go. I wasn't going anywhere, but it was a comforting thing for him to hold something after being so damaged.

Our lips seperated only for a second for the both of us to catch our breath. We met again and the passion ignited. The love we shared was getting the best of us, and we began to take each others clothes off. My heart was racing as he took my shirt off between kisses. His hands unhooked my bra, and he tossed it on the floor.

We paused for a moment to look at each other in the eye. His dark brown eyes begged me not to stop despite Karen and my brother in the other room.

I chucked to myself as I thought. Niko held a look of confusion as to what was so funny.

"Is it an inside joke?" He whispered.

"Kind of. I made a bet with my brother. It was meant to be a joke."

"What kind of bet?" He asked when I didn't elaborate.

"He and I made a bet that I couldn't keep my hands off of you for an hour. I lost that bet."

"Well, you really didn't."

"How so?"

He smiled and that made me tear up a little. I hoped to see him smile again. Even if it was over something as stupid as a childish bet.

"You kept your hands off of me for a good day and a half. I was the one who was touching you. The bet didn't include me touching you, did it?"

"Well, no."

"How much was the bet for?"

"$1,000."

Niko threw his head back in a hearty laugh. This of course made me cry. He wiped my tears away when he heard me lose it.

"Thank you so much for making me not feel like total shit. I can't believe you made me feel better."

"I've worked with a lot of depression at my job before I met you. You're case was the worst I've seen, but it was the typical symptoms."

"Typical symptoms?"

"Solitude, refusing help, food, water, seclusion, not being able to look at others in the eye, staying in dark areas. I knew if I fought all of those to get to you, I'd get you to smile again."

He smiled once more and drew closer. His lips brushed against mine, and I trembled over him as my arousal thumped in my veins.

"I sure hope you plan on doing something with a half naked me on you." I say against his lips, causing him to raise goosebumps. I really needed him.

A knock came from the other side of the door and we both turned to glare at the intruder as the door opened. My brother averted his eyes and mocked a dying noise like it was torturing him to see us the way we were.

"What the Hell do you want!" I shouted.

"Just wanted to see if you two wanted something to eat." He said with his hands over his eyes. "Karen is ordering pizza."

"I'm sick of pizza." Niko pouted.

"Well, it's that or Chinese, and I am sick of Chinese."

Niko rolled his eyes. "Fine, whatever. Get pizza then."

"Pretpostavljam da je seks izvan prozora." I said.

"U pakao sa pizzom. Sviđa mi se hladna pica. Daj mi tu pičku"

Before I could ask what he said, he lifted me from the bed and laid me on my back. I assumed it was about sex, and I readily and hungerly awaited his cock. He loomed over me and all my senses were wanting him to just lose it.

He sent his pants flying and his erection was throbbing with need. He rushed to remove my pants and threw them over his shoulder. He took a deep inhale from my pants and grinned deviously. My sent fueled his arousal. My face flushed a deep red, and my body temperature was hot enough to burn through the mattress. His eyes locked onto mine, and I felt my arms enclose around his neck. All I saw was him. The background faded away to yeild to my lover.

Niko brought his hand between my legs and rubbed my clitorous. I threw my head back at his foreplay. His index and middle finger wriggled over it, and I was moaning as loud as I could. His lips kissed mine to keep me from yelling. He played around with my clitorous as he entered inside me. The feeling was beyond comprehension as he filled me as I so desired for a long time. It almost hurt as I felt my nails burrow into his skin. He let out a growling chuckle as his way of telling me he wanted it rough. I lifted my head to see him still smiling with his eyebrows drawn low. I sank my teeth into his shoulder. He roared out in ecstacy and rammed like a wild stallion. His vigor and stamina that he lacked before exploded inside his body. I wondered how long it's been since he was this rough in bed. I could tell he was enjoying himself. I certainly was enjoying his work.

He brought his cock out of me, and he beckoned me to sit up. I did as commanded, and he stuffed his member inside my mouth. I did the best I could to please him. I wrapped my hand at the base to remind myself how much I could take in. He moved his hips along with me sucking him off for a few minutes. He hissed through his teeth and that made me respond by standing up. I wanted him back inside me. He laid on the bed, and I followed. I didn't delay as I forced him inside of me. The pain felt good, and he thrusted upwards rapidly. His heels pressed into the mattress to give him leverage as he madly fucked me. He slapped my ass, and I called out his name as if I was his pet. I looked down at him and his neck muscles were rigid and his eyes had a drive in them.

He grunted along with his thrusting and it was making me go wild. He slapped my ass five more times and continued to drive upward. Moments later, his hands held my wrists down as if to try to limit my movements. I leaned forward as he was getting a little too much for me to take. My mouth draped open as I no longer could form words. My tits moved with his thrusts and that made him lose it. His mouth found my nipples and nibbled down to increase my wetness. It worked as I felt my juices coat his cock. He moaned something in Serbian again along with his reckless drilling.

I was immobilized by his strong hands holding me down, but I was able to lift myself up higher so he couldn't reach. This only drove him crazy and I was on my side in an instant. He lifted my leg high above his shoulder and he grasped onto it. He directed his penis inside me again, and it filled me. A loud gasp escaped from my lungs as he plunged in deeper and at a new angle. My eyes lost focus and it was all a blur as he continued on. It seemed like he could go on for hours with the stamina he had. His teeth raked up my leg and his bottom lip followed behind. His teeth clenched down as a chunk of my skin had his teeth marks. His breath was becoming harsh as he breathed against my leg. He continued on for a while like this with his eyes closed hard. I did my best to keep up with him. It would mean the world to him if I climaxed with him.

He suddenly stopped and brought my leg back down to the bed. His eyes had a tenderness I wanted to see after taking all he had.

"Am I hurting you?" His voice was ragged as he continued to take deep breaths.

"Yes. But it feels so good. Don't stop."

That was all he needed to hear as he covered his body over mine. Almost like he wanted to stop time from going on so we can focus on each other. His rough facial expression he had faded away into a softer loving expression.

"I always wanted someone who can take everything I had. I was tired of being careful and not able to lose it like I just did."

"So, now you know I can take it, are you just going to bullshit around? Or are you going to fuck me like the dirty girl I am?"

"You're not dirty. You're sweet with just a little bit of tart. The sweet is what I like. Moja slatka ljubavi. Ja bih to mogao zauvek."

His lips claimed mine in a passionate kiss. A moan escaped him as out lips broke apart. His fingers found my swollen pussy and wiggled them inside. My arousal swarmed over me as I could feel myself getting ready to squirt. Moans of boarderline pain mixed with pleasure escaped me and I coated the blankets with wetness.

"Well, that's the first time I did that to a woman." He chuckled.

"Niko, finish me." I called to him.

He made no objections and dove into me again. I cringed in pain from my recent squirt, but I wanted him to come with me. He held my shoulders to allow him to get a little deeper with each thrust. His head tossed back and his mouth hung open. He was getting swept under my spell.

"You. Feel. So."

He moaned deeply and squeezed his eyes closed tight. My climax came first before his. My muscles clamped down on him tight and he withdrew quickly. It was just in time for him to climax all over my stomach. He trembled over me as he struggled to hold himself up. It took my coaxing to get him to lay down on me. We both took deep breaths as we both recovered together. I felt a smile as he placed his head at the bend of my neck. I thought to myself that I finally was able to last as long as he did. I'm sure he was thinking the same thing, but I wasn't able to see his reaction.

"I love you, Niko Bellic."

I felt his chest shake as he chuckled against my skin.

"I love you even more." He murmered.

His music was the only thing that was heard in the room. Our breathing slowed, but we still remained as one. I could swear he fell into a light sleep as he took in my scent. It soothed him.

I realized suddenly that my pants were still over his shoulder and I laughed.

"What's so funny?" He murmered once more.

"You're an animal."

He lifted his head which I was sure it felt five times heavier from being overspent.

"I'm an animal?"

"Yes. Your behavior could only be described as animalistic. I loved it."

He took a long sigh and smiled.

"You make me so happy."

I felt a tear form again. I was glad I made him happy because he made me happy too. His next comment frightened me however.

"Can I ask for your hand in marriage?"

I froze. There was nothing I could say. If I said no, I'd hurt him. If I said yes, I'd hurt myself. I wasn't ready to be married to him, and I knew he wasn't ready.

I took a long inhale to explain why I wasn't ready, but he kissed me by surprise. I accepted his kiss and held him close to my body.

"You don't have to answer that. It was in the moment. I shouldn't have asked. Forget it."

"No, Niko. It's okay. I love to hear how you feel. Good and the bad. I want you to tell me these things. I want to be able to help you if I can if you are having problems and I want to be there to smile with you when you're happy."

"I doubt you'll be able to help me all the time."

"But you know I will be there for you when you're feeling like crap."

He took my hand and held it to his chest. I felt his heart beat and again I smiled.

"Svaki otkucaji srca su za vas. Ja živim zbog tebe."

I understood a little bit of what he said.

"Bolje da nastaviš da živiš, ili da te ubijem." I teased.

"Pizza is here!" Karen shouted.

"It looks like we don't have to eat cold pizza after all." I said and climbed off of him.

The loss of contact seemed to make him frown slightly. In order to keep him happy, I extend my hand to him off the bed. We decided it was best we both get dressed to eat together. I take my pants off of Niko and laugh uncontrollably. The sudden noise alerted the two outside. Sure we were making a lot of noise when we were having sex, but my laughter sounded like shouting. The two opened the door to see the both of us standing in the nude. Niko had the typical deer in the headlights look while I slid behind him.

"Will you two knock next time!" He said as he threw his hand in front of his manhood.

The door slammed shut followed by a unison apology.

Minutes later, Niko and I emerged from the bedroom, starving beyond comprehension. It was hard work keeping up with him.

"I guess you two will be sleeping together after all." My brother said.

"I guess so." Niko said as he took a bite of his pizza.

I gathered him and I a drink of water and sat next to him. He and I made goofy faces at each other like children as we ate. Karen told us to knock it off or one of us would choke.

"I am not doing CPR on idiots."

We both laughed even though we were both insulted. It was close to 9 pm, and both Niko and I were thoroughly exhausted. The both of us crashed on the couch as Niko held his phone while we tried to watch a movie. I was snuggled up against his chest. His warmth comforted me as I was the first to fall asleep. Niko was for sure moments after me.