"I can't breathe!" Sophia shouts. Her face is bright red and she won't stop shaking. She's terrified.
"It's okay, just drink your water." Callie stands up and looks at Jude. "You let her smoke pot?" She's furious, I've never seen her this angry.
"It's not his fault, neither of us was with her," I speak up.
"And, where were you?" She crosses her arms. She's acting just like Stef.
"She was with me." Taylor takes my hand. "This is no one's fault it's just a bad reaction." She seems to have sobered up a lot more now.
"You shouldn't have been having a party like this in the first place!" She yells at Taylor.
"Hey, don't get mad at her," I snap back.
"You're supposed to be her best friend, how could you let this happen?" She yells at me again.
"You're supposed to be my sister, why are you so mad at me? She's the one who's high."
"Because she's my sister too, and you were supposed to be looking out for her." She's right, I didn't think about that. But after what Sophia said to me, I'm not so sure we're best friends anymore.
After two hours of trying to get Sophia to stop crying, she finally calms down. She's sat on the couch, huddled up with a cup of green tea. Her eyes dart around the room still, surveying the room, searching for an escape. I don't think she knows she's doing it. She's talking to Callie, trying to explain herself.
"I'm sorry that you got dragged down here," She says, "Are you going to tell dad?" She still hasn't caught her breath.
"No, but if it happens again I will. What were you thinking?"
"I don't know." She looks at me, sorrow in her eyes. "Just a lot going on right now. It won't happen again." Taylor, Jude, and I go into the kitchen.
"You alright?" Taylor holds my hand.
"Me? I'm fine."
"It's just, she did say some pretty harsh stuff," Jude says.
"Yeah but-"
"You didn't deserve that," He tells me.
"She didn't deserve this. Look, what she said hurt me of course, but she's having a hard time right now. I've said some things I've regretted when I'm struggling, I have to look at it from her perspective."
"Come on, we're going home." Callie comes in, she's still mad at us. I say goodbye to Taylor, kissing her before we get into the car. Sophia doesn't say anything to me the whole way home, and she gets out of the car she looks at me through the window, she looks more angry than sad now.
When I'm all tucked up in bed, I can't get to sleep for the life of me, I keep shuffling around and I can tell by Callie's huffs and puffs that she's getting very irritated with me.
"Just go to sleep already," She says.
"How can I sleep when you and Sophia are both mad at me?" I whine like a baby.
"Alright listen." She turns her lamp on and sits up. "I don't know about Sophia but anytime you, or her or Jude or any of the others do something stupid, of course, I'm gonna be mad. Because you're my sister and if anything, bad happened to you, I wouldn't be able to live with it. I would feel so guilty that I wasn't there to help you or stop you for that matter." I know what she means. If anything were to happen to any of my family, I would feel awful too. I guess I just couldn't see what I was putting her through, "I won't tell moms or my dad, but I need you to know, that if something happens and you need help, you can call me. Just stop getting yourself into these situations."
"I'm so sorry, you're right. I swear it's not happening again."
"It's okay, I'm sorry for being so angry. Truth is, I just love you guys a lot."
"I love you too, Callie." I close my eyes and try to think of good things, like my date with Taylor tomorrow.
