*Mature Warning*

Chapter eighteen: Lost memories

After hearing Rin's retelling of what she saw he knew this was no dream. What exactly it was is unknown, possibly a past memory that resurfaced or something else that's trying to reach her. At first the yokai Lord assumed it was a nightmare but nightmare's don't temporarily blind you or restrict your body as hers had. No this was something intentional trying to reach her.

It wasn't unheard of either, many people had tried to penetrate his mind over his mind to gain control, but this was more of a warning he thought in Rin's case.

His worry was justified, he was unable to help her in any way, whatever it was simply released her.

Lost in thought he failed to notice the women looking over at him.

"My Lord?" she meekly questioned.

"Yes," He responded.

"Please tell me your thoughts." She said, her doe-eyes bore into his soul as he tried to find the words to put it gently.

After several minutes she sighed loudly, "Be blunt my Lord."

"It could be a suppressed memory, something you'd long forgotten or a dream."

Rin shook her head, "It was no dream. I felt the warmth of this woman's hand on my head, her tears that fell. The pain was everywhere all at once. If it is a suppressed memory, why do not remember this woman."

"Your vision was blurred Rin."

"Yes, but I remember my mother's voice and that wasn't her. She knew my name, no one has called me Karin for a very long time. No one even knows that is my given name." she said sternly.

"What else do you remember from your childhood?" he asked.

"Honestly not much. I was very young, but I remember where my old village was. I remember I had two younger siblings that had died the night of the bandit attack, but I hardly remember their names. All I can recall are pieces." she said.

Rin protectively put her arms around herself and drew her knees to her chest. Remembering that tragic event of that night still caused her to shake uncontrollable but remembering before that was harder, her memory felt fractured after that and again when the wolves came, and she died.

"What about your father Rin?" he asked softly.

Rin shook her head, "As far as I know it was only my mother and younger siblings. Even then, I was so young I barely remember their faces."

Sesshomaru had left it at that, he didn't want to distress his mate any more than he already had.

The next day…

Rin had woken up very early and began to pack. She was sad to leave the beautiful cave, but she had made up her mind of what to do next.

The demon Lord sat in the corner and watched her silently. The woman had dark bags under her eyes and a frown drawn upon her face, he knew she was bothered but he knew not what to do. Feelings were still new to him, and he'd never had to comfort anyone, let alone know how too.

"Where do you intend to go Rin?" he asked.

Rin jumped at the sound of his voice, placing her hand over her heart. It was still very early and there was barely light inside the cave, but she saw his glowing orbs to her right.

"You scared me, Sesshomaru!" she replied.

The demon got up and walked towards her and grabbed her right hand, he brought it up to his lips and kissed it gently.

"Where are you going?" he said again.

"To the village I grew up in."

He hummed lightly, "Why?"

Rin looked away from him and he growled at her, her eyes widened as he grabbed her chin and lifted it to meet his graze.

"Look at me when you are speaking. I will not ask again." He commanded.

"I'm going back to the village I grew up in because there are things I don't remember." She responded.

Rin held his gaze but as she spoke he didn't release her chin. As she continued to speak he traced his thumb over her bottom lip.

"How so." He asked.

"It's as if there are holes in what I remember. Going back there could help uncover what I've lost." she whispered solemnly.

Sesshomaru let her go and she found herself missing his touch.

"We leave at first light. You're exhausted, rest." he muttered.

Rin took a step forward, "But I am not tired."

The woman placed her hands on his chest and slowly parted his shirt revealing his pale flesh. She couldn't see well but she felt his muscles contracting when she trailed her nails down his skin.

She removed his swords at his waist, mindful of Bakusaiga, the explosive fang and gently placed them both beside their feet. She untied his waistband and let his pants fall to the floor. He rolled his shoulders back to allow the silk top to fall as well.

Never breaking eye contact, he pulled her to his chest with speed only a demon could manage and swiftly cut down the back of her kimono. Sesshomaru gripped her legs and lifted them up around his hips as he turned and walked through the cave.

Rin couldn't see a thing as they went deeper into the cave, without warning he placed his hand over the back of her head and placed her on something soft.

Rin threw off the rest of her kimono as Lord Sesshomaru kissed down her body. Rin quickly grabbed his face in both hands, pulling him back up to her.

Rin kissed him hard, as their lips and tongues fought with each other. She swirled her tongue over his fangs and bit his bottom lip. Placing her hands on his bare chest, she pushed him back and turned him until she was positioned on top of him.

She was more than ready for him, there was no need for foreplay as she swiftly lowered herself onto his awaiting member in one quick motion. The woman bit back a hiss at the sharp pain, no matter how wet she was for him it always took a minute to adjust to his size. She felt him burrow deep inside of her and as her legs flattened outward more by his hips, she threw her head back and arched her back.

Sesshomaru watched her through half lidded as she slid down onto him, he could see his own outline inside her stomach and as her inner walls clenched around him.

He was not small by any means and she took all of him well. An inhuman growl and her breathy moan bounced off the walls of the cave as he bucked his hips up into her without warning. He sat up and grabbed her hips tightly, he lifted her easily and slammed her down as he simultaneously thrust upwards. The noises she made and how her nails dug into him, successfully breaking the skin made him go faster.

Sesshomaru leaned them forwards until she was on her back again, he brought her legs up to his shoulder and continued to mercilessly thrust inside of her.

Rin's moans mixed with his, as she arched her back and she tightened around him like a viper. Sesshomaru moaned with a mix of pain and pleasure as she got tighter than he'd ever felt, squeezing everything out of him as he placed his elbows next to her head to support his body.

The woman's body convulsed slightly as her breathing staggered, her eyes closed tightly and her body still tightly gripping him. Sesshomaru began to massage around her hips in an attempt to calm her.

"Relax." He said softly into her ear, kissing her neck as her body slowly released him.

He pulled out of her and turned over onto his back, cradling the tired woman next to him.

Gently, he ran his claws up and down her back as she fell asleep next to him.

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