Friday, June? 3?, 2011

Osashiburi ne, Nikki-chan

Not really, but it has been over two days since I last wrote in you. Yesterday a lot happened. When I got up I decided if I am going to talk to my nikki, I am going to talk to Niko. What's the difference. So Niko gave herself a pep talk. Not too soon: Nozomi phoned to talk to Niko. She said maybe somebody can be arranged to tutor Niko and if it is the girl she has in mind she is even worthy of helping a super-idol. THen she made Niko sit back on the bed, but Niko was already doing that. "The Idol Club wants to meet you sometime," she said. Niko is the idol club, and she had already had a meeting this morning.

But Niko-nii could not say that to Nozomi. But Nozomi said emergency arrangements were made. That means she and Eli did it. She said there are six people in the club now, just like she, Ah-chan and Mim-chan said. But Niko is not the president. It's to keep the club going. Niko is not even a member anymore. Niko is not even a real Otonokizaka student anymore. But Minami-sensei said that she feels Niko can rejoin after she heals if she takes extra courses after school or has a tutor. Okay, Niko can accept this. This is the "six members joined" that she can believe. It would be impossible they heard Niko needed members and joined out of sympathy.

Nozomi says the new president, Hanayo, a second-year, looks up to Niko, Niko is going to believe it when she sees it. She says Niko should meet them as soon as possible. That she will get along with them, including the girl that dances in the center - they already have routines? They must have done idol practice in middle school. She mentioned that girl twice - Honoka maybe was the name. The way she said her name was strange. Something is up with that girl.

Nikki-chan, two nights ago:

Niko hasn't written about that. But it was the reason for Niko's pep talk. That day Niko woke up, made breakfast, and had a nap. Then she did housework. Niko is not a NEET, she is a handicapped housewife and mother right now. And sometimes sleeping at night is hard the past few days. Niko was pretty asleep though, two nights ago. Then she heard screaming from the room Kokoro, Kokoa and Kotorou are in. Niko has her own room but it's on a cat's forehead.

Kokoro knocked on Nico's door and I said she can open it. We went to their room, slowly. Both Kokoa and Kotarou were howling. I thought one set the other off, but no. They both had bad dreams. Kokoro was pulling out futons. She wiggled her hand down for me to come to her.

"When we heard the train crashed, Mama's face was really bad, Onee-san. I think it was like when Papa went into the next world, but I don't remember well. She looked like a grandma and she didn't seem to know what to do. They have dreams like this sometimes since then, that they're left all alone." Kokoro and the little ones pushed the beds to the wall and put futons on the floor. I lay down in the middle, Kokoa got on one side and Kotarou on the other. Kokoro was next to Kokoa on another futon and we could reach and hold hands. My crutches were next to Kotarou. "Kokoa and Kotarou I have bad dreams, too. If we all stay together, we won't have so many bad dreams, okay?"

Not long after I went to their room. Mama looked in. Kokoro and I were by the closet with the futons. "Niko and Kokoro, you need to make sure they don't hurt Niko's arm and leg. She could be injured for life if you're careless. Both of you watch that. Niko, if they hurt you even a little, I want you to really yell out. Say OW! or whatever so they notice it and it scares them. It's the only way little children like that can understand it's not a game."

It's a feeling of freedom having a license to yell OW! so Niko did. By the way, Kokoro was the first person to tell Niko how the hell she got into a hospital in the first place. I didn't make any fuss over it, in case Kokoro would feel guilty about revealing some sort of big secret. I did wonder what I had been doing on a train. It was too early for a school trip. By the way, that's how we slept. Niko and her siblings had no more bad dreams that night.