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I sat in my room at my home and it almost felt like I never left. My room was exactly how I left it except of course my clothes and some or lost of my stuff being shipped to me in California. I sat in my bed looking at my desk hat remained and seeing the mirror also that remained with pictures covering all round it.

Pictures of the girls and I. Pictures of the whole group and pictures of Lucas and I. Even though we broke up, I just couldn't take the pictures down. I just stared back at them and my heart hurt, but I still stick by the decision I confirmed yesterday.

Brucas have officially broken up.

My phone dinged beside me signalling a message had come threw.

Hey you, I hope all went okay yesterday. I know how hard that must have been. I'm always here to talk to anytime B. See you soon M xxx

I smiled at his text reading it a few times before replying.

Hi you, yeah it was super hard yesterday, but things ended okay I think. Lucas has a little more insight of why we have broken up and I think he gets it a little. Can't wait to get back to campus how and finally live the college life I deserve. See you soon, B xxx

I press send and quickly after my phone dinged again and a heart emoji was sent making me smile again.

After what felt like forever I got myself up and had a shower before getting dressed. The girls and I had plans tonight before we head back to college. So I had some hours to kill and I have to go see Lily and explain. No doubt she'll hate me, but I had to explain everything to her too. The break up wasn't just hard for Lucas and I. It was hard for everyone around us too.

I got to Karen's house and saw Lily sitting on the swinging bench outside. Josh was beside her, but once he saw me he kissed her sweetly on the lips then headed inside. Lily didn't even look up when she heard the gate open and then close and me sit down beside her.

"Hey Lil" I say hoping she would talk to me "Lily please say something"

"I don't need you to come to my cheer competitions. Not anymore" she goes to stand up, but I reach out to stop her "please don't touch me" she whispers in a sad tone

"I'm sorry Lil okay I am, but Lucas and I broke up because I'm not ready for the relationship right now. I'm not ready to do long distance"

"Then you shouldn't have done it Brooke. Yes the girls and I kinda pushed you into it, but you should have shouted no a lot louder than you did and now Lucas is hurting even more because you were too selfish to listen to yourself and let go before you both went to college"

"Lily please understand. Lucas understand and so does everyone else, please don't shut me out"

"Oh like you've shut us all out huh? You are such a hypocrite Brooke and to think I actually looked up to you. Like I actually thought that one day you and I would be sisters. Would be family and now that has all just disappeared so why don't you go and do what you do best and disappear, ghost us all like you have been doing since you left for California"

That broke my heart her feeling like this, but what did I expect. I mean I had to break up with Lucas for myself and my mental state, but seeing the look of hurt written all over Lily's face breaks me even more.

"You can leave now Brooke, there's nothing more I want to say"

"Lily please" I let out a shaky breathe as a single tear fell down my cheek.

She just shook her head and headed inside this time I didn't stop her, I just watched her go. I stayed sitting on the swinging chair as I tried so hard to catch my breath as sob after sob escaped my mouth.

I finally find the strength to stand up to walk away when the door opened again "Brooke" it was Lucas this time. I slowly turn around as I wipe my face as a concerned look appeared on his face "Brooke what happened? Are you okay?"

I shake my head as another sob came out "Lily hates me. She actually hates me"

"No she doesn't. She's just upset. We all are" he replies walking towards me "no one saw this coming Brooke and everyone is just trying to deal with it just like we are"

"I know I know" I nod agreeing with him because he was right. Everyone was trying to deal with this break up just like we were "I just thought Lily would at least try to understand to let me explain, but she just... She didn't want too"

"She's just hurt Brooke. Give her some time. We all need that right? We all need time"

"You're right Luke. I'm sorry" he slowly strokes my face giving me those butterflies he always had.

"Don't be sorry Brooke just come find me when you're ready" he then kisses my cheek and heads back into the house.

I went back home to re get myself ready because my face looked a mess after all that crying. Once my face was redone I grabbed a set of my dad's car keys knowing he wouldn't mind. I wrote him a little note and then headed out.

I got to Karen s cafe, not the place I would have picked right now, but it was our usual spot so I couldn't change that. I got out of the car after parking and head inside hearing the bell ding signalling my arrival. I scanned the cafe and see the girls at our usual booth.

"Hey Brooke" I stop at that voice that warmed my heart every time I saw her. I just hope she doesn't hate me like Lily does.

"Hi Karen" I turn around and she had a smile on her face that warmed me a little and my anxiety settled. She didn't look as Lily did earlier

"We didn't really get to catch up at dinner" she says "how are you? How's school?" she asks wiping down the counter.

"It's been hard, but I'm trying to cope with it" I say honestly "Cheer is fun and the girls are great and then I'm trying to juggle my fashion major as well and then you have the friends I've made over there and the girls here that I'm also trying to juggle and it all gets so much sometimes"

She nods like she understood "I get it" she states "I've been there Brooke and I get how hard it can be especially going alone and having to make new friends and still try to keep contact with your previous friends" I didn't realise she would completely understand that made me feel so much better "Lucas told me that you guys broke up" a look formed on my face and she took my hand in hers "it'll be okay you know" she assured "Lucas loves you a lot Brooke and I know you love him too, but sometimes love isn't enough. You have to make sure that you in your self are okay. I personally think if you need to have a break then you made the right decision and everyone around you will realise it too. Lily will come around eventually Brooke, don't worry"

I give her a small smile and nod trying so hard not to cry right now "thank you for understanding. I love you"

"I love you too Brooke. I know you and Luke will be end game. I have a feeling" she whispered "now I think the girls are patiently waiting for you. I'll see you sweetie" I nod and lean over the counter and kiss her cheek.

"Thank you" I whisper before jumping down off the stool and heading over to the girls.

My phone dinged as I headed over to the girls. I stop and check my phone seeing his message pop up. I open it

Need a ride from the airport when you get back to Cali? I fly in a few hours before you, we could go for some food and talk about our home trip. M xxx

I quickly reply.

Sure that'll be great. I fly in at 5. B xxx

Another heart emoji followed. I place my phone back into my bag and continue to the girls "Hey" I say when I get to the booth and slide in beside Haley.

"Hey" hey harmonized making me smile.

"That looked like it didn't hurt" Rachel nodded to Karen referring to our conversation.

"She was actually super cool about everything" I reply "that's why Karen is such an awesome women" and she really was. Lily and Lucas hit the jackpot with her. I wish I had a Mom like her, who cared like she did.

"That's really good Brooke" Haley smiles

"How did the chat with Lily go?" Peyton asked. I didn't tell them I went to see her, but they knew I had to before I left and I literally only had today to do that.

The bell above the door dinged signalling someone coming in. I turned around and saw Lily and Josh walking in. She turned towards our booth and our eyes locked and she had this horrid look on her face and then turned away.

"Oh that good huh?" Peyton added.

I fell back in my chair "she hates me" I state for what felt like 100 times "she was really mad, but Lucas and Karen both said she just needs time to adjust, I just hope that's true"

"I'm sure it is Brooke" Haley side hugs me "now let's order some food"

After I met the girl and we have some food and talked for like hours it had gotten dark and we said our goodbyes because Peyton and Rachel were meeting their guys and flying out tonight and Haley and Nathan were driving to Charlotte tomorrow morning.

I decided to drive to the river court and just sit on one of the picnic tables and look out at the river. I was heading back to California and I wasn't sure when I would be back home. The wind had picked up so I do my jacket up and hold myself.

"Fancy seeing you here" Lucas says walking over and getting up and sitting next to me.

We sat in silence for a little while and I enjoyed having his company again. I have missed him so much, but I push that aside knowing I'm doing this for both of us. I just don't want us to have what ifs and those ruining us permanently.

"Are you really okay Brooke?" he asks breaking the silence "you can talk to me"

"I'm okay Luke, I'll get there don't you worry that's why I did what I did, I don't want you to have to worry about me. Enjoy college, have fun. Sleep with whoever except Aria and just do you" I reply "I know it really feels like it's the end of us, but it isn't. We just have to believe in fate and in our love and if we really and truly do love each other then that will bring us back together in the end"

"And I believe our love is strong enough to do that" and I was glad he thought like that. He gave me a smile. A proper full teeth smile melting my heart "well I better get going I head back to New York in the morning" he got down from the table holding out his hand for me to take to help me down "it was really nice seeing you Brooke. I'll miss you"

This would probably be the last time I see Lucas for a while. It was going to be so hard not to think about him, but I was doing this for me "I'll miss you too Luke" he brings me into him and I wrap my arms around his body holding him against me. It felt really nice being so close to him again and his smell will always be imprinted in my mind.

We finally pull apart and I try with everything in me not to cry "this isn't the end Brooke. It's a I'll be seeing you" he leaned down and places a sweet kiss to my lips and then he turned away and headed back the way he came.

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