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Well I hope you enjoy this chapter is it Lucas's POV

Okay I know not telling Brooke about Rose or even that she was coming to thanksgiving was wrong, but the way she reacted for breaking up with me first was unbelievable. Storming out like we are back in high school. This crap doe not fly now. Why should I feel bad about moving on? Isn't that what she told me to do last year. She told me to live college like a single guy. To date other people and I've done just what she asked and now because I'm not miserable moping around she doesn't like it.

Well fuck her. She done this. She broke us to adventure. She done a Julian and she doesn't even realise it.

You should go after her Luke" Rose says surprising me "she means a lot to you I know that. Go see if she's okay"

Just her being so calm and mature about it showed me why I said yes when she asked me to dinner. She wasn't fawning over me like Aria kept and keeps doing, she is just soulful and calm and just nice to be around.

"I won't be long I promise" Rose nodded gave me a peck to the lips and then turned back to the group as I got up and followed Brooke and Jason.

"Oi" I shouted seeing Brooke walking down the drive "Oi" I called again frustrated and a little pissed off with how she was acting "Brooke stop" she didn't "BROOKE!" I shouted more firm which got her to turn towards me.

"I don't want to do this Lucas, not now"

"Well I don't really care what you want Brooke" I reply seeing a shocked expression cross her face "Why are you being such a brat?"

"A brat?" she replied getting equally as pissed as me when I nodded "I didn't even want to come this year and yet the girls persuaded me and I finally drag myself onto a plane to come here and find out you have a girlfriend who you brought home to your Mom and no one told me"

"Oh it's always poor Brooke isn't it" I say back "you broke up with me Brooke. You told me to go date other people, sleep with other people and I did exactly what you ask. You're just mad because you didn't think I would actually do it. You just thought I'd be miserable without you"

She looked away rolling her eyes and crossing her arms "well I was miserable the first two months, but Aaron dragged me out and I met people and I did what you wanted I slept with a few other girls at parties and all that"

"Oh wow Lucas two whole months you were miserable before your asshole of a room mate got what he wanted a single Lucas to wing man him at parties"

"You should not be acting like this when you broke up with me Brooke"

"I just wish someone would have told me"

"And I really am sorry for that, but you pulled a Julian, I didn't"

"Wait what?" her eyes turned back to me

"You pulled a Julian, you broke up with me to do your own thing, didn't Julian do that to you before senior year"

Her expression turned a little and I swear if looks could kill I would be dead. Her whole demeanour changed.

"That was different Lucas because for one I wasn't stringing you along after the break up and he never really loved me. He loved the idea of the life our parents sold to us. I love you Lucas. I loved you, I just... It was too hard and I had to let go just for now"

"I'm not going to be your puppet Brooke. I'm not just gonna jump when you say. I'm better than that, I would have hoped you'd think more of me than that"

"I do think of you more than that Luke which is why I put us on a break" she replied with a sigh and I could tell she looked defeated "I didn't realise I would have lost you forever"

"Brooke I honestly don't know what to say anymore. Rose and I are together and who knows how long we will work out, but you know I'll always have a soft spot for you because you're my pretty girl and always will be, but I can't break up with Rose because you feel some type of way"

I mean yes my feelings for Brooke are still very strong and seeing her again after so long they flooded back with no stop, but I can't just drop everything and everyone and jump into her arms. Life doesn't work like that.

I owe it to myself and to Rose to give her and I a fair chance. If we work out then okay, if we don't then okay.

"I'm not asking you to break up with her Lucas. I just wanted to be notified that's all before hand so I wasn't blind sighted like I was"

"And again I'm really am sorry about blind sighting you like that Brooke"

No one said anything and we stood staring at each other for a moment or two in silence. It was a bitter sweet silence, but I wasn't backing down. Brooke did this. She hurt us and she hurt me.

"You should head back in" she breaks the silence first almost scaring me out of it "your girlfriend is probably worried"

"Brooke you should stay" I reply "really you should show Jason around town and stuff. Don't leave because of us" I then turn around and head back inside.

"So that's Brooke then huh?" Rose says as I began to clean the kitchen for Ma. I nodded placing a plate into the sink to clean it "she's very pretty"

"So are you" I reply leaning down and placing a kiss to her cheek "what's wrong?" I see this look on her face. A look of sadness.

"Having your boyfriend being friends with an ex is new for me" she replies "scares me a little"

I wash the soap of the plate and place it on the draining board. I then rinse my hands and begin to dry them "don't be scared Rose, Brooke and I are just... We have a past yes, but me and you are in the right now"

Did I mean that... Of course I did, but does it hurt to see Brooke after a year of course it does.

"I'm gonna go call my parents" she says taking out her phone and walking towards the back door.

"Man this thanksgiving doesn't top last, but damn the drama is real" Nathan says leaning against the side "what are you thinking man?"

"How Brooke and I got here after everything we went through senior year" I reply really thinking about it.

"Brooke went through a lot with Julian dude and I'm not making excuses for her, but he hurt her pretty bad and yeah she didn't love him like she loves you, she still cared and her feelings still got hurt pretty bad after what he did to her" I understood all that, but I thought she got pass it, but I guess deep down Julian did ruin her trust more than we thought.

"She did what she did because of Julian and yes that is a shit way of doing it, but she thought it was best because she wished Julian did it like that instead of embarrassing her all summer" maybe he had a small point "anyway Haley and I and the group are going for lunch tomorrow before we all fly back to college, you should join us"

"I'll talk to Rose, but I don't think it should be a problem" he nods and pats my back..

"See you tomorrow man and remember don't be too harsh on Brooke, she is suffering more than any of us realise"

I pushed the door open Rose's hand in mine. I see Brooke sitting at the island talking to Ma

"How is school going? We didn't really get to talk last night after everything" I hear Ma ask

I saw a sad look over take her just from the side of her face I could tell how she was feeling.

"I miss home sometimes" I hear her say in a sad tone "sometimes I wish I never left, high school seemed easy. It was my safety net from life beyond that"

"I just messed up real bad Karen and I don't know what to do or how to feel about anything. If I feel mad then I'm selfish and a bad person and everyone shouts at me and if I act like I don't care then I'm even more of a bad person"

I hated that she felt that way maybe Nathan is right and something deep down for Brooke is hurting her. More than any of us realise.

"I just wish we could go back to last thanksgiving and do that whole year differently. Do the first year of college so differently"

"I'm sure it will all work out eventually Brooke. Don't give up okay" Ma gave Brooke a smile and then looked up at me for the first time since entering "Oh hey Luke I didn't see you there" I saw Brooke wipe a tear away and then turn towards Rose and I and a fake smile formed in her lips.

She was hurting.

"Hi Lucas" she continued with the fake smile "Hi Rose" Rose waved.

"Hey pretty, I mean Brooke" I could see in her eyes she was literally dying inside. The light in her eyes just wasn't there.

The rest of the group turned up and we all headed over to the booth. Brooke said nothing most of the time. She just sat scrolling through her phone.

"What's everyone doing for winter break?" Rachel asks looking towards Brooke.

Last year Brooke went away with her friends from college while the rest of the group and I came home and hung out.

"Brooke?" Rachel says

"Oh sorry" She says looking up at Rachel "I've got no plans for winter break this year"

Rachel nodded and then smiled "Great, so I was thinking we could head up to the cabin"

"Cabin?" I question not sure what they were talking about.

"Oh right you've not been" Brooke comments "We own a cabin in Utah. We used to spend every holiday up there"

"Cool" I reply

"So what do you think?"

"Yeah it'll be so fun" Haley nodded

"Yeah I'm in too" Peyton agreed

"Brooke" all eyes turned to her

"Yeah okay I'm in" I knew she was hesitant to go, but I think she feels guilty about missing last year.

"You guys should come too" Rachel turned to Rose and I

"I can't, but Luke you go" Rose replies "have fun with your friends"

I was a little hesitate, but I agreed anyways. We spent the other hour talking before we said our goodbyes and we all headed back to campus.

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