Sunday, June? 12?, 2011
Maki's party was good, Nikki-chan!
When Niko heard that Nozomi wanted her to go to a party for Nishikino-sempai that was at Kousaka-sempai's family business, she was nervous, Nikki-chan. Niko was worried she'd been a little rude to Kousaka-sempai. And she had only talked with Nishikino-sempai a little. But Nozomi said she had made friends with all of the girls in Muse and they were eager to see Niko, including Nishikino-sempai, who said please bring her.
When the car Nozomi came in got to Homura, Nozomi and the birthday girl got my wheelchair out and helped Niko into it. Nishikino-san said to call her Maki. Amazing for a tutor right? She said she was glad to see me. She said I wasn't just her study student, but her colleague in the idol club for dancing and music. The other Muse girls said the same. I met Kousaka's little sister, and re-met Ayase Alisa. Like Nozomi, she's changed a lot in a short time. Eli wasn't here, she's off in another city doing college stuff, according to Nozomi. I guess that's how you get into Kyoto or Toudai in three years.
Eli phoned to wish Maki a happy birthday. Nikki-chan, that was the only time Maki left my side the whole hour I was there. It looked like Eli was talking about some bad news for a while, Maki didn't look happy. Niko is trying to call her Maki now. Meet Maki-chan, Nikki-chan! Alisa asked her about the conversation and for some reason she looked mad. Nozomi asked her about it too. She said "I am sure she sent her regards to Niko, too." Maki looked funny but said that yeah Eli mentioned me and said it was great if Maki helped Niko lots and became friends with her - even close friends would be fine. For some reason, Nikki-chan, Nozomi looked a little unhappy hearing that. I don't think she's jealous of Maki-chan, so it's probably something Niko doesn't understand. From what Nozomi said once, both Alisa and Nozomi know Eli so well they can almost read her mind from a few words. For the rest of Muse, and for Niko, I think it's harder. Eli has a more aloof quality. Like Umi, the shy third year.
Kousaka-sempai herself baked the cake for Nishikino-sempai. It was a matcha cake with sour cherries - completely delicious. Even though it was her birthday, Maki-chan stayed and talked with Niko, and got her drinks and pushed her over to different groups to talk. Niko got tears over it. Towards the end Niko apologized to Maki-chan for crying at her birthday and Maki-chan just hugged Niko. It felt so good, Nikki-chan. I think calling her a hikikomori was a bad snap judgment by Niko.
Niko and Maki had some serious talk, too. Maki says she talked with Mama, Nozomi and Eli about Niko. Eli and Nozomi got a lawyer who will talk to Niko named Shirojima Mihae. I don't think Mama would be happy about going to court, but apparently it's a big lawsuit, so that would be less scary for her. Less scary for Niko, too. I am tired of being scared all the time, Nikki-chan. Maki-chan asked about Niko's bad dreams. Niko didn't remember a train crashing in her dreams, just being thrown around in the dark and hurt, that's it. The dream I had in the hospital - Niko remembered more in the dream, but now she can't remember all the dream. Maki-chan mentioned that Shirojima-sensei was warning her that young idols were being targeted by a sleazy agency called Talent Star-Ball right now, so if anyone from there called the Yazawa house, just hang up. I don't think even a sleazy agency is going to be calling Niko now, but thank you for thinking of me that way, Shirojima-sensei.
Something Niko can only say to her nikki:
I have noticed that Nozomi and Eli are very close, even though I don't know Eli very well and have only known Nozomi for a couple of months. Sometimes the way Nozomi talks about Eli is the way girls talked about boys they liked in middle school. Niko is not judging. An aspiring idol can't date anyway, but if girls want to practice by dating each other, even kissing, before they're adults, I think the world doesn't mind. Niko would never be like that, but even if Nozomi is like that, it doesn't make her any less sweet. Maybe Niko would be a little worried about it, but it's obvious that if Nozomi wanted to be like that, she would be that way with Eli. Maybe that's what's going on that Nozomi and Alisa were upset over. Has Nozomi confessed, or something? It could be Eli's too mature to play practice romance with a girl. It could be Eli told Maki-chan something. It may be Niko can worm things out of Maki-chan going forward.
This is the more secret topic Niko was getting up her nerve to write about, Nikki-chan. It could be Nishikino-sempai is "like that," or just wants to play romance - with Niko-nii. She looked at Niko with such loving eyes, it was a surprise to Niko. I know she is very tender-hearted, and I guess Nozomi said nothing but the good things about Niko to her. But still. Anyway, even if Niko could never be "like that" we will be in school together another two years. Nozomi and Niko can be best friends (Niko can imagine things in her nikki) and they can date Eli and Maki until Maki graduates and then Nozomi and Eli and I graduate. And after that, we can all be lifelong friends.
I really think Nishikino-sempai wanted to kiss Niko. It was an unsettling feeling. But if she is discreet about it, Niko might allow it. But she has to be VERY discreet. Niko has enough pain and trouble in her life, and hasn't given up 100% on being a super idol yet. Maki-chan is pretty - she looked much better at her party. Being with a pretty girl like that isn't bad for your image. Also you can say later "I was very close with my sweet friend, even holding hands and kissing. We were both very young." And even if two girls being together hurt Niko's chances with the nice agencies, there's always Talent Star-ball. That's a joke, Nikki-chan.
If Niko and Maki were dating, Maki-chan would write songs for Niko. I guess she already writes for the idol club and maybe wrote for Muse in middle school (they spelled it with a Greek letter - I really wonder who came up with that. It's kind of stupid, but they probably all had chuunbiyou). Maki-chan is pretty, smart and talented and has been an angel to Niko. Niko won't say anything, but if Maki-chan does, Niko's heart is prepared.
By the way, Maki-sempai was talking about Easter a lot, nikki-chan, even though we're now into summer, and it's a spring holiday! She really likes holidays like Easter and Christmas a lot. I don't know if her family is mixed Western and Japanese, or if they're Christians. Do you think it's a pity Japan doesn't celebrate Easter, like we do Christmas? I think the younger kids would love it.