A/N Hey! This one only took just over 4 months! Still wish it was faster but I'm getting my old groove back. I do worry about how good the contents are since I'm inexperienced in writing certain scenes in this chapter, so any and all constructive criticism is greatly welcomed and appreciated. As always I want to thank my beta reader Silenthorse for all the help! I hope you all enjoy the chapter!
'Breath in, breath out. Breath in, breath out. Deep breaths.' Izuku kept mentally reciting, as he did some of the breathing exercises Hound Dog taught him to calm his nerves. Why was he nervous? Well, his mom is currently driving him to a quirk testing facility for the required quirk testing. And if he was being completely honest, he is absolutely terrified. He already has enough issues with his quirk to begin with, but what if they find out his quirk is worse than they thought? What if they force him to use his gaze of lust? What if they find out he can turn someone into a permanent slave, further labeling him as a villain? What if they find out his quirk actually is what's making people in his life care about him?
Izuku was brought back to reality when he felt a hand on his knee. He didn't know he zoned out, or even that he was shaking and sweating. He looked over to his mom who was doing her best to give him a reassuring smile while still driving. "You know we can reschedule for another day. You have most of a year to get this done."
Izuku was debating asking her to just go home and reschedule the appointment when he felt his hand getting licked. Down on his lap was Azazel, who was doing his version of showing support. He ended up being a very attentive kitten who was good at picking up people's emotions. He was such an affectionate and friendly cat, but was also really protective.
One time Izuku was bringing Azazel with him to Kinoko's house when along the way a man recognized him. Unfortunately, he was on his own. But he never expected what happened next. Just as the man was about to unleash his inner Karen on Izuku, Azazel started hissing at the guy, making him back away in fright. To be fair, this hissing was not normal. It was more like a growl. A predatory, demonic, growl.
The man quickly left with his tail between his legs (not literally). Probably didn't want to risk getting attacked by an animal with a potentially dangerous quirk. As soon as he was out of sight, Azazel stopped and instantly went back to his friendly lovable self while obviously upping the affection. He was rubbing his head against Izuku's chest and meowing, asking for pets. Which he gave without thinking despite his shock, but it quickly became appreciation, so he gave Azazel a couple of the treats he brought with him.
He debated telling his mom about what happened out of fear of losing Azazel, which he hated even thinking about hiding it from her. But he was relieved to hear that he would be keeping his cat. Not only did they know there was a possibility that there was more to Azazel's quirk, but it was completely legal to own a pet with a dangerous quirk as long as they go through the necessary steps to register any new developments, and make him wear a vest out in public, similar to a service animals, warning others about the potential danger. Azazel hated the vest at first, but was able to get used to wearing it. He also quickly learned that when he was to wear the vest, it meant he was being taken somewhere, which usually meant more people giving him attention.
Izuku grabbed and held his mom's hand as he pet Azazel with the other while he smiled softly. "Thank you, but it's best I get this done as soon as possible. The more I know about my quirk the better anyways." He said, trying to look at the positives, but is still clearly nervous.
Shoka gave Izuku's hand a reassuring squeeze. "Ok, but if it gets to be too much, let me know. There isn't a limit to how many appointments you can have."
"I will, thank you." He said as he gave his mom a loving smile which she returned.
Meanwhile at Mei's house*
Mei and Kinoko were sitting in Mei's designated work area in her family's garage, going over some blueprints Mei drew up of some support gear for Kinoko. It was a device that would extract the toxins from her mushrooms, and turn it into a sedative or nonlethal poison then load it into a dart. But as Mei was going over the design, she noticed that Kinoko wasn't really paying attention.
"Hey, you ok?" Asked Mei concerned as she put a hand on Kinoko's shoulder, getting her attention.
Kinoko lightly shook her head. "Uh yeah, sorry, I didn't hear what you were saying." She answered sheepishly, as she tried to play it off. But Mei wasn't going to fall for it.
"Seriously, what's wrong? You've been acting strange these last few days." Said Mei.
"Seriously I'm ok, I'm just….." Kinoko started to argue before seeing Mei's deadpan expression. "*Sigh* I'm having second thoughts." She admitted solemnly.
"About what?" Mei asked questioningly.
"About confessing to Izuku." Quietly admitted Kinoko.
Mei was shocked, but not surprised. After Kinoko started being able to give Izuku attar the two of them had a talk about their mutual crush, no, mutual love for Izuku. Neither of them were subtle about it. It wasn't a long talk, it pretty much boiled down to Mei telling Kinoko that the two of them should confess together. At first Kinoko tried to deny her feelings, but Mei was having none of it and got her to admit it, though she still tried to tell Mei that Izuku would never like her like that. While Mei had wanted to confess for a few weeks, she wasn't about to risk hurting Kinoko, and possibly making her think she wasn't good enough, and decided to wait until Kinoko was also ready. So Mei convinced her to tease Izuku like she does, and watch how he would react, to build up her confidence.
Well, it worked. Kinoko's confidence started to soar. They had planned to confess a month ago, the day after Izuku's birthday, but with Izuku learning how to drive and getting to know his Grandma and uncle, they felt he had enough on his plate to worry about without adding any stress, worrying about their relationship due to his own insecurities. So they decided to hold off until his life became more comfortable again. Besides it's not like they'd be doing too much different anyways, though they have had to resist the urge to kiss him many times.
Unfortunately if Mei had to guess, it seems that despite the fact that Kinoko is still enjoying teasing Izuku and getting the same cute reactions, the long wait might be allowing Kinoko's insecurities to come back. Mei wasn't going to let something like that hold back her friend.
"Why? Did something happen?" Asked Mei.
Kinoko solemnly shook her head. "No, it's just I've been thinking, why would he want someone like me? Especially when he can have you? You're beautiful, smart, talented, kind, and caring." She said, then looked down, putting her hands on her chest, then looked over at her ass. "You also have an amazing figure, while mine is nothing special."
Mei put her hands on Kinoko's shoulders, gaining her attention, while giving her a reassuring smile. "Kinoko, don't sell yourself short, you're all of those things as well. The only thing I'm smart about is building my babies, while you have extensive knowledge of pop culture. There are many ways you can be smart. You are absolutely beautiful, you don't need big breasts or ass for that. Besides…." she started before she lifted her breasts with her hands. "...these are murder on the back, and make me a prime target for assholes and fuckboys." She said only half-joking.
"But what if that's what Izuku likes?" Kinoko dejectedly argued.
Mei gave Kinoko a kind but knowing smile. "Do you really think Izuku would be that shallow?" She asked, and after a few silent seconds Kinoko shook her head. "Exactly. Besides, you've seen his reactions to you, he definitely finds you attractive."
"But that could just be his usual nervousness." Kinoko weakly argued, subconsciously knowing Mei would argue that point as well.
"You've seen his normal nervousness, it's different from how he reacts to our, to your, teasing." Affirmed Mei.
"But what if you're wrong about that?" Asked Kinoko.
Mei let her head drop as she sighed. She wasn't good at this stuff, and it seemed they were just going to continue talking in circles. She had to think of something to boost her confidence, at least enough to get her to her confession knowing Izuku would take care of the rest. Suddenly Mei had an epiphany. Words weren't her strong suit, action was! She raised her head, giving Kinoko her toothy manic smile. "You think I might be wrong, I know I'm right. I know how to settle this." She stated.
Kinoko looked at her confused. "How?"
"We're asking Izuku out today." Stated Mei.
Kinoko looked at Mei with wide concerned eyes. "But that's exactly what I've been second guessing!"
Mei stood up from her seat and started Pulling Kinoko out of the workshop. "Yup, but the only way to get a definite answer is to get it straight from the source."
"But what if he rejects me?! It could make everything weird between us and ruin our friendship! I don't want that to happen." Argued Kinoko as tears started to form in her eyes, which made Mei stop in her tracks.
Mei grabbed hold of Kinoko's other hand and tenderly held them both. "Izuku cares about you, we both know that without a doubt, and I don't think a little awkwardness would change that." Kinoko nodded her head knowing Mei was correct. "Besides, would you rather spend your life wondering 'what if?' Or would you rather take the chance of getting what you want?"
The two remained silent as Kinoko mulled over Mei's words, as again, she knew Mei was right. Thinking about all of the possible outcomes of this whole thing. She could not ask him and guarantee she wouldn't be going out with him, or she could take the leap of faith and possibly be with the people she could spend the rest of her life with. With a small smile, she couldn't help but think that she needs to take some lessons on being more confident from Mei. "I want to take the chance."
Mei smiled broadly. "Great! Now come on!" Exclaimed Mei as she started dragging Kinoko again.
"Wait! We're still going to do it today?!" Asked Kinoko surprised.
"Yup! Not going to give you a chance to doubt yourself again!" Stated Mei.
"But Izuku is still at his appointment!" Argued Kinoko.
"That just means we have time to plan and get ready! Now come on!" Mei argued back, not even giving Kinoko a chance to back out, which Kinoko was not only thankful for, but subconsciously excited.
Later*
'It's ok. No one is going to hurt you, and if something does happen mom is in the waiting room.' Izuku thought, doing what he could to stay calm. He was currently alone in the doctor's office since it would have been far too awkward for his mom to be in the room considering the nature of the appointment. He at least wished he could have brought Azazel in with him, but he still doesn't have the necessary certification to do so since he's not fully trained as a support animal yet, so he's at a nearby pet daycare. The nurse who brought him in was an older lady who seemed to recognize him, but also didn't seem to have any real feelings towards him, good or bad, which honestly didn't help his nerves. Thankfully she was just helping him get started with the appointment.
Izuku went rigid as soon as he heard the doorknob start to turn, and in walked a woman who seemed to be in her mid thirties. Despite knowing the doctor was going to be female before he even came here, he still felt relief knowing he wouldn't be examined by a man. He's gotten better at trusting men, but he still wasn't ready to socialize with a man he's never met before by himself, especially during something like this.
The doctor gave Izuku a kind smile. "It's nice to finally meet you Mr. Aizawa. I'm Dr. Suzuki, I'll be the one conducting your exam." She greeted with a slight bow.
Izuku stood up to bow to Dr. Suzuki, she seemed kind and gentle which helped put Izuku relatively at ease, but her statement still worried him. "N-nice to meet you too. What d-do you mean 'finally meet me?' Do you kn-know who I am?" He asked nervously.
Dr. Suzuki gave Izuku a gentle, sympathetic smile as she sat down trying to seem as non threatening as possible. "Yes. Your mom, Recovery Girl, and Nezu the principle of U.A. all…. 'contacted' the board of directors to ensure you got the best care possible, but that meant telling us exactly who you are. And when I found that out, I got really excited."
"Wh-why?" Asked Izuku, a little worried.
"Well for one, because of how unique and interesting your quirk is. I actually specialize in quirks with sexual aspects. They fascinate me, because of how unique they are in general compared to normal quirks, but yours is one of the most unique." Said Dr. Suzuki,her excitement obvious.
"What makes sexual quirks so unique? And what makes mine special?" Asked Izuku, his excitement of talking about quirks making him temporarily forget his worry.
An excited smile spread across Dr. Suzuki's face. "Because it is extremely rare for quirks to evolve as a person gets older, less than one in ten million. Ninety-five percent of those cases are sexual quirks, usually about when the wielder reaches puberty or adulthood. On top of that eighty percent of sexual quirks end up evolving. But what makes yours so unique is that yours is a resource quirk. Generally sexual quirks are physical alteration quirks, or just an emitter. The only other case I've heard of that's like yours is a guy who gets faster by consuming semen. Though the poor guy is straight. No one could get an answer as to how he found out, he was too embarrassed." Giggles Dr. Suzuki, with Izuku chuckling as well. "So I really want to find out how your quirk works, and if there are other aspects you might not have found out yet."
Izuku's smile slowly fell as he adorned a solemn look. "But what if you find out my quirk is even more villainous?" He asked barely loud enough for Dr. Suzuki to hear.
Dr. Suzuki got up from her seat and kneeled down in front of Izuku, placing a comforting hand on his own and giving him a reassuring smile. "Your quirk isn't villainous. There is no such thing as a villainous quirk, only villainous people, and from what I've heard, you are quite the opposite." Dr. Suzuki assured Izuku, getting a slight nod from him without even looking at her, which told her he didn't really believe it. That honestly didn't surprise her, you get told something for long enough by enough people and you're bound to start believing it yourself, and it takes a long time to heal from it, if ever. "You know, I actually followed the Murisaki case." This gained Izuku's attention. She wasn't blind to the fear in his eyes. "What he did to you was absolutely sick. He was an absolute monster, because no human could ever do the things he did, especially what he did to you. I actually cheered and wanted to throw a party when I found out he was declared guilty."
Izuku was surprised by Dr. Suzuki's statement. "Y-y-you did?"
Dr. Suzuki nodded her head with a smile. "Yup." She stated before she adorned a sad smile. "And it broke my heart when I heard of the Chiaki case. You deserved so much better than that bitch, she got off way too easy with that 20 year sentence. But I'm happy to hear you're now surrounded by people who love and care about you." She said, giving Izuku a sympathetic smile.
Izuku smiled back softly. Dr. Suzuki seems so caring and genuine, which helped put him at ease. "Th-they really are s-such amazing people." He responded fondly.
"I want you to be as comfortable during this appointment as possible. If at any time you feel uncomfortable, don't be afraid to tell me. You tell me to stop, and I'll stop. You don't have to do it all today." Assured Dr. Suzuki, giving Izuku a soothing smile.
Izuku gave her an appreciative smile, as her words helped him calm down. While he was still nervous and scared, he felt his reluctance leave his body. Her making sure he knew how much control he had in this exam made him feel a lot better, but still not completely. "Thank you, but I'll try and get it done today, I think it would be better that way." He proclaimed trying to sound determined, but Dr. Suzuki could hear the shakiness in his voice. So she decided to use her usual trick to help ease nervous patients in these exams.
"Just please don't push yourself. I know from experience how uncomfortable this whole thing feels." Dr. Suzuki assured.
Izuku blinked at her with his eyes wide in surprise. "Wait, so you have a sexual quirk too?" He asked.
"Yup, but very loosely. My quirk is called Chest Rocket." She nonchalantly started explaining before she lifted up her C-cup breasts with her hands. "I can launch my breasts from my body and make them explode at will. I then regrow them. It wasn't until I was 17 that I found out I can choose the size they regrow as, but they stay that way until I use my quirk again." Dr. Suzuki explained.
Izuku's quirk fascination overrode any embarrassment he would have felt. "Wow! That sounds like it could be useful in hero work if not for the obscenity, or the embarrassment." He said excited while still having a blush on his face.
Dr. Suzuki waved her hand dismissively. "Even if I wanted to be a hero, I wouldn't care if everyone saw my boobs, I've long gotten used to it. Besides, I love seeing people get flustered when I tell them what my quirk is, or offer to show it off." She giggled, which made Izuku blush but smile in amusement. "I actually didn't even want the name for my quirk. The ones I chose first were Rocket Propelled Titties, Booby Bombs, and Tata Kaboom." Izuku failed to stop the laugh that erupted from his throat. He immediately started to feel bad for laughing until he heard Dr. Suzuki was giggling. "Unfortunately, you can't name your quirk something that isn't 'family friendly.'" She said using air quotes. "Back then I thought those names were absolutely hilarious. Still do if I'm being honest, so I'm a little salty about it."
'I wonder if my birth mom tried to name my quirk something much worse.' Wondered Izuku, unable to prevent the negative thought from crossing his mind. In an attempt to keep his emotions from spiraling out of control, he said the first thing that came to mind. "You sure knew a lot of interesting words as a four year old." And immediately regretted it, thinking his question was rude.
But Dr. Suzuki replied before he could apologize, looking unfazed by the statement. "I actually had to rename it when I was eleven, due to my quirk evolving when I reached puberty. Before that, all I was able to use were my nips." She replied nonchalantly. "Though I admit, I did know quite a few adult words as a child. Let's just say my aunt is a….. colorful character. She's a breeder who has absolutely no filter."
It wasn't hard for Izuku to tell Dr. Suzuki doesn't really have a high opinion of her aunt despite her attempt to hide it. But he wasn't about to go prodding into her personal life, especially since he could tell why she was telling him all this. "So you've had to go through this exam yourself?"
"Mhm, while my quirk barely qualified, I still had to go through it all. They actually had to bring in a specialist for me, because the only real reason I got tested was to make sure I produce breast milk instead of nitroglycerin or thermite. But I understand how uncomfortable and invasive the whole thing feels" Dr. Suzuki said sympathetically. "So if you don't think you're up for it yet, you don't have to."
Knowing that Dr. Suzuki understood what he was feeling really helped calm Izuku's fear. At least in part. But still enough that this didn't seem near as nerve wracking as before. They haven't even talked for ten minutes, and she's already made him feel so much better. "Thank you, but I think I'll be fine for now." He said with an appreciative smile.
Dr. Suzuki returned the smile and nodded her head in understanding. "Then let's get started shall we?" She said as she stood up. As she looked over Izuku, she was happy to see that Izuku was no longer shaking.
And like that, the exam officially began. It started off With Izuku receiving a full physical which Izuku wasn't a fan of, partly because he had to turn off flawless complexion. Izuku was hesitant, but steeled his resolve before turning it off. While Dr. Suzuki didn't outwardly react, he could still see the sorrow and worry in her eyes. His biggest discomfort though was how she had to examine every inch of him. But Dr. Suzuki apparently was a master at easing people's discomfort. Her voice was so kind and soothing as she talked with him about his current life, about the people in it, and even talked about his aspirations as a hero. She was able to keep him so engaged in the conversation and happy memories he barely even processed where she was touching, and was even absentmindedly following her directions. He was surprised when she informed him she could put his boxers and pants back on, having not even registered most of the exam. The rest of the physical went on without a hitch as she examined his wings, and even checked over his eyes while he had his quirk active that made him perceive time slower which he has come to start calling his 'Demon eyes'. Let's just say having a light shine in your eyes when time seems slower really sucks.
From there they went to the quirk testing site, a place where quirks can be tested without fear of anyone getting hurt. Izuku was assured that these places are built to withstand even some of the most dangerous quirks, so he didn't have to worry about holding back. Dr. Suzuki even pointed out how Izuku was the first person to use the site as part of a sexual quirk examination, but that they had to ensure his other abilities don't do more than meet the eye, and that possibility did scare Izuku. But when the testing was done, they found nothing out of the ordinary, much to Izuku's immense relief.
To finish off the exam, they needed to collect several samples from Izuku, which included saliva, blood, and sweat. But one of the samples absolutely mortified Izuku. "You need my what?!" Izuku Yelled in embarrassment.
"Semen." Replied Dr. Suzuki nonchalantly. "Several in fact. Though we more expect most of the samples to be delivered at a later date, we need to make sure your mindset doesn't affect anything. You would be surprised what some quirks can do to a man's semen." She giggled while handing Izuku a sample cup, and gestured to the room they were standing outside of. "There are porn magazines in the room, and even a good collection of videos. Just come back to the office when you're finished."
Izuku slowly nodded as he stared at the cup he was just handed, feeling a little somber. He honestly doubted he would be able to do it, and not because he was embarrassed. But he wasn't going to give up without trying. So he entered the room which was fairly simple, merely consisting of a chair next to a nightstand with a fairly large stack and variety of porn magazines along with a decent size TV hanging on the wall, next to a shelf with dozens of porn videos. Sitting down in the chair, Izuku rummaged through the magazines, sorting out the ones he was uncomfortable with. As he started to flip through the magazines trying to find something that would do anything for him, he had to admit, they had a good variety to accommodate people's preferences. While he did find the women in the magazines to be attractive, nothing worked, not even so much as a wiggle.
He'd been like this for as long as he could remember, the only people that have ever made him feel aroused was…. Izuku shook his head. He couldn't think about them that way, it was disrespectful and a huge betrayal of their trust. Izuku kept flipping through the magazines trying to find at least one image that could help him with what was required of him. But after looking for 15 minutes, he went through every magazine with zero results and started looking over the videos, yet none appealed to him. He sighed solemnly, having fully expected this to happen.
Izuku felt a myriad of emotions as he frantically looked over the videos again trying to find something. The first, oddly enough, was relief. He had spent so many years being called a villain because of his quirk, that it was strangely soothing knowing that the primary accusation wasn't even able to occur.
But that relief only fed his frustration. Not only was he still struggling with his own beliefs, but after all the work so many people have put in to help him, it was making him feel like a lost cause. That and combined with the fact that he couldn't even perform a basic human function without betraying his friends made him feel ashamed of himself.
The strongest emotion he was feeling though was fear. He was scared to tell Dr. Suzuki that he wasn't able to provide a sample. Sure she had been kind to him the entire exam, but he'd seen more than his fair share of two faced people in his life, and he was scared she was only kind to him for as long as she was able to sate her curiosity for his quirk. But as he turned away from the videos he had searched through for the third time with a sigh, he knew he couldn't let his fear rule him, and part of that is trusting others. After taking a couple deep breaths, Izuku grabbed the empty sample cup and headed back to the office.
When he got back, Izuku saw Dr. Suzuki working on something on her computer. "Wow, 25 minutes. Gotta say, that's pretty impre…." She started before turning and noticing Izuku's worried expression. "Hey, what's wrong?" She asked, concerned. In response all Izuku did was hand her back the sample cup, which she easily noticed was empty. Her immediate thought was that he was embarrassed about it, but she could tell it was more than that. She gestured to the seat for Izuku to sit down.
When Izuku sat down and he just stared at his lap, Dr. Suzuki wheeled her chair near him and placed a reassuring hand on his knee, getting upset with herself when he noticeably flinched. She waited silently for a few seconds, letting him relax before speaking. "Hey, it's ok, people have issues like this all the time, it's nothing to be ashamed of." She said reassuringly. Izuku only slowly nodded his head in response, which only made her worry about him more. She wanted to help if she could. "If you don't mind me asking, do you know what the issue is?" She asked. Izuku stayed silent for a few seconds before opening his mouth and shutting it again. "You don't have to tell me if you don't want to, but I'm willing to help if I can."
Izuku slowly looked Dr. Suzuki in the face, and could see her concern. 'Maybe she could tell me why.' He thought. Izuku steeled his nerves with another deep breath. "For as long as I could tell, I've never really been….. aroused by pretty much anything."
Dr. Suzuki was honestly surprised by that. Sexual quirks tend to come with the effect of increasing the sex drive, so this seemed off to her. "Have you ever found something you have been aroused by?" She asked, noticing that Izuku immediately looked ashamed, but he still nodded his head yes. "You can tell me what it is, I promise I won't judge you." She reassured him.
There was another silent pause, as it felt like a weight was being pressed on Izuku. He didn't want to admit it, but he was hopeful for a solution to his perceived problem. "It's…… my friends. Mei and Kinoko." He said barely loud enough to be heard, as he flinched, expecting an earful from Dr. Suzuki. But none ever came.
Dr. Suzuki again waited for Izuku to relax again as a soft smile adorned her face. She had an idea of what was going on, he had talked to her about them during this appointment after all, and his feelings toward them were obvious to her. But she had to confirm her theory. "So exactly what are your feelings towards them?"
"They're amazing friends. I feel extremely lucky to have them in my life. They have done so much for me that I will never be able to repay, and I wish I could do more for them." Said Izuku honestly and with no hesitation, but Dr. Suzuki could also hear the guilt in his voice. She'll address that later, but first she needed to get a confession.
"So do you only think about them as friends, or do you feel something more towards them? Perhaps a crush? Or maybe even love?" Asked Dr. Suzuki, finding the blush that spread across Izuku's face amusing, but she suppressed it. Now wasn't the time for that.
Izuku desperately wanted to say no to her question. He didn't want to admit his guilt and take the chance of Mei and Kinoko finding out, no matter how slim that chance was. But he also wanted to get rid of these feelings, to stop betraying their trust. "Yeah, I….. I think…. I know I love them." He answered hesitantly.
Dr. Suzuki gave Izuku a kind smile. "Then I think I know what's going on."
Izuku looked at her questioningly, with desperate hope filled eyes. "You do?"
Dr. Suzuki nodded her head. "It sounds to me like you're demisexual."
Izuku looked at her confused. "What's that?"
"It's where you can only feel sexually attracted to someone you have an emotional bond with. For some it only requires friendship, while others require full blown love." Dr. Suzuki kindly explained. "So it would make sense that these girls are the first to ever arouse you."
"But I shouldn't have these feelings about them, let alone getting aroused!" Said Izuku distressed.
"Why shouldn't you have these feelings?" Dr. Suzuki asked, concerned but knowing where this was going.
"Because they trust me to be their friend. Not to burden them with my feelings, they already put up with me more than they should." Said Izuku dejectedly. "It's not like anyone would like me that way anyways."
Dr. Suzuki wanted to hug Izuku to comfort him, but restrained herself because she was still a stranger to him, so he might not take it too well. But she wasn't going to sit back and do nothing. "Aizawa, there is nothing wrong with you having these feelings. They're completely normal. And I believe everyone deserves love. That there is someone or someones out there for everyone, that includes you. And in your case, it might be those two." She said assuringly.
"But what if they don't feel the same and hate me after finding out. I don't want to lose them." Argued Izuku as tears started to fall from his eyes.
But Dr. Suzuki just continued to give him a reassuring smile. "From what you've told me, it doesn't sound like that would be the case." She said, but his eyes told her he didn't really believe her. "Let me ask you this though. How would you feel seeing them dating other people? To get engaged? Married? Start a family? All with someone else?" She asked.
Izuku felt his heart hurt as he thought about all that, but he didn't want to be selfish. "I would feel happy for them of course." He said weakly.
"And what about for yourself?" Dr. Suzuki asked knowingly. Izuku didn't answer, but the downcast look on his face told her everything she needed to know. "Life is too short to let what you want slip past you. I can tell that you're afraid of pain and loss after everything you suffered, but don't let that stop you from living." She advised, noticing she must have said something right based on the understanding look in his eyes. Unfortunately there isn't anything else she can do to help, and she hated that she couldn't do more, but at least she planted the seed in his head. The rest will just have to take time.
Dr. Suzuki reached over to her desk, grabbing a box and a piece of paper, and held it out for Izuku to take. "These are the rest of the sample cups you'll need along with a few extra, and a list of requirements for the rest of the samples." She instructed, bringing Izuku out of his thoughts as he wiped the tears from his eyes before reaching out to take the items.
Out of curiosity Izuku took a look at the list and his eyes went wide seeing there being over two dozen needed samples. He could hear Dr. Suzuki giggled after his face exploded in crimson at reading number seven. 'Imagine trying to knock a girl up.'
"Number seven right?" Dr. Suzuki asked, sounding amused. Izuku only nodded his head in response, making her giggle more. "Now don't stress getting these to us quickly, just go at the pace that makes you most comfortable. Normally the deadline is your next birthday, but your mental health does exempt you from that as long as you come and check in every few months. Understood?" She kindly informed him.
"Uh, y-yeah. Understood." Izuku replied, trying to calm his nerves. "Thank you, you made this much easier than I thought it would be. And thank you for the advice" He said, bowing to Dr. Suzuki.
"It was my pleasure, and I'm glad it worked out well for you. And if you ever need any more help, don't hesitate to come to me." She kindly replied.
Izuku gave Dr. Suzuki an appreciative smile. "Thank you." He replied before walking out of the office. As soon as he shut the door, his mind immediately went back to her advice. 'I have a lot to think about.' He thought.
Looking at his phone and checking what time it is, he started to worry and feel bad seeing that over three hours had passed since his appointment started. His mom had been in the waiting room the whole time. So he quickly rushed to the waiting room, and couldn't help laughing at what he saw. His mom was sitting up in a chair, but was in her yellow sleeping bag, looking like she'd completely passed out.
But apparently her years of experience of constantly going to sleep and waking up when she needed to hadn't rusted in the slightest, as when he had gotten close to her she immediately woke up. And without even so much as stretching, she stood up and got out of her sleeping bag, all while giving Izuku a caring motherly smile. "So how did it go? Do I need to kick anyone's ass?" She asked half jokingly, making Izuku chuckle.
"It actually went really good. Dr. Suzuki was really nice and considerate, and was honestly pretty cool. Sorry it took so long." Said Izuku apologetically.
"There is nothing to be sorry for. I knew the exam would take awhile if you stayed for the whole thing. I wasn't about to leave you here in case something happened, or if you just wanted to leave." Shoko said assuringly. She then quickly eyed the box Izuku was carrying. "So what's in the box?"
Izuku immediately blushed and scratched the back of his head embarrassed, unable to look his mom in the eyes. "O-oh, they need s-some samples that can't b-be gotten all a-at once. I just n-need to turn them in wh-when I can."
It wasn't hard for Shoko to realize what Izuku was referring to, and she could already hear the little devil Midnight and Present Mic on her shoulder, whispering to her to tease him about it. But she ignored them, figuring he'd already dealt with enough today. "So did you learn anything interesting?" She asked casually as they started walking towards the exit. But her worry spiked as Izuku's blush disappeared and he donned a thoughtful look.
The advice Dr. Suzuki gave him kept replaying in his mind, and while it sounded like good advice, he couldn't help but feel his situation was just too different. But maybe it wasn't? He just didn't know. He believes he truly loves Mei and Kinoko, the pain he felt when he simply thought of them being with someone else was proof enough that he couldn't argue otherwise. But they deserve to be with the ones they truly belong with, not him.There was no way they would love him back and him confessing would just ruin their relationship. But what if it didn't? What if they were able to continue on like before? Or if by some miracle they did love him back. Izuku let out a sad yet frustrated sigh. This just felt so complicated and his mind was running a billion miles an hour. But there was one thing he felt he could do that would help him out. "Mom, can we go to Dagobah beach? I want to get some training in." He asked plainly.
It wasn't hard for Shoka to see that something was bothering Izuku. "Izuku, what's wrong? You know you can talk to me."
Izuku remained silent for a few seconds, seemingly debating on what he should say. "It's just….. I have some things I need to think about. And I think a lot better when I'm doing something physical." He explained.
Shoka stared at Izuku silently for a few seconds as she debated what to do. She desperately wanted to help him. But she also knew trying to force him to talk could make him shut her out. So she sighed as she came to a decision. "Let's grab you some workout supplies from home first."
"Thanks mom." Said Izuku with an appreciative smile, which Shoka returned. He felt bad for not confiding in his mother about this after all that she has done for him, but he wanted to sort through his own thoughts first.
While there were a few moments during the drive that Izuku was lost in thought, the two of them did talk quite a bit, mostly discussing the appointment. At least the parts Izuku was comfortable discussing that is. It was easy to tell Azazel could pick up on Izuku's mood as he tried his best to make Izuku feel better. Generally by licking his hands and cheeks, nuzzling against him, or just generally being cute. But there were still moments where he went silent, looking deep in thought, worrying Shoka. Especially after arriving at the beach and Izuku got to training under her supervision, it was obvious that whatever is on Izuku's mind was eating him up inside. She wished there was something she could do or say to help him out, but she also knew that wasn't always possible.
After watching Izuku train for a little while, Shoka's phone alerted her that she had a text. She pulled it out fully expecting it to be one of her friends/colleagues asking her if the appointment went ok. They have become very attached to and protective of Izuku after all. But instead she was surprised to see it was Mei, asking if Izuku was still in his appointment because she couldn't reach him. This gave Shoka an idea. 'I may not be able to help him, but maybe Mei and Kinoko can.'
So she replied with their location and a quick rundown of the situation, asking if they could help. She knew the answer before she even got the response telling her they were on their way. She couldn't help but smile though, thankful Izuku had made such wonderful friends. Though the smile fell from her face as she looked back at Izuku as he was obviously pushing himself. Hopefully the two of them would be able to help.
1 hour later*
Izuku was glistening with sweat as he pushed himself as hard as he could, while carrying a decent sized box freezer that he had secretly filled with other items. The people in his life really disliked when he pushed himself too far. At the same time he was also questioning how someone could be so careless as to dump it here. That's not even taking into account the 3 fridges and the car frame he'd seen. And that's just what he's seen so far.
Izuku's muscles were burning from pushing himself as much as he had. *grunt* But he found that he thought better the harder he pushed himself. *groan* Or maybe he was just better at pushing down his emotions when he's exhausted. It's what he'd done for years after all. *THUD* He was panting hard after dropping the heavy load, hoping the sound didn't give away that it was overencombersome.
"Izuku!" Yelled a very familiar voice. Izuku initially flinched, but grew confused as he realized who it was. Turning around, his confusion grew when he saw not only Mei but Kinoko as well, both looking at him concerned. Though his jaw nearly hit the sand when his mind processed exactly what he was seeing. They looked drop dead gorgeous. Absolutely stunning. Out of this world sexy. Though he mentally berated himself for that final thought.
Well, he knew they were already all of those and more, but today they kicked it into overdrive. Mei was wearing black yoga pants, a white tube top that showed off her midriff, and a light blue jean jacket. While Kinoko was wearing dark blue skinny jeans with a black one shoulder crop top. Their outfits hugged all their curves perfectly. He's seen them in outfits like this before, but it never stops him from being gobsmacked by their radiance.
Izuku shook his head, he shouldn't be staring at them. But when he cleared his head, he noticed the two of them were blushing, but they still looked concerned. "You two look great! Are you going somewhere?" He said, trying to pretend he's alright.
Both of their blushes intensified, making them feel some elation, but their concern overrode it. "We actually were wanting to talk to you about something. But when we contacted your mom. She told us what happened after your appointment, that something is bothering you." Said Kinoko
'Of course she did.' Thought Izuku fondly. His mother was always doing what she could to help him. That included getting others involved. While he wasn't a fan of it, he didn't mind it either because he knew it came from a place of love, and showed him time and again how he has gained so many people who care for him. But it also showed how much further he had to go when it comes to opening up. Unfortunately he's still stubborn as hell. "So what did you want to talk about?" He asked, trying to change subjects. But Mei and Kinoko could tell exactly what he was trying to do.
"We can talk about it later. Right now we're here to help. So what's wrong?" Bluntly asked Mei.
"Oh nothing is wrong, I just….. wanted to get some more training in." He said, quickly but poorly trying to lie and avoid the conversation. But you could tell they didn't believe him in the slightest. Why did he have to be such a terrible liar?
"Please Izuku, you can talk to us. We just want to help." Asked Kinoko worriedly. This wasn't the first time Izuku tried to pretend he was okay when he wasn't, but she desperately wants to be able to help him and refuses to let him sweep it under the rug.
"I'm telling you, I'm alright. There is nothing you need to concern yourself with." Izuku attempted to lie again. He could tell they still don't believe him, but he hoped with enough persistence they would just drop it.
"Izuku…." started Kinoko before she was interrupted.
"Hey, how about I take a shower and we can go hang out?" Said Izuku, obviously trying to change the subject again.
"No Izuku, we're not going to ignore this. Tell us what's wrong." Said Mei sternly, but with tears pricking her eyes. She hated that she was pushing him, but she was getting so frustrated at Izuku being closed off. She was tired of being so in the dark. Tired of not knowing.
"... there's…." Hesitantly started Izuku, obviously trying to sidestep the issue again.
"Why won't you talk to us!" Nearly screamed Mei, as the tears started to drop from her eyes. "Do you not trust us?! Do you not trust me?" Asked Mei, getting quieter as she spoke.
"Of course I trust you!"" Desperately replied Izuku, as he felt his heart breaking seeing Mei and knowing he was the cause. Only for it to shatter as he noticed Kinoko was starting to cry as well.
"Then why?" Quietly asked Mei.
"Izuku, we want to help. Please, talk to us." Begged Kinoko.
"It's…..it's…." Started Izuku, trying to come up with another excuse. Anything to ease their pain without admitting his betrayal. But the guilt he felt for making the two he loved cry was just too much for him to bear. "It's because I love you two!" Blurted out Izuku.
"Wh-what did you say?" Kinoko asked, completely taken aback.
"I love you. Both of you." Said Izuku guiltily, as if he was confessing to some great sin with tears flowing from his eyes. "You two have helped me in so many ways, more than I could even begin to describe. You're such amazing friends, better than I thought I'd ever get. You two are just so kind, so beautiful, I feel lucky just to have met you. But you two deserve so much better than me. I'm nothing but a burden. You deserve to have someone who won't drag you down with them and can give you the trust and support you deserve. Someone you don't have to constantly worry about, who isn't such a broken mess."
More and more tears fell from both girls' eyes throughout Izuku's confession, despite most of it being something they wanted to hear. But the way he did it showed both of them he felt guilty for his feelings, and that it has been deeply hurting him. Knowing now how much he's been hurting made the two regret not confessing sooner. As soon as Mei inched forward planning to embrace and comfort Izuku, she stopped as she noticed Kinoko quickly rush towards Izuku.
Izuku was stunned when Kinoko quickly closed the gap between the two, wrapped her arms around his neck and pulled him down into a kiss. Even without the pleasant surge of attar he was receiving, it felt absolutely amazing. It was like the world melted away leaving only the two of them. Her soft lips made it feel like millions of butterflies were fluttering in his stomach as he could feel fireworks all throughout his body while his mind went completely numb.
When Kinoko rushed towards Izuku she knew she had to show her love for him, not just tell him, but she didn't have an actual plan in mind. She just let her body act on its own. And if you ask her, it was one of the best decisions she's ever made. The moment her lips met Izuku's, a blissful warmth rushed through her entire body, not unlike getting into a hot spring after a long tiring day, but so much better. Her body felt like it could go limp at any second, while simultaneously pulling Izuku in closer to deepen their embrace.
Mei was having difficulty comprehending what was happening. While not upset by the turn of events, this was easily one of the last things she expected to happen today. But if she had to guess, she believed after the rush of emotions, this was Kinoko's way of reciprocating Izuku's love. She had to admit she was proud of her boldness.
After a few seconds, which felt like hours to them, several amazing, pleasurable hours, Kinoko broke the kiss with Izuku instinctively chasing her lips as she did. Her cheeks were a deep red as the look and smile she was giving Izuku was full of love. But his brain felt like it short circuited making him unable to see it. "Wh-why did y-you……" he started stuttering out but was stopped when he suddenly felt hands on both of his cheeks. He never noticed Mei had approached him.
Before he was able to say anything this time, Mei suddenly pulled him into another kiss, this one being completely different but just as amazing as the one with Kinoko. He felt the world around them disappear, the butterflies going crazy, and this time it felt like he had a surge of electricity going through his veins. But in a good way, and he couldn't get enough.
Mei felt like she was on cloud nine, feeling as much excitement as she would making a hundred babies. She doubted she would even feel this good at being invited to work on I-island. This was a moment she had dreamt about dozens of times, and it was better than she could ever imagine.
This time, when Mei separated from the kiss, Izuku stood stock still, like his body couldn't keep up with his racing mind. Mei and Kinoko couldn't help but be amused by Izuku's dumbstruck expression as he opened and closed his mouth multiple times, obviously trying to speak, but was unable to find his voice. Eventually he did manage to get a few words out. "Y-you two k-k-kissed m-me." He said, stupefied.
The two girls gave him bright loving smiles, with Kinoko looking a bit embarrassed, and Mei looking proud. "Yes we did." Answered Kinoko, trying her best to stay confident.
"Wh-why?" Asked Izuku.
"Because we love you Izuku." Answered Mei without hesitation.
"We love you so very much." Added Kinoko earnestly.
Izuku silently looked over the two of them for several seconds, still having difficulty comprehending what just happened. But now he could finally see the love in their eyes. No, it was always there and he knew it, but he finally stopped blinding himself to it. But he still didn't feel quite right about it. "B-but you can…."started Izuku, about to say something self-deprecating, but stopped when Mei grabbed hold of his hand, holding it within both of hers.
"Izuku, we know how much you struggle seeing how amazing of a person you are. I will tell you however many times it takes for you to finally believe it. You are the strongest person I have ever met. You've protected me, protected us, time and again. Even when you were at your weakest, you stood strong. Your kindness and compassion knows no bounds despite how terribly you've been treated. You've accepted me for who I am, flaws and all. No matter what happens, I want to stand by your side, supporting you anyway I can. Whether that's as a friend, or something more." Interrupted Mei lovingly while looking deep into his eyes.
Before Izuku could say anything, his attention was drawn by Kinoko grabbing hold of his other hand. "Before I met you I didn't feel like I belonged anywhere, with the only person I felt any real connection with being my mom. I was even close to giving up on my dream of being an idol hero. But when I am with you, I feel like I can do anything. You push me to be better than I ever thought I could be just by being you. With you, I feel like I belong, you give me the strength to believe in myself, and I want to do the same for you. Whenever you feel like you're breaking apart, I will be there to help put you back together." Added Kinoko fervently.
Izuku kept looking back and forth between the two of them, having difficulty believing what he was hearing. He kept searching for any trace of deception, only to find none. There was just no way this could be real. Except no matter how hard he tries he couldn't rationalize it away, couldn't ignore the honesty he felt in their words. He had to tell them no, for their sakes. But his resolve would come crashing down.
"Izuku?" Asked Mei, voice full of love and desire. "Will you give this relationship a chance?"
Tears started to stream from Izuku's eyes, but not from sadness. No. These were tears of joy. Izuku started to nod his head. "Yes." He choked out, unable to say more.
Elated smiles erupted on Mei's and Kinoko's faces before they both quickly wrapped Izuku in a group hug, which he wasted no time returning. In their embrace, Izuku felt like a great weight in his heart had been lifted. He still felt like he wasn't good enough for the two in his arms, but if they felt like he was, then who was he to argue? He'd do whatever it takes to deserve their love.
If Mei thought she was on cloud nine earlier, then she was over the moon now. It was strange she thought, one of the scariest and worst moments of her life, was also one of the best, and the start of something wonderful. He's her hero. The love of her life.
Kinoko couldn't help but feel like she was a fool for being so afraid of her feelings. Like Izuku, she refused to believe what was right in front of her eyes. The huge leap of faith she believed she was taking, turned out to be nothing but her own insecurities playing tricks on her. And right now, in his arms, she knew this is where she's meant to be.
This moment felt like a dream come true to all three of them as happy tears streamed down their faces. Izuku silently made a vow to do everything in his power to keep these two happy and safe, not knowing that they were making the same vow.
As the three maintained their embrace, none of them noticed Shoka leaning on the railing at the edge of the beach, holding her phone towards the three as she snapped a picture. She examined the picture for a few seconds with a proud content smile before she sent it to a few people. Putting her phone away, she went back to watching over the newly formed throuple, happy for the three of them. In that moment there was only one thing she could say. "About time."