Notes: This fanfic is probably going to mostly be Mickey's point of view cause Ian's feels more covered with the actual Shameless story line/episodes. Also I dont have any proof reader or anything, I try and check the spelling and such but I'm sure it's not perfect.
To say that Mickey's time in juvie was boring would be accurate and at the same time it couldn't be further from the truth. He did spend a lot of time working out and not really doing much since Ian's visit, and the whole juvie experience was boring on the surface, thought he did stab the one guy for stealing his jello. For Mickey though, apparently being away from his soulmate had a bad effect on him, he'd get strong emotions and not knowing what was going on was getting to him, He was really curious, not concerned just curious.
And cause of the soulmate shit, he would dream of Gallagher, he spent most of it mentally fighting off feelings from the other and thoughts of the red head, and it was driving him up the fucking wall. Just because of the whole soulmate shit, the one sided bond decided to torment him and try and get him to change his mind on Gallagher and get under his skin, well it wasn't gonna work. He wasn't gonna just go with whatever it wanted and get himself killed, he wasn't that stupid so if it could just fuck off he would appreciate it.
The letter from Gallagher took a small amount of the boredom away for a tiny bit but it also bothered him, Ian gave him a small update on his crazy mother not taking his baby brother away and how he got a DNA test and how he was only a half sibling to the rest of his siblings but also a half cousin. Which made Mickey shake his head with almost a smile on his face. It was when he got to the bottom that he glared at the paper. Gallagher apparently felt the need to remind him that he missed him, like he didn't get it when he said it during the last visit. Mickey tried to throw the letter away but he couldn't which frustrated him and he ended up hiding it amongst his things.
He was getting out today and he was looking forward to not being stuck with just boredom and feelings from Gallagher penetrating his mind. Upon getting out he saw his sister and Gallagher standing there together waiting for him, he felt his heart race at the sight of the red head who had apparently decided to come along and who had also gone through a growth spurt in the few months since Mickey left for juvie, his hair was shorter too which Mickey wasn't sure if he liked it better now or before, and he was taller than him too, which he wasn't sure why he found that to be attractive to him. He felt affection and nervousness coming from the bond as he approached them.
"The hell is he doing here?" Mickey asked trying keep a glare on his face as he approached them.
"Hey Mick." Gallagher responded before Mandy. The shortened version of his name sounded good but was too casual and made it seem like they were closer than they were.
"He thought I needed protection." Mandy said with a hint of amusement. Mickey chose to ignore Gallagher's hey and to respond to Mandy.
"Oh Yeah?" Mickey said with a laugh before he reached out to hug Mandy, which she instantly returned.
"Trust me you may think you know my sister, but you don't know my sister until you fought my sister." He said said while hugging her, knowing she was smiling into the hug when it was more hidden.
"She's protecting your ass." Mandy then made a comment about him smelling like BBQ sauce which was her way of ending what would be counted as affection between them, He gave her nipple twister just to keep up appearances, not like he was just gonna show he had a soft spot for her when they were in public either, not counting beating people up for her. His eyes drifted to Gallagher and he felt like wrapping his arms around him too, fuck he didn't hug people aside from Mandy. The pull from the stupid soulmate bond was really becoming a pain in his ass. Mickey pushed away any feelings of wanting to get close to Gallagher, instead he turned around and started flipping off the police.
Gallagher pulled him away as they walked and his arm went around his shoulders, Mickey almost jumped at first contact, he felt the urge to lean into Gallagher but resisted. He inhaled silently, Gallagher still smelt the same, like himself and home. He stopped his thoughts right there and pushed Gallagher's arm off of him. What the fuck, since when did people smell like home, he really needed to shut this shit down, stupid soulmate bullshit making him think girly crap, and trying to make him have feelings he didn't have.
He was going to have to look stuff up again about this whole soulmate thing when he got the chance, cause it was getting out of hand and there's gotta be a way to manage it better.
The three of them went to the closest fast food restaurant, it was an unspoken rule amongst the Milkovich's to get fast food to celebrate getting out of jail or juvie in Mickey's case. He stuffed his face with the food, briefly talking to Mandy, she left them alone for a couple minutes to use the washroom. Gallagher just stared at him without saying anything, making Mickey uncomfortable.
"Take a picture it'll last longer." Mickey replied in an annoyed tone, which brought a smile to Gallagher's face for whatever reason, then he had the balls to pull out is phone and snap a picture of him. Mickey glared at him in disbelief.
"Did you just take a picture of me?!" He asked raising his voice but not yelling to try and not draw attention to himself.
"You told me to." Ian said with a laugh not at all affected by the glare or raised voice. Mickey mumbled a whatever and continued eating. Ian just continued staring at him as he ate, not saying anything again. Before Mickey even noticed it he was the one breaking the silence.
"School at 8pm tonight?" Gallagher blinked at him in surprise before nodding with a smile and digging into his own food. Happiness from the other filled Mickey and he stuffed his face with food to distract himself from it. Mandy rejoined them none the wiser, eating her food and talking to Mickey, as soon as Mickey finished his food he left without a second glance at the redhead.
Mickey went home and ended up taking a nap, then played some videos games, just enjoying the distractions of it all. Noticing he was alone he looked for Mandy's laptop. It took him a bit but he found it after about a half hour hidden under a pile of her dirty clothes, seems like she probably didn't want anyone using it. He was sure she wouldn't mind him using it anyways.
He turned it on and opened the search engine sighing to himself, why was the whole soulmate thing so complicated. First he searched "Soulmate bond making you feel things against your will." The results said that the bond only really acts up when its denied and/or you aren't able to see your soulmate for awhile. But that it doesn't force you to feel things against your will. Mickey rolled his eyes at that, sounds like bullshit to him.
He went on with his search typing in "Is there any way to break soulmate bonds?" The results said that it if it was one sided and your soulmate found their soulmate it was almost like a break, in the way that you were fine without them but it was impossible to break one that wasn't one sided. It said that there was drugs out there to numb feelings cause by soulmate bonds, that are mostly used for people who lose their soulmate, sometimes by people with soulmate in the army, or who have joined the army and are distracted by their soulmates or who are in a lot of pain, and are given out to any one whose soulmate receives the death penalty, It also said the drug isn't available to minors without parental consent in most cases. Mickey cursed to himself, guess that's not really an option for him, not like hes gonna be telling Terry any of this just to get it to dull. He'd rather go along with it if hes gonna be doing something stupid.
He then typed in "How to lessen the soulmate bond urges after time apart." This one told him to just try and spend some time with them, platonically or not, the bond should calm itself after some extended time together. He sighed to himself, closed the page and turned off the laptop. Well he could try that at least, maybe just playing video games with him or smoking a joint together or some shit would work.
Mandy got home around seven, after Ian said that he had stuff to do at home, she was happy that he seemed to be in such high spirits today, he seemed to be in a slump lately but it seems he was finally feeling better. And Mickey being home again made her mood even better, she couldn't picture anything that would bring her mood down right now.
Mickey was just leaving as she entered her room she saw that he laptop had been moved slightly when she pulled it out, she was confused for a second before she remembered Mickey was back, she knew he'd always been able to find it if she hid it, and its not like she minded he always put it back and never looked up porn or anything on it. With her other brothers she'd get virus's from the porn they downloaded and always had to spend time getting rid of them and getting it back up to speed.
She curiously opened the internet and clicked on the browser history, Mickey never did learn how to delete what he looked up, usually he just looked up addresses on where to find parts for guns or cars were depending, there was the occasional times he seemed to look up things he got curious about, like when Mandy mentioned that some guy tried the waterfall sex position with her and later he had looked it up on the laptop. She had laughed at that one, cause he could of just asked but he probably didn't want details coming out of her own mouth.
She paused as she looked up the internet history, he had looked up stuff about soulmate bonds before. Which was weird, he never really seemed to be that interested in it when they were growing up and it wasn't the first time hes searched stuff this year. The first time, she kinda just assumed that someone had talked about soulmates with him and he was curious, she even read the articles he read about not kissing your soulmate back and found it pretty interesting herself. But this time, the timing was just too right on with what he searched, and it was even less likely he talked to anyone about soulmates in jail or in the time he was out.
She stared at the search result of " How to lessen the soulmate bond urges after time apart." Mickey had just come out of juvie, she frowned. Mickey had to have found his soulmate, and the time in juvie had messed with the bond or something... But why didn't he tell her, she would of told him. She knows they pretend they don't care that much about each other but they both knew better didn't they? She sighed to herself and deleted the history for him, she knew she would crack and ask him about it, she just had to think of a way to ask him and bring it up when they hadn't mentioned soulmates since Mom had been around.
Maybe she could ask Ian about it, she contemplated for a moment before she decided on no, well at least not in detail, she didn't wanna betray her brothers trust. And since he hadn't mentioned it, it seemed like it was something he could be hiding. She closed the laptop, before an idea popped into her head. She pulled open her closet and looked at her two similar colored skirts, she had been told by the lady in the store when she asked about them being the same color that they were different if you could see in full color, one being a much richer shade of red and one was a tiny bit longer, in case she was wrong, she could blame it on that. She smiled to herself and waited for Mickey to get home.
Mickey made his way over to the school, carrying his bag that had lube, and a couple beers. Smoking a cigarette on his way while he tried not to think about anything, not wanting to overthink how long is been since he's been intimate with Gallagher, how long since hes felt Gallagher\s body heat ... There goes his mind again, he only missed the sex and that's it. it was just the bond that missed Gallagher otherwise.
He purposely took his time making it so he was 5 minutes late to meeting the redhead, who was already there and fidgeting as he waited looking around until he spotted Mickey. Mickey made eye contact then gave a nod towards the direction of the baseball diamond and started walking that way not waiting to see if he followed. No way was he gonna do anything in such an open space.
As the started walking towards the baseball, the redhead had easily caught up without much effort and walked along with him, not saying anything.
"Hot as balls tonight." He said, unable to stand the silence much longer. Ian didn't respond to that but went started talking about school and how he wanted to join the army and be an officer. Mickey suddenly felt over protect and worried but casually mentioned how officers got shot first, and forced a laugh out, pulling the beer out of his bag, and making sure not to sound worried in the slightest even with the bond making him feel things he didn't.
He pulled out his knife and decided to do shot gun with it, pretty good distracting and the beer should help calm his annoying mind. As he finished his half of the beer he held the drink to the redheads mouth, he hesitated when moving his own hand away, feeling the others touch even against his hand was soothing.
Pulling back his hand, Mickey took a moment to check Gallagher over and had to stop himself from licking his lips, he really did fill out well and grow since he had went to jail. Fuck, was he so deprived sexually that he was already filled with want for the redhead after roughly ten minutes of being around him. Ian's coughing distracted him as he finished the beer, causing a smile to come naturally to Mickey's face before he forced it down. This was just about fucking and calming down the stupid bond, nothing else. Ian bounced back after his coughing and started speaking.
"So did you make a lot of friends on the ins-" Mickey burped to interrupt him.
"Do you wanna chit-chat or do you wanna get on me?" He asked confidently as he made eye contact with the fully colored green eyes in front of him. Gallagher stared back for a moment before he started to undo his belt in response, Mickey smirked and started to undo his as well, his baggy pants easily falling down as soon as the belt came off, the others pants taking a bit longer when they were tighter.
Ian moved forward and trapped Mickey against him, facing him. He saw the green eyes flicker to his lips and he felt his heart jump, surely he wouldn't try and kiss him again, he wasn't prepared for that and he was sure his face looked apprehensive. The bright green eye returned to his face, seeing the look there he dropped his head to Mickey's shoulder before he pushed his hips against Mickey's his erection pressing against his.
Mickey let out a small growl, and started to rut against Gallagher, it had been just jerking off maybe once or twice since he was in there and feeling something besides his own hand was overwhelming, he could feel the tug of the bond wanting more, pushing him closer to the edge faster than normal.
He felt the others head move but continued to rut against the red head, not alarmed since Gallagher's face was still close to his shoulder and not his lips. Ian's lips moved against his neck, pressing against his neck, his tongue licking the sweat that lingered there. Mickey let out a moan, groan he told himself, he felt himself get harder at the action and didn't like how good the others lips felt against him, and his mind went to how making out would feel before he shot that thought down and pulled away causing the other to look confused and he could feel the slight panic coming from him.
Mickey turned away from him and pulled his underwear down, bending over slightly to make his intentions clear, changing the panic from the other to turn back to lust as he rushed forward, barely getting his underwear down before his dick moved against his ass. Mickey didn't want to wait much longer and made himself talk even though talking was the last thing he wanted to do.
"In the bag..." He moved his ass against Ian, and let out a small groan. Ian seemed confused before he pulled back and quickly went through the bag, some quiet cursing as he took longer than he wanted to find the lube. After finding it he was back against Mickey within seconds. Squirting the lube onto his fingers, eagerly moving them into Mickey's ass, though he slowed down as soon as one finger went in.
"You're pretty tight again, can tell its been awhile..." Gallagher mumbled though Mickey heard him clearly with how close they were, he felt his face heat up in response.
"Shut up! Just get on with it already." Mickey said as he made sure his face couldn't be seen by the redhead, moving back against the finger inside of him. Ian let out a small chuckle and inserted another. Soon three fingers were inside and he was fully stretched out and more than ready to get fucked. Ian was about to coat himself with lube before he stopped.
"Did you bring any condoms?" Ian asked his dick resting against one of mickey's cheeks as he asked. Mickey made an annoyed grunt.
"Have you fucked anyone else?" Mickey asked without thinking, shocked a bit himself that he even asked, though he didn't get a feeling from the one sided bond that it had happened.
"No I ha-" Ian started to answer before he was cut off.
"Then fuck it." Mickey said as he moved his ass impatiently against Gallagher, his hands holding the fencing in front of him to keep his balance. The redhead eagerly applied lube to his dick then positioned himself at Mickey's hole, before slowly pressing in. Mickey felt overwhelmed with the soulmate bond and finally having sex after months of being locked up. He let out a small whine before he bit his lip to stop it, he felt Ian's hips jolt forward in response before he controlled himself, and resumed slowly pressing inside.
"Let me kn-" Ian started before Mickey started moving, moving his ass on Gallagher's dick, not as fast as the thrusting the redhead usually did but enough but enough to feel the burn of both pain and pleasure. Ian let out a groan and started moving, thrusting in and out as he placed his hands on the fence, near but not touching the others. Mickey let out a louder moan than he intended, too caught up in all the feelings to think of how gay he probably sounded moaning that loudly.
The feeling of finally having sex, Gallagher's feeling of pleasure was mixing with his and it was causing affection to build up in him that he couldn't tell if it was his own or the redheads, and the thought of how this was all just temporary crossed his mind. Mickey felt his eyes begin to water, he moved his hand over the redheads and squeezed as he fought to try and control his emotions, no way was he gonna cry from sex, he wasn't that gay and he didn't care about Gallagher that much. It was just too many emotions, probably all Gallagher's with how strongly the other seemed to feel things. All Gallagher's fault, definitely.
Ian let out a sound close to whine as Mickey squeezed his hand and his thrusting increased in speed, and he started hitting Mickey's prostate with every thrust. Mickey felt Ian getting close to the edge, the bond letting him feel Ian's pleasure with his own. Ian let out a loud groan as he went over the edge, cumming inside Mickey, just the feeling of pleasure from the other with his prostate being hit was enough to make Mickey come without even touching his dick, he held back his own sounds as he came onto the ground in front of them.
Ian pulled back and went to the bag, pulling out some kind of paper towels he found and handed it to Mickey to clean up the mess, which the semen came out rather fast and it took less than a minute to clean. Mickey could tell when the redhead noticed the cum on the ground and that he didn't use his hands as he felt arousal and confusion mixed together coming from him, just as the other was about to ask about it he cut him off before he could even start talking.
"I always wanted to do that here!" Mickey yelled, the adrenaline still coursing through him, it was the first time he had actual sex outside and at the baseball diamond from his childhood too.
Mickey mentioned playing in little league and pissing on third base and was a bit surprised when Gallagher said he had been there playing second, and it seemed he had successful distracted the other from any questions. Mickey then remembered he never really cared to notice other kids around him when he was younger.
Ian went to do pull up on the bars and mickey pulled out another beer taking a sip before Ian got down and he went to take his place, doing pull ups of his own and out doing Gallagher's display, maybe he was showing off a little but With the redhead staring at him he couldn't really help it.
"Not much to do in the joint but work out." he said with a smirk enjoying the way the green eye's lingered on him until his mouth opened.
"Could read a book." The red head said easily.
"Fuck off." like he was gonna read books in there.
"Fucked for life anyway man." Mickey let slip, but made sure he didn't expand on it. Last thing he wanted to do was open up to Gallagher more and have him pitying him. He had already accepted he wasn't going to amount to anything more than a fuck up who was afraid of his father finding out he was into guys, the most he was hoping for was a decent lay and that Mandy eventually got away from their family and got a better life for herself. And he would do anything to help her achieve that.
He pulled out his smoke and lit it, pushing his thoughts aside and when Ian invited him out to a sox game, he said he couldn't and mentioned how his probation skank was going to get him a job at the meat plant if he didn't go out and find a job.
Gallagher reached out to try to steal his smoke from him, he pulls it away puffs on it once then hands it to him without a second thought. Which he notices after the fact and feels weird about it, hes not the type to easily share anything with people.
They continue talking al with Mickey mostly complaining when Ian suggests that he go to vocational college like he gets any say on what Mickey does with his life. He tries to make himself angry about it and feels like hes being too open about everything so he decides to try and end the conversation.
"Jesus Christ, do you wanna spread a blanket out and look for shooting stars next?" he said trying to sound annoyed though it came out more teasingly with his lack of actual annoyance.
"You ready to go again, or do you need some time, Fire crotch?" Mickey licked his lips and smirks as he pulls down his pants and bends over, smoke still in mouth.
The second time wasn't as intense with the bond but Ian was still just as eager. And they didn't really need much lube with Mickey still being stretched out from earlier. After he could feel the one sided bond calm down and he didn't feel the urge to touch Gallagher any more than usual.
"Really pent up in there huh?" Ian said after they finished, Mickey flipped him off before he responded.
"No way am I fucking any of the guys in there without a condom." Which was true but only half true, he didn't even think about it, and it seemed too risky.
"Don't you mean be fucked by?" Ian asked with a laugh.
"Fuck off, I would never bottom in the joint, not gonna be somebody's bitch the whole time I'm in there." Mickey responded grumpily, hoping Gallagher wouldn't bring up why he bottomed with him. Which seemed to be what he was thinking of doing, his mouth opened before it closed and he said nothing.
"I'm gonna head home and sleep, see ya around Gallagher." He spoke as he already started walking away from the attractive redhead. He could feel some happiness coming from the other at his words.
When Mickey got home Mandy was still up, and she looked like she was waiting for him. From the looks of things it looked like Terry had taken his return as a reason to celebrate out drinking and wasn't home.
"Where were you so late at night?" She asked tilting her head slightly at him as he waited for an answer.
"The fuck does it matter, I was out celebrating my freedom." He said casually, not like he was lying to her or anything.
"Just wanted to celebrate with you, you just had to go get laid huh?" She said with a laugh and leaned against the wall.
"Can't blame me when I had months without getting laid when you couldn't resist going to Gallagher's when I had just gotten out. " He said with a shrug, an easy way to get her off his ass.
"He just seemed down lately and he didn't tell me why, but seemed better today so I was hoping he'd tell me about it... And he is my boyfriend you know!" She recovered at the end almost like she had forgotten, he figured that them dating with a lie and her covering for her friend, guess it was true.
"Could be cheating on you." Mickey said with a small laugh and a shrug. She smiled then punched him in the arm, though not with her full strength.
"He's not cheating on me, speaking of Ian. We have a date tomorrow and I could use your opinion." She said grabbing his arm and dragging him towards her room. Mickey rolled his eyes and groaned.
"I don't know shit about women's fashion or what your boyfriend likes."
"I know, I just cant decide on which skirt and want your opinion okay." He sighed but gave in as she dragged him to her room, before she pulled out two red skirts, that were slightly different color, one was closer to Ian's hair color than the other, without thinking Mickey let out a small chuckle and spoke.
"The one on the left matches Gallagher's hair, so depends on if you wanna match him or not." He could of swore he saw Mandy smirk for a second before she looked at him and blinked in confusion.
"Mick, they're the same color to me... Ones shorter than the other." She hesitated, looking straight at him before she asked her question.
"Can you see full color?" His mouth opened then closed and he looked like he wanted to run away from her, which hurt, she didn't understand why he looked a bit afraid and she stepped closer to him.
"I..." He looked around the room, avoiding her eyes. She grabbed his arms and brought his attention back to her.
"Mick... It's okay. I'm not mad or anything, but why didn't you tell me? You know I have your back." She made sure to make eye contact with him so he could see she was telling the truth and being serious with him.
"It's not like that Mandy..." He swallowed and took in the look on her face, honest but he could see the hurt in them from him not explaining things to her. He stepped back towards her bed and sat down, their connected arms taking her with him, she sat next to him and waited. He sighed and looked at the ground before he spoke.
"Fuck...Yeah... I found my soulmate. I didn't tell you because I didn't plan on telling anyone. Not even.." He paused and let out a shaky breath. "Not even, he knows about it." He didn't look at her, Terry had brought them all up to be homophobic, he was thinking of mentioning it being Gallagher but that seemed like too much to expose all at once.
Mandy turned to look at Mickey but he was looking at the ground in front of him, she could see how much this had been eating at him, keeping something like this from everyone, she felt her eyes tear up. She tugged at his arm and he looked at her, he looked so cautious and unsure, she hugged him without a second thought.
"I don't care if your gay Mick, and I understand... Just know you can tell me anything." She whispered quietly, so that only he could hear her, she didn't want the chance of anyone else hearing her.
"You know dad will, he's not gonna accept... I can't be with.. I'm not gonna put my soulmate through this shit." He said struggling to finish sentences and express himself. He wrapped his arms back around Mandy returning her hug, and he felt like some weight had been lifted off of him.
"You say the word and I can fake date him for you so he has a reason to be around. Ian will understand us breaking up." She said pulling back from the hug and smiling at him, with small tears in her eyes. He let out a small laugh affectionately pushed her away.
"Yeah yeah, I'm gonna go to sleep, been awhile since I've slept on a decent bed." He said with a small smile and yawn, before he got up from her bed.
"Is it fine if you sleep here tonight?" She asked trying to look like she didn't care. Mickey just shrugged and went to lay down in her bed.
"Whatever your bed is bigger and more comfortable anyways." Mandy smiled as she crawled back into her bed and got comfortable as they both went to sleep, back to back. She knew they would always have eachother's backs no matter what, and she was glad Mickey could now be more open with her.
Notes: Mandy's a favorite of mine (after Mickey) and I wish they kept her around in the series. Not sure how long this fanfic will be, I haven't given myself a chapter limit like I usually try to do so my guess is it will be long. Thanks for reading!