Another day.
It's just another day.
As I walk down the street, I notice the flee market is still open for a little while. I would have walked past it, but I hesitated when I see a little shop for homemade baked goods.
It wouldn't hurt to take a look, right? After all….
As I walk closer, I see a very simple but pretty cupcake. The man who runs the shop. Seems to have asked me a question.
"Miss?"
My eyes shot up to the man and I hurriedly apologized. "I was just looking at this. I was wanting to get something today anyway."
The man smiled before saying, "my my, is it perhaps your birthday?"
I nodded shyly.
"In that case, if you want to purchase this cupcake, I will give you something to go with it, on the house as a gift!"
I opened my mouth to politely decline, when he presented a short, white candle with streaks of gold through it. I was speechless. "It's so pretty. The design reminds me of porcelain somehow." I comment.
"It is said that this kind of candle can grant any one wish to any one lonely soul."
At this comment, I look into the gentleman's eyes to see him smiling at me while still holding out the candle.
Wishes don't come true. If they did, I wouldn't be alone even after trying so hard to just be accepted. But….I just can't….give up yet….it is, after all, my birthday.
"Thank you, Sir. I'll take it."
After having purchased my cupcake and taking the candle in hand, I had a sad smile on my face as I walked away.
"Good luck, hon."
…
The sound of silence welcomes me into my dark apartment. I wish I could do more with it, but at the same time, nothing lasts anyway. Since moving out with the permission of my Aunt and Uncle who honestly couldn't wait for me to leave anyway, that was the last bit of life I had around me. I put the cupcake on the counter with the candle next to it and start unwinding from my day.
Take a shower. Wash my face. Put on my pajama shirt. No sounds at all. I walk back into the kitchen to grab water, when I look at the cupcake and remember.
A wish, huh? A wish for a lonely soul.
I walk closer to it, and end up putting the candle in the lone cupcake. I pull a lighter out of the drawer and light it, putting it closer to the candle.
How could you think he loved you? Or that anyone could. You gave everything to keep people who didn't want you in their life in the first place. From best friends who never invited you to hang out at their girls' night parties, to boyfriends that wanted you but only when no one else was around.
With tears rolling down my cheeks as I lit the candle…
I wish I had a real family….even if it isn't by blood…I just don't want to be alone anymore.
I blew out the candle and as the smoke began to twirl and rise, it didn't go away. It got brighter…and brighter?
Everything is so bright…and now there's wind? Wait….
I look around and see that not only is the brightness coming from what I can now see as the sky, but the wind….I AM FREAKING FALLING?!
What is this? I don't want to look. I'm gonna die! With that thought, I yell out "I can't die! NOT YET!"
As if the gods themselves heard my cry right as I was about to hit the ground, I was caught. It was a jolt I wasn't at all used to. I still covered my face for a minute before hearing "Hey are you okay?"
That voice….sounds so familiar. Like the extreme loudness of it made me flinch a bit. I heard another voice "Asta, do you really think yelling at her after something like that would be smart?"
HOLD UP
I peek out from between my fingers.
"Oh my….ASTA?!"
I opened my eyes again and started rubbing my eyes. Was that a dream? It's dark now. "I must have passed out or….wait…..WHOSE BED IS THIS?"
"Seems she is just as loud as Asta" Yuno, said.
As Asta stood making an argument about how he isn't really that loud and calling Yuno a tall handsome jerk, I just stand there staring at them both.
My jaw must have been sitting on the dang ground and of course Nash had to say, "You're gonna catch flies like that ya know. Have you never seen orphans or what?"
I could clearly hear I had offended him. But that's the problem. I CLEARLY HEAR HIM! RIGHT NEXT TO ME!
"Are you okay child?" Father Orsi just asked me if I am okay. HE ASKED ME IF I AM OK?!
"Please don't pass out again." Yuno coldly declared. That seemed to snap me out of it in a hurry and of course, me and my big mouth, "Yuno, do you have to be so cold all the time? You see a girl in shock and the only thing you can say like a handsome jerk is please don't pass out?!"
Once the words had left my lips entirely, I suddenly remembered myself, what I had JUST said to THE YUNO, and looked at the floor like a sheepish dummy.
I began to apologize before Asta spoke, or rather exclaimed, "Yeah, Yuno! You don't have to be so mean! She is clearly a lost girl in need of help! As the future Wizard King…"
"That's right! Did you guys get your grimoires yet?" Again, blank stares. Oh wait, I forgot. They don't know me. I need to just zip my lips before I say anything else even slightly stalker like.
However, Asta was more than willing to answer. "We get them tomorrow! OH, is that why you are here?"
"Asta, she fell out of the sky…" Yuno said coldly yet again. I'm not sure why I said anything. Maybe it's my lack of friends where I was or maybe I just needed to know for my sake.
"You don't like me very much, do you Yuno?" I didn't even realize I had a few stray tears until I was met with silence. I looked up at him and bowed respectfully before saying, "I promise I won't inconvenience you further."
I began walking past him and out the door without a sound. All I could hear…was every time I was treated just like that. Like an inconvenience. Like….nothing.
I hadn't even made it very far when Recca grabbed my hand from behind to stop me.
I looked at her and gave a small smile. "Hi. What's…"
"Please don't cry. Yuno is just like that. With everyone, I swear!" She had such a tenderness. This is the first person to ever come after me when I walked away. The thought made me smile brighter. "I believe you. It just reminded me of something."
I heard Asta from outside yelling at Yuno. "You hurt her feelings! Don't you feel bad at all?!" The difference between my world and this one was already there. I have 2 people sticking up for me.
"Would you like to come back inside?" Sister Lily asked from the door. I want to. I want to. Maybe this time….
"Okay." Recca pulled me back into the orphanage and there was Asta shouting apologies for Yuno. He is so excited and kind.
I quickly put my arms around him in a hug.
Silence.
"Thank you, Asta." Maybe this time, I can be happy.
