I calmed down a little by simply locking the door in Sae's face and listening to how he departed... now what? I really don't want to go through this psychological pain again... wait a minute... and if? no... that had to be impossible... but... what if it could?

Let's see if I can see the future blue lock entrants since I'm a again youngster. And if that's the case, I can see those idiots... right now they're just going about their normal lives as children... what if I get in? No... it's preferable to return, but the harsh fact is that I'm already dead there...damn... this must be a nightmare.

So this is life? I have to repeat everything and pray that I remember... well, later I'll have to analyse all of this, but for now I have to change and go to my "classes" actually, we don't do anything there but play... What if I take a book and read? It is preferable to learn to read at this age.

Just watching youngsters play will exhaust and weary me... I forget that I'm a child.

Pov mine.

While Rin was changing, Sae sat in the living room waiting for Rin, recalling what Rin had said previously; it felt weird to him that his darling younger brother had spoken that.

"But what's wrong with him?" Sae said, not realising his parents were heard.

"What about Rin?" his father asked from the kitchen, curious since his son had screamed previously.

"To be honest, I don't understand either; he acts strangely and furthermore... I'm going to be late for class... in any case i'm still going to play today's game." Sae replied, lying back on the sofa, it was bothersome to wait, but if it was Rin, he didn't mind.

"Now that you've mentioned Rin, where did he hear those negative words? I'm curious where he got them." she looked at her husband, who was still staring at the newspaper, as he felt his wife's stare on him.

"Don't look at me, woman, I take care of my language," her husband stated solemnly. "hmmp you make an excellent point, sae honey, have you seen any strangers converse with Rin?" his mother approached Sae and give him a water bottle

"Not really, he's always with me or playing with his toys," the redhead remarked, accepting the water bottle from his mother that given him, and then the three of them heard small footfall and saw Rin...

"Let's finish this shit," Rin remarked, angrily, with a neutral expression, which astonished both his parents and Sae.

"I'll have to stop listening to indecent music," their mother said as she sighed and kept washing the dishes. "Honey, since you didn't eat your breakfast today, I'm going to make the best meal for a you two! " She said with a smile that sounded as kind as usually did, but rin knew that it was a lie.

Rin made an ugly face at his father, who he looked at him straightened because no child of Rin's age shouldn't make that type of face. "Yes, I understand... you don't want a hug," his father remarked, a bit sad, but he kept reading the newspaper.

"Finally, someone who understands," Rin says as he puts on his backpack and walks straight to the front door of the house, followed by Sae behind him putting the water bottle back into his backpack.

"Rin darling, don't forget to wait for dad to take you to your brother's game" Her mother added with a smile that faded as Rin spoke the next thing.

"Don't be naive, mother, his team will win because of him" Rin said, pointing to Sae, who didn't understand but didn't showed little interest.

"Rin, it's bad to aim," his father replied, feeling the glare of rin "stop looking at me like that... anyway, take care of yourselves! We love you."

Rin had forgotten the word from his parents at this point, and he hadn't heard that in a long time... and it was because, after that snow day, his parents separated themselves from him and then told him that he should be like his brother...

a horrible memory, and rin simply opened the door without saying anything, it was evident for sae who didn't understand that behaviour because rin... he always smiled at them and told them he loved them as well. "We love you, bye" Sae murmured as he shut the door.

As the two brothers walked side by side, Sae saw Rin's frigid expression. To be honest, Rin realized that he was acting unusual as Sae still felt like he was her dear little brother.

This was strange for Rin, but did he have to have someone by his side so he wouldn't get raped or what? It had to seem like nothing had changed, but he didn't want to, he didn't want to lie to himself after all, he has his memories. he sigh bored of everything.

Rin knew that he needed to appear normal, but how could he forget everything he had to go through because of his fucking brother? He left him traumatized and alone…he didn't want to go through that again, even if it meant altering the past.

Both brothers stopped because they needed to wait for a traffic light; Rin couldn't see any car but he kept silent looking ahead, but he had to stop his thoughts because of what Sae said.

"Rin..." Sae said, curious. "Why don't you take Nii-chan's hand? We're going to cross the street, which you know is dangerous."

Of course, Sae would be curious; Rin remembered when he was a little kid, he used to hold his hand or hug his arm while he was walking... Rin was a very immature kid at the time, so Rin assumed that was the same reason. why Sae despises him while they continue to grow

"I am a four-year-old boy who is clear that it is dangerous, but of course nothing bad will happen to me if I wait for the traffic light or look at the street." Rin said without interest, but sae was starting to get annoyed and rin felt the glare of his brother.

"did I make a mistake? Did I offend you in any way?" Sae said it irritated but calmly, saying it without interest which was a lie because for Sae, Rin was the most important thing in the world, and if Rin did hate him, he would felt hurt.

"No, you didn't do anything, I'm just trying to grow faster", Rin added without interest in continuing to talk because it was true that he did something, leaving him traumatized and telling him rubbish, but here he was innocent, but of course Rin had to lie.

"That's still years away, you're still a kid," Sae replied, offering his hand to Rin, who looked at it for a few seconds before ignoring him and grousing at the street that showed white and walking away.

"I think I'm going to get mad at you if you keep talking to me," Rin commented coldly, which even Sae couldn't understand…

They continued to walk in silence without holding hands, which Rin didn't notice, but Sae squeezed his hand because he was upset but he didn't want to show it.