BPOV
"I can't live like this!" I said, "I can't. I try to focus on the positive things, but I don't think I will ever be able to get past it. I... can't."
"Bella..." he sighed, "Talk to me. Did you have a nightmare or something?"
"It wasn't exactly a nightmare. It's something that actually happened. I don't think I will ever be able to forget what you did to me." I said.
"Baby, please..." He said as he tried to hold my hand.
"No." I said as I pulled my hand away from his, "I think I will go crazy if I continue like this."
"Bella..."
"I tried. I think I've tried enough. I keep trying, but nothing seems to be working." I said.
"Maybe that's because I'm not trying enough." he said, "I'm sorry for the way I behaved today... I know I've been behaving like an ass lately... I've no right to be mad at you. I'm sorry! I will change myself. I'll put in more effort." He said, "I'm... I'm really sorry."
"No. Maybe you also tried enough. But nothing is going to change the past." I said, "And whatever you do now is never going to be enough for me."
"Bella..." He sighed. He looked defeated, but there was nothing I could do about it.
"I don't see any future together..." I said, "We have girls with us right now. But they are already thirteen. They will leave for college in a few years. What will we do after that? I don't think we will even have anything to talk about."
He stared at me for some time.
"So are you telling me that whatever we have right now is just because of the girls?" he said.
"They are one of the strongest reasons I stayed," I said, "I might have been able to leave early if you weren't a good father. I... I didn't want them to grow up without their father."
"And now that they're grown up, you think it's okay to remove me from their lives?" He said.
"I'm not trying to remove you from their lives. I'm just trying to remove you from my life." I said.
I didn't know for how long he kept staring at me.
"Okay, go." he said after some time, "I won't stop you this time."