Ok another time skip, yayyyy. This is going to take place a few days after the last chapter nothing big. Everyone is back at school besides Linus who is resting at home. Enjoy!!

LUCY'S POV

Spring Break was over, and I had very mixed feelings about coming today. Over the past days I've been thinking about two things. My brother's health, and Schroeder's kiss. Did he mean that? Was he just trying to get me to stop crying or did he still love me? It was obvious we still had some tension so I wouldn't be surprised. And maybe I was ready to start over. And date again maybe?

I just need to see him. And then I did. I started running up towards him calling out his name. His face lit up and he opened his arms. I ran into them and he wraps his arms around me. "I missed you." I looked up at him as I said it. "You saw me yesterday." He laughs as I shrug back at him. Schroeder lets go of me and looks right into my eyes. "Is Linus getting better?" I nod. Linus was doing pretty great. He could probably go to school now if he wanted to. But the school let him off and who wouldn't take a free day if they were allowed?

A huge grin grew on Schroeder's face as he let go of me. He wasn't looking at me anymore. I look back to see Sally looking right at us. She squealed and ran over. I never seen them like that. I knew they got closer but not like that. He grabbed her and twirled her around. Once he put her down he cupped her face and kissed her. Kissed her. Right on the lips. It was totally casual. My suspicion was correct. They were dating. I felt gross. For no reason too. Schroeder wasn't mine. And I let my guard down again, thinking we could start over. Now I'm hurt again.

And he doesn't even notice what he's doing. He didn't know my pain, and now he's the one hurting me. I have no comfort. Schroeder can't be there for me if he doesn't know I need him. But I won't let him know. I've shown too much weakness and it's terrible. I walk out with my head held high. But all I really wanted to do was cry.

SALLY'S POV

School is finally over. Schroeder offered to walk me home. But I said no. Linus used to do that, I'd never say no. But today I wanted to visit Linus. I guess I could've asked if he wanted to come but I wanted to be alone with him. Actually it probably would've helped if he was here, because Lucy was not fond of me after everything that has happened. And I could see the look on her face when Schroeder and I kissed. I felt bad, I did. But right now Schroeder was the only thing distracting me from everything.

Schroeder was a break from the harsh reality. And it was a lot of work to try to kiss him or show any kind of affection. It kinda felt wrong, or weird. Schroeder and I tried to work out together but I don't how I feel about it. I don't really love him. And I know we are on similar pages, his face tells his story completely. I'm mainly doing it for Schroeder and myself, to get over what we can't have.

I knocked on the door of the Van Pelt residence. Lucy answered the door. As I expected. "Leave." She was glaring at me. The glare gave me goosebumps. But I gave her a look, not showing a second of fear. "I want to see him. You aren't going to keep him away from me are you?" She looked completely unfazed. "Just call him." She rolled her eyes and tried to slam the door. I hold my hand out catching the door. "It's not the same Lucy" now I was matching her energy. But it wasn't working. I instead give her a more sad look, hoping for at least an ounce of sympathy. She was not buying it.

Lucky for me Linus was walking by inside the house. His mouth grew into a smile. "Sally!" He ran over outside and pulled into a tight hug. I nearly fell down the stairs behind me. He acknowledged that and walked backwards. "She was just about to leave Linus, say goodbye!" I looked back at Linus as he read my face. I knew he would understand once he looked at me, and I didn't dare to go against Lucy's words right now. She already hates me enough.

Linus rolled his eyes and grabbed my wrist pulling it inside. I looked back at Lucy giving her a smug grin. She rolled her eyes and stomped over to her room. Linus dragged me to his room. I sat down on the edge of his bed. He was holding his varsity jacket, he put it beside him and sat next to me.

We held eye contact for a minute or two. I wouldn't say it was awkward but it was a bit weird. I hugged him with a tear or two running down my eyes. "I missed you so much. I haven't seen you since forever!" It was true, I hadn't seen him in person since he was in the hospital. He hugged me back with a smile on his face. "Besides the fact you called me multiple times each day." Linus chuckled. I guess I was a bit clingy.

I stay in his arms for a good while. "You smell like home." I look up at him, he was looking at me the entire time. "So shampoo?" I giggle as he pulls me closer, Frieda's condo had a very strong shampoo scent. Frieda did too. "You know that's not what I meant." Linus grabbed onto my shoulders and pulled me back so I could clearly see him looking into my eyes. They were shiny and rich. I could get lost in them. I am getting lost in them. He gives me a smirk and raises his eyebrow as he begins to speak. "You know that's not something a 'not girlfriend' should be saying." I laugh it off matching his expression. "So I'm guessing a 'not girlfriend' probably wouldn't do this either?" He looked at me confused. I pried myself off his arms and snatched his jacket. I ran out of his room wrapping his jacket around me. "No they wouldn't, now give that back!" We were both hysterically laughing as he chased me around his house. I ran over to the living room by the couch. Linus wrapped his arms around my neck from behind and pulled on onto the couch. I adjust myself to lay down resting my head on his lap. He looked down at me with a similar smirk. "So can I have my jacket back now?" I give a look, and he rolls his eyes as he runs his fingers through my hair.

I couldn't see well in that specific angle but I heard stomping coming from it. It was most definitely Lucy. I could feel her glare. I sat up sitting beside Linus instead and looked up at her. "You two have got to cut that out!" I give her a confused look and she rolls her eyes at me. Classic Lucy. "Sally you have a boyfriend! And you are going to break his heart! You two have to control whatever dumb romantic tension you have left, I don't want Schroeder to be hurt again!" Linus wrapped his arms around me scowling at Lucy. "Leave her alone Lucy." Lucy looked right back at Linus. Linus was no longer scared of Lucy, they met each other's level.

"Linus, you feel it. I know you do. That pain when you see it. The way it tears you apart and eats you alive. The gross feeling you get, the way you want to run away and cry. The pain, Linus don't pretend." I pulled back and looked at him. What was she talking about? Linus didn't take his eyes off Lucy. "Lucy that isn't them. It's us, the pain is because we can't accept it. Don't do that to them." What are they saying? What feeling? What pain?

Lucy walks off, I couldn't tell if she was mad or on the verge of crying. I looked back at Linus and raised an eyebrow, but he wouldn't even look me in the eye. "What was that-" He didn't let me finish.

"Sally are you happy with Schroeder?" This time he looked me in the eye. I could feel a pain in my gut, I could tell he felt it too. "I- I don't know." Linus looked deep into my eyes. He was persistent for another answer. "No- no I'm not happy." Linus opened his mouth to say something but I interrupted before he could. "It's not what I thought it would be. Every time I try to kiss him I feel kind of gross. Like as if I had to force it. I don't get it. Why was it so difficult to kiss him when it was so natural for us?" Linus looked back at me with a serious yet complex look. "You don't love him."

Ok that was stretch, and a little far. But at the same time was it? Was it true? Did I even love him? Or was I just trying to look for feelings I could never find. Linus never broke his gaze off of me. "Sally love is rare. You can't just enter your friends house high and try to find a spark. No matter how you look or act there's only a few people who will ever love you like that. The way I do."

I looked into his exasperating, beautiful eyes that were looking at me. That was so sweet. Something changed in his expression. It was an expression I was very familiar with. The expression he uses when he's about do something stupid, especially when he knows it's stupid. I knew what I he going to do, and I knew I wasn't going to stop it, he knew that too.

He leaned in towards me and we locked lips. The weirdest part about it was it was mutual, I was ok with this. I have a boyfriend. Yet right now it completely slipped my mind even though we were just on the topic. Yet it still felt completely irrelevant. I know I should've pushed him away. I know I shouldn't have been kissing him back. By now I was lying down on the couch with Linus on top of me. Our lips didn't even part once.

This was wrong in more ways than one. But that wasn't stopping me. People say the guilt drags you down. But it barely affected me. I had no intention to escape. Does this make me a bad person? I was becoming unsure. Maybe I am a terrible person, and it is affecting me. Am I terrible? Even though Linus' eyes weren't open he was still aware of how I felt. As we continue to share kisses Linus runs his fingers through my hair in a slow pattern calming me, without his lips leaving mine.

Linus knows everything, and he knows how to make me feel better. Even in the middle of a make out session.

When we broke apart we both sat up. Linus kept his arms around me, continuing to hold me close. "Still seemed pretty natural to me." He had a smirk on his face when he said it. I roll my eyes, but I was laughing. "You know I have a boyfriend right?" Linus jerked his eyes toward me. He looked kind of shocked. "Don't tell me you forgot!" I elbow him a smile but a hard bash of guilt was very clearly hitting him.

"Shit. Sally I'm so sorry I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable and-" I giggle looking back at him. He looked at me skeptically. "Linus it's not your fault, I'm 90% sure Schroeder hasn't even gotten over your sister yet so it's fine. And you could never make me uncomfortable." I give him a smile, he gives me a smirk. "Really?"

"Don't get any ideas Linus." He ignored me looking down for a moment before his eyes return to look at me. "So you're saying-" I interrupt him still keeping a joking tone. "Linus." He ignored me again continuing. "-that if I picked you up right now and brought you to my bedroom and took your virginity you wouldn't be uncomfortable?" How detailed. Why was that so detailed?! I looked at him and shrugged. "I guess." That was definitely not the right thing to say to someone like Linus. I realize that now.

"Linus don't even think about-" Linus smirked grabbing me by the waist carrying to his room. This probably would've been considered harassment if we both weren't laughing as I tried to fight back. I definitely should've tried to escape here, and if we did this it would definitely be considered cheating. But there was something about Linus, I knew I could trust him. And I didn't want to say no, I didn't want to leave.

Instead of doing whatever dirty work that was in his mind he instead gently placed me on his bed and sat next to me. "You didn't think I'd actually do anything right?" I laugh looking at him. "I never know with you." Linus wrapped one of him arms around me as I leaned my head on his shoulder. I could feel his lips on my forehead head. Once his lips left he pulled me closer. "Sally I don't know what it is, but something about you keeps me coming back." I giggle moving my head to kiss him on the cheek. "Maybe it's because I'm just so unbelievably beautiful and compelling." I tease batting my eyes at him. He chuckles as his eyes examine me. "No, you are so much more. You're everything Sally. You're my everything." That put a gleam in my eye, and a smile I couldn't wipe off even if I tried.

Linus and I had a very complicated relationship. But we never stopped being each other's everything. It was the perfect way to describe each other when we didn't know where we were for status. All I knew and all he did too was we were each other's everything and we would always be by each other. It was comforting to think about. Like a reminder that Linus is always by my side no matter what.

With the train of thought in my mind I didn't even notice Linus searching for different expressions and feelings in my head, he quickly caught on. "You know I don't need to say these things to remind you how much you mean to me, you know that, you know you're my everything." I smile back at him. He holds my chin up with two fingers and gives me a peck on the lips.

Something hits in my head and I flinch. "Oh uh- I should go." Linus looked at me skeptically and raised his eyebrow. "What?"

"I've got to do something important. I'll be back. I promise."

"Where to?" I walked over to the door peeking back at him. "I've got to break up with someone." Linus looked a little shocked with a hint of happy and with that I leave.