"I cut this thing with Liv off...I miss Lulu too much. I couldn't even bring myself to sleep with her for God's sake...I was an idiot. It's like this aching feeling in my chest, I feel so numb and lost without her." Johnny sighed, sitting at Jake's with Ethan Lovett trying to calm his racing heart down with a beer.
"You two only broke up two months ago, I think you and my sister had a love not most people get to experience. Ever. Maybe you two should talk, it certainly wouldn't hurt anything. I don't think sleeping with Olivia would have done any good, I know sis hasn't seen anyone." Ethan hated to see both of them beating themselves up over this, he knew Johnny kissed Maxie but he felt the relationship could be fixed.
"Maybe you're right, if she would even want to see me." Johnny stared at nothing in particular, before getting up from his seat and heading back to the penthouse. Johnny pours himself a glass of scotch sitting the bottle on the table.
"It looks like I'll be thinking of you again, even if I try to forget you." Johnny was speaking of Lulu, not even alcohol would drown out her memory. There was a knock on the door, Johnny internally groaned as he got up to answer it.
"Hi." Lulu Spencer stood on the other side of the door, throwing him a light smile.
"Hey uh...Lovett isn't here." Johnny figured she stopped by to visit her brother.
"Well, it's a good thing I didn't stop by to see my brother." Lulu gives him a knowing look.
"You're here to...see me?" Johnny was confused, why would she want to?
"Yes, now are you going to let me in?* Lulu couldn't help but laugh.
"Oh shit, sorry. Of course, come in." Johnny could have facepalmed himself right now, as she walked inside sitting on the couch.
"Maxie and Spinelli got hitched. Were you aware?" Lulu arches an eyebrow.
"No...I wasn't. I know Spinelli was pretty upset, but rightfully so." Johnny wished he hadn't hurt both the love of his life and his best friend.
"I dropped the whole thing because, holding a grudge isn't going to change anything. I understand why you did what you did, Claudia told me about Michael. Just so you know, I'm not snitching on your sister, I might dislike Claudia but that doesn't mean I want anything to happen to her. In the grand scheme of things, you thought you were protecting me and I can't be mad about that. It's not like you two slept together, I'm not saying it wasn't bad but I'd rather just forget it." Lulu had done a lot of soul searching these past two months.
"Are you...forgiving me? No offense Lu, but I don't know if I'm worthy of that. Thank you, I do appreciate that. I was a coward, I should have just told you what was going on." Johnny truly hated himself for hurting Lulu, he'd never forgive himself.
"I am, Johnny you made a mistake. You thought you were doing the right thing, I can't fault you for that. I... actually came by to ask if you still have feelings for me." Lulu had totally shell-shocked Johnny with her question.
"Of course, I've loved you since the night we met. If you can believe that." Johnny smirked.
"Johnny, have you been drinking...really? The whole bottle? Now tell me what in the hell you need a whole bottle of scotch for?" Lulu immediately spotted the bottle of scotch, shaking her head.
"I think you already know." Johnny gives her a look.
"It's gonna take a lot more than a bottle of scotch to forget this." Lulu pointed to herself, with a light smirk.
"Oh, I know." Johnny chuckled.
"By the way, Olivia stopped by Crimson today. Said I ruined your relationship, maybe I'm just toxic but...I laughed. I'm not even talking a cute laugh because I can't, I mean a full on loud laugh. I don't even know why I laughed because it's not funny!" Lulu even giggled at her words, what was wrong with her?
"Really? I think all your laughs are cute. I've learned that you like to fill moments with laughter because you don't know how else to react. Yeah, I don't know what I was even doing with Liv. I missed you, nothing else fills that hole other than you being here." Johnny was serious, he was really glad Lulu was here.
"I missed you too." Lulu smirked, glad they were getting their feelings out in the open.
"Anything new going on with you?" Johnny asked.
"Actually, my mother is... getting married." Lulu pressed her lips in a thin line.
"Shouldn't that be...good news?" Johnny was confused.
"To Scott Baldwin." Lulu gives Johnny a look.
"What? How...what?" Johnny was at a loss for words, what the hell was going through Laura's mind?
"My thoughts exactly. I'm honestly...kind of pissed at my mom. I mean, I get out of Shadybrooke after being locked in there for six months Scott basically terrorized me the whole time. I feel like I wasted my time in there... telling my mom about Logan, telling my mom about you...if she was just going to leave me for a man, she could have said so. She didn't care about sticking around for her children after twenty plus years...I have gone through so much, and it's like it doesn't even mean anything. I just...I honestly don't know what to feel. Maybe my dad's always been flighty but, he's never left me out to dry like that. I don't understand, all I know is I'm pissed off. I always thought my mom waking up would be this great thing, that she would want to get to know me...I haven't seen her since I was six. I'm so fucking disappointed." Lulu truly didn't know how to deal with this, she hadn't opened up to anyone about this before but she trusted Johnny with her life.
"I know you're feeling really confused right now but, you don't have to keep this to yourself. Please don't. Laura should have stuck around, she's missing out on an incredible woman. I can't believe she would do this to to your family." Johnny pulled her into a hug, knowing she was about to cry.
"I feel like it's just so messed up." Lulu sighed, letting the tears fall.