A/n: this one shot takes place during the early days of Jolu before they are dating, when Johnny's trying to push her away. Happy reading!

Johnny had forced himself not to think about her, not to dream about the life they could have together, not to contact her. Johnny had even stopped going by the haunted star, it's not like he wanted Logan to have Lulu but he had to respect that they were in a relationship.

Lulu couldn't help but worry about Johnny, he's all she ever thought about anymore. Even if she didn't want to. Lulu noticed how he didn't return her calls or texts, how he'd stopped coming by the haunted star. Lulu missed Johnny but, she knew that she shouldn't. Logan wasn't horrible but, it was hard to find herself attracted to him anymore.

"Logan, I don't think this is working. I think it would be better if we were just friends. I don't want to hurt you." Lulu sighed being careful not to touch him, because he was angry.

"This is all because of him. Isn't it?" Logan growled at her, this was the tip of the iceberg.

"Logan, don't take it personally. Part of this is because of Johnny but, there's a bigger part that's telling me to end things for my state of mind. You're not a bad person, you're just not for me. Not anymore." Lulu was as firm as she could possibly be, she saw anger flash in his eyes and knew she was in trouble.

Johnny was walking around Port Charles to clear his head but, it wasn't helping. All Johnny could think of was Lulu, the woman he was supposed to forget about. Johnny decided to take a walk to the haunted star what could he say? Old habits die hard. As soon as Johnny walked inside the main room he saw a body laying by the piano, from the looks of it the body was female, she had blonde hair -Wait. Lulu had blonde hair. Had somebody snapped and killed her? Had Logan went psycho on her? Was this his father's work?

"Hold on Johnny, she might not even be dead." Johnny thought to himself rushing over to where she lay, turning her over. Lulu was still breathing but she had blood matted in her usually neat blonde hair, a bruise under her eye, a bump on the back of her neck and a bruise on her left arm.

"Lulu? Can you wake up for me? Please?" Johnny's tone was hopeful as he held her limp body in his arms, Johnny didn't get much of a response.

"I can't believe you have to see me like this...ughhhhh." Lulu grumbled softly, eyes still shut.

"To see someone you kind of have to open your eyes." Johnny pointed out, slightly smirking.

"You're an ass." Lulu mutters, both knowing she was only joking. Johnny lifts her up in his arms carrying her to the couch and sitting her up against the cushions and sat down beside her.

"Yeah, that's what I hear. What all happened here?" Johnny gestures to her body.

"Oh, that? I ended things with Logan and he doesn't take rejection too kindly. It's fine." Lulu blew it off with a wave of her hand.

"This happens a lot?" Johnny wonders.

"I guess I kind of just got used to it. After a certain point it just becomes normal, and I forget that it isn't. Logan has post traumatic stress disorder from the war but, Coop did too. Coop never beat any woman up. I needed to end the relationship, I knew that this was coming." Lulu was mentally exhausted from the whole relationship.

"As insane as my father is, I never saw him hit my mother. Did he shoot at her? Yeah, but he never hit her. If you're worse than Anthony Zacchara, that's saying something." Johnny couldn't help but to roll his eyes. Johnny couldn't believe that she'd been putting up with that shit. Lulu deserves better.

"Wow, that is bad. So, are you going to tell me why you've been avoiding me?" Lulu asked the question burning in her mind.

"I was... trying to let you be happy with him. Obviously that was a mistake but, I don't wanna be the guy that gets in the middle of a relationship. I don't just want half of you, I want the whole thing." Johnny didn't think he'd ever admit this to her but, since Logan was a piece of shit Johnny didn't see the issue.

"What makes you think that you've ever just had half of me? When I was with you I completely forgot that I was even in a relationship. Probably because I'd been putting up with abuse for so long, it was nice to feel something again. I was...numb. I was just living on autopilot, I was a fuckin' robot. That was until the night I met you, at this point I don't know why I ever stayed. It's not like Logan treated me good. EVER. I confuse myself sometimes, I almost never know what I'm doing while I'm doing it." Lulu was probably having a mini crisis due to the fact that she'd been through so much trauma for months upon months, Johnny grabbed her hand.

"I could tell. I didn't know it was this bad but, I knew you weren't YOU. I know that I haven't even known you that long but, I feel like I've known you my whole life. It's okay, you've been through a lot. I get it. Come here." Johnny felt bad for staying away, what if she had needed him and he wasn't there? What if Hayes had killed her? Johnny shudders at the thought as Lulu scooted closer to him, laying her head on his chest. This is where they were meant to be curled up on the couch with his arm around her, her head on his chest. Lulu Spencer was his happy ever after...