note: timestamps in each letters are important. happy reading! :)
18 October 2023
Dear Sasuke,
You told me you wanted to break up because you have to sort yourself out but… I miss you immensely today and I wish upon all the stars in the universe that you'd let me help you in your quest for figuring yourself out. I miss you and I wish you were here, still with me.
You know, I was out shopping for groceries when the fresh tomatoes reminded me of you. Of how I used to buy a lot of them because they are your favorites. In every meal we shared, there was always a tomato and I can't help but wonder who helps you prepare your food now? You're a master of a lot of things but you're a terrible cook. I hope you'll reach out to me soon and tell me you take back all the things you said that wretched night you walked away... I'm right here, Sasuke. Still here, always here.
Yours,
Sakura
21 November 2023
Dear Sasuke,
You once asked me why I waited and chose you. And I guess the only answer I could give you is that: all I know is the kinds of romance I read from Austen, Brontë, Tolstoy, Flaubert and all those brilliant authors and no one ever comes close to you. All those things I read about from their novels, you make me feel them a billion times more and how waiting and choosing you was the best damn decision I ever made.
And today I was cleaning in the study when I happened to open Brontë's Wuthering Heights and I didn't know you left notes in between the pages. Your annotations, and short letters ledged in the expanse of Catherine and Heathcliff's world were all still there. I once told you in passing how this particular book is my absolute favorite and I didn't know you actually read it and left notes for me! I wished I found these sooner, I guess I'm too late aren't I? They were dated three years ago– just a couple months after we dated. These notes may be years old but nothing changes, Sasuke. I love you as much as I love you since the beginning. Maybe even more.
Yours,
Sakura
25 December 2023
Dear Sasuke,
It's our first Christmas without each other. The cold weather in Konoha is starting to bite and I hope you always keep yourself warm. I didn't have the energy to bake gingerbread cookies today. It reminds me of happy memories– of us together in the kitchen. How making simple cookies would take us the whole day because you always mess up the ingredients, how decorating and arranging our gingerbread cookies is such a competition that you'd always distract me with your touches and kisses so you could win! How witnessing the mighty Sasuke Uchiha in the kitchen the whole day, dressed in sweats and tee, with a ridiculously frilly pink apron on and with blotches of flour and colored icing on your face makes my heart swell with so much love for you. This kitchen– No… this home is not the same without you. I'm not the same without you, Sasuke. I'm lost, so, so lost and I'm faced with the startling clarity of how much I need you in my life.
I used to love Christmas, because they're all spent with you. And now, I sit here in the middle of a cold and empty apartment you used to share with me that I realize: maybe it wasn't the cold that's biting me off. Perhaps it's the pain and longing and feeling of a gaping hole in my chest that is biting my whole being off. And my god… Sasuke, please. Come back, please. I'll do anything– give everything.
Yours,
Sakura
28 January 2024
Dear Sasuke,
I ran into Naruto in town today. It's nice to hear you're doing well. He told me that you met someone a few weeks ago? I mean, not that I'm happy for you– because I am! I swear, I am happy for you. But it just hurts me and perhaps I haven't made peace with our break up even after all these months. Ah. Nevermind… You know that I will always be here to support you no matter what. I miss you today and everyday.
Yours,
Sakura
14 February 2024
Dear Sasuke,
I… I didn't mean to eavesdrop. I'm sorry. It's just that it's valentine's day today and you used to bring me to Konoha mountain every valentine's to go ice skating on the frozen lake. I didn't mean to spy or anything and I promise I didn't want to see you two on purpose. I thought the lake was our valentine's tradition… I didn't know it was possible but the pain and sadness quadrupled when I saw you skating with her there today. Her soft laughter rang through the trees and I can't help but admire how warm she is and how comfortable you are with her. When I saw you hold her hand gingerly while you were teaching her how to skate– it felt like I was intruding. I was hit with a pain that no words can describe. I thought that was our thing… I guess I'm mistaken.
Yours,
Sakura
6 May 2024
Dear Sasuke,
Ino told me to let you go. It's been a year since we broke up. You found someone new, it's the same woman I saw you with in the lake three months ago. I'm relieved to know you're happy and she's making you happy. I guess it's finally time to move on right? But honestly, I don't know how I will get over you– of us. No one ever did a one do so much to me except for you.
Yours,
Sakura
1 September 2025
Dear Sasuke,
How are you? I hope you're eating well and doing good. Two years without you… I guess, I can't really make myself completely let you go. I can't… I don't know how to move on from this– to heal from this. Everytime I take one step forward, I find myself taking two steps back. Thinking about you, about us, the endless what ifs between the two of us is like picking my wounds apart and slathering it with salt. It's the kind of indescribable pain yet the kind of I'd like to revisit over and over again because through it I get to have a semblance of connection with you. I love you always and in all ways. I'm still here, right here.
Yours,
Sakura
11 June 2026
Dear Sasuke,
I've come to learn that this is the kind of heartbreak that no time could ever mend. I could take all the time in the world but it will never be enough to heal. It's been three years. I can't determine how to wander through the mess that I am left in when you walked away. I am so lost without you. Sasuke, you've got some kind of hold on me that no matter what I do, I can't seem to untangle myself from you. You once told me that if we are together, we're going far. But now… we're not, and three years later I'm still here stuck where you last left me. I'm still here, Sasuke. Right here. And my god, I miss you so damn much.
Yours,
Sakura
19 August 2027
Dear Sasuke,
Indeed, healing isn't linear. Because I thought I was okay. It's been four years since we broke things off… And it was supposed to be our eighth anniversary today. I hate your scowling but devastatingly handsome face but only because I used to love it passionately– I still do. I still vividly remember how you wanted to break things off because you wanted time to sort yourself out. I willingly stepped away because who am I to stand in the way of your progress, and who am I to deny you of anything. Only, you used that time to find yourself a new lover while I stood in the distance, watching you. Watching you get better, me slowly fading in the background while you circle a new light. I couldn't be the warmth she was and I understand. Her glow is beautiful and I get it. I acknowledge mine is, too. but I can't help but ask if my fire wasn't enough– to keep you, while I sustain my own warmth. It hurts anew today. But I've always liked picking at my scabs.
I miss you terribly, terribly so. Je t'aime. Ich liebe dich. Ti amo. Ik hou van je. Szeretlek. Mahal kita. In all languages, in all lifetimes, and in all ways until the day after forever.
Yours forevermore,
Sakura