We stayed in Arizona for only the next day and then left for Boston. Samuel was busy there but on the first day he gave me Damon's bone marrow which he had collected and Samuel told me that Damon and I were each other's biological halves in both human and wolf form. Samuel said as he left " Let me know if you have any symptoms. I probably won't be back for a month, it could be longer. We'll see if that helps." Then Samuel left. Adam had a security conference or more in Boston and I had the familiar bodyguards again, but this time they were werewolves. Adam was gone for days too so Mercy, came to keep me company and we talked about the boys and baked and cooked. Mercy said to me " Don't say much about what we talk about or do here to Adam. I know it is still painful for him to see me and believe it or not we had our problems and big ones. Let's just say Bran came between us and the werewolf crises and everything else. You'll be Chaos one day, you'll have the power of Chaos and all that goes with it. It's lonely to be Chaos as you will find out, no matter how many people you have around you. I don't know if we are created to be alone or by ourselves or if it's just our nature. But don't talk to Adam about me. I don't want to see him in so much pain." then Mercy left again. She didn't come every day and didn't stay all day, she just came now and then.

Damon had been gone already for three months. Samuel came by after a month quickly just to turn up at the house and ask if there were any symptoms, I said there weren't. Adam concentrated on his work and I read, went shopping for clothes now that I knew my size a bit, baked, and cooked. I was slowly getting myself in better shape and we had moved from Boston to Michigan to Maryland. Nick called every once in a while and just said the finder's fee is not a rumor, it's true. Well, I should be careful, I didn't say anything to Adam about it, I wanted my freedom. One time I was in the shop looking at leather jackets when I felt a knock on my head and then nothing.

I woke up being dragged into the car but I couldn't do anything because I was tied up like a Christmas tree with a silver chain, judging by the pain. I only saw Adam's werewolves unconscious in the alley and they were also tied up with silver chains. The men lifted me into the car and someone stuck a needle in my shoulder. There was a cage in the car where they locked me up. I tried to ignore the burn, I couldn't wake up Mimosa, I don't know how they had already sedated Mimosa. I tried to wrench myself free but the drug they injected into me started to take away my strength and my consciousness. The drug took my consciousness away completely on the journey. I woke up in bed in shackles. I tried to pull my arms through but they were tight. Maybe with time. And without that IV. I tried to get my hand to grip the IV and squeeze it shut, but not quite. Next thing I figured I'd try to get it in my teeth. As I was implementing this plan the door opened and men came in. One of the men was okay looking, he had green eyes and black hair, and he looked at me with interest.

He said to the other one " You guys are going to take all the physical tests you want and then I'm going to start working on her. I want this cocktail dripping all the time and make sure she can't get her hands on the drip. Three days, 24/7, 6 bags a day with a cooling blanket. I want as little of the medicine as possible to clear out. If she really is unkillable then a little poisoning reaction won't hurt. Then another three days of the same dose, no more need for a cold blanket then, just a virtual helmet. After those three days, I will start treating her. You will then always get your turn." One of the men had written it all down and said " OK Mr krycheck" I thought it was good to know who I was killing. Another examiner came over and moved the drip away. He took a syringe from his pocket and emptied it into my drip. My head got cloudy and my eyes started to swim and blackness came.

The medicine that was dripped into me made me feel almost scared, and panicky. Tight extra restraints and a cooling blanket did not help matters at all. The medicine dripped relentlessly for three days. I tried to get away, but the panic seemed to grow day by day, and likewise, my sense of reality and time began to blur very effectively. I began to hallucinate. Damon comes and eats me dry and I forgive him for it, Adam and Samuel tell me I'm nothing. Damon kissing another woman and telling her all about me. Then three days later, the helmet took what was left of what I had. There was a screen with kaleidoscopic patterns moving around, different colors, clicks, crackles, beeps, and bleeps coming from the headphones. When you have werewolf senses, headphones in your ears are not nice. Then there were various quick flashes on the screen, almost sudden movements that my eyes reacted to all the time. There were odors in the helmet. Eventually, I didn't know where I was who I was. The panic had morphed into some sort of compulsive need to do something. A voice spoke to me. It told me how Damon loved the other one. How Damon kisses another. The voice told me how I should be angry and hurt. How I should kill Damon? How I should kill Adam or Samuel? How I should turn into a wolf and maul a congressman because they allowed drug experiments? I knew the drug was still dripping I could see it.

Then I was in pain. Severe pains all over and the men were talking about a toxic reaction. Krycheck told them to sedate me but no medicine worked. Then they brought new ones. The panic returned but now the rage came. I remembered my rage and slowly began to bring it out. They shoved more drugs in big doses of some new anesthetics they had developed that could put me to sleep for 5 hours. they finally put me in a white padded room to rest when I was so drugged I was harmless. Krycheck wanted to see if the programming would stick. It didn't but I didn't tell them that. They shot me with darts that put me to sleep. Then I started playing sleeping so the victims would come closer. My rage became more and more apparent. One day I noticed that my hair had grown out again and that I had been here for a while. I guess it was time to leave. The toxic reaction still hadn't subsided but I didn't care.

Now my rage was on full blast and I was playing unconscious when Krycheck and another examiner came to check on me. I stood up, threw Krycheck against the wall, and the second examiner as well, killed the nurses when I got out of the room. I started destroying the place, I collected all the drugs I could find in the biggest canvas bags, I broke computers, poured liquids on them, and destroyed all the fucking samples they had taken from me. I didn't care about the bullets or the darts that were shot at me.

I destroyed as much as I could before I took the bags of drugs and walked out the door. I somehow knew we were still in Maryland and started walking down the road. After a while of walking, I recognized where I was and started walking towards the house. I got there in the evening at dark. The house had lights on so Adam was still there. I punched in the code and pressed the button and went in. Adam met me " Mimi, what on earth have you been doing? Come on, you look like you need a little treatment." Adam tried to come closer, but my rage, the new anesthetic, and all the other shit the Krycheck had stuffed into me made me feel pretty wild.

I said to Adam in a voice that was barely my own " Don't, don't touch Adam. Right now I know who you are. But, you're Adam, not my alpha because now I need to have a moment to myself, okay? Seriously. I'm as edgy as I can be and I can control myself, but if you try anything...let's say a facility probably 20 miles away, you'll see what I'm capable of right now. Here are all the drugs I could find. If they're any good. I'm gonna go upstairs now and take a breather and get myself under a little better control. Then, only then shall we see what I may need." Adam stepped back and said " Go on, I don't want to hurt you, I could get you under control but go and calm down and get some rest and we'll see in the morning, Mimi you were gone for 10 weeks. Damon has been looking everywhere for you. He's returned a week after you were abducted. I'll let him know you came home yourself. " I nodded and went upstairs. I went straight to the bed and pulled the covers aside enough to get under them easily. I curled up in a ball and shivered.

Adam tapped Damon's number and dialed " Salvatore" Damon's voice was tight, tense. Had been for the whole 10 weeks. Adam said "Mimi just got home. She walked herself in, but Damon, she is in bad shape. Bullet wounds, smells of drugs, and worst of all rage. Lady's white-hot rage is all over the place and now it's blocking the effects of any medication. The only thing I can think of to put her momentarily down is to break her neck but when I can't get close enough." Damon listened, sighing. Mimi was home. Good. "Adam, I'm coming- don't interfere with Mimi. I'll take care of it. She's panicked, scared, cornered. I'll come and see if I can calm her down, I might be able to do something about the rage. One hour, Hauptmann. I'll be there in an hour." Adam said "Okay, Mimi brought all the drugs she could find. Maybe they'll come in handy." Damon replied " I doubt very much at least for now, if they've already stuffed Mimi full of drugs in there. But I'll be there in an hour."

I was still in a ball but not shaking the whole time. I was freezing and nauseous but I didn't want to throw up yet so I controlled myself. My head hurt, and my muscles ached. The lights were shining in my eyes. I felt like all my senses were on overdrive. The door opened and someone stepped in and shut the door. Came closer. Passionfruit. Damon. I don't have it in me. I said "Go away. Just leave it." Damon came to the bed on his side where he had been sleeping at one point and rolled over on his side facing me. "You wore my shirt, baby. You know, that was the first thing that came to my mind when I heard you were taken. I'm sorry it took me three months, but the original brothers and their sisters can be a handful. Did you know that sweet Nick and Elias are not quite as innocent as they let on? They tried to get me to drink and women or actually a woman, Rebecca, their sister. I know they told you how their whole family has abandoned them but it never matters. They do, always and forever. You don't seem to be feeling too well. "

I shook my head and an exceptionally hard cramp went down my spine and at the same time, I felt like my head was going to split open. Damon was feeling me, had been feeling me for a while. He stroked my side and I think he could feel how my muscles, what was left of them, were tight. Damon came closer and slipped his other hand under me and pulled me into him. He squeezed me tightly against him. " My god baby that whole 9 weeks has been awful. " He held me against him and I pressed my head against his chest and just listened to his soothing breathing and heartbeats and didn't even realize at what point I fell asleep.