Apov

We finally made it to Vancouver, when Ray decided to pull over at a restraunt. He said he was famished and that we needed talk about a few things before we got to the new house. So we unbuckled and headed in and Ray grabbed a booth in the back, he mentioned we might need some privacy with what he was about to tell me. He was starting to make me anxious, we had a three hour car ride to talk but we just sat there with the radio on. So what could be possibly want to say now.

" Ana? do you know what you want babygirl?"

ooh i must of been lost in thought cause the waitress is staring at me, guess i better pick something. " Let me get a hot tea and the double bacon cheeseburger will be fine" I handed her my menu and so did ray, then there was the awkward silence. He must of gathered some courage but before he could talk the waitress brought out our drinks and told us our food will be right out. An Ray must of decided to wait so we wouldn't get interrupted again since he didnt say anything, but even after the lady brought us our food, Ray didnt say anything, it wasnt until he realised i was waiting for him to talk that he said anything, which was him telling me to eat. So I started eating and thats when I realised how famished I was, I didnt stop eating until I realised it was gone. It was so delicious. I took a drink of the water that the waitress brought me with my tea to wash it all down, then i settled with my tea in my hands. I could still feel the warmth which helped with my nerves cause it looked like Ray was ready to talk.

" Ana i dont know how to say this but the officers called while you was in lock-up, they was also the reason for our big move besides my job. They had to close your assult case. Everyone in that building is binded by a NDA, which is a non disclosure agreement. They cant speak on what happened that night even if a minor some how manage to get in to their establishment. All they can do is make sure it never happens again. Im so sorry I cant get you justice, I wish I could of protected you. But i promise im gonna do better ok."

well I saw that coming considering Jack found me in Seattle, and since Elena was involved im sure she would of had papers to cover her ass for her sick twisted ways.

"Ana say something please"

" I dont know what to say, I kind of already knew it wouldnt get solved, just by being in there I could tell there was alot of high class society people in there. They messed up once, they will mess up again and justice will be served. Everyone gets their reckoning."

" You sound so mature for your age, I hope this time around you will have time to enjoy being a kid. I also wanted to talk to you about a therapist, his name is Mr.John Flynn.

He travels between towns so it wouldnt be every day thing more like once a month unless you really need to talk then you can call him. What do you think?"

" a therapist? You cant be serious can you?"

" I know its not ideal but it would give you someone to confide in and it would help you release some of the anger you hold within. Everything between you two would be confidential, between doctor and patients."

" Ok i guess i can give it a try, is there anything else or can we get out of here"

" im glad to hear it, let get out of here"

The next morning we had breakfast, and Ray told me Mr.Fylnn was in town and he was waiting to meet me. So wr headed to his office which I guess is like one out five. He must be good at his job to have all those, we was sitting for like maybe ten minutes when a middle age gentleman with blonde hair, blue eyes came came out and introduced hisself as mr.flynn.

" Hi you must be Miss Anastasia Steele, Im Dr.Fylnn nice to meet you, would you like to head into my office and we will see if were a good fit together and if i can help"

" ..sure i guess"

I looked at Ray and he just smile and gives me a nod of reassurance, so I got up and followed the good doctor.

"Have a seat Ana, what can I do for you?"

" im not sure, this was Ray's idea"

" Hmm I see and you dont think you need to be here?"

" I dont know, ive been going through it for a couple years but It didnt get super bad until i was about to turn fourteen"

" Ok if you don't mind me asking what happened?"

" Are you sure this stays between us, you wont tell Ray?"

"Yes ana, i can call you ana right?"

"Yes"

" What we talk about is between us, im your confidant, i here to help you work through whatever it may. To give you advice and maybe even goals to overcome what you need."

" Ok...Before my mother got fed up with me, the boyfriend before last..."

" take your time Ana, no need to rush"

" He tried to rape me, i just got out of the shower, I was in my roomcgetting my clothes, I usually lock my door but no one was home. I spaced it... and before I even realised it he was grabbing me by the hair and throwing me on the bed. I was crying, begging him to let me go, I could smell the vodka on his breath, it was foul combined with the cigarette smoke. He started pulling on my towel but i was holding on to it for dear life. I told my self i needed to think of something otherwise this drunken asshole was going to take my virtue and it was the only thing i had left of myself. Carla already took me from the people who actually cared about me, so while holding on to the towel i manage to get my legs under him and i pushed with all my might and he landed on the floor, i rushed to the first thing I saw as weapon, which was scissors and when I turned around I didnt know he was running at me. I didnt mean too, it was him or me"

Im balling my eyes out now, I still cant believe I did it. The good doctor handing me a tissue and told me to take a moment and when he finally saw I was calm he preceeded to ask me, What happened Ana I promise once you tell me, it will give you some kind of release. I wanted to believe him, I tried to tell my mother but she wouldnt listen she never listened.

" I accidently stabbed him with the scissors, there was blood everywhere. He looked at me shocked and pulled hisself off the scissors and just stumbled out the door, I dont even know if he survived, as far as I know im a killer"

* author note

due to a review i thought i would clarify Ana a little bit more and give insight on why she broken a bit and why it was best for her and ray to move. As much as you guys are hating it. I was going to do a time jump, but ill stick it out a little longer. An with Christian I wanted it to be different without him necessarily being tooken advantage of, so without making a new character, I made lincoln the go to. But who knows what the future has installed for us. Also I love getting reviews, it gives me courage to keep going. im writing it as it comes to me. Also i wont be able to update the next few days, going to go on a weekend mini Vac. with my boys before school started.

-T