A/N: I'm not really a writer, this is the first story I have ever written, so I'm open to criticism. I've had this plot in my mind for awhile now, and I'm just now deciding to try and put it on paper and out there to the world. So enjoy. And obviously I'm not Stephine Meyer
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All I could feel was burning in my wrist, I imagine this is what I would feel if I decided to stick my hand into an open fire. I needed to make it stop, it wasn't subsiding as the pain just got worse traveling up my arm. I noticed I could hear screaming, it felt like it was right next to me. As I opened my eyes I realized the screaming was coming from me, I could see Carlisle working on my leg and Edwards' worried face next to mine. I didn't even notice the pain in my leg anymore, that was nothing compared to my arm.
"Make it stop!" I finally managed to get the words out, they were focused on the wrong thing.
"It's okay Love, Carlisle will make it better." Edward muttered as he gently cupped my face in his hand. They didn't understand what I was trying to say and I hardly was able to focus anymore as I squeezed my eyes shut again and screamed out again. My whole arm burned now, and somehow the pain was worse. I needed to let them know, but how could they not know my arm was on fire. I gritted my teeth before making another attempt.
"My arm, make the fire stop!" I once again opened my eyes to look at Edward who now looked even more frightened than he did before.
"Edward..please.." I hardly got that out as another wave of pain hit me.
"Carlisle...her hand.." I heard him say as he lifted up my burning arm, even Edwards' cool hand didn't stop the heat.
"He bit her.." Carlisles' shocked voice muttered. "You must try to suck the venom out quickly Edward! It might be her only chance of staying human."
"I don't think I'll be able to do that.. What if I can't stop" The pain in his voice hurt me even still as I burned.
"Edward you ne-"
Carlisle got cut off by Alice's gasp of horror followed by Edwards strained voice "Alice no! There must be a different way.. She can't be one of us!" I was starting to get angry, this pain that was getting worse and they weren't giving me answers that I needed, something to make it stop,
"I'm sorry Edward, but if you suck the venom out, you'll end up killing her, the only way to have her alive is to let the transformation finish. I can't see any other way of this working." Alice said, it sounded like she would be crying if she was able too.
"No! She'll be dead if we let the change go on, I can't let that happen, I need to try" I felt him grip my hand tightly. I needed to help him, even though the pain my love for him was still powerful and if this pain meant I was with him forever I needed to do it. I had to find my inner strength.
Gripping his hand I got him to look at me again.
"Edward… please let it happen.. I need this to happen..I love you" I muttered and looked at him before another wave of burning went up into my chest this time.
"L-love.. I can't let you be a monster like me.." he muttered pained. I was unable to keep my eyes open anymore, now I could only focus on the radiant burning that was spreading through my body. I couldn't even focus on not screaming or thrashing around anymore. I just hoped he would listen to me as I finally subcudded to the blackness and could no longer hear what was around me
Even in the darkness, it felt like I was only floating in a sea of pain and fire. I didn't know how pain could get worse but it continued to do so. I knew I was in darkness, but all I could see was red. This must be Hell, it had to be. There was no way I could be in this much pain surrounded by darkness. If I was wrong and I wasn't damned already, I needed someone to end my life and out of this suffering. I was vaguely away of high pitch screams coming from the distance. They sounded like they were getting closer.
The pain radiated through my whole body, everywhere, making me notice I still was alive as I still had a heartbeat. With every beat my heart gave out the worse the pain got. What did I do to ever deserve this torcher? Why would I be damned to this hell? When would it stop, nothing was worth this pain. I tried to focus on anything else besides the burning. I chose to focus on the screaming I heard. Who else was being torchered like this? Who was screaming? And then it hit me, almost breaking me out of this darkness. It was me, screaming like bloody hell. Someone must hear me, why wouldn't they make the pain stop. I suddenly was aware I had a body, not just suspended in the darkness of pain. Maybe I could get someone's attention if I could focus on getting my body to move. I needed this, I needed the pain to stop.
Using all the will I managed to find in myself I opened my eyes, I couldn't see anything but a white light. "P-please kill me! Make the fire stop..!" I managed to gasp before clenching my eyes shut again and going back to the darkness. I was vaguely aware of other beings near me. The ones who refused to end my suffering.
"Bella love… it will be okay.. You'll be okay.. I promise" a broken voice quietly said. How would it ever be okay? There is no way I would ever be okay. "I love you Bella…" it said again. This had to be Hell, or purgatory, because how could someone announce their love while letting them go through so much pain. If this person loved me, they would just end my pain. This was cruel.
I gasped as the pain somehow got even worse, but now it was in my throat, and in my chest. This must be the end, my heart has to be giving out due to the pain and stress my body has been going though. The pain in my throat must be from me screaming, but I still couldn't bring myself to stop even if I wanted too. I noticed I was back in the fiery darkness, unable to focus on anything else. I was faintly aware of my speeding heartbeat. I thrashed around in my hell, trying to rip out my heart from my chest unsuccessfully.
With every thump my heart gave, the worse the pain my chest hurt. The pain almost made me miss the fact I no longer had the burning feeling in my hands and feet. Just a cool numbing feeling. Finally I thought, Death is finally coming for me to end this existence if you could even call it that. I just needed to get through this final bit of fire,however long that might be. I tried my best to focus on the fact that the pain was slowly going away, bit by bit everywhere else to only make the burning in my chest and throat worse somehow. I could feel the battle between my heart and the fire, the fire leading by a mile.
I was finally almost aware of my surroundings again. I could hear other voices and noises besides my screaming and my heart. I vaguely noticed someone holding my hand, and that person was whispering encouraging words to me. I tried to focus on them, I needed to focus on them. But that was roughly taken away from me in what feels like an instant and an eternity at the same time. The pain was finally gone from almost my whole body, but it felt like it attacked my heart tenfold. The screaming I was doing before was nothing compared to what came out of as I felt my back arch off of the surface I was laying on, it felt like my heart was being ripped to shreds, put back together, before being smashed by a hammer. I only just noticed whoever was holding my hand ripped away from me like in pain.
I screamed and thrashed no longer to have the little control I had before. My heart beating faster and faster and I knew finally this was going to be the end. I was going to finally die after this slow painful death. I was going to see my Grandmother again, my childhood cat, and who else knows. My heart finally beat for its final time, and I was blissfully aware of the lack of pain I finally had. No more burning in my heart or my limbs.
I then realized I wasn't dead, I still was very aware of my surroundings of what I could hear, and the fact even though I didn't need to breathe, I still was able to take a deep breath which just made me hyper aware of the burning in my throat. I gasped opening my eyes barely registering what was going on as I looked around.