Empty Cold
When people lose their loved ones they feel empty, broken and mostly alone even if they try to hide it, it's always there inside them, the feeling just won't go away.
You always feel like you want to cry and shout at life for being so cruel but inside Emily Fields nothing comes out, not a single tear or even a low whine of sadness, it's only after what happened she just feels...empty.
Emily is just done with feeling anything anymore, she just wants to forget everything but...she can't.
She can't forget her family or that look in her baby sister's eyes, she just...can't stop the pain.
"Hey Em...Em...Em" said Rebekah to Emily while waving her hand in front of her face pulling her out of whatever misery space she was in.
"Oh...sorry I just...didn't hear you talking" said Em while Bekah was standing next to Em's desk.
Of course Rebekah knew she was just too tired of everything, Rebekah, Hanna and Toby are Emily's bestfriends since high school, they all love her so much and want her to be happy but since five years ago they haven't seen her honest smile, of course the three friends tried making her go on dates with some really pretty girls but in the end Emily ends up having sex with them after the first date and then they don't hear again from her but of course they just wanted to have sex with her again because she was freaking amazing in bed, she even turns straight girls on...respectfully and they also end up having sex with her and when she didn't want her friends to be involved in her sexual activity she told them to stop arranging dates for her in a harsh way that they never heard her use before, she was just too tired of everything but in the end they were just trying to help her get through everything.
"It's okay but me, Hanna and Toby are going for dinner at that restaurant you like so please come with us Toby is also bringing Spencer and she is bringing a friend even Caleb and Malia are coming and it's going to be fun so please, please, please say you're coming" said Rebekah begging her to come.
'Gosh you're a child sometimes' thought Emily
"Bekah, I'm sorry but I haven't finished the file on the last case yet and it has to be done today" said Em with an empty voice getting bored of her friend.
"For god sake, Emily I know you finished it an hour ago" said Bekah getting Emily busted.
"Wait who told you that?" said Emily annoyed.
"Um..our boss, Ben who also happens to be my father plus did you forget that I'm your damn freaking partner I have to know when you finish a file, come on, Em...please it's just a dinner and it's been two months since all of us got together" said Rebekah with her sad beautiful blue eyes.
Emily sighed the annoyance then said "fine...I'll go just stop being a child and sneak up on my files"
This time being a doctor and a good one doesn't happen every day and with Alison Dilaurentis it just sucks because every day she sees someone in a pool of their blood and she has to save their life cause maybe there is someone waiting for that person to come home maybe a mother or a father, a brother or a sister or maybe even a wife with children and only the view of someone hurting or in pain just makes Alison's heart ache.
but here she was out of a plane,in a cap and heading for a hotel. When she got to her suite her phone started ringing.
"Hello" said Alison to the person on the phone.
"Hello, Ali have you arrived yet?" Said Spencer Alison's friend since middle school.
"Yeah, Spence I just got to the hotel, where did you say we're going today?"
"Hanna!'' said Rebekah shouting at the restaurant and taking Hanna for a tight hug and continued "gosh, I missed you so much, Han'' the Emily hugged Hanna too.
"I missed you too, Bekah...you too, Em'' said Hanna smiling at them and them smiling back at her.
"Where is Toby? I thought he left the department early today to meet up with you" asked Bekah.
"I'm right here, Bekah" said Toby from behind her.
then the four of them sat on a table
"So...where is your hot lawyer wife Spencer?" asked Hanna in a playful tone.
"She's picking up a friend so I guess that's why she's late" said Toby while rolling his eyes.
"So...where is your fiance?" Bekah asked Hanna.
"Caleb texted a few minutes ago, he's picking up your girlfriend and said that they're on the way" said Hanna.
then Spencer appeared at the door of the restaurant and approached their table with a beautiful blonde girl with the most beautiful, amazing blue eyes you've ever seen that you could get lost in them. Emily looked at her admiring her beauty even her body seemed to be in shape.
"Hey, everyone!" greeted Spencer everyone then her and Alison sat next to each other and across from Rebekah and Emily...when Ali saw Emily she suddenly blushed, got nervous and swore in her mind that she's literally going to kill Spencer...Spencer noticed and smirked at her.
When Emily saw her, she didn't remember her at all but the only thought in her mind was...'did I see this girl some where? I feel like I saw her or know her from some where'...she started to think where she could've seen her.
"Hey, Spence! who is this hottie you have with you?" asked Hanna wiggling her eyebrows to Spencer but she got used to Hanna's teasing so it never bothered her.
Alison started looking different growing up I mean...it's been 5 years since they last saw her, she gained a few inches taller, became more fit, started wearing makeup...she looks more feminine than ever...hotter than ever actually
"Oh god don't tell you don't recognize her" said Spencer surprised that no one of her husband's friend recognize her bestfriend and ex queen bee of Rosewood high but of course Toby knows her though she visited them a couple of times.
"Hey, guys!" greeted Caleb jumping to sit next to his future wife and giving her peck on the lips. "Hi,everyone...Hey,babe" greeted Malia jumping on Rebekah's lab and giving her a chaste kiss on the lips.
"Everyone this is my bestfriend Alison'' announced Spencer, Caleb didn't remember her at all.
But the moment Spencer finished that sentence Malia instantly shot her eyes at Alison...how could she ever forget the girl that made her life at high school a living hell cause she was wearing glasses and braces...she stared at Ali for a moment then tensed up on Rebekah's lab...her girlfriend noticed her a little shaky.
"Mal, are you okay?" whispered Bekah in her lover's ear.
"Um...yeah...yeah I'm okay babe" said Malia but Bekah still felt like she wasn't okay but decided to drop cause this is not the time nor place to talk but then Rebekah started looking closely at Alison and thought she saw her some where but...where. Emily did the same but then it clicked at her mind she thought 'oh gosh that's...that's Alison...Dilaurentis'
"Oh gosh you guys still don't remember...that's my bestfriend Alison...we all went to school together...Alison...Alison Dilaurentis" announced Spencer to all of them and suddenly they all remembered exactly who Alison was. Malia, Rebekah, Hanna and Emily started to get uncomfortable with silence roaming over the table.
"Ali, if you don't remember them too, that's Caleb Rivers and his fiance and future wife Hanna Marin, Malia Danvers and her girlfriend Rebekah Anderson, Emily fields and finally Toby the cop of my life and you know him" said Spencer while pointing to each person.
"Hi" was the only thing she managed to say after this tense moment...she looked up at Emily to find staring at her with her curious chocolate eyes, Ali felt herself blushing then excused herself to the restroom Spencer got worried that she'd leave so she went after her.
Alison washed her face while spencer was staring at her, she couldn't handle the heat of her face.
"I'm literally going to kill you" said Alison annoyed and seriously angry with her friend.
"Oh c'mon Ali don't tell me that you're mad at me for making you see my husband's really really cool friends" said Spencer wanting her friend to find new friends and people to communicate with
"Did you even see the look on Malia's eyes or Emily's creepy stare? why the hell would you do that to me?" asked Alison confused.
"Oh my god, Alison you had a crush on Emily Fields since before high school you used to talk about her all the time, you got into a fight with her on purpose just to hear her voice calling your name and for the last two years you spent in Georgia every time we talk to each other on the phone you ask about her...now that you're back and settling in NewYork for good why can't you be friends with all of them?...they're all nice people and Malia the girl you were jealous of because she had glasses and braces but still looked the most beautiful girl at the school''
"they hate me,Spencer"
"No, they don't...they maybe hate the old bitch version of you but the new you...they don't know yet and when they do they're going to like you more than you think" said Spencer giving her a really good reason to stay and get to know them.
"Oh be friends with all of them except..." and here Spencer couldn't say it.
"Except what, Spencer" said Alison feeling afraid from her friend's face and words.
"Except Emily" whispered Spencer feeling awful tell Alison not get close to Emily but Alison could here her words clearly.
"What?...why not?" asked Alison still super confused.
"Ali, please can we talk about this tomorrow please...please?" begged Spencer.
"What the hell is this bitch doing here, Toby?" said Hanna to Toby in a very angry tone.
''Is she here to insult me again and tell me how ugly I am?" said Malia angry while Rebekah gave a kiss on the back of her hand to try and calm her down.
''Guys stop! okay!...Alison is a completely different person now...she has changed... just trust me okay she's my wife's bestfriend...plus if Spencer accepts and trusts all of you then you guys should do the same to her bestfriend"
"Guys I think Toby is right we can't judge her on what she did to us in the past...I think everyone deserves a second chance" said Emily agreeing with Toby
Rebekah shot her eyes at Emily without her noticing thinking 'who are you really talking about, Emily?'
Spence and Ali returned from the restroom they started to order drinks Hanna, Spencer, Alison and Rebekah ordered Red Wine, Malia sat down next to Rebekah and ordered White Wine, Toby and Caleb ordered a Beer and finally Emily ordered a Scotch after a little while of talkin their drinks came and everyone noticed the silence of Emily specially Alison.
"Em, are you okay?" asked Rebekah while Alison was looking at them and the rest of the table are still talking.
"Um...yeah I'm fine" said Em in a cold way showing no emotions while sipping her scotch.
"So...how have you been?" asked Hanna wanting to give a second chance like they all agreed.
"Um...I've been good" said Alison simply.
"Oh c'mon, Alison tell them about you success" encouraged Toby.
"Um okay...I went to medical school and I'm at my last year of residency in emergency medicine'' said Alison feeling proud and a little shy.
"Wow...that's really amazing" said Rebekah and she got the I will kill you when we get home look from Malia. Emily then finished her drink and ordered another.
"Where did you graduate from?" asked Caleb
"I graduated from Medical Collage of Georgia and I spent two years at Wellstar Kennestone Hospital then my last stop was here NewYork Presbyterian/Lower Manhatta hospital" said Alison and they looked impressed except for Emily who finished her second glass already and started to stand up out of her seat.
"Guys, I'm so sorry but I'm exhausted from work today so I'm going home...goodnight" said Emily not waiting for a response picking up her phone and keys from the table.
Malia looked at her girlfriend who whispered "I tried" shrugging her shoulders then sighed.
"Em you sure? I mean we're all here...together...it's been a while since we all gathered" said Malia catching Emily's hand rubbing it gently.
'what is happening here? they're just friends...right? Malia looks at her with such a gentle look' Alison thought.
'for the love of god Malia stop doing that...with your eyes...ughhhh' thought Emily
"Yeah, I'm sure'' responded Emily coldly snapping her hand slowly out of Malia's grip.
Malia sighed brushing her hair away from her face with her hand, looking back at Rebekah with a slight smile that quickly faded with a nod. reaching for Rebekah's hand.
"Me too it was a really long day and I feel sleepy Spence, could you give me a ride?" said Alison while standing and giving Spencer the look of I want Emily to drive me...Spencer got it.
"Um...Emily could you give Ali a ride for me, please...that's of course if you don't mind, Alison?" asked Spencer to the both of them smiling at Alison.
"No, I don't mind" said Alison then Emily spoke "Neither do I " still with the empty voice.
Emily and Alison walked out of the restaurant together, when they approached a car...Ali almost didn't believe what she was seeing.
"This is your car?" asked Alison
"Yep"
"so you drive a black R8 Audi"
"Yep" then Em open the driver's door then spoke "aren't you coming?"
''You're...wow" said Alison
"Thank you, now can you get in the car, please?" said Em impatiently
Alison thought that was a little rude but got in the car anyways.
Emily started to drive in silence...after a while Alison collected her courage to ask.
"So...Emily...are you always this quiet?"
"Depends" answered Emily in the same empty voice but in that moment Alison saw something strange in her eyes...she wasn't sure what but she decided to start talking again
"So...Emily...What do you do?" and here Emily had to lie.
"I'm an architect and I work at my father's bestfriend's company"
"But how can an architect afford a car like the one you're driving now?" asked Alison and here Emily thought fuck she's smart.
"When my parents died the left me a lot of money" said Emily coldly.
''Oh...I'm so sorry I didn't know'' responded Alison sincerely
"it's fine"
there was a pause of silence followed by Alison's timid voice.
"You know my mom died, too...when I was in my first year of college...a stupid cop murdered her" and here Emily looked at her knowing how this must feel like.
"I'm sorry for your loss'' said Emily looking directly and sincerely in Alison's eyes
Alison noticed how deep Emily's words were...how honest they were...'who are you, Emily Fields?...really...who are you?' Alison thought.
Alison always hated the job of cops, detectives, agents or any thing that involves guns or blood and also because she's an ER doctor everyday some one dies because of police men an their gun shots.
"Can I ask you something?" and Emily nodded "was something bothering you in the restaurant? if you don't mind me asking...it's just that...you were so quiet in there"
"it's nothing you should worry about...plus...I'm always quiet'' answered Emily.
"And why is that?" asked Alison.
"Because I always like to listen and...I'm good at it and...talking isn't really my thing''
"But if you're not talking then how can I know more about you?" asked Alison.
"Well that's the problem...you don't...and we're here" Alison was a little disappointed in Emily's response but before she got out of the car she asked handing Emily her phone.
"If we're going to be friends...then can I at least have your number?" Emily sighed, taking the phone, gave her number and said goodbye.
Alison got out of the car heading to the entrance of the hotel smiling to herself for having Emily's number but then looked back at Emily's car that left thinking to herself 'I'm so stupid, she'd never like someone who treated her friends the way I used too...better not get your hopes up, Alison...she seems to have a lot of baggage' Alison sighed heading to the hotel entrance.
"No, please stop don't hurt her"
"Well well, Emily...you finally found me"
"Please just let her go and I'll do whatever the hell you want"
"Em...Em I "
"Shut up, little girl weren't you the one to ruin everything...now I'm taking back what's mine"
Then there was a scream and a gun shot and suddenly Emily was bleeding.
"No" screamed the little girl.
"Now...you watch you precious little girl die...Emily"
"No no no" screamed Emily.
"Em, I love you''
"I love you"
"No...no...no" whispered Emily sweating in her sheets.
"No" she screamed then woke up breathing heavey from her nightmare or shall we say...her nightmare that's based on a memory.
"Oh gosh no no no no no no" she said crying and tears falling from her eyes to her cheeks, puting her hands on both sides of her head.