This week is so slow. I have been avoiding Santana, as much as I can since she is on Cheerios with me. She tried to talk to me Monday at my lockers, but I left quickly before she could really say anything. It might be petty of me to not even hear her out, but I need space right now. She needs to figure out she does not control me, and she cannot get everything she wants on a silver platter.
Tuesday, she sat by me during lunch and tried to ask about my plans this weekend. I took my tray and emptied it then went for a walk to the gym where I took out my frustration by dancing to a new routine.
Wednesday she finally figured out I was avoiding her when she saw me down the hallway and raised her hand to wave, but I turned around and walked the other way. She didn't try anything the rest of the day.
Thursday, I found a flower in my locker with a note written on it. I rolled my eyes and threw it away. I know she is sorry and is trying, but I can't.
So, here we are Friday, game day. All of the Cheerios are in the locker room getting ready. Some Cheerios are putting numbers of guys' jerseys on their faces to show their support for their friends or boyfriends.
"Okay you guys hurry up we need to be out on the field in 10 minutes. If you are not out there, I will make sure you run laps after the game!" Stacy, our captain, says pointedly looking at the freshman and sophomores. The other seniors follow Stacy as she walks outside.
"She can be a bitch sometimes." Brooke a brown-haired sophomore states.
I roll my eyes. "She is just doing what she has to, or Sue would have her ass." I state knowing I will probably be captain next year with how Sue always goes to me about routines and training.
"Stop being a suck up Peirce and get over here so we can write your boyfriend's number on your cheek." Ally, another junior, says teasingly as she adjusts her red hair in the mirror.
"They aren't dating." I hear growling behind me.
"This will be good. Where is my popcorn bitch I am about to watch a show." Sugar giggles in my ear. She is almost bouncing with excitement.
Ally turns around to look at Santana. "How do you even know? Didn't you like just transfer schools about two weeks ago?" Ally rolls her eyes. "Besides I heard they have been hanging out a lot around the bleachers." Other Cheerios giggle at this.
"Fucking rumors." I say quietly. Then I look over to Santana, surprised to see she is stone faced with no emotions at all showing. She is applying her lip gloss in the mirror of her locker.
She shrugs. "Puck is a douche he wouldn't just date one girl and I know that some of the girls in this room have already hooked up with him but are staying quiet because they think it will get back to Brittany. News flash." She looks directly at Ally. "Brittany doesn't care. They are just friends."
I look around and see some girls ducking their heads in embarrassment. I almost want to high five Puck because damn really he works fast and sneakily because we have actually hung out a few times now and he hangs out with me quite a bit during school. Where does he have the time?
With more glace around the room Santana saunters to the door as she reaches it she turns around once more catching my eyes and smiles. "Before you questions me I do know Brittany a lot better than you do so stop with all the fucking rumors." With that she is out the door.
Ally turns to me now raising an eyebrow but when I shake my head, she lets it go.
"So, after party at Kurosky's tonight, right?" Sugar says lightening the mood. I just laugh out the tension.
"You bet!" I smile before letting the freshman write Mike's number on my face.
Sugar and I make it to the field before Stacy loses her shit on the couple of freshmen who were a minute late. Better her than Sue.
Santana is up by the fence talking to you guessed it Sam. Fucking Sam is everywhere with his giant lips and beach boy hair.
"Who is Santana talking to?" I hear some of the nosy Cheerios asking.
"Oh, that is her boyfriend Sam." Sugar pipes in loving to give information.
I turn and give her a pointed look. 'What' She mouths. Then I have to hear it ugh the girls start to gush on how cute they think he is and how adorable they look together. Vomit.
The titans come out now to practice before the game in their red jerseys. The other girls start cheering, but I keep getting distracted because Santana hasn't come over yet. I feel a shadow of someone standing in front of me.
"Hey where is my number, Britt?" I turn to look up to see Pucks hazel eyes looking at me. He has a dopey grin on and points to my empty cheek because Mike's number is on the other one. I take Puck in with his football uniform and pads on and they look good on him. I hear some of the girls' giggle at us.
"Here." I hear someone say and the next thing I know I feel Puck marking my clear cheek.
"Happy now?" I question and he laughs and nods his head.
"Extremely."
I crinkle my nose at him and stick out my tongue. "Just get out there and win so the party will be fun."
"You got it." He winks and jogs out.
"Uh huh sure they aren't dating." I hear Ally and turn to look at her and see she is leaned over talking to Santana who has finally made her way over.
I watch as Santana fidgets with the pelts of her skirt. I can tell she is feeling insecure right now about us. It would almost make me smile because of how cute she is but I am still mad at her, so I suck my lips in my mouth to keep myself from smiling.
"Miss sexy is getting a lot of attention today!" Sugar comes up behind me and flings my pelts of my skirt up.
I am blushing so red right now with the attention I am getting.
"So, Britt." A very cute sophomore named Lilly comes up to me and touches my shoulder. It has been known that she has had a crush on me since she was a freshman. She is so cute too with her black hair and hazel eyes that sparkle green at times. She also normally has a tint of pink on her cheeks from blushing and is about 3 inches shorter than me. I totally would have asked her out a year ago if I wasn't looking for my soulmate, but she gave up on her crush. Now she is dating a football player even though she gives me flirty eyes alot. "I umm noticed your mark has spread." I give her a smile and her ears are starting to turn pink now. "What is that all about?"
The game is starting but I notice almost all of the girls aren't even watching too busy waiting on me. It looks like they have all wanted to question it but decided to wait for someone else to ask.
I feel the blood rushing to my face, and I must look like a tomato now. I hear Sugar snort out a laugh right next to me and I elbow her in the side.
"Ugh I umm I found my soulmate and we kissed then this happened." I trace my finger around my wrist then sneak a peek at Santana. She isn't looking at me though she is watching the other girl's reaction.
A few of them squeal and Lilly continues. "Who is it? Do we know them?"
I watch as Santana freezes, not meeting my eyes. "Umm I can't say."
I watch Lillys shoulders slump. "Well, are you at least together?"
I shake my head. "No, they don't want to be together."
Lily's eyes go comically wide. "Who wouldn't want to be with you!" She instantly goes white with embarrassment, and I giggle along with some of the other girls who know about her crush.
I put my hand on her shoulder. "It's okay, I will be fine."
"So, are you going to be open to dating others now?" She twirls her foot in the dirt not meeting my eye. "Cuz last I heard you weren't dating because your soulmate."
Before I could even answer Lillys arm was being pulled by her friend. "Common Lilly, your boyfriend just got the ball." I smile at her as she gets in formation.
"Common sexy time to cheer!" Sugar swats my ass.
The rest of the game went surprisingly well. Mike was able to make a touchdown with his awesome moves of dodging the defenders and Puck has done our team a lot of good. Surprisingly his smart-ass mouth is not all talk he actually can play. We actually won the game by an extra point so the whole student section is rowdy, and the team is hyped up ready to celebrate. Santana, I notice is quick to leave. I don't even know if she is going to Dave's house to party or if she is just going with Sam. I can't help but feel disappointed that she didn't even try to talk to me even though I have been the one avoiding her.
Sugar is still by me as we wait for the boys, at this point we have already showered and changed. Puck and Mike head over to us and Puck slides his arm around Sugar and Mike lifts me up and hugs me while spinning us around.
"Good job today!" I squeak out as he finally sets me down, his eyes are shining, and he has a huge smile. They don't win very often so this is huge.
"We won!" I just laugh at him because Mike is normally so collected.
I put my fingers up and pinch my nose. "Yes, but you guys stink so get in the showers so we can head out."
We all decided we would go to the party together right after the game, so the boys nod their heads and are off.
Sugar and I walk to Mike's car since he is the driver tonight, even though I am sure he will drink after that win. We will just have to find another way back home or stay.
I am leaning against the car, and I shut my eyes soaking in the sunshine since we don't have many more warm days like this with winter around the corner when I hear them.
"Fuck San, why do you never want to be alone with me." I can tell right away that it is Sam's annoying voice because I have heard him whine so many times already.
"I just said we should go to the party, Sam. All the other Cheerios are going."
"I just miss you babe and we haven't been intimate in like over a month now. I have needs Santana. If you don't put out what is stopping me from getting it from other people." It comes out like a hiss.
I hear skin crack.
My eyes shoot open at the noise. Sam has a grip on Santana's arm and looks furious while his cheek turns red. He leans forward and whispers something in her ear and her face turns pale. I can't just stand here and do nothing. I march over and grab Santana's hand.
"Hey San." I blink my lashes at Sam. "Sam. I was just talking to Sugar '' I pointed my thumb behind me to where Sugar is and turned to see her wave confused. "We were just saying how San should come with us to the party since we really haven't hung out in a while." I give them both a sweet smile.
Sam looks confused. Santana still looks shocked. "Ugh, I think we are going home right San?" I feel Sam tug Santana trying to loosen her grip from me, but I am not letting her go.
I give a pout. "Oh really?" I look at them confused. "When we talked earlier San you said you wanted to ride over with us after the game."
"Y-yeah." She looks over to Sam. "We can hang out some other time Sam I already promised."
Sam glares at her but releases her arm. "Whatever I'm out of here." He hops in his truck and peels out.
"Asshole." I mutter and feel a squeeze to my hand.
"Thank you." Santana whispers looking down at her feet.
"Anytime." I released a breath I didn't know I was holding out of nerves. "You will have more fun with us anyways."
Santana looks at me in surprise. "You were serious about wanting me to go with you?" She questions.
I shrug my shoulders and look at her deep brown eyes. Why is she so irresistible. "Well yeah I might have been an ass to you this week because. Well, you know the bathroom incident and you kind of deserved it, but I will always care about you and honestly, we just need some fun." I bump her shoulder "So let's go party." I smile.
Since Mike is driving, I am squished in the middle with Sugar on my left and Santana on my right. Sugar keeps making it a point to bump into me when we turn so that I am brushing my arm against Santana's. Each time I feel a tingle shoot through me.
"So, Lopez, how did you get away from your man?" Puck asks, looking back at Santana.
I watch as she rolls her eyes. "We needed a break."
"Hmm. trouble in paradise?"
I feel her hand search for mine for comfort and of course because it is so hard for me to resist her, I lace my fingers through hers.
"You can say that. Enough about that though I don't want to think about my sham of a relationship tonight. I will deal with him tomorrow. So, Puck." She locks eyes with him and in a stone-cold stare. "What the fuck is the deal with you trying to pretend to be all over my girl Britts here?" I feel her squeeze my fingers. "I know you are eating up all the shit talk people are saying about you."
Puck barks out a laugh. Then shrugs. "What can I say, 'your girl' is just too irresistible."
Santana rolls her eyes. "I'm calling bullshit, you are doing all that just to mess with me." Sugar's eyes flick from Santana to Puck. "You forget I know you Puckerman." Santana gives him a challenging stare.
Puck still looks calm and shrugs. "Who knows Lopez, she has a special place in my heart."
Now it is my turn to roll my eyes. I feel Santana's hand tighten in mine.
"Well, we are here guys and gals." Mike says hopping out and opening the door for Sugar while Puck hops out and stands in the driveway waiting for us. Santana opens the door and pulls me out, not releasing my hand.
As we get to the house, we can see even though we left shortly after the game ended the party is already in full swing. The door is open, so we just walk in. In the living room I can see that the couches are moved out to make room for a dance floor. There are people out on the back deck playing drinking games and the kitchen is crowded with people trying to get a drink.
"Well, what do we do first?" I ask the group that walked in with me.
"Oh, oh I know, pick me!" Sugar exclaimed with her hand raised, making me laugh.
"Yes Sugar." I said, trying to sound professional and like a teacher.
I feel Santana bump my shoulder and I shrug and smile at her.
"Get a drink, head out to the deck and get a game of never had I ever going."
Puck is grinning now. "Oh, this will be good." He rubs his hands together.
"I'll get some drinks with Puck; you guys head out and find a spot." Mike says.
Santana, still holding my hand, walks pull me with her as Sugar follows close behind.
Santana finds a bench and I see some chairs close by, so while she sits down on the bench, I pull up the chairs so that the others have a spot to sit. Santana catches my eye and smirks at me then pats the spot right next to her. Of course, I follow directions and sit down. Sugar takes one of the chairs I pulled over. When we are all situated Puck and Mike make their way out here.
Mike hands Santana and I over a mixed drink which I raised my eye to. I take a sip and it tastes refreshing and really good.
"What is this?" I ask Mike because he has never made me a good mixed drink before.
He shrugs. "I don't know Puck made it."
"Puck?"
He smiles at me and gives me a thumbs up. "It's a secret Britt but delicious right?" I nod. "Now you have to keep hanging out with me because I will not tell you how to make it."
I roll my eyes. I hear Santana moan of approval right next to me.
"Alright, I will go first. We will do Five fingers and first out chugs the mystery cup."
There is a little table in front of us and a cup in the middle which looks like a dark brown color. I stick out my tongue and hear Santana laugh next to me and boops my nose causing me to smile.
"Okay, who made this?" I question.
"Mike, and from what I saw no one wants to drink it." Puck answers.
I already feel my stomach roll.
"Okay, never have I ever kissed a girl." Sugar smiled.
"Oh, the big guns already Shug?" I question taking a sip and putting down a finger. Mike, Puck, and Santana also do even though I see Santana's cheeks turn red. Noone questions anyone probably because they saw my first kiss at the party, and I told all of them about the kiss with Santana.
Sugar is seated right next to Puck, so it is his turn.
"Hmmm okay never have I ever... had a soulmate."
"Low Puck very low." I say as I take another drink and put down my finger and see Santana do the same. She reaches over and squeezes my knee and gives me a smile.
"He is just jealous." She says.
"Ummhmm." I agree.
"Well, if you two are offering I would love to join your soulmate group we could have a great time together." He wiggled his eyebrows.
"Puke." Santana says and makes a gagging noise and I turn to laugh with her. I can't help but notice how relaxed she is and she seems to be having fun.
"Never have I ever gone streaking." Mike says, giving me a pointed look.
I roll my eyes and take a drink putting down my finger with only two more left up. As I take my drink, I feel eyes on me, so I turn to look at Santana and raise my eyebrows. "You have to tell this story." She says.
"Ugh do I really have too though? It's really not all that interesting." I look at the group and see Puck with wide eyes nodding with Santana. Sugar and Mike already know this story. "Fine." I huff. "Well, when I get drunk, I turn into a stripper drunk so I was at a party and well I stripped that is pretty much it."
"No no no you must have been very drunk Brittany because that is not all that happened." Mike started laughing as Sugar nodded along. I feel my ears turn red and I put up my hands to cover my face. "Don't worry I got this story. Brittany was tearing up the dance floor at a party over the summer. It got to the point where she was dancing for about an hour with me and sugar. Also during this time she had to keep 'going to the bathroom'. Little did we know 'the bathroom' meant getting special brownies from stoner Rick."
"I didn't know they were special brownies; they were just really good." I defend.
"It was from stoner Rick. It is implied in his name his stuff would be mixed with pot." Mike deadpanned.
"I thought he just got into baking."
Mike rolled his eyes and continued. "Well during these 'bathroom breaks' she was resting pot brownies and getting more drinks so each time Britt came back she was loopier than the last and missing more and more clothing."
"Yep, that was about it." I say trying to end the story.
"No no we do not get to skip the best part." Mike starts giggling now and I just hide my face again with Santana rubbing my back comfortingly. "So, Sugar and I were looking for Britts missing shorts and shirt because the last time she came back she was in her underwear and bra only. So, I am looking out at the deck where all of a sudden, I see a streak of blond hair run by and of course it was Britt yelling 'I am a dolphin and dolphins live in the water!' at the top of her lungs she was as naked as the day she was born. Luckily there was a pool and she dived right into it. We managed to convince her to get out and wrapped a towel around her. She fell asleep shortly after and we never saw her clothes again."
There was a round of laughter.
"I live life on the wild side?" I say sheepishly and shrug, causing the group to laugh again.
We went through a few more rounds and unfortunately, I lost.
"Do I really have to drink this?" I question holding the cup and I swear it bubbled at me. I stick my tongue out and pout at the others.
"Oh yeah Peirce you got this." Puck threw a fist up and cheered.
I use one of my hands and pinch my nose as I chug it as fast as I can. It tastes like cough syrup and something unnameable.
It causes tears to form in my eyes and I start to cough uncontrollably.
Santana starts to pat my back when I am able to finally catch my breath, she switches to stroking my back.
"Okay, no more I am out, I can't take it anymore. That was one of the worst drinks I ever drank, and I blame you." I point my finger at Mike. "You all cheated and I feel personally targeted so I will bid my ado and head to the dance floor."
I stood up wobbly from my mixed drink and the mystery drink and gave a bow. I make a about turn and walk as steadily as I can to the dance floor.
I don't even see if the others follow me as I head right to the middle of the dance floor where the beat fully consumes me. I start to sway to the music in my own world. I think I danced to only one song before I feel hands grip my waist. I know who it is by the tingles in my wrist. Santana presses her front against my back.
"I love dancing with you." She whispers against my ear as we dance in sync.
"I love dancing with you too." I say back. It is comfortable just dancing with her and when a guy comes up and asks if he could butt in I feel Santana's hands tighten on me and it sounds like she growls.
"No." Is what she says sharply and she moves us a little further away from the guy and pulls me closer to her.
I turn around in her arms so I can face her. "You aren't worried about other people seeing us dance together?" I question giving her a lazy smile.
"Friends can dance together."
I roll my eyes at her answer. "We both know we are not just friends."
She smiles at me and leans in close to my ear. "Yeah, well maybe I am just tired of trying to stay away from you."
Shivers shoot up my spine as she pulls me closer to her. She suddenly steps back from me and I want to close the distance again but I force myself not to. I watch her curiously as she reaches down. I see her fiddle with her bracelet that covers her mark then she undoes the clasp revealing her mark for all to see. I know this is a big deal for her because she said she has always had it hidden not showing anyone. She looks up to me, her brown eyes sparkling as she slips her bracelet into the back of her skinny jeans pocket.
I can't even explain the feeling I have right now. I think I am overwhelmed as my heart pumps too fast. She reaches for me her left hand (now bracelet free) for my hand with the mark on my wrist. She tangles our fingers together and pulls me close to her. She lets go to wrap her arms around my neck swaying to the music. I feel like my brain is frozen.
"San?" I finally get out.
She smiles at me and reaches up tucking a strand of hair behind my ear. She shrugs. "I am tired of hiding my feelings for you Britt."
I finally shake my head out of the freezer it was in and finally start getting my head on straight. I take her hand and weave us through the party up the stairs and into a quiet bedroom where we can talk, because she had completely sobered me up at this point and I have questions.
I pull her to the bed to sit down. She raises an eyebrow at me. I roll my eyes.
"Just sit down, San." I laugh at her.
She shrugs then sits down still smiling at me and giving me this strong look.
"San I am confused." I confessed right away.
"I want to be with you Britt." She looks down and I can see the but that is about to come. "But we have to be in secret because my mom can't know Britt." She emphasizes the can't.
"What about Sam?" My eyebrows furrow. Because he is really the only reason we don't have anything going on.
"I don't care about Sam." She reaches up and touches my cheek softly. "You are my soulmate Britt and like I said I can't stop these feelings anymore. They have only grown since I met you and I really want to give us a try. Please Britt I know we would have to be in secret, but..." She takes a deep breath, tears in her eyes. "will you go on a date with me?"
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