Hey guys, welcome back! I know that there has been some time that has passed since I last updated this story and I would like to apologise wholeheartedly for that. I know you don't want to hear any excuses but I have had a lot going on with life which has prevented me on working on all of my stories not just this one. I do want to advise (like I have done with every story I have posted recently) that I have evaluated everything on my fanfiction page recently and I think the plan that I had in place initially wasn't working (where I work on stories between my main story) I feel if anything this has put me into a writing block rather than helping me complete chapters and stories. So, at the moment I am going going to post whenever and whatever I like and in no particular order (as I did have a particular order in my mind). So, with this in mind I am going to post the chapters that I currently have ready and in connection to this story. I was going to hold off until the next twelve chapters were ready, but after finishing another main story on this page I am very conscious of how much time has also passed on this story. So with this in mind I have decided to post the next five chapters for now, just so we can all just dip our toes back into this main story. I also some of you may not read this, but as you have come to learn by me now I always want to explain what I am doing. I just felt like I was being held hostage by time and struggling to find time to finish chapters and stories. I hope you all understand, much love RSD xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo.
P.S. Content warning for smut, lemons and swearing in this chapter.
As sleep started to evade me I noted that I was lying on my back I moved my left arm and I pulled one brow up with my eyes still closed as I didn't feel Ben lying next to me. Where was he? Had something happened with his mother that he had to quickly leave? I hoped that this hadn't wasn't the case as I would like to think that he would have woken me up if this had happened. I then moved my leg to see if I could feel him in bed, in case he was lying further away from me and I noted that he wasn't here. I sighed and slowly opened my eyes thinking that he was just on the toilet, however confusion swept even more on my face when I saw Ben sitting on the left hand side of the bed with his back to me.
"Ben?" I muttered, and the room filled with silence but it finally broke when he sniffed and used his right hand to wipe his nose. "Ben?" I repeated more clearly and I watched as he used his right hand to then wipe his eyes which made me freeze. "Are you crying?" I asked as I quickly sat up and let the bed clothes drop from me.
"Erm" he muttered nervously as he took a couple of deep breaths to steady himself.
"Benny" I cooed as I quickly knelt up and crawled over to him and I pressed my bare chest against his bare back. "Benny" I cooed again as I pressed a kiss against the top of his head as I also snaked my arms around his neck. "What's wrong? You know you can tell me anything" I questioned, hoping that this would prompt him to tell me what was on his mind.
"I know I can baby" he answered as he turned his head and I felt my heart to start to break as I saw that tears were still building in his eyes. "I guess-" he started but stopped as he pursed his lips together.
"Yeah?" I prompted him.
"Everything that happened yesterday is just making me feel and think a lot of things" he admitted.
"I get that baby" I nodded. "Do you want to talk about it?" I offered.
"I don't know" he confessed as he pursed his lips sadly together.
"You might feel better if you do" I stated, as he snuggled his head against mine.
"Yeah" he answered. "I guess-" he started but stopped to take a couple of deep breaths to steady himself. "Just everything that has happened with my parents it has made me think about how things will go for us" he added. "It might not work out as we want" he stated as he looked up at me. "And I'm now questioning our plan" he admitted.
"How so?" I asked slowly. Of course I understood how the current situation with his parents could make him think about things, as it had made me do the same. However I didn't want to make any decisions influenced by this situation, me and Ben had to choose our own path. And this was something that we had to do together, and I knew that if we wanted to change anything that we had already planned that would be ok if we talked about it. I just didn't want any decisions forced by anything other than me and Ben changing them freely. "I thought you wanted a big family" I reminded him.
"I did" he replied. "But it might not happen that way" he stressed as he bit down on his bottom lip.
"Benny we decided that we would go with the flow" I reminded him.
"I know that" he said. "But what if what happens with my parents happens to us" he added in a very panicked tone. "What if-" he started but he stopped when his voice broke.
"Benny stop this" I stated softly as I brushed some loose hair behind his right ear. "Stop worrying" I told him smoothly as I started to hope that I was going to be able to reassure him.
"I can't help it!" he exclaimed. "I just feel so selfish" he admitted which made my eyes widen at this. Ben and selfish wasn't two things that I didn't think would ever go into the same sentence, I don't know why he would think this. But I knew one thing for definite - I would try to put a stop to this before he mentally kicked himself any further.
"How on Auradon are you selfish?" I pressed. "You don't have a selfish bone in your body" I dismissed.
"I do!" he exclaimed.
"How?" I questioned. It broke me to see Ben like this, he was just such a carefree soul. He normally took everything in his stride. However he was also a very sensitive being, and at times he did take things to heart. This was one of the reasons that I loved him, I loved the sensitivity in him it just hurt to see him getting himself so beat up like this.
"I feel selfish for two reasons-" he began to say, which made me to decide to stay quiet so he could speak him mind freely. "First of all I should be concentrating on my parents not us-" he continued as guilt started to show in his eyes before looked away from me. "And second of all-" he added as he looked up at me, and I watched as he pursed his lips together. "I don't want to put you through all of that heartbreak" he stressed in a panic. "I guess it's selfish of me to say to you that I want a big family when that may not happen" he finished explaining sadly as tears started to form in his eyes once more.
"Hey!" I cooed as I wrapped my right hand around his head and I pulled him closer to me. "Benny" I muttered as I heard him sniff which told me he had started to cry again. "You are not being selfish" I told him bluntly.
"But-" he started as he used his hands to wipe the tears away that were trying to make their journey down his cheeks.
"No buts Benny" I pressed as I pulled my head away and we both looked at each other. "Of course this situation with your parents is going to make you think about us, it has made me think the same" I advised.
"Has it?" he asked and I watched as the guilt left his eyes and panic started to creep in.
"Yeah" I nodded. "But I'm trying to not worry about this until it happens Benny" I dismissed. "Because worrying about something that hasn't even happened yet is only going to make the pair of us bad" I continued to explain which myself hoping that what I was saying was going to reassure my soul mate. "And we might be different Ben" I reminded him.
"Maybe" he nodded.
"Yeah maybe" I stated as I pressed a kiss against the top of his head. "And as for putting me through heartbreak Ben-" I continued. "It wouldn't be your fault my love" I added. "These things happen, and if and when they do you will be by my side" I reminded him.
"Of course" he smiled meekly as he rested his head against mine once more as he rested his right hand against my right that was against his head. The room then fell into silence as enjoyed being in this tight embrace, my mind then went onto the conversation that I had just shared with Ben and I couldn't help but feel sorry for Ben. He wanted to best for us, and of course I understand that. But I didn't want to fixate on if our situation was going to be anywhere similar to Adam and Belle. Me and Ben could be completely different, and I didn't want to fixate on it until the time comes - no matter how hard it was for the pair of us currently.
"I hate to see you so bothered" I noted as I looked down at him to see him still looking concerned, which caused him to slowly look back up at me.
"I just want the best for my family-" he began. "And as King I feel a lot of expectation on me" he added. "And given you are to be my wife, I feel as if you are going to have the same expectations on you" he explained further.
"And I will deal with them" I nodded and we both shared a glance. I could tell by the unease that was still in his eyes that there was still something on his mind, I just hoped that he would tell me so I could try and help him through this situation. "Ben I can see something else is bothering you" I advised. "I can't help you until you tell me" I added, hoping that this would prompt him.
"You can read me like a book" he chuckled meekly.
"I should hope so" I teased, hoping to make light of the situation. "You are my other half" I reminded him lovingly.
"Yes" he grinned up at me. "Yes I am" he added as he snuggled his face into my hair. "Mal?" he said a few seconds later as he pulled away and looked at me.
"Yes Ben" I said hoping that he was finally going to tell me what else was bothering him.
"You know when we first spoke about having children together-" he began.
"Yes" I nodded.
"And you said that you wanted two, maybe three" he reminded me slowly.
"Yeah" I nodded again.
"And I then told you that I wanted more" he continued to remind me.
"Yes" I repeated.
"You quickly changed your answer to-" he stated. "We will see what happens" he said mimicking my voice.
"Where are you going with this?" I questioned slowly as I pulled one brow up in confusion at him. I then watched as he took a couple of deep breaths to steady his nerves for a few seconds before he broke the silence.
"Do you feel an expectation from me?" he asked hesitantly.
"No" I answered quickly. This was the truth, I didn't feel any expectation from Ben. He made me feel safe and I knew that any decisions that we made we made together, and we always discussed them first. Yes I know that as he was King Ben needed to have children, but I didn't think that was an expectation. It was something that came with relationships and being with the person you loved, yes having children might not be for everyone but I wanted to have children with Ben. This was something that I had decided a long time ago, and was something that I was proud of. I loved the fact that I was going to be the woman to give him the children that he needs, and I knew that we were going to be good parents - as we had each other to get each other through it.
"Really?" he asked slowly.
"What would make you think that I feel like that?" I stated.
"Because you changed your answer" he reminded as he turned away from me.
"Ben look at me" I advised, and I watched as she slowly did this. "I didn't change my answer because of expectations-" I began to explain. "I changed my answer because of compromise" I advised bluntly as our gazes locked. "I know as your wife I will need to give you children, but I don't see that as an expectation from you" I told him smoothly. "Heck!" I exclaimed. "I know it is an expectation from the council and Kingdom, but that isn't what matters to me" I continued. "The Kingdom will get their heir" I shrugged. "But I believe our relationship works because we don't set boundaries on each other. We talk about it; and get each other through it" I added. "And that is why I changed my answer Ben" I finished.
"Mally" he breathed as his eyes started to water. He then quickly turned and placed his head against my right shoulder and I felt his arms pull me closer to him.
"Bennybear" I muttered lovingly before I pressed a kiss against the top of his head before snuggling back into his hair. We sat like this for a few seconds before he pulled away and looked down at me with a loving look in his face.
"Did I mention that I love you?" he told me fondly.
"Did I mention that I love you too" I answered sweetly, and we both smiled at each other. Ben then brought his face closer to mine and he pressed a brief but tender kiss against my lips. "Please don't feel selfish Ben" I advised. "You are anything but" I told him as I cupped the right hand side of his face with my left hand. "My beautiful, sensitive and caring Beast" I advised lovingly as I started to stare into his eyes again.
"I'll try" he meekly smiled at me as he mirrored my actions and cupped the left hand side of my face with his right hand. "My very beautiful, supportive and caring Dragon" he muttered as he brushed his nose against mine. I smiled at him and then an idea came to me, I knew that Ben needed me to get him out of this situation - and I knew a way that I could do this, as I was the only one that could do this for him.
"Ben?" I muttered at him.
"Yes my future Queen?" he replied back happily.
"I know you said you would punish me-" I started.
"Yes?" he grinned eagerly at me.
"Well I have a proposal" I advised with a large smile.
"Go on" he prompted.
"Why don't we have some practice?" I flirted.
"Practice?" he asked slowly as I noticed that a playful look started to enter his eyes.
"Yeah" I smirked as I moved face my face and put my mouth next to his right ear. "Why don't you show me how you intend on getting me pregnant?" I whispered and when I pulled away I heard a groan, and when I looked at him I saw that his eyes were starting to darken. "You know-" I started to tease. "Just so we both know what we are doing" I said in mock seriousness. "When the time comes around to it" I continued in the same mock serious tone.
"You are right" he grinned at me. "We need to make sure we are well versed" he said as he pulled a funny face at me, which made me giggle at him.
"Yes" I continued to giggle. "And it's a bonus given that it is one of our favourite past times" I smirked at him.
"Hell yes!" he exclaimed which made me chuckle. "So-" I said slowly as I slowly started to untangle my arms away from him. "Come and get me my future husband" I flirted as I slowly moved away from him and lay back down on the bed with my head rested onto the pillows. I then watched as he slowly crawled onto the bed and towards me and his eyes continued to darken in lust, which made my stomach twinge at my own lust building up within me. He then slowly climbed on top of me and laid down on me, and as we both smiled lovingly at each other we wrapped our arms and legs around each other. I watched as a sweet smile spread across his face as he brought his face close to mine and I smiled as his lips pressed against mine and we started to slowly make out.
The room then fell into silence, apart from the sounds of us grunting, moaning and groaning as our mouths and warm and smooth tongues slid against each other. Our hands were roaming eagerly over each other's bodies, and when takes it in turns to palpate each of my breasts low and guttural moans escaped against his lips. As minutes ticked by I could feel Ben riling up against me, and I abruptly pulled my mouth away from his when I felt his leg catch my clit causing me to groan loudly as a wave of pleasure swept through me. Ben chuckled at this reaction, and our eyes locked as Ben then took his right hand and he lifted himself up slightly and he slid his hand in between my legs and I threw my head back as he continued to run his fingers up and down me.
"Now let's see what we have here" he teased as he parted my folds and his started slowly work two of his fingers within me.
"Hmm" I purred as he continued his actions, which made more warmth build up between my legs as pleasure kept sweeping through me.
"Someone is enjoying herself" I heard him say as he quickly quickened his pace.
"Yes!" I exclaimed as I looked at him to see him smile smugly. "So are you" I panted as I knocked my leg against his hardening member.
"Of course my love!" he hissed back. "I always will" he promised.
"Glad to-" I started but stopped when Ben's fingers caught a sensitive spot within me. "Oh!" I moaned loudly. "Hear it" I groaned as he continued his actions. I felt him pull his fingers away from me and I groaned in disappointment but as I watched him chuckle at me he took his member with his right hand and he started to line himself up against my entrance.
"I know you were enjoying my fingers-" he started as he began to brush himself against my entrance. "But I believe this is more what you want" he added smugly as he continued these slow and teasing movements against me.
"Benny?" I breathed as I yearned for him to enter me. "Please?" I begged.
"Very well" he chuckled, and before I could say or do anything he bucked forward and entered me.
"OH!" I groaned loudly as he continued work himself into me. "FUCK!" I cried out as my hands tightened on him.
"YES!" he hissed. "MAL!" he called out as he continued pushing forward until he was fully seated within me.
"I love you Mally" he said as he rested his forehead against mine.
"I love you too Benny" I grunted as I tightened my arms and legs around him.
"I want to go slow" he told me as he brushed his nose against mine.
"Hmmm" I purred as I meekly nodded as he slowly started to pull out of me. I understood why Ben wanted to go slow right now and I didn't have any issue with it, there was times for us to take things slow and this was one of those times - and it felt perfect for the pair of us.
"My favourite place is right here" he groaned as he started to push himself back into me. I felt him tighten his arms and legs around me, and I smirked at him as I started to feel playful. So with this in mine I purposely tightened myself around Ben and I grinned at his response. "OH!" he hissed. "FUCK!" he shouted as I did it again, which made me giggle. "Oh you playful dragon" he chuckled as he slowly continued to work his slow actions against me. I moved in perfect sync with him, and it wasn't long before I hit my peak of absolute pleasure. Ben on the other had thrusted against me a few more times before he become undone and he flung himself on top of me as we both worked on calming our breathing down.
When we both came down off our high Ben slowly and carefully pulled himself out of me and rolled onto his back so he was now lying on my left hand side, we then quickly cuddled together as he also pulled the covers over us. As we cuddled in silence I felt my eyes started to roll back into sleep, however before I succumbed to slumber I couldn't help but reflect on the conversation that I had just shared with Ben. Yes I understood why Ben felt the way he did but I think my thinking was the best way to go, it wouldn't do me or Ben any good to worry about what hasn't even happened yet. We needed to concentrate on being together, and if anything happened we would get through it - together, as always.
