Summary: Continuation of last chapter. Six months after Sasuke left, Sakura it's lonely and thinking of spicing her life a little bit. One guy in mind after a failed steamy solo night.
Author's notes: Next chapter is Sasuke´s POV.
I´m also a huge swiftie. And some of her songs are sooooo Sasuke Retsuden coded and I sometimes use her lyrics to help me get ideas for some of the descriptions.
Chapter 3: First Kiss
I woke up at 9:30 am and I still had plenty of time before I had to meet Shikamaru. And frankly I did not like having extra time. The hospital keeps me busy and my mind free of awkward conversations with myself.
I felt dirty thinking about last night´s events so I took a long hot shower, for a second I thought about giving a second try to yesterday´s failed attempt. But then I remembered I would spend half the day with Shikamaru and yesterday would be enough for me to act weird all afternoon.
So before I get more dangerous ideas, I step out of the shower, put on my pajama, which consists of a large old t-shirt Kakashi sensei gave me once on a mission after Naruto spilled food all over my backup, ruining all my clothes, obviously back then I wore it with a bra and a short. But in my house I would basically put it on with nothing under but my panty.
Honestly it is weird because it's Kakashi´s shirt but I felt sexy in it. It was long enough to cover all the important parts of my body. But short enough to show most of my legs, and it hugged my boobs and my ass nicely and obviously no one had ever seen me in it besides Ino when she stayed to sleep at my place, the first time she saw me in it, she said "if I were a man I would be trying to get my face between those legs"
She is so nasty. Sometimes I feel Ino is the biggest pervert in Konoha´s history. And we are talking about Konoha, home of Jiraiya and Kakashi sensei.
But in her defense, my legs do look good with this shirt.
I grabbed the book I had on my coffee table and sat down to read it while drinking some tea. But a few minutes later, I sensed Shikamaru's chakra approaching my house and I was too slow to act. Before I could think of anything, he was already knocking on my door.
Why was he making me nervous? Why was I acting so slow? Why was I opening my door basically naked for the second time in less than 24 hours to Shikamaru?
I opened the door and stood there probably with fear on my face. Shikamaru looked nice today, he was wearing the same uniform he always wears. But I am now looking at him with different eyes. Maybe with a bit of lust. He had a nice smile when I opened the door and was holding a take out bag. His face quickly changed to a more stoic look but then she did that thing again.
He slowly and so obviously looked at me like last night. I could feel his eyes analyzing me like he was planning the most important strategy of his life. He looked at my neck, my chest but this time, he stared at my legs for a second longer. And that gave me goosebumps all over. Shit my boobs were betraying me. I crossed my arms across my chest, his gaze quickly turned to my chest again and in a fraction of a second his eyes were staring at my face again. With a smirk on his face.
"I think stopping unannounced at your house is becoming one of my favorite activities" he said, pointing towards the inside of my house and then asked if he could enter.
I let him in, words stuck in my throat. Blood rushed to my cheeks. And probably my whole face.
"Sorry for showing up early, I know I told you we would meet later but the meeting was canceled and then Naruto spilled water on Kakashi´s porn novel and I needed to get away from there so maybe we can work here instead" He said while stepping into the kitchen and placing the bag on the counter, he then took some food containers. "I figured you were awake and hopefully you don't mind that I came earlier, I brought Dango as an apology for ruining your morning in case you had any plans."
"I didn't. I said "I didn't have any plans and I didn't have breakfast so thank you. Do you want some tea?"
Shikamaru nodded while taking a bite of the dango. I turned around to grab a cup from the top cabinet and then I heard him cough and I froze. How can I be so careless? I was literally having a panic attack because of what I was wearing and then I went and reached out the cabinet, probably exposing part of my panties to him. Why do I even have the cups there if I´m not tall? Well I guess it is not my fault. I'm usually not thinking about flashing my ass to men in my kitchen.
I served him a cup of tea and told him I would change out of my pijamas quickly.
"My loss then," he said, dark eyes looking at me with something fierce inside them. "I mean, thanks for the tea, l´ll wait."
When did Shikamaru become such a pervert? Was he always like this? Why did I like it? I mean I have punched a man for way less. Naruto is the living proof of that. I put on proper clothes and went back to the kitchen quickly. Shikamaru had opened the scroll and was analyzing it while eating the dango.
I approached and grabbed one with one hand and picked my cup of tea with the other. I leaned against the kitchen cupboard and stared at him. He had a pretty face, nice brows, sexy eyes, cute nose, expressionless. Like nothing happened, like he didn't look at me with starving eyes.
Was it all in my head? But then I looked at his neck, first because I don't know why his throat was looking good but then I noticed a vein popping out on one side. He was tense. Stressed. So he was not immune. I was not imagining things. He was trying to play it cool, but the body is treacherous.
I smiled a little and as if he could hear me smile he turned his gaze toward mine and those piercing black eyes were looking at me again like he was starving. I thought my body was going to start shaking as a reaction but I managed to keep it cool and stared back at him without showing any emotion on my face.
He smiled and then started talking about the scroll and what he had discovered so far. He grabbed the tea and the scroll and walked towards the living room and sat on the floor, placing the scroll on the sofa table and when I remained in the same spot. He looked at me and patted the spot next to him, telling me to go sit with him. So I did so.
"Sakura," he said, grabbed my arm in a non-sexual way but my brain was mixing signals and my body reacted by sending blood to my cheeks. I almost missed a small smile that flashed on his face and then became serious again, his eyes expressed worry but there was some teasing there "is something wrong? You've been acting weird since…well since yesterday, and you have the look of a scared deer"
"I'm fine" I said fast, and looked at the scroll "Let's focus on this"
We spent the next three hours working on the scroll, like nothing happened. It was way easier than what I thought it would be but I guess we did make a pretty good team and Shikamaru truly is really smart, plus we had an advantage.
It turned out that there was a small group of people trying to replicate Sasori's poison for many uses. But they had the formula all wrong and Sasuke had already dealt with them so in the end it was kind of a useless mission but it had to be done.
So Sasuke got these in Suna, that's where he is right now…not that far away. I had been working on my plan to build a mental health clinic for kids and the Kazekage had expressed his interest in my idea.
And I would probably have to go to Suna at the end of the month to give a presentation to the elders of the sand. Will he still be there? Maybe we'll meet on the road. Maybe he found out somehow about my scheduled trip and he´ll wait around to meet me there and come back to Konoha with me.
Most likely he is already gone.
I should focus on the cute guy who is physically in Konoha, who is actually standing right in front of me, who gave me a couple of looks that made my body shiver and sent my head spinning.
Shikamaru made a growling sound while stretching and said "Well, I was kind of hoping this would take more time, I´d rather be sitting here with you than back at the Hokage's office. I'll go report to Kakashi, I guess."
I don't know what possessed my body but as soon as Shikamaru started to stand up I grabbed him by the arm and asked him to wait.
"We can say it took longer than it actually did," I said "and we can hang around"
"Sure, what do you want to do?" he asked.
"Umm I don´t know," I really didn't know, I was still processing the words I just said. "I don't know? Maybe we can talk…I was thinking about you last night, how we are both part of Konoha 12 and are usually working together being two of the pillars of the village and yet we are not really friends, you know? We're more like acquaintances and that´s w…"
"You were thinking of me last night?" He interrupted.
Shit.
I guess I kept talking without processing my words but instead of feeling the shame and anxiety burn me down, something deep inside of me took charge, was it courage? curiosity? stupidity?
"I was," I confessed. "I just…I felt everyone is enjoying their life fully now that war is over while I´m stuck in a routine between my house and the hospital and I'm wasting my time,not experiencing life and not getting younger"
"What do you mean? We are in the springtime of our youth!" He said with a cute laugh "I don´t think there's a scale to measure whether we are wasting our time but if you feel like you are that sucks but at least you have free will and time and youth to fix that."
I did not respond and sat there thinking about what he said.
"So I still don't know how I am involved in your thoughts though," he added "you said you were thinking of me."
"Have you ever kissed someone, Shikamaru?" I asked.
He lost his stoic look and his eyes went wide and his cheeks blushed.
"Nara boy, you are the one looking like a deer now," I said with a small giggle.
"I have," He replied.
"You have? I didn't know you were seeing someone! Who?" I asked him as if I were gossiping with Ino forgetting for a second I was dealing with a different type of conversation.
"None important," he shrugged it off, "you still have not answered my question."
"Oh, well I was thinking how I´ve never been kissed and I-" I started playing with my shirt "I was, umm you know, I was just thinking that maybe.."
"Do you want me to kiss you?" he said.
Oh my god. Would he kiss me? Do I want him to kiss him? Yes, I do. I can choose how to spend my free time and being kissed sounds like a good option, so I asked him.
"Would you?"
"What about Sasuke"
"What about him?"
"Didn't you like him or something like that?"
"I did," I answered "but not anymore."
I was getting angry, what does Sasuke have to do with all of these? Besides the fact that he was a big part of the problem and the reason I wasn't enjoying my life fully. And why did Shikamaru bring him up? I am asking him to kiss him and he brings some other guy´s name to the conversation.
"Would you kiss me?" I repeated with a little frustrated tone in my voice.
He grabbed my hand, which was still nervously playing with my shirt, and gave me a gentle squeeze.
"Sakura," He said my name with a deep voice "You are beautiful, you know that, right?"
He then started trazing my arm with his fingers, and as if he lit the fuse, there was a chain reaction of goosebumps anticipating his touch.
"I can shake off my mind the picture of you on your front door leaving not much to the imagination," he continued " You're stunning"
He reached my shoulder, and his fingers continued his path, painfully slow, through my collarbone and then on my neck until his whole hand grabbed the back of my neck and his thumb started brushing my cheeks.
My hurt was going to beat out of my chest any minute with how fast it was beating. And I was so distracted by his hand on my body that I hadn't noticed how much closer he was now.
"Any sane man would love to kiss you Sakura," he said slightly tilting my head.
His thumb hovered, nearly touching my lips, his face was so close, I could feel his hot breath on me, I sighed deeply and closed my eyes, and slightly parted my lips, preparing myself for the kiss.
And then nothing. One second passed and I felt cold. Shikamaru´s hot touch and breath was just a memory in my skin. I opened my eyes and he was sitting with what felt like a huge distance and he was looking at the floor, hand over his head, scratching nervously.
"I´m sorry, I-," he said "I did want to kiss you but then I remember how you said we are like acquaintances but that's not true, I might not be close to you like Ino or Naruto but we´re still friends and I care about you, so I don't think I should hurt you by kissing you, you know"
"No, I don´t know," I answered, "Why would you hurt me?"
"Because maybe not today or tomorrow, but one day you would regret it, the kiss. I know you say Sasuke doesn´t matter but I think he does, and if he was out of the equation I would like to break the friendship line with you and see where this could go, but I don't want to be something you'll regret in the future."
How dare he? How would he know I would regret kissing him? He is out of his mind.
"You are something I'm regretting right now, Shikamaru" I said angrily "what does Sasuke have to do with any of this, I don't care about him, I didn't bring him up, you did. I was… into you."
"Were you? Maybe it's just some fancy distraction of yours" he said "your brain was probably fighting to get rid of Sasuke´s permanent picture and placed one of me on top, I´d like to think you chose me because I'm crazy good looking, but probably I'm just saying this to boost up my ego."
Dang he is smart. I mean he kind of nailed it..
But still, how dare he? He got me all worked up and my whole body on fire and then he backs down with the dumb excuse of Sasuke.
"What makes you think I'm not over him?" I demanded
"You always say 'Konoha 12´, you know?" I was so confused, what does that matter? "We are the Konoha 11, Sasuke was not part of it, but you always include him. Not only in the name but every now and then, through your conversations, I can see glimpses of how Sasuke is always on your mind. So be honest, deep down, something inside of you doesn't want me, or any other guy, to be your first kiss. There's only one name those lips want."
He finished talking and with his finger booped my nose. Like I was a little kid or something who needed explaining. He doesn't know me better than I do. He is not Ino or Naruto like he said. How dare he reject me. I felt my face getting red again but this time it was out of anger.
He flashed a dumb smile and got up quickly. He thanked me for the great work on the scroll and said he had to report to the Hokage and left in a matter of seconds.
What a coward.
Your lips only want one person. What a dumb thing to say. I guess being a good strategist doesn´t make you emotionally intelligent. What would he know about that?
Fuck Sasuke, all those years of rejection brand me as the crazy fangirl obsessed with him.
Fuck Shikamaru too. I can kiss whoever I want without regrets. And I don't want to kiss Sasuke anymore and I don't want to kiss him either.
I can kiss all the guys I want, these lips only have my name on them and I can do whatever I want.
I want a real kiss with a real man. Not dumb boys that know nothing.
That's it. My next mission is to get a first real hot unforgettable kiss with the hottest man in the village.
But who is the hottest man in the village?
An ANBU agent appeared in the middle of my living room interrupting my thoughts.
"Haruno-san," he said, "you´ve been specifically requested by a patient who needs urgent care."
"Who?" I asked while standing up not expecting an explanation from the ANBU ops.
"The Hokage," he said.
