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Megan's POV

May/16/2010

I stood in front of Trish office's door, hesitant if I should tell her or not my decision. I debated with myself for a few more days since they asked me if I wanted this, if I was ready for this. I thought of everything, always concluding that this was the right thing, but something deep down inside me was screaming that it wasn't the right thing. I was conflicted inside myself, I wasn't even confiding in myself.

I closed my eyes and breathed deeply trying to calm myself down and gathering some so much needed strength. I looked up to the door and lifting fist I knocked and waited for Trish to say 'come in' wishing for her not to be there for I wasn't sure about it evidently.

She spoke up and I sighed, grabbing the doorknob I hesitantly entered into the small office; she was reviewing some papers. When I entered she lifted her head up "Hey, Megan, What can I do for you?" she said. I doubted once again if I wanted this, for a few seconds I remained stood still by the door frame, unsure of what I was about to say. I sighted and moved slowly towards the desk. "Are you going to say something or you're just gonna stand there silent? " She said, placing the pen in her hand on the desk and crossing her arms in front of her.

I gave her and annoyed look and resisted the urge to say something sarcastic and impolite "I've been thinking about the question that the Rizzoli-Isles' made me" I said, paused and inhaled a little more hardly than what I intended to. Trish raised an eyebrow and waited for my answer becoming impatient. "I want to give that a shot" I said straight away, not leaving room for further thinking.

Trish relaxed and uncrossed her arms "So, you decided to go with Jane and Maura" she said, a little smile forming in her face. "Nice" she finished.

"Yeah" I nodded.

"You're doing the right thing" she said, right after she grabbed her phone "I'll let them know and probably they'll be here soon" she said with a surprising warm smile. I nodded and left the office. I closed the door behind me but I didn't leave, I stood by the door, curious and kind of anxious about what she was about to say to them. I couldn't hear more than a few mumbled words and chopped phrases; I left and went towards my room, feeling more nervous than before. It was Friday so we had what Mrs. Tales used to call "Movie Night" which consisted on a bad made-for-Tv movie; at least we got to spend a few hours doing nothing.

I stood from the couch in the middle of the movie to grab a cup of water; I stayed on the kitchen for a few more minutes than necessary, just enjoying the silence and calmness of the desolated kitchen. I was leaning over the counter of the kitchen, looking at the wall across the room when Trish entered into it.

"Hey, why aren't you outside with the other girls?" she asked me with a casual tone. Grabbing a glass of water she mirrored my position and leaned over the top of the counter as well.

I shrugged "Like if the movie was good" I said sarcastically.

"Yes, it isn't good, but at least you're not alone" she said,

"You answered yourself" I said bitterly, I just wanted to be left alone for a while. Not talking, not listening, nothing; I just wanted peace and silence.

"Ok, you're free, you can be alone if you want" she said calmly and placing the glass in the sink "Oh! I forgot to tell you, Jane and Maura will be here tomorrow signing the papers and you'll be free to go with hem tomorrow night" she said, genuinely happy for me.

"Ok... Hmm…thanks" I simply exclaimed and left the room walking towards the bathroom. I stood in front of the mirror looking at my reflection, feeling nervous and excited, anxious and scared, all at the same time, this was new and uncertain, and it was unknown for me, the feeling of not knowing what is going to happen was like a heavy, a very heavy weight that laid on my shoulders and chest, pressing and making me more scared than what I should be. In these months I've come to realize that my 'thinking place' is the bathroom, in a house full of ears and eyes this was the only place you could breathe alone.

I left the bathroom and went to the leaving room, with the rest of the girls and sat on one of the chairs and let my mind be lost in the movie for a while.

When bedtime come I laid on the mattress, unable to even close my eyes, let alone sleep. Thoughts were running through my mind a hundred miles per hour. I'd be lying if I say that I wasn't scared about it. I've heard a thousand stories about how awesome a family might seem at first and after a few days of fostering everything changes, for worst. I wanted and wished with all I had to believe that this time things will be different, that those stories won't be nothing like mine will be, hopefully. And that was all I could do, stare at the ceiling trying to be positive.


Jane's POV

It was late and I was at my desk, reviewing some paperwork and notes from the most recent case we caught - which was excruciating us - looking for clues or a hint that lead us to the perpetrator when my phone rang; Trish name appeared on the screen and my mind started to think of all the possible case-scenarios. There were no more than 2 things on my mind . One, she'll say that she want to live with us or two, she doesn't want to live with us. When I picked the phone up I was nervous and excited.

"Hello, detective Rizzoli, is Trish" she said.

"Hello, Trish, how are you?" I asked, not knowing what to say due to my nervousness.

"I'm fine, detective, I hope you are too. I'm calling to give you some news" she said, not explaining further and leaving me in embers.

"Ok, so, what is it?" I said, after I finished my sentence Maura came into the bullpen with an envelope on her hands, probable the results of the tests she was running on the victim. She looked at me confused and I mouthed 'Trish has news'. She immediately left the envelope on the desk and put all her concentration on looking expectantly at me.

"So, detective, Megan said that she will be pleased to go to live with you. You can come tomorrow at noon to sign the paperwork and after everything's done you can take her home" Trish exclaimed, her voice denoted happiness and pride.

My eyes went wide and I was speechless for a moment before I couldn't say anything "that's- that's great, thanks Trish, thank you" I said. Maura was still in front of me waiting for me to say something

Trish said her goodbyes and hung up; I raised my face from the phone and look at Maura "She said yes" I simply said.

Maura was confused for a second before she understood what I was referring to.

"Oh my God, that's great!" Maura squealed putting her hand over her mouth and after she clasped her hands together. "When are we picking her up?" She asked excitedly.

"Well, Trish said that we can go tomorrow at noon to sign the papers and take her home" I explained to Maura, whose face became stressed.

"Tomorrow? We have nothing prepared, not even the room" Maura said, urticaria starting to show on her neck and her face crunching in almost panic.

I stood from my chair and placed my hands on her shoulders "Ok, baby, calm you down. She is a fifteen year old teenage girl, not a new born; she can live for a few nights on the guest room as it is, and which I may remind you, will be her room anyways"

Maura's hectic breath started to even out and she calmed herself down a bit "Yes, you right, we can arrange something small for tomorrow, nothing too overwhelming just us and maybe you Mother and brothers?" Maura asked

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"Yes, that can be nice, just a simply dinner though, ok?" I said, knowing that 'something simple' for my wife, was usually everything but simple.

She nodded and was about to leave when she suddenly stopped "Two things, first of all we have to talk to the kids and put them on board, as we have to do with our families and second of all, the tox-screen was positive for scopolamine

"Ok, so we know that our victim was drugged, at least it's something to start with… Hmm, and about the kids and our families, we have to do it tonight" I said, sighing knowing that it was a sudden big new. "So, tomorrow we have to leave work early so I'll let Cavanaugh know that I'll be leaving early" I said

"Perfect" Maura said, she walked to where I was and hugged me, a tender, soft and loving hug, and rested her head on my shoulder and held onto me for a little longer than usual. I was surprised by her reaction but I knew she was overwhelmed by the sudden call from Trish. "I'll be in my office, when you ready to go, call me. Ok?" She finished.

"Sure, baby" I said and before she could leave the bullpen I stopped her "Honey" I exclaimed and she turned looking at me questioning "Everything will be fine" I assured to her.

"I know" she simply said smiling lovingly at me, her eyes sparkling hopefully. She blew me a kiss and left towards the morgue.

I was left alone and left Maura's demeanor left me wondering how drastically everything will change from now on. This will not be for a few days or weeks; this might be something long term, even permanent. This was a huge change; not only a new person will be living in our house but will - hopefully - become a part of our family. Thinking of what may lay ahead was strenuous. What if she doesn't feel comfortable? What if she doesn't like this? What if she doesn't like us? What if the kids aren't comfortable? What if she never gets comfortable? What if she doesn't feel like home? What if we get too attached to her and she doesn't? What if we aren't ready for a new person under our wings? A thousand 'What if' where running through my mind, I was becoming worried-sick about it.

I looked at the computer screen and saw that I spent a solid 30 minutes lost in my own thoughts when I decided that it was enough and this was just making me more nervous and insecure. I rubbed my forehead with both hands and stood from the chair, I grabbed my phone and dialed Maura's phone number and told her that I was ready. We both when to the parking lot of the headquarters and jump on the car heading towards our home.

I was driving and was pulling the steering wheel harder than usual, Maura noticed and placed her hand on my upper tight "You nervous, don't you?

"Is it that obvious?" I said, letting out a soft sight.

"I am too" she said, not taking her gaze from the window of the passenger seat "I've been thinking of…" she didn't finish her sentence.

I stopped on a red light and looked at her expecting the end of the sentence. She inhaled deeply "Thinking of what the future holds for us… I know is completely unlike me to wonder but it's hard not to do it when the thing are changing sofast, even though we knew this was coming" she said, her eyes shining.

I sighed loudly this time "I've been too" I said and she turned her gaze towards me "It hard because we are involving all of our family, we are opening up our hearts without knowing what may happen… I've asked every possible 'what if' and I'm still not sure if those are all of them" I said to her.

She gave me a reassuring smile "We may not have all the answers but, even when we are scared as new moms, we have a little experience, maybe not with teens but as mothers we know that loving our children is the most important thing. We just have to take it day by day, slowly, this is new for all of us and we are all a little scare. We should relax and let all those 'What ifs" go away" she said making me smile widely and I gave her a sweet, chaste kiss on her soft, yet strong lips.

"Why are you so perfect?" I said and she just smiled and kissed my cheek.

We spent the rest of the drive in complete silence, just enjoying each other's company. We arrived home at almost bedtime. We used not to care when we caught cases that need it us to stay late at the station but with the kids things changed, we hate to stay passed bedtime, we wante to be with the kids and kiss their foreheads goodnight. When I realized this I took it the same way, things will change, yes, a lot, but maybe the change wasn't that drastic, it was just different.

We entered in the house and at the sound of the door opening Lily came running towards us. "Hello, beauty" Maura smiled, picking her off the floor she kissed her cheek and the girl hugged her.

"Hey, there's no hugged for mama?" I said pretending to be offended. The girl giggle on Maura's arms and held her arms out for me to pick her on my arms

"How's my cutie pie?" I said kissing her cheek multiple times.

"Hello, girls" my mom greet us

"Hey! Ma" I greeted her as well and so did Maura. She came close and kissed our cheeks.

Maura looked at the surrounding "Where's Lucas?" She asked

"He's in his room, he finished his homework early and I let him play a few minutes of videogames" she said.

"Ok, I'll go for him" Maura said, walking up the stair to find him and bring him down to put everybody on board about tomorrow's events.


Maura's POV

I knocked on Lucas' door "Hey, baby" I said.

He turned and on his face grew a beautiful smile, he paused his game and stood up, walking towards me and giving me hug "Hi, mommy… You're late" he said, his voice was a mix of sadness and relief.

"Oh! Mama and I are really sorry, work sometimes is absorptive" I explained grabbing his little hands with mine. "Let's go downstairs, Mama and I want to tell you something important" I finished.

"Ok" he nodded and went to his videogame and turned it off "Ready" he said and grabbed my hand. He was apprehensive and insecure, very unlike him, He's being a nonchalant, breeze little child all his life, since we asked them about foster a new kid or a teen in our case, he's being more calm and quiet. Both Jane and I knew he was scared about it, and I thought that we'll need to address this sooner rather than later.

We both made it down stairs and went to the living room; he sad besides his sister and Angela followed him and sat next to them.

Jane looked at me and began to talk "So, we…Hmm… receive a call from Trish, the social worker" she paused and silence filled the room for a few moments "And she said that…that Megan is coming to live with us" Jane finally said with a beaming smile on her face, just like the one that grew on my face.

Angela immediately stood from the couch and hugged us both "Congratulation, girl! She clasped her hand together in excitement "Oh! We have to celebrate this!" she squealed happily starting to think in an elaborated way to spoil the girl right away.

"Ok, Ma, hold your horses" Jane stopped her mother "Megan is quite a reserve and quiet person, she might be shy and feel a little overwhelmed at first with this whole thing" she calmly said.

"We thought that too, that this is a matter for celebration but in order to not scared her we just planned on doing a normal family dinner, to get her used to the family's dynamics" I said, the kids remained silent.

"Yes, just the five of us, Frankie and maybe Maura's parents if they are available" Jane added. I nodded but felt some sadness with the statement, knowing that my parent won't probably come or will cancel at last minute. I love them, but they appreciate their jobs more than family sometimes. I always felt bad when taking us for granted, they kids barely knew them and even I sometimes felt foreign to them.

"Exactly, we just want her to feel welcome and at ease with us, make her feel at home" I reaffirm "This girl had passed through a lot lately and our duty here is to make her feel comfortable" Jane finished her lips drawing a sweet, soft, little smile.

Angela's phone went off and she left the room to pick it up. We sat with the kids asking them about their days. Angela hung up after a few minutes and saying her goodbyes she went to her house. Jane looked at me and I looked back at her, we knew that this was the moment to address the kid's fears and questions.

I poached to the couch and kneeled in front of them, followed closely by Jane. I took both kids hands in mine "Kids, we know…" I paused and looked at Jane for a second; looking for reassurance "We know that this is difficult and you are overwhelmed. You may be feeling a whole lot of emotions that you may not understand just yet but if anything of this bothers you, please, but honestly, please tell me or mama or even grandma" I said, inviting them to speak.

Lucas was looking at the floor, his head hanging low and Lily was just looking intently at us. "Will she play with us?" Lily asked in her usual, innocent and angelic voice; Jane and I let out a soft laugh "I'm sure she will if you ask her nicely" Jane said smiling at her and so did I.

"What's up with you, honey?" I ruffled his dark hair and asked Lucas, who was quiet and trying to hide under his silence.

She shrugged but didn't say a word. Jane looked concerned at him and his free hand "Baby,

What's wrong? Is there anything bothering you… about fostering Megan? She sweetly questioned him. When it comes to our children, the toughness and firmness of my wife's melts into love and pure adoration for them.

He sighed "Will…Will you…" he tried to say but failed finding the right words to voice his feelings.

"Come on, little man, you can tell us anything you want and need" Jane encouraged him

He looked at me "Will the things change" He asked worry-eyed.

"What do you mean baby?" Jane asked him. She smiled and lift his chin with her fingers "Baby, Megan coming to live with us doesn't mean that things will change between us, Mommy and I we'll love you endlessly both no matter what" she said, understanding where he was going and looking lovingly at Lily and Lucas back forth "Yes, there will be another person living here, yes maybe something's will change but on the go we, all together, including Megan, will figure those changes out, as a family, ok? Instead, our feeling will never change. Understood, little man?" she waited for him to nodded "Understood, baby girl?" Lily nodded sleepily.

"Lucas, if there's anything else bothering you, don't hesitate to tell us, ok?" I asked him. He just nodded and hugged me. "Yes, mommy" he said and stood from the couch and walk to were Jane was and did the same

After Lucas let go of Jane she stood from the couch "Ok, I'll take this sleepyhead to bed, you, little man, better brush your teeth and head to bed, Mommy and I will be there soon" she said, pecking his head.

Lucas did as instructed and Jane and I went upstairs and tucked Lily into bed. After that we both went to Lucas bedroom and he was already inside the covers. I entered first and sat on one of the edges of the bed "You don't have to worry about anything, my boy" I said, and kissed his forehead "Goodnight, baby". Jane did the same and we both left the room.

We completed our bedtime routine and went to bed after an exhausted and emotional day, preparing ourselves for another emotionally-filled day.

"You're nervous about tomorrow?" Jane said, snapping me out of my thoughts. I sighed and nodded "I'm, and I'm imagining that so do you? I looked at her.

"Yes, I'm nervous, terrified… But why don't we leave the worries for tomorrow? It's going to be an intense day and we need the rest" she said and I agreed completely with her.

I leaned on her and kissed her passionately "Your right. Good night my love" I said snuggling further into her. She placed her arms around my waist "Good night, baby. I love you" she said turning the nightstand lamp off.