Tommy Shelby was ok with dying. His heart was broken when his love Greta died a few months before he was shipped off to France. Now he is ready to see her again as he bleeds out in the mud. He felt like he was floating. Tommy thought he could hear and see Greta. Finally the hell was over he was going to be with her .
"Major Sergeant can you hear me? Major can you hear me?"
He was moaning as they rushed him into surgery so that was a good sign Olivia thought. Olivia needed to stop the bleeding so as she applied presser on the wound Tommy moaned even louder.
" Sir can you hear me? You are at the field hospital. " Olivia saw his dog tags with his name Shelby , Thomas.
Tommy felt pain in his side and heard a voice . Dear God can it just be over now. He open his eyes and saw her. First thing he saw was her beautiful brown eyes. They were different from the last time he saw them. These eyes are like chocolate and Greta's eyes had flecks of gold in them and then he heard his name.
"Thomas Shelby can you hear me. You are in the field hospital. You have been severely injured and you must have surgery."
He felt so much pain and his rib cage felt like it was on fire. He opened his eyes again and saw the lights flicker and people around him. He heard again saying his name and then saw her. It wasn't Greta and he wasn't dead.
When her patient open his eyes they were the bluest she has ever seen. Eyes that you get lost in and could see into your soul . He was alert for the most part and was moaning a woman's name. Probably his girl back home. Thomas had that look in his eyes. Olivia has seen it hundreds of times. He wanted to die. He just wanted it to be over with. Her heart always broke when a solider h as d nothing left to fight for. She understood. It was hard for her to wake up in the morning . It was the same thing over and over. Never ending suffering . When she would fix up a man another one came in. She has been doing this for three years and doesn't want to continue but she has no choice.
"Thomas my name is Olivia and am a nurse. We need to stop the bleeding and get the bullet out. We are going to put you under now." They had to hurry. Bombs were going off and constant gunfire since they where near the front line. The lights flickered and could feel the ground shake.
Tommy looked at Olivia and felt comfort in her. He weakly grabbed for her.
"Please I want Greta. I need to be with her."
Olivia brushed away the few years starting to run down his cheek. "I promise you Tommy I will get you back to her." Olivia made these promises and most of the time the men never made it off the table. She would say anything she could to give the soldiers some type of comfort in their last hours. Olivia took the syringe and put it into Tommy vein.
Tommy moan as he felt a prick in his arm. He started to feel light headed. Those beautiful brown eyes was the last thing he saw before he was out cold.
Tommy jolted awake. Another dream of war but thankfully she was in it. As Tommy slowly gets out of bed and goes to the bathroom he is brought back to that hospital. He never thought he could call in love after Greta especially in the middle of a war but he did. Olivia Dubios was a true beauty . He remembers the day he first heard her speak. It was a few days after he woke up and the accent went straight to his heart. There was warmth and kindness in her voice. She took care of him for three months. She helped him through nightmares and for the first time since the war started Tommy could feel his heart beat again. He told her things he would never tell anyone else. Not even his brothers. She was the first person to make the shovels stop at night. It all came to an end when she had to be reassigned to a military hospital in Paris and he was sent back to the trenches. He searched for months after he got home but it's like she just disappeared. Dear God he missed her even now.
"Tommy dear are you alright?"
He was startled out of his memories when Grace came into the bathroom.
"Yeah I'm alright just a bad dream is all."
Grace hugged him and could feel how tense he was. It has gotten worse since they got engaged and bought the arrow house. Grace thinks it's just nerves of the new chapter they are starting in their life. It was starting to get hard on her . Almost every night she got up with tommy and she was really tired of her sleep getting interrupted. But this is what she signed up for apparently. What really ticked her off was when Tommy talked in his sleep. He kept saying a woman's name. Olivia. She asked him about it a once when he first started talking in his sleep but he just got angry and blew it off. Grace hated that another woman could be on his mind but dealt with it. As far as she could tell this Olivia woman wasn't apart of his life now so brushed it off.The only thing Grace needed to worry about was planning the wedding and getting pregnant. She needed a permanent tie to tommy. Nothing better than a baby.
Tommy pulled away and kissed Grace . He felt lucky to have even though he still worried about her intentions. He just wanted to move on from their past. All Tommy wanted was a normal family. Which is pretty hard thing to accomplish considering he is head of the peaky blinders but he is taking his business legitimate. Now he has Grace and can finally be happy at least he hopes.
Grace took Tommy hand and guided him back to bed.
"How bad was it?" Grace asked as they got back under the covers.
He sighed and pinched the bridge of his nose.
"Not too bad this time. I didn't hear the shovels."
She didn't want to bring it up but he said her name again so she just blurt out.
"You said her name again. Please Tommy just tell me who she is. I know it would bother you if I kept dreaming and saying a man's name in my sleep." Grace braced herself while Tommy froze. He didn't want to tell her who Olivia was . He understands what Grace is saying but he simply didn't want to tell her . It was so hard to talk about the war. Tommy didn't want that to taint his peace with grace. But maybe telling her a small peace wouldn't hurt.
"I knew her during the war. She was my friend. Listen Grace you don't have to worry ok. I haven't seen her in a long time and I don't even know where she would be now. It's just me and you . Ok I love you. "
Grace didn't know how to respond. After all this time he finally told her. It wasn't much but at least he gave her a crumb. Grace rolled over and sat up a little. She placed her hand on the side of his face and he leaned into her hand.
" I love you Tommy and I'm here. All I want is for you to let me in. Thank you for telling me. " Grace knew he was holding back the truth but he was finally opening up and she would take what she could. At a later point she will ask him for the full story. Tommy felt some relief of telling a small part of the truth . The only people who knew the full truth and heartbreak is Ada and polly. He got incredibly drug one night shortly after coming home and got angry. He tore up his room. Punching the walls, punching a mirror and even three his desk chair towards the window. Once he calmed down they cleaned him up, he brown down. Tommy told them everything about olivia. How much he loves her and wanted to bring her back to small heath.
Polly and Ada felt so bad for him. They could tell how much this mystery woman meant to him. Polly would do anything to take away her nephew's heartbreak but she couldn't. All she could do was be strong for him and help guide down the right path. A few days after that night Tommy made them promise never to speak of the night again. The only thing Polly told him was to move on. Even though it was hard he had to. She wanted him to find a good woman and have children. She never expected he would move on with Grace .
Tommy and Grace held each other until he could hear her breathing even out and could tell she had fallen asleep. Tommy just stared at the ceiling and Olivia was staring back at him. He didn't understand why now of all times she had to haunt him. Tommy took Polly advice and moved on. He was happy now. Why was she still with him. Maybe it was the fact he never found out what happened to Olivia . It was a loose end he needed to clean up before he got married. He decided right then he was going to find out if she is at least alive or not. Then he can put her to rest and marry his love. But as Tommy turned to look at Grace he can admit that he was slightly disappointed that the dark haired beauty wasn't next him.
It's time to move on and Tommy was determined to move forward. Little did Tommy know that his past got off a train and has been living in London for the past month and she brought a surprise with her.
