Chapter 4-her
Beau reflects on his feelings of post-marriage with Edythe
We were back to Forks by the next morning, Archie had errands to run between our ride back to Chicago. But the extra time gave me time to think. To perfect the words and official engagement. I wondered how long she could go without seeing it in Archie's thoughts.
Excitement rang through my body as I placed the ring onto her delicate finger.
Another point that has been in the infinite space of my mind was the after part of marriage. Edythe was a lady with a strong regard for marriage. It held value to her in more ways than most these days. The idea of being her first crossed my mind looking back into the blurry human memories. I don't remember the exact words, only feeling embarrassed for asking but at the same time the thought sent shocks of electricity throughout my body. I remember worrying that she didn't find me attractive in that way.
She quickly disarrayed that train of thought. I was too fragile. But I am not fragile anymore. We are finally equals. My mind frequently thought of her skin, her pale arms, her slim shoulders, the fragile-looking twigs of her collar bones, the vulnerable hollows above them, the swanlike column of her neck, the gentle swell of her breasts and the ribs beneath. The thought took my breath away.
I recalled the first night of my second life with perfect clarity. It was just Edythe and I, the rest of our family was perfecting our so-called story. Though the reason we were alone was difficult to think about, it was very easy to be distracted. We walked up slowly to her room hand-in-hand. When we entered the room the atmosphere significantly shifted. Electric chills rolled down my body stemming from my hand in hers. I looked down into her eyes.
I had to remind myself to be careful. This new body was indeed not fragile and soft as it once was. I was scared for the first time of Edythe's slight and fragile body compared to mine. Every action had to be calculated, it was my turn to be careful with her. The thought of hurting her made me cringe in my mind. I could see how easy it would be to lose myself with her in an atmosphere like this.
I went against every instant my body pulled me to, to not place my hand around her velvet skin and crush her lips to mine. I clenched my teeth and slowly and deliberately sat myself onto the large couch. Though the room door being closed meant nothing. The house was empty.
The room filled with her crisp, sweet, spicy, warm, sensual & inviting scent. Like a blooming peony scent, it blends juicy green pear top notes with strawberry, blackcurrant and pink peppercorn. Enhanced with a honeysuckle heart, with lily of the valley and rose, it's softened by an addictive musk and cedarwood base. So perfectly pleasant.
"Beau" she murmured as she clutched to my side on the couch
"This is all very… new" I lifted my hand up the ceiling light and watched it strangely reflect the light. She wove her hand up to him struggling to reach it until I slowly placed my hand in hers. I stared into her deep gold eyes filled with emotions I have only caught a glimpse of in my human life. The edges of her rosy lips turned up. Her face was the one thing I thought I knew by heart. As if she had freckles I would be able to place each one. How truly blind I was. This was seeing her for the first time all over again.
"So beautiful" my voice sang out. I placed my fingertips lightly across her face and let the velvety soft skin trace my hand down her neck across her collar bones and brush her forearm. I felt as if a tense electric current was buzzing through my body pulling me closer to her. Though my thoughts were silent to her, she wasn't oblivious to my thoughts. The blurry memory of the one time we had discussed sex while lying in my human bed, just the embarrassment alone made me want to cringe. Only one second had passed whilst the memory replayed.
Edythe reached over to the pale blue button up someone had placed on me during my grueling transformation. Which was now covered in dried animal blood.
"Oh I-" I mumbled as she swiftly undid the buttons. I was prepared for my face and neck to flush and my stone heart to start pounding. She gazed up into my eyes as she undid the last button.
"I thought you would want a change in clothes" Next to her lap was another deep blue t-shirt. One that would have matched my eyes.
"Oh right" I stood and slid the sleeves off my arms. As I turned to face the glass wall. I again gasped in shock. I had never seen a more fighting chiseled body in my life. My body froze and I rotated my hand and watched all the muscles in my upper body flex fiercely. What I thought by previous body was strong enough to fight off those, it was absolutely nothing compared to the man in the glass. The line of sculpted muscles down my abdomen to the literal rock hard bicep.
I could not accept it was actually me until Edythe peered around the corner of my side. My body softened in an instant. But a quick thought flew across my mind: get Edythe away from this scary man.
