***Ok folks, so I started work again after being off a month due to Covid-19, so im a lil busy during week. But will try and update as much as possible. Ill try not to leave you hanging again.

Ch 20

Apov

Im cold and its dark. I feel like I keep reliving a nightmare and cant get out of it. I can hear my daddy crying, telling me to wake up,ive tried yelling; telling him im right here but its useless. Im just so tired and alone. Theres a Red light to my left and to my right a white light but im scared I don't know which way to go, what if jack is waiting for me either way. I can't risk it im just gonna stay right here and huddle myself, someone is bound to help me right.

I can hear them talking again the voices but the only one I recognize is my daddy's he sound so heartbroken, then I hear them talking about him, who is him?, so I concentrated harder. I feel like a eavesdropper.

" where is he?...Grace?"

"Hmmm did you say something Ray."

"Christian? Where is he."

Christian is here, I feel a little bit of hope but its soon lost when they spoke some more.

" Hes here ray, just give him time, he just now remember Ana, its like he blocked her out of his memory and instead of dealing with her being gone then, hes angry now, because she left him."

"Yea ray, I had to intervene cause during his rage he hurt grace not realizing she was in his room, it was a bad evening."

"Ohhh"

"ill go check on him for you guys"

Oh my god hes mad at me, I never wanted him mad at me, I would of never left him if I had a choice, he was my bestfriend. Great now ive started crying again, an when I cry everything around me starts to flicker and it makes me more scared and its harder to stop.

I realised they all stopped mid sentence, like if someone invaded their space. And that's when I feel it, theirs some warmth to my pain. The red lights flicker even crazier and it scares me to the point I start running to the white light, and I screamed for christian but hes not here. I feel like ive been running for ages and when I finally stopped their was no red light just white. I couldn't tell which way I came, I was starting to panic, so I curled in a ball and sleep over took me.

Rpov

I feel like I live here at the hospital. Oh ana if you can hear me please wake up, were all waiting on you babygirl. They still haven't found that boy who did this to her and its starting to piss me off. I mean how hard is it to find a 18 year old. Ugh I tried looking into that club but everything is sealed for safety reasons, so who ever club it was is definitely covering their ass.

Cpov

Things have been a little crazy over here at the Grays, ever since that incident with ana I have not returned to the hospital, and between that, the Lincolns have split up. They said it was a mutual agreement of no feelings but I know the real reason. is still around from time to time but has totally vanished. Even mom hasn't heard from her, but oh well one less thing I have to deal with.

its been four long months and they keep on insisting I go visit ama but I cant between school starting a month ago and well lets say my dreams havent gotten any better. If its not the dreams that involve my mother then they involve Ana and me tying her up while she begs me to fuck her harder. So seeing Ana is not on my list it, makes feel guilty dreaming of her while she like that. Ive started dating well I guess more like seeing cause I see a different girl every other night. Who would of thought that I Christian Grey was a man whore. I mean I havent exactly had sex yet, im still getting the hang of all these girls wanting to touch me. So ive only gotten a few hand jobs and blow jobs, but it should be soon cause this one girl name Leila, she lets me do what I want and how I want. Just last night we ended up at the ball park and deep under the bleachers she asked with her blue eyes twinkling with mischief, what's the most sexual thing ive wanted to do to her. And well my honest ass told her I wanted to tie her hands so she couldn't touch me and flip her over and fuck her from the back until she couldn't walk. She must of liked my answer cause next thing I know, she grabbing my hands and pinning them above us and were kissing. My dick was super hard and she was moaning into our kiss and trying to grinding herself on me, so I took advantage and took control. Using one hand to pin her hands away from touching me and the other to scoop her ass to where she was in my arms against the wall. It was hott, so hott my dick was precumming I could feel it running down. So I took advantage and laid her on the bench so im now hovering over her grinding onto her sex. I look at her and she obviously enjoying herself. She moaning for me to take her with my dick but I wasn't ready so instead I use my finger and make her cum that way. She wasn't happy that I did that but she was happy to get off. So to return the favor she got on her knees. It was a very relieving day. Elliot said I better be careful, that he didn't want to be a uncle. He had plenty of jokes to say. Theirs a house party tonight and Leila said we should go and that it will be fun. She said that with a wink. So im going all prepared tonight shall be the night.