Apov

shit shit shit why did i come over here? Im staring at Jack, hes got me pend to the tree with his hand over my mouth.

"Ana calm down, im not gonna hurt you, i just wanna talk"

i keep struggling since my mind is running a mile a minute, how did he know where i was at, what does he want?

"damn it Ana i said calm down"

Thats when he kissed me, it felt so normal that my body started to relax. i guess thats what happens when you live with someone for a whole year and date for half it. He pulls back when he sees im calm.

" what the hell jack? how you find me? and what the hell do you want? You almost killed?"

"I know Ana im so sorry, i would never intentionally hurt you, being a dom im suppose to be in control and i lost that control and took it out on you, I should of made it clear what was gonna happen and work you into slowly."

he started pacing while he telling me everything that i grabbed him by the hand before someone could see him and took him to the bushes that had more cover

w"ive see the way you respond to certain things we tried and so i just figured but i took it too far too soon. can you figure me Ana I love you please"

Oh god did he just say he loved me?

" Jack I... you almost killed me, i was in a coma for weeks, how am i suppose to just forgive that?"

" because Ana i was there when you had nobody else, i fucked up yes. But thats life give me another chance"

I said his name while taking a deep breath and thats when i remember the woman who having dinner with my family

" then tell me the truth Jack, what does Elena have to do with all this. I remember her voice from that room, is she how you found me?"

I see him flinching

" truthfully... She was my mistress when i was 16. i dont remember how we really met. But she was there when i was at my lowest and she helped me take control of my life. And well yes she brought me here but that was teach me my lesson for losing control like i did"

" jack what do you mean what does she do to you?"

I know i know the answer but i gotta ask, i need to see him being honest with me.

" Come on ana dont make me say it, when you already know the answer. your forgetting we lived together for a year"

" i just want to see if your being honest with me jack"

" im being honest Ana, i love you, im into the bdsm lifestyle, and Elena is the one introduced me, what more do you want"

" You said you was 16 when you met her, that makes her a pediphile jack"he cut me off before i could finish

"Ana dont talk about her like that! Its not like that, without her i would be doing drugs on the street!"

"Ana you out here?"

aw shit is that my dad?

" Ana meet me tomorrow at the library and we can finish this conversation, now go before your father freaks out and think about what I said"

and after that he took off, so i acted like i was walking around the block.

" oo hi Ray, did you need something?"

" ooh now im Ray huh? but no just checking on you, you have been out here a while. were gonna get ready to leave soon"

" ok, ill be on the porch waiting then"

Ray walked back inside, he doesnt get it, i dont know these people anymore, shit i dont even know who i am anymore. i just know i got alot to think about. I sneak inside real quick, i need something to calm my mind, it prolly wont help but atleast i will feel good. I found the liquor cabinet and poured me a quick glass. I had about two sips, the brown liquid burned my throat going down but i could already feel myself relaxing but thats when he walked in; Christian.

" what do you think your doing Ana?"

I tilted my head, i thought we had this conversation about minding our own business but i guess not.

" well christian for someone older than me, you think you would know when someone having a drink dont you think"

"ahh there you go again with that smart ass mouth of yours"

I can feel the air become thin around us while he stares at me. I know there something between us always has been.

" yes, and what are you going to do about it? tell oh daddy Ray"

I raise my eyebrow taunting him. I mean if he snitches the worst that can happen is i get grounded, but i start school tomorrow so it wouldnt be too bad. He looks like he arguing with hisself. whatever it is something wins, His eyes get dark, and he looks closed off. He starts walking up to me and thats when he grabs my glass and finishes it; before i could say anything about my drink, he steps closer which pushes me up against the cabinet, his hand his pressed against the glass. Were nose to nose any closer we might as well be kissing. I can smell my drink on him and i can imagine when were older him smelling like that. Its turning me on. Thats when he whispered while breathing heavy, " i dont know what your doing to me Anastasia, and i cant seem to control these urges that you bring out in me, and believe me these urges are more than you can handle"

" how do you know what i can handle?"

he chuckles and oh my its the cutest thing i ever seen

" something told me you would say that"

he takes my hands and pins them behing my back while using his weight on me to keep them behind me. obviously if i struggled enough i could get loose. then he took one hand and wrapped it in my hair pullin it to make me look straight at him. his eyes swirling with lust, for a 15 almost 16 year old boy he sure knows how to build up the suspense. my breathing has picked up and i can feel my heart beat in my pussy. its wet and dying to be touched. His other hand slid up my waist, stroked my breast and made its way to my throat. and something must of snapped cause next thing i know his lips are on mine, the hand that was around my throat is caressing my face and i can feel so much passion but before it could go anywhere there was a crash of something breaking which caused us to jerk back and take about five steps away. we turned toward the door and there was elliot, shocked but smirking at us.

"bro its not what it seems like"

" right you just happened to trip and shove your tongue down Ana throat?"

oh god this embarrassing.

" look whatever it is, just be glad im not Ray, he's looking for you, its time for you to go."

I took off like a bat out of hell, no bye no nothing. I dont know what happened. Its like there a pull that keeps pulling us together. What do i do, im too damaged for Christian and then there Jack, he was there for me when i ended up on the streets, i know he says he loves me but i know i dont feel the same. I guess ill sleep on it, i have until i get out of school and have to meet him to figure out what i want to do. First day at a new high school is more concerning. So i brush my teeth and get in bed, ill deal with it tomorrow.

Cpov

Ana took off out the door and that was my que to run upstairs, as soon as i made it to my room and went to shut the door Elliot beat me to it.

" we need to talk, now"

shit shit shit, i didnt want to have to deal with him at the moment, im still reeling from that kiss.

" man what do you wanna know"

" geez Christian where do i start? I do pay attention to the shit that goes on. Like lets see why did Elena act the way she did? or what about you and Ana?

" ok ok keep your voice down, Elena came on to me but i turned her down. It was back when i remembered Ana and then when we went to the hospital she cornered me in the bathroom. She was real close to sucking my dick when i snapped out of it and told her to take my hands off me. it took me a moment cause i just had sex for the first time and my hormones was all over the place but i realised i can have any girl my age, so i snapped. But Mr.lincoln walked in. i believe thats the reason their divorced."

" damn bro what the hell. and Ana?"

" Ana is complicated"

" what do you mean complicated, and wait you said you had sex for the first time, was it Ana, how..."

i had to cut him off right there

" no bro I lost it before Ana woke up, to a girl at school and let tell you she is crazy. She blackmailed me date her so im kind of stuck with her for the moment"

now he is laughing at me, i dont see what so funny so i cross my arms and raise my eyebrow

" oo christian my poor little brother, you do realise Ana starts school tomorrow at our highschool, im so glad this is my last year cause your in for a shit load of drama"

he walks away with those words and now i realise how totally screwed I am. If leila realises that Ana is the Ana I called her while fucking her, she might attack ana. And if Ana see leila all over me after tonight. FUCK!