Hello everybody! Lately, I've been binging watching teenage mutant turtles (2012), and I noticed how awful Mikey's brothers treat him and I thought this poem would be his inner thoughts. Anyhow, please enjoy and R&R!

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TMNT

I've been told to stay strong

To keep living

Breathing

But there are times where I break down and cry

And sob

Sometimes I even throw out insults

That's when they tell me to stay strong

But I cant

I'm a turtle being

I have feelings

Emotions

I am allowed to break down if I want to

Because sometimes life isn't all its cracked up to be

Life throws rocks

Stones

Pebbles

Straight at my face

And it hurts

Burns

Tears me apart

It rips down my insides

Sure life can be positive

But its not always cupcakes and rainbows

I used to believe that

But if it was my father dying

Or my artificial happiness

Or even my family being torn apart

I can't handle it all

I can't stay strong

I wear a fake smile

But even my fake smile and aura are leaving me

Because I'm failing

I'm failing to become what my family wants me to be

Being happy

A sunshine

Are far from my goals

I breathe

Eat

Interact with my family

But none of it works

Nothing can truly make me happy

Except my brother's love

But even that is currently limited

I don't know what to say

I'm not just depressed

But filled with guilt

Because no matter how hard I mentally try

I'm not moving an inch from where I was yesterday

I hate my fake personality

I hate being angry

Sad

Ignorant

I want to be happy

But what does happy even mean

A smile doesn't make a person happy

It's what causes that smile

It's the thing

Or rather the person that makes a difference

I'm sick of fake happiness

It's not fulfilling or gratifying

But yet I am always drawn to using it

My entire being relies on using such a destructive mechanism

It is destroying me

I want to be saved

I need to be saved

But how can I be saved from myself

How can I stay strong even when my strength doesn't exist

Because I am weak mentally

And physically

But that doesn't mean I'll stop trying

I will cry

And sob

I'm allowed to not stay resilient all the time

But I won't give up

TMNT

Sooo…. how was it? I know that some parts may seem out of character but these are his inner thoughts so it made sense that Mikey would be feeling some rage. It's funny because a theory on the episode where the turtles go into Mikey's mind, the rage Mikey is the biggest….so in theory that must mean that there is a lot of pent-up anger. That's kind of what I used to make this. But hey, I might be wrong.

Anyhow, thank you so much for reading and please R&R!