A/N: Thanks for the comments.
Guest - Alex will start thinking that too.
"Kids, why don't you lay the table?" Eliza suggested that evening.
"I'll do it." The older Kara said before a blur of motion that ended with a laid table.
"That is awesome." MJ said.
Seeing the look Alex was giving her Kara shrugged and said. "Sorry. It's kind of fun having powers again."
"You lost your powers?" MJ asked.
"Not exactly. I get my powers from the energy provided by the yellow sun. No yellow sun no powers." Kara explained.
"So you chose the wrong planet to live on?" MJ pressed.
"Something like that." Kara said.
"So you've not had powers for eighteen years?" Alex asked frowning.
"No." Her sister said.
"That must have been hard." Eliza said.
"It was at first, but I got used to it. I mean on Krypton I didn't have powers so it's not like it was all new." Kara shrugged.
"So what was it like, the other planet I mean?" The younger Kara asked.
"Um, well if you are interested in what technologically advanced planets are like, Krypton is probably the best example I could talk about." Kara said skilfully avoiding talking about where she had been. "But at the end of the day regardless of technology all planets are pretty similar."
"Did mom make you say that to put me off becoming a planetary explorer?" MJ asked.
"Uh, no." Kara said confused. "Wait is that a real job on Earth?"
"No." Alex said.
"Not yet." MJ clarified as Alex poured drinks for everyone.
Noticing Alex had only poured wine for her and Eliza while Alex's glass just had juice, Kara looked at her sister confused.
Shaking her head, indicating she didn't want to discuss it, Kara took the hint and asked.
"Is that chocolate pecan pie?"
"Of course." Eliza smiled.
"Best pie in the galaxy." Kara grinned.
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"So what happened to you?" Alex asked when it was just her and her sister sitting on a couch late that evening.
"Right now that isn't important." Kara said. "I think you need to talk a lot more than I do."
"What do you mean?"
"Kelly." Kara said simply. "Kara said you blamed yourself."
"Kara talked about what happened?" Alex asked confused.
"Just that there was an accident and you still blame yourself."
"Kind of hard not to." Alex said after a pause. "I was meant to go to Kara's soccer game. Only something came up at work and I ducked out. Kel was ticked and didn't want Kara to not have support so switched her schedule to go and watch. I planned to duck out early and at least catch the end, but there was a lockdo- That doesn't matter. What matters is I got a phone call to say there had been a car accident. By the time I got to the hospital Kelly was gone and Kara was in surgery."
"Kara was in the crash?" The older Kara asked.
"Yes. Her leg was mangled. For a while it was touch and go. Fortunately Lena's nanotech has come on a long way since you were last on Earth and they could save her and her leg. But for four days we didn't know if she'd make it. And even after she did wake up, it was a long recovery. And it didn't help that she started to blame herself."
"So you took on the guilt as your own?" Kara asked.
"The guilt always should have been with me. If I hadn't prioritised work it wouldn't have happened."
"Or you would have died instead." The older Kara argued.
"It's not just that." Alex said. "Since you left smart cars really took off. You can only buy new cars if they are self drive ones. Kelly's car was one of the self drive ones."
"Did it malfunction?"
"Apparently." Alex said.
"But you don't believe it?"
"I have pissed off a lot of people. What if it was hit?"
"Did you find any evidence of that?" Kara asked.
"No. But that doesn't mean it didn't happen. Besides I was so focused on Kara I didn't investigate properly."
"It could have just been an accident." Kara said.
"I wish that were the case, but I can't believe that." Alex said. Pausing for a moment before continuing. "I was so lost after Kelly died. I tried to be strong, I mean I had to be strong for the kids and mom has been a rock. But I feel like such a failure." She said as tears started to fall.
"You are not a failure." Kara said wrapping her arms wound her sister and holding her tightly. "Your kids are great."
"It was my fault." Alex sobbed. "If I hadn't have been working she wouldn't have been in that car. Kara wouldn't have been in that car and Kara wouldn't hate me."
"She doesn't hate you. She's worried about you." Kara assured her.
"You've known her for like two minutes." Alex reminded her.
"And I can see so much of you in her. Bad news is it took you like twenty years to grow out of your rebellious teenage phase."
"You are such a brat." Alex said as she hugged Kara tighter. "I have missed you so much."
"Me too." Kara replied. "You're right I haven't known Kara long, but it is obvious that she loves you." She said said holding Alex who continued to cry.
When Alex had finally stopped crying Kara asked.
"So what has happened round here? I mean neither of the kids seemed to bat an eyelid over the fact I was an alien."
"Well there are a few of them on Earth now and plenty of metas." Alex said. "Although how they figured out you were Supergirl I don't know."
"That was Kara. Apparently it was really obvious from photos and timings." Kara explained.
"Really?" Alex asked.
"Well Karas are normally pretty intelligent." Kara smiled.
"Why didn't she say anything?" Alex asked.
"Perhaps because you don't tell her things?" Kara suggested. Seeing Alex's expression she said. "Her words not mine."
"I'm trying to protect them."
"I know."
"I sense a but." Alex said.
"You hated not being told things. It's probably the same for them." Kara said. But not wanting to tread on toes she quickly changed subjects and asked. "Kara was a great name for her though. How did you end up having kids?"
"After you died, or we thought you died, Kelly and I decided it was time we started to live our lives. Actually that's not true, I went completely off the rails and grew far too dependent on alcohol. But Kelly helped me through it, and then we decided to start I family. So I gave up alcohol and I gave up work, we chose a donor and nine months later Kara was born. We always planned on having two, but after Kara, Kel felt left out or like maybe Kara didn't feel connected to her. It turns out shrinks are both paranoid and good at over self diagnosing." Alex said a faint smile crossing her lips and she recalled the memory. "So for MJ she carried. Which is probably why MJ is more methodical."
"And Kara is more intuitive." Kara jumped in.
"She is far too much like me. I think mom finds it really funny."
"I bet. So why MJ?"
"The name?" Alex asked. As Kara nodded she explained. "Marcus after Kelly's dad and Jeremiah after dad. Originally we just called him Marcus, but Kara couldn't say it properly, but she could MJ and it kind of stuck."
"How old are they?" Kara asked.
"MJ is fourteen and Kara is sixteen going on thirty."
"I noticed that." Kara said. "Well like I said they seem like good kids."
"They are. I don't know what I'd do without them." Alex said before the two fell silent for a moment until Kara asked, her tone hopeful.
"Have you heard anything from J'onn?"
"J'onn? No. Not recently. He was hit hard by your apparent death. After Kara was born he started to come and see us more. But then Lex confessed. As soon as Lex confessed what he had done J'onn took off to find you. I started working at the DEO again, hoping to find some lead. Every so often we receive a radio burst, but the last one was a couple of years ago." Alex said before asking. "Where exactly have you been?"
"Nowhere exciting." Kara said. "Like I said, that can wait. I'm worried about you."
"I'm fine."
"No you're not. And whatever is eating away at you is more than what happened to Kelly." Kara said. "I mean being pulled all the way back to National City when you are on vacation. What's going on?"
"After Kelly died I planned on resigning from the DEO." Alex said. "But something happened, I can't talk about it, but I knew I would be protecting the kids better by staying at the DEO and fighting what was happening. But even though I rarely go out into the field I can't avoid it completely. Like yesterday. Those days really make me question my decision. If it weren't for you I would be dead and they would be without both their parents."
"Alex, you said it yourself, by staying at the DEO you are protecting them. They'll understand,"
"I doubt it. Everyday I just seem to drive them further away, especially Kara. I'm sure they hate me."
"I don't hate you." Alex's eldest said from the doorway.
"What are you doing up?" Alex said wiping the tears from her face before turning and seeing both her children.
"We were worried about you." MJ said.
"I'll give you some space." Kara said standing just before she was replaced on the couch by the two teenagers.
TBC...