Chapter 22: The Question
Yuu doesn't really have experience with self-pleasure. Since she had never been interested in anyone before Sayaka, she never felt the need to do it. Of course, she knew where everything was and how it worked. Most of her class paid attention to the reproductive system in biology in middle school. But that class didn't teach them how things can be good when you touch them the right way by yourself. Which is alright since it is school. Things would get out of hand if a group of curious adolescent students started experimenting right then and there.
With Sayaka, it seems that things heat up naturally. Thinking back on all the times that she wanted to do more with her girlfriend brought forth both warm and frustrated feelings. The gradual realization of why she felt that way and the frustration of not getting her desires satisfied.
She slowly discovers that she has been feeling warm whenever the brunette kisses her. But in places that she didn't expect. They said you will feel butterflies in your stomach, and your chest will contract a bit. But she feels it more on her lower abdomen, or maybe lower. And it doesn't flutter. It disperses. Like someone placed a balloon full of warm water on a frozen lake and then poked it, and the warm water flowed into the surrounding area.
After their first night together, Yuu felt so overwhelmed with her feelings for Sayaka that she wanted to go on mountain tops and shout how much she loved her at the top of her lungs. Good thing her sister was nosy that day.
It was already late in the afternoon when she arrived at home. She wanted to stay with her new lover another night, but Sayaka, being the responsible one, doesn't want her to get into trouble with her parents. She made one mistake, though. She forgot to change into the dress that she wore the night before. Her sister caught it the moment she saw her in the hallway.
"Are you just getting home? Wait, you had a yellow dress last night, right?"
"Yeah, Sayaka-senpai, lend me some clothes to sleep in."
"Hmmmn, that senpai of yours really took care of you, huh?"
"She does." Yuu said weakly, trying to hide how expressive her cheeks had become. But her sister had eagle eyes when it came to her. She glanced around the hallway. Sunday afternoon is pretty slow. Her grandmother must be sleeping in the living room. Her mother is in the kitchen preparing dinner while her father keeps her company. Yuu signals for her sister to follow her to her room. They both sat on the bed. "Sayaka is not just a senpai to me."
"Oh" The name change was caught by the much taller sibling; she already knew what it was about; Sayaka as good as confirmed it, but she wanted Yuu to have that experience of getting a weight off of her chest.
"You know how I never had crushes, right? Even though you tease me too many times about my friends in middle school. But no one seems to cause a spark in me."
"Yeah" Rie kept her responses short. She doesn't want to make the confession harder than it already is. Her sister is trusting her with something precious. Something special. Something that defines her as a person trying to figure out the world, and her sibling chose her of all the people she could do this with for the first time. It made her feel loved, even though her sister never expresses it with words.
"But when I met Sayaka, my whole world was lit on fire." Yuu tried to look her sister in the eyes to show that she was serious. "I don't know if I am a lesbian. I don't particularly find girls attractive." Her eyes stared into nothing as, in her mind's eye, she saw Sayaka in that garden again. "It just so happened that the person I fall in love with is a girl."
"I understand."
"What do you think? Should I tell mom and dad?"
"I haven't heard any bad impressions from them about people who are different." She considers "But the important part here is to tell them when you are ready. And you are not doing anything wrong. You are just being you. You don't need to hide who you are. Not to me at least. Don't deny me the opportunity to experience the real you. I am happy to see you happy, Yuu. I love to see you smile. Don't put unnecessary burdens on yourself."
Yuu realized at that moment why lying isn't tolerated at Sayaka's home. Her family supports her and wants to see her at her happiest, and deception can't exist with true happiness. She still feels the need to hide from her parents. Still afraid to face their disappointment or judgment. But she is happy that her sister knows the real her. 'For now, that is enough.' Rei seems to read her mind and proceeds to give her a hug. She held on to that hug more than she realized. Rei kissed her on the cheek.
"You will be just fine. I will be here for you. I promise. Always."
"Thanks Rei-chan." Yuu ran her palm on her face to swiftly wipe the tears as she pulled away.
"Thanks for telling me. You made me feel special."
"Geez, go in the kitchen and bake me a cheesecake."
"It is too late for cheesecakes, silly. Next time?"
"Sure."
She kept the part about losing her virginity to her sister. It is something private. Though she knows her sister had been intimate with her boyfriend, Hiro, she has never shared details about it as well. When she was left alone in her room, she replayed the events of their first night in her mind. Since she had never touched herself, she was thankful that Sayaka had been gentle. 'Does she know I am that inexperienced?' The days following their first time together were very difficult, to say the least. Her sister then told her to relax that Tuesday night. She was a little irritable about small things in the house, and she told her that maybe she just needed to get herself some.
Not being able to kiss her girlfriend that day must have put her on edge. Taking her sister's advice, she imagined the things she wanted to do with her lover, and the number one spot went to making her come with her mouth. She was so eager to do the things she imagined that she tried them on herself first. Thinking that her fingers are her tongue, she imagined how she would want to move it to bring forth pleasure for her girlfriend. When she was finally able to test it, she got into trouble. Apparently, she rushed everything. In her defense, when she did it to herself, she was fast too.
Their third time together is a little relaxed, as Yuu wanted to show the senpai that she cares deeply about her. Sayaka let her do whatever she wanted. But after doing all the things she learned from the two times they had been together, she discovered that she was not really creative. Good thing her lover is a top, and a fledgling dominatrix at that.
It surprised her to discover that her senpai's first time was also on their first night. She had been delirious countless times that she thought her lover must have been an expert. But she did know that Sayaka is brilliant. It only made sense that, though she hadn't had personal experience, her mind had studied multiple ways to give her as much pleasure as possible. Sex had just been added to her numerous skill sets. 'She must have researched the hell out of this. Maybe she experimented on her own, like I did. Or maybe she is just experienced with self-pleasure.' Thus, the question emerges on their second Saturday night together.
They are making out on the couch, and as usual, she's straddling her lanky girlfriend. The slender hands felt warm as they brushed over her pajama top. Not being able to kiss for days, Sayaka is treating herself leisurely and slowly. Not taking their clothes off immediately, unlike on their first night. Yuu was wearing a different color this time, even her underwear. The brunette had prepared a pink lacy one that has side ties. But like the last time, Yuu didn't wear the pajama bottoms.
"Did you ever touch yourself while thinking about me?"
It was an innocent question, though it was about a lewd thing. Sayaka answered so naturally, like she had asked her about the weather.
"Of course. After our weekend together in Osaka, I couldn't get you out of my mind. So I indulge myself." Her hands continue to touch Yuu's body over the pajamas. "Mind you, my brain is better at imagining than most. And I am a bookworm. I had read about it too many times. It is easy to put you in scenarios that I like." After speaking, the green-eyed girl continued kissing her collar bone.
Yuu had thought that she would feel embarrassed about this information. But it seems that being fantasized about by her lover fills her with pride. "Wow, can you teach me?"
"Wait, you are not allowed to touch yourself without my permission."
"Huh?"
"Have you touched yourself?"
"I did for the first and only time, the day before you taught me a lesson."
"Ah, okay, I will forgive you for that. Next time, ask for permission."
"Why? You never ask for my permission." She grumbled.
The pajama collar was grabbed, and she was pushed to lie down on the couch. Sayaka shifted and soon straddled her. "Who is the shishou in this relationship?"
"But..."
The grip on her collar tightened. She changed her tone then.
"Sayaka, don't you think it is unfair?"
"It is my job to give you pleasure, not yours, unless I give you permission to do so."
"Then how will I learn to give you pleasure?"
"My love, the sounds you made, the way you moved, the things you said, when you hold my hand, hug me, kiss me, and whenever you touch me, they all give me pleasure. Don't worry about me."
"No, I didn't agree for you to be the dominant partner all the time. I want to give you pleasure too. It is unfair that I am the only one with countless orgasms."
"That is how it works for me. And you made me come countless times too."
If Yuu would think hard, with the three times they were together, she could probably count it with just her fingers. Hers, however, would be in the high twenties.
"No, it is still unfair. You tip the scale too far."
"Yuu, I am a top. It is natural. And I added the times I indulged myself as well. The scale is actually tipping in your favor."
"I want to be the one to do it to you. Not your brain." Yuu grasped the hand on her collar and tried to free herself from the firm grip. "I want to learn. You can't stop me."
"You brat!" Sayaka jerked Yuu's hand from hers and placed it back on her chest, spreading her fingers to make it harder for her girlfriend to resist. "You are in trouble now. You can't come till I say so."
But before the young dominatrix could start, Yuu uttered the word she had never expected to hear that night.
"Sunset."
Sayaka froze. Yuu doesn't know how much that word affected her lover, but she ignored it. Irritation won over her compassion.
"I told you. I did not agree to that."
"Yuu, I am sorry. I thought you were only egging me on. You are serious?"
"Very."
Sayaka let go, stood up, and sat down on the couch again, crossing her legs in front of her, facing Yuu. Her petite girlfriend sat up and mirrored her sitting position.
"My love, I want you to know that you give me the most important thing in the world. Loving me is enough pleasure I could have in a lifetime. Being able to touch you is already too much. And you letting me do things to you always sends me to the edge."
"I understand that. I feel the same way. But please understand that the desire you feel to touch me is the same desire that I feel. Yours might be stronger, but I do feel it too. I want to be able to make you scream as well, audibly, not just inside your remarkable brain; I want to make you shiver, tremble, and squirm. Gasps my name. Like you do for me."
"Are you telling me you wanted to be a top as well?"
"No," Yuu answered, shaking her head. She knew she couldn't do that position justice. "That spot is reserved for you. Even being my shishou. But you have to let me return the favor when I want. So, teach me. Tell me what I can do to please you. Also, about me touching myself, if you really want me to ask permission, I will. But please don't deny all the time." She declared fearfully, thinking back on the days of waiting and denial. And with them not being together most of the time. She might need to resort to that route until they move-in together, which she hopes will take place in just two years.
"Who says I will deny? I just want you to ask. Since it turns me on. Also, when you do touch yourself, I want you to call me. Even when it is late at night, I wouldn't want to miss that."
Yuu leans against the sofa, feeling defeated. "So, this whole conversation was worthless? I worked myself up for nothing?"
Sayaka laughs hard. "Oh, my love. You are so adorable. I love you so much. Come here." She leans forward to give her a tight hug. "I will reward you. And I will also give myself a treat."
The long-limb girl shifted, leaning the lower part of her back on the arm rest, stretching her legs forward, and welcoming Yuu to sit sideways in between. The redhead's back was encouraged against the bent left leg, and her own legs were squeezed together between Sayaka's right heel and the back of her thigh, pinning the small girl in place. Hugging her shoulders to her chest. "Now you can't get away."
"When did I ever get away?" She snickered.
Sayaka's face became serious. "I find that I don't like this attitude." She drew her heel closer, pressing Yuu's thighs together a bit tighter.
"I am sorry." The pressure eases up.
"You are turning out to be a brat. I don't like it one bit."
"I am sorry, shishou."
"No, you showed me this attitude last week too. Don't think that I forgot about that."
"I thought you said you would reward me."
"Tsk" she hissed as a warning. "That is before you remind me of this bratty attitude. It dissolves my good graces."
"Please don't punish me tonight. I waited for so long."
"That's right, we didn't get to spend last Saturday together. And now you are being a brat, tsk tsk tsk. You would have loved the things I had planned for this night, but I guess they will have to wait till next time."
"No, shishou, I am a good girl."
"I will be the judge of that." She put a finger on Yuu's face, tilting it sideways to face her. "I hope you had a good sleep this week. You are not allowed to rest until I say so." The blush came on que. Sayaka's heart skipped a beat. She thought that hearing the safe word would throw her off, but Yuu always keeps her going.
"Do all couples become like this?"
"What do you mean?" Sayaka asks as she pulls aside the collar to expose the shoulder and begins to kiss it.
"Have sex whenever they are alone."
"Maybe." A hand cups a breast. While the other was on the waist. Drawing her nearer.
"I don't know how I can calm down from this. I think about it all the time. Have I become a pervert?"
"What's wrong with that? As long as you think about me and not other people." Cupping the other breast.
"I could not even picture anyone else. I am not that inventive."
"Don't worry, I don't picture anyone else either." Stroking the stomach.
"But you did think about other people before me, right?"
"I did. Wait. Am I in trouble for that?" Hand on the hem of the pajama top.
"Do you want to be?"
"Does it bother you that I have had fantasies about other people?" The hand went under slowly.
Yuu gasps; the fingertips had not even touched her yet, but it has been so long since they had an intimate moment. The longest ten days in the history of mankind.
"My love, you have to answer, or I will stop."
Sayaka knew what was happening; the last ten days had been a struggle for her as well. But she wanted to extend it more; she is sure it will be a big payout. That is, if she can control herself. She had been building her physical stamina since their first night together. But her mental fortitude is in a different realm. Whenever she would be in contact with Yuu's skin, all of her defenses began to crumble, which is why she still hadn't taken off that unpardonable top. The last defense before the dam breaks.
Yuu shook her head. Trying her best to concentrate. "What was the question?"
"Does it matter?"
"Huh?"
"I don't think it is an important question anyway."
"Wait, let me think."
But the hand went back over the top, touching the stomach, and Sayaka began kissing her shoulder again. Leaving a trail of kisses on the neck. Every kiss is sending mild erotic shocks to Yuu's lower abdomen. The hand travels to the breast. And every rational thought escapes Yuu.
"I can't remember."
"That happens when you are horny." Sayaka turns a little so she can bite down on her neck; the effect is immediate. Yuu's moan is just another chink in her armor. The lanky girl shifted so that she was hugging Yuu from behind. Her breasts pressed comfortably on the petite girl's back. "Mmmmn, I think I will reward you for that." The heiress is wearing button-up silk pajamas, covering most of her body but the hands and feet. Not letting her kōhai get any purchase of her skin. Her hands cup the breasts, and she's not being gentle, letting some of her desire leak in. Her lips continue to graze along the nape; she had asked Yuu earlier to put her hair on a bun so the neck would be free. She can feel the heat radiating from her lover. She nibbled on an earlobe.
"Shishou."
"Tell me"
"Please..." Her breath got caught as Sayaka bit down on the other side of her neck.
"What do you want?"
"Let me kiss you."
"No, kisses are for good girls."
One hand goes to the chin, titling it away as she licks the jaw line and proceeds to suck on the base of the jaw. The other hand alternates fondling the breasts. Yuu's hips began to move backward, pressing her toned rear on Sayaka's intimate part. It sends a jolt of pleasure deep inside the brunette.
"Someone is trying to speed things up again. I'll make this twice as long if you don't behave." Those words didn't give her own desires any comfort. The voices in her head are screaming complaints.
Yuu stops moving. "That was involuntary."
She hissed. "Should I teach you about manners again?"
"I am sorry, shishou, please forgive me. That was involuntary. I promise."
"Good girl." The hand turned the chin, and she gave her a light peck on the lips. Yuu chased her, but was unsuccessful. "My love, you need to be patient. Or we will not get anywhere." She spends the next few minutes kissing the places she can reach and feeling the breasts. Getting irritated by the pajamas, but she resists the urge to tear them off. Yuu's nape is littered by hickies, getting the full impact of her own frustration. 'Oh hell, she would need to wear a turtleneck if I don't stop. Good thing it's at the back of her neck. She just needs to wear her hair down.' "What do you want me to do now?"
"Please take off my pajamas. I want to feel your hands."
'Why does she always know when I am at my limit?'
"You can take it off, but do it slowly." Not wanting to stop what her hands are doing.
Small, trembling hands go to the top button. Sayaka shifted to the side to watch as she kissed her shoulder. Hands still caressing the breasts, but gentler. When the top button was off. She interrupts.
"Start at the bottom." Thinking that seeing the breasts will send her over the edge.
"Please kiss me." Yuu turns a little to face her.
Sayaka made a show of kissing the shoulder. And raised an eyebrow. She got an up-close display of her favorite pout. 'Aw, that was so cute!' Yuu proceeds to unbutton the pajamas, and when she gets to the middle button, the green eyes shift to gaze at the toned stomach, which was a mistake since the underwear she prepared for Yuu had caught her by surprise that her hands froze mid-fondling. Her breath caught. And Yuu noticed it. Her kōhai had been wearing cotton undergarments since she was a child. She even bought pairs of cotton underwear so Yuu would feel comfortable wearing them after sleepovers. But for the moment, comfort is not the aim of those lacy pink see-through underwear. And it is enticing the hell out of Sayaka. She had forgotten about it. The pajama top is long enough that she didn't see it after Yuu emerged from the bathroom. Her brain goes into overdrive. She can't physically shake her head to clear her mind.
All the buttons were undone, giving her another place to look. The pale skin from the stomach to the neck is the most spectacular view, in Sayaka's opinion. Providing her with a map to explore. Yuu pretended that this attention didn't matter to her. Any misstep, and the shishou could just stop everything. She doesn't have the patience to start again.
Sayaka swallowed. And her brain took that as a signal to continue. Her hands began to move again, and her lips found the shoulder and started to kiss toward the collar bone. The pajama top pooled at Yuu's elbows. The slender hands let go of the fabric at the breasts. The torso is on full display. Like she predicted, the view just sent her to the very edge.
"You are beautiful, my love."
"You are the beautiful one."
"Let me make love to you."
"No roles?"
"I don't care about any of that now."
"Then take me to bed."
"No, I am sorry. I can't wait anymore."
Yuu's lips were claimed in the same breath. Hands go back to the breasts and rejoice at the bareness. Breath got caught again with a growl. The kisses were hungry. Trying to take everything she could. Her passion was almost matched by Yuu, but the dam of self-control had disintegrated. There is no holding back anymore. Desires rushed in with a fury. And soon her lover is screaming her name. She didn't let her rest. As the second, third, and fourth orgasms were reached soon after each other.
"Sayaka, wait, please." Yuu mumbled as her body jerked uncontrollably after the fourth time.
"No waiting tonight." The lanky girl carries her from the sweat-covered couch and into the bed. She is still fully clothed, and the redhead finds it disrespectful to her naked body.
"Please just…" The tongue continues where it left off. Hands on her breasts. Her sensitive part was on its way for the fifth one that night, and not even thirty minutes had passed. 'Does she plan to do this all night? Can I say the safe word with normal sex?' But after her body found release for the fifth time, Sayaka started a trail of kisses up to her stomach, making a new constellation breathing evenly while Yuu was having a hard time catching her breath. 'Where did she get the stamina to do this? The kisses continue upward towards her ribs, and eventually the mouth engulfs one of the nipples while a hand fondles the other. "Sayaka, that was..."
"Should you be talking? Breathe as much as possible while you can. We are just getting started."
Brown eyes widen as she already feels like she has run a marathon.
"Is there anything you are not good at? Stamina is all I have. You took even that."
Sayaka laughs, "Flattery will not help you tonight."
"Not flattering, stating facts." She said smiling innocently.
"You have your stamina, my love." She bent lower, showering kisses on the stomach. "I just got a little excited. I will take my time on the next ones."
"Will you be naked in any of them?"
"Cheeky as always."
"Please?"
"If you want to see me naked, you have to do something for me first."
"Anything."
"Go to Italy with me this summer."
