p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;"span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: 'Glass Antiqua',cursive; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: bold; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"I don't own the X-Files or these characters. Scully is Bi, you cannot change my mind. Hope you like it!/span/p
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p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; text-indent: 36pt; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;"span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: 'Glass Antiqua',cursive; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"Scully was generally a confident woman. She thinks of herself as being a smart, caring, strong, independent, and decently attractive woman. Despite this, she is not without insecurities. While she tries to play it off as if the 'Ice Queen' remarks don't bother her, it does more than she likes to admit. She sometimes worries they are right and that others find her boring, a stick in the mud, and cold. While she is not a vain woman and doesn't place her value only on her physical appearance, she does want to feel beautiful, sexy, and feminine still. While she is far from considering herself unattractive, at times she can't help but look at her reflection with criticism. She worries she's too short, too skinny or not skinny enough, her boobs not big enough, and things like that. She would be lying if she said that it didn't bother her when Mulder, who she has over the years gone from having a simple schoolgirl crush on to finding herself in love with, paid too much attention to some tall pretty blonde. She can't help but be embarrassed by how obviously she was jealous during that case with Detective White. Even worse how critical she was of her appearance for a while after that case. That feeling was a distant memory now nearly a year later as she lay against his chest watching some movie on her tv. These last two months since she and Mulder officially started dating have been the best months of her life. Mulder makes her feel like the most beautiful and sexy woman ever and so those insecurities were pushed to the back of her consciousness. It was about to rear its ugly head again./span/p
p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; text-indent: 36pt; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;"span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: 'Glass Antiqua',cursive; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"The movie changed to a scene of the tall busty blonde character in the shower. At first, Scully briefly let herself admire the blonde's boobs fully on display before feeling slightly guilty for looking and looking up at Mulder who was still staring at the screen. She was expecting him to look away at being caught looking at the actress's cleavage. It was irrational for her to feel jealous, especially because she also was looking herself (though not as much as him), but she couldn't help it. It was illogical for her to suddenly feel all those insecurities about her appearance come back but she couldn't help it as him looking at the actress brought back the feeling she had when he paid too much attention to Detective White. Or Bambi. Or insert other tall and model-beautiful women they encountered over the years. She couldn't really blame him for looking at them but it was the amount of attention he paid them. When he flirts with a woman they feel like no one else exists, no one knows that better than her, and so that attention being paid to someone else was enough to bring out the green-eyed monster in her. Despite his attractiveness and charming personality, Mulder is at heart a deeply insecure and self-critical man, what if he is just settling for her because he doesn't understand he can do better? /span/p
p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; text-indent: 36pt; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;"span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: 'Glass Antiqua',cursive; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"She tried to push away her own insecurities and self-critical thoughts but it nagged at her. She pulled away from his chest and sat up putting not only physical distance but mental distance as well. A tendency she does when she gets insecure. His attention was drawn to her from being deep in thought. He looked at the screen which has changed from the movie to a commercial for Wendy's. He could immediately tell that something was bothering Scully but he couldn't think of what it could be./span/p
p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; text-indent: 36pt; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;"span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: 'Glass Antiqua',cursive; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"Mulder sat up himself and moved closer to her again, "You okay?" /span/p
p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; text-indent: 36pt; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;"span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: 'Glass Antiqua',cursive; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;""Fine" she snipped. He could tell she wasn't fine, she is never fine when she says she's fine. Her trained blank expression on her face and her arms folded tightly across her chest, portrayed that she was trying to protect herself from something, though he doesn't know what. /span/p
p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; text-indent: 36pt; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;"span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: 'Glass Antiqua',cursive; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;""If something is bothering you…" he started but was caught off by her./span/p
p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; text-indent: 36pt; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;"span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: 'Glass Antiqua',cursive; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;""I said I'm fine!" she yelled surprising him. Scully took a deep breath realizing that snapping at him wasn't fair at all. "Sorry, I shouldn't have yelled at you," she said in a more timid voice now and was refusing to meet his eyes. This was odd for her which made him even more concerned./span/p
p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; text-indent: 36pt; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;"span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: 'Glass Antiqua',cursive; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"Mulder lifted her chin gently so she would meet his eyes, "Something is bothering you, Scully, I can tell"/span/p
p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; text-indent: 36pt; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;"span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: 'Glass Antiqua',cursive; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;""I'm being ridiculous…" she said with a humorless laugh. She wanted to tell him what was bothering her but a new worry came over her that Mulder would be mad at her or think she was crazy. /span/p
p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; text-indent: 36pt; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;"span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: 'Glass Antiqua',cursive; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;""How you are feeling isn't ridiculous. I am just asking to be let in, we spent too much time, not talking about things we have to stop doing that now" he said and she sighed./span/p
p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; text-indent: 36pt; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;"span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: 'Glass Antiqua',cursive; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;""I just… I got a little jealous…" she said not liking how crazy she sounds. /span/p
p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; text-indent: 36pt; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;"span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: 'Glass Antiqua',cursive; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;""Jealous? Of what?" he asked really not knowing what could have made her feel jealous as there wasn't anyone else here, /span/p
p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; text-indent: 36pt; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;"span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: 'Glass Antiqua',cursive; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;""It's stupid," he said and Mulder gave her an encouraging look to continue. "Claudia or whatever her name is… in the movie."/span/p
p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; text-indent: 36pt; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;"span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: 'Glass Antiqua',cursive; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;""What about her?" he asked having been so lost in thought he hasn't been following the movie and doesn't even know who this 'Claudia or whatever her name is' character is. /span/p
p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; text-indent: 36pt; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;"span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: 'Glass Antiqua',cursive; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;""What about her? Honestly, Scully I haven't really been paying attention at all…" he said and she can tell he was being honest. /span/p
p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; text-indent: 36pt; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;"span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: 'Glass Antiqua',cursive; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;""Oh," she said feeling even more ridiculous now. /span/p
p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; text-indent: 36pt; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;"span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: 'Glass Antiqua',cursive; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;""I don't understand why were you jealous of some actress on the TV?" he asked. Scully seemed to feel better about whatever it was that made her jealous before, however, she was clearly embarrassed by this, but he still needs to know so that this doesn't happen again./span/p
p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; text-indent: 36pt; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;"span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: 'Glass Antiqua',cursive; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;""I just… it's nothing"/span/p
p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; text-indent: 36pt; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;"span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: 'Glass Antiqua',cursive; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;""No, it is clearly something because if it was nothing it wouldn't have upset you. Don't shut me out, please" he said knowing that is her way to protect herself./span/p
p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; text-indent: 36pt; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;"span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: 'Glass Antiqua',cursive; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;""She was in the shower… and I just thought… you were watching her a little too much" she admitted ashamed of how crazy she sounded "But you weren't even paying attention so…"/span/p
p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; text-indent: 36pt; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;"span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: 'Glass Antiqua',cursive; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;""I wasn't paying attention, but even if I was, Dana… I only want you. I thought you knew that" he said and she sighed./span/p
p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; text-indent: 36pt; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;"span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: 'Glass Antiqua',cursive; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;""I'm sorry, it was stupid, I just… let my insecurities get the better of me," she admitted. /span/p
p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; text-indent: 36pt; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;"span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: 'Glass Antiqua',cursive; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;""What do you have to be insecure about?" he asked incredulously as if even the thought that she could find anything less than perfect about herself be completely ludicrous. /span/p
p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; text-indent: 36pt; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;"span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: 'Glass Antiqua',cursive; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;""Sometimes I just worry that you are… settling," she said not making eye contact. Mulder has never heard anything so ridiculous in his entire life and his life work is dedicated to investigating what most would consider the outlandish./span/p
p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; text-indent: 36pt; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;"span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: 'Glass Antiqua',cursive; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;""Settling?" he asked. "For you?! Have you looked at yourself in the mirror lately…" he asked incredulously. /span/p
p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; text-indent: 36pt; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;"span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: 'Glass Antiqua',cursive; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;""I'm serious!"/span/p
p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; text-indent: 36pt; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;"span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: 'Glass Antiqua',cursive; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;""So am I… Dana if anyone is settling it's you, not me" he insisted. /span/p
p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; text-indent: 36pt; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;"span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: 'Glass Antiqua',cursive; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;""I'm not settling!" Scully insisted and Mulder smiled a little at her in slight relief./span/p
p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; text-indent: 36pt; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;"span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: 'Glass Antiqua',cursive; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;""Neither am I…" /span/p
p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; text-indent: 36pt; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;"span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: 'Glass Antiqua',cursive; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;""It's just… I'm not some tall, busty blonde model type that has well captured your attention in the past," she said and he tucked the stray strand of hair behind her ear./span/p
p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; text-indent: 36pt; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;"span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: 'Glass Antiqua',cursive; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;""Dana, you are more beautiful and sexy than any other woman. Yes, I will admit other women have caught my attention in the past but none of them compared to you, none even close. I was so lost in my thoughts thinking about how damn lucky I am to have you, that I generally don't even know what actress/character you are talking about." he said and he couldn't help the smirk that came across his face from the blush that crept across her face./span/p
p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; text-indent: 36pt; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;"span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: 'Glass Antiqua',cursive; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;""So you're saying if some tall blonde were to hit on you, you wouldn't be interested?" /span/p
p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; text-indent: 36pt; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;"span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: 'Glass Antiqua',cursive; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;""I don't know…" he teased but quickly put her out of her misery when he saw the brief look of self-doubt cross her face. "I've always had a fondness for Langly" he joked causing her to laugh sincerely which was his intention. "Of course not, why would I when I have you?"/span/p
p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; text-indent: 36pt; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;"span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: 'Glass Antiqua',cursive; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"Scully leaned in and kissed him passionately, "good answer"/span/p
p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; text-indent: 36pt; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;"span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: 'Glass Antiqua',cursive; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;""You don't think I'm crazy?" she asked and he laughed. /span/p
p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; text-indent: 36pt; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;"span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: 'Glass Antiqua',cursive; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;""Oh totally psycho" he joked and she play-slapped him. "But that's fine, I can handle it" She laid her head against his shoulder and watched the rest of the movie feeling confident again that he has eyes only for her./span/p
p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;"span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: 'Glass Antiqua',cursive; color: #000000; background-color: transparent; font-weight: bold; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"Okay, I know there are a lot of jealous Scully fics but I couldn't resist writing one myself. Hope you enjoy it, would appreciate reviews!/span/p