Chapter four

Bella's pov

Rose and Emmett arrive the day after. It was expected when Emmett came over and hugged me. He said "You look great kid"

"You know I'm not a kid anymore" I replied

He gave me a huge smile and said said "I know" cheerfully

But when Rose came over and gave me a gentle hug is when I was surprised, shocked actually. She has a look for worry and concern on her face. I didn't think she could ever feel either of that towards me. Her eyes almost looked sad. I can't tell why though.

"I'm so sorry this happened to you" is all she could spit out before giving me another hug. "You probably thought I hated you but I didn't. I hated the idea you would choose this for a guy. Or choose this in general. You were young, well you still are. You were full of life with an entire life ahead of you and were willing to throw it all away" It almost looked as if she wanted to cry when she said that

"But with that out of the way, I hope we can be friends now and put the past behind us. I will help you with anything"

I smiled at her "that would be great"

"If you really want to help her, maybe you should take her out for a bit. Somewhere secluded where there won't be many people. See how she reacts around a few people. She hasn't been outside since the day she woke up. It'll be good for her" Emse suggested

Outside? Around people? I couldn't tell you how I feel about this. Not happy. Terrified, afraid maybe. The look Jasper gave me. He knew. He knew how much I was not looking forward to this.

He came to me and said "It will be okay. You can do this" he puts way too much faith in me.

Before I knew it Alice, Rose, Jasper and myself were jammed into a car.

"This place rarely has anyone out at this time of day" Alice said. She probably knew I was thinking of everything that could go wrong

What if there's a party and there are a lot of people there or if someone cuts themselves on a rock or I can't control myself like everyone hopes. I'm not going to fail.

"Bella we will all be there if something happens you don't have to overthink or worry like you are" Rose said

The rest of the ride was silent. Then I saw a forest with a random few picnic tables and a few don't feed the animals signs. This is considered a park?

We got out and sat at a table. It was silent for a while but luckily no one else was here. Then Rose broke the silence with "How is life treating you Bella?"

Life? I died almost a week ago. Of course I never pictured myself with kids or a family of any kind so it's not like I lost much. The occasional visit from my mom, Phil, and my half sister Sophia.

Oh Sophia. She'll be two next month. She's not old enough to even remember I existed if I disappeared now. Most people who have a nineteen year age gap probably wouldn't have tried for a relationship. But I did the best I could. I sent her letters and cards monthly, Facetime calls on the weekends. Even living a thousand miles away I made it work the best I possibly could.

"It was okay I guess" I said

"What's the matter Bella?"

"There is just a lot on my mind" I said

Carlisle pov

After my shift as I promised I went to Bella's old apartment. It wasn't a nice building but I've seen worse. No one even gave me a look as I walked into the building. Her door was locked but I broke that. It was a lot sadder than I thought. She really didn't have furniture. It was exactly as she said. A box of clothing, a box of photo albums and childhood memories, a few stacks of college books scattered across the floor and a mattress on the floor. Has she really been living like this for years? I thought to myself. I grabbed the boxes and books and threw them in my car.

I wonder what brought her here? On the other side of the country. Of course if she was looking for nursing jobs she probably thought of how many accidents happen here, maybe she wanted some action or something. Maybe it was luck or maybe it was a curse that she was brought to me. If she was applying to the hospital I worked at I wonder what would happened. If we would've crossed paths. If she would've chosen to be back in our lives without the current situation.

A few hours later

Bella's pov

We were all sitting and chatting in the living room as Carlisle walked in. She was carrying two boxes. My entire life can fit in two boxes. Rose gave a interested look at the box marked Photo albums and childhood junk. She took the album off the top and sat next to me.

"Who is that" she asked pointing at a picture of Sophia and me at her 1st birthday party. With the age I'm guessing she thought I had a child.

"That's my half-sister, sophia" I said with a smile "She will be two next month and that kid is my entire world"

"Your Mother and Phil had a child" Esme looked concerned

"Yes they did. She's being treated better than I did if that's why you look concerned. My parents were young when they had me. This time they wanted a child, and was prepared to care for her" when I said that she looks relieved

Roses Pov

I thought she may have had a child somewhere when I saw that picture. But a sister wasn't on my mind. Not one that young at least. A sister that she will never get to see again, a sister that won't have any memories of her in a few years.

"How often do you see each other" I finally asked.

"In person? Not very often. Maybe a few times a year. I send her letters and cards every month and she facetimes me every Sunday."

Bella's Pov

When that word left my mouth I then realized tomorrow was Sunday. Tomorrow was the day she was going to call me. The day she won't get an answer. They day she thinks I disappear off the face of the earth

"Sunday" I said again, very disappointed. I think everyone could tell. I just got a lot of blank stares, filled with sadness"

Rose then put her arms around me and said "we will get through this together" I gave her a fake smile.

Carlisle pov

She did have a family? After she said what happened to Charlie I didn't think she would have a person to miss. Her mother and her weren't really close. But a sister. A young sister that won't even remember her. I mean since its mostly long distance I wouldn't see the problem of sending her letters. I would personally have her call instead of Facetime so she couldn't see how pale she has gotten but a two-year-old wouldn't really notice that.

"Bella. This relationship is mostly long distance. I don't see a problem with you maintaining it but I would try to switch to phone calls just in case your mother or step father notice how pale you have gotten if they look at the screen. And try to make any excuse possible about seeing them in person"

She smiled cheerfully when I said that.