Missing scene to 10x22
A/N: Today I decided to write another sad Sam fanfic, a missing scene from 10x22 The Prisoner. What Dean said to Sam during Charlie's hunter funeral pissed me off, I get he was upset but still words hurt. After talking to 67, she and I concluded we don't see how Sam feels after this so I tried to write this in Sam's POV until a certain point then switched to general POV. Being pissed off helped writing Sam's part :p Happy reading 3
Sam's POV
We organized a hunter's funeral for Charlie. I felt bad; I never wanted her to die because of the whole Book of the Damned decryption mission. As if I wasn't feeling miserable enough Dean or Mark of Cain Dean angrily said I should be the one on the pyre. This obviously hit hard coming from him. I brushed past him, heading straight back home. I needed to get away from him for a while. Once back in the bunker, I headed to my room to pack a bag of clothes. I half-heartedly left my brother behind especially now but before we hurt each other more emotionally or even physically I preferred to leave for a few days. I already knew he would go after the Stynes and there was nothing I couldn't do to hold him back. I saw how angry and aggressive he could get; I had to get my brother back. I already lost him once this year when he was a demon, I'm not doing it again. Against my better judgment, I decided to write him a letter, which I knew he wouldn't read.
"Dean,
Don't bother come looking for me, I think we need some time apart before we hurt each other even more. I'll come back home eventually.
S."
I took my duffel bag and left the bunker. I decided the best option was to drive to Jody in Sioux Falls. I never thought this day would happen but then again so much crap has happened those past years. I honestly thought Dean would leave once he knew I let Lucifer out five years ago. I guess our brotherly bond will survive this crisis as well but it always takes a toll on us. 6 hours later, I arrived at Jody's. I had texted her en route letting her know I would probably stay for a few days. As I drove up to her house, her silhouette became clearer. I got out of the car, took my duffel bag and went to greet her.
"Sam! It's so good to see you again, I would have wished it were under different circumstances. You know your brother will eventually figure out where you are here." I hugged her tight before entering her house. Sitting down on her couch a feeling of sadness and tiredness overcame me. "Deep down I know it was the Mark talking but it still hurt. I just got him back and now I see him slipping away again. We had some fair shares of disappointing each other; I certainly am the more guilty brother. I just can't lose him again." So thankful Jody was the one I confided in.
General POV
Meanwhile back at the bunker, Dean had gotten back from his "trip" from the Stynes. He set out to find his brother, still pissed off at him. Charlie had always been like a little sister for him. He went to Sam's room to find some clothes missing, his rage immediately lessened. He sat on his brother's bed taking his head in his hands, sighing. "Sammy what have I done?" Absentmindedly he stroke across the Mark, only then noticing a piece of paper folded in two on Sam's pillow. He read the letter and cursed. The elder Winchester tried to think of any places his little brother could have gone. He instantly regretted what he said. Watching Sam die numerous times was enough, he didn't want to add any more emotional trauma on his kid. Then there was his best friend, whom he nearly killed him too. "Cas? You're probably mad at me but I could use your feathery ass."
Minutes later Castiel appeared in front of Dean. "I'm mad at the Mark and for the record the Dean I know isn't a dick. He would never have said what you did to his little brother." Dean sighed. "I'm mad at myself for that, I wanted to apologize to Sammy but you can see for yourself, he left. I have hurt the one person I swore to protect with my life and why? Because of this godfucking thing on my arm. I have a slight idea where Sam could have gone. Could you check ahead, please? So I don't drive to Sioux Falls for nothing.
Cas put his angel ears on, looking for Sam and gave Dean a thumbs up when he found him indeed at Jody's.
The elder Winchester brother didn't waste any more minute, ran to his beloved Impala and began driving to Sioux Falls while listening to Don't Fear The Reaper; making a mental note to summon his pal Death later on.
He drove in record time up there, took no time to knock and barged into Jody's house scaring the crap out of her. "For fuck's sake Dean! I assume you're here because you finally realized you did a piss-poor job with your brother. I don't give a rat's ass about the thing on your arm. Do you have any idea how disheveled Sam looked when he arrived here? I know you guys argue but – she stood in front of him, put a finger on his chest and looked him in the eyes – you never tell him you wish he had been the one to die, no matter how angry you are." Dean gulped; he had never seen Jody this angry. She rightfully was she was protective of Sam as he was and he had hurt him. "You're completely right. I'm here to apologize to my little brother if you may." She led him to Sam's room, knocked and the hunter entered.
"Hey Sammy, I'm so sorry. I should never have said those things to you. I think I have found a solution but I need to work on it." Sam sighed, getting up from the bed he was sitting on and hugged his brother. "We'll get through this together, like we always do. C'mon let's go home, I only have one wish. I want you to cook tonight and make those burgers I absolutely love. I know what you're thinking, I usually only eat rabbit food. I have to make an exception when my big brother cooks though.
They drove home, Dean made his famous Deantastic burgers and the brothers enjoyed a nice evening together watching a game.
A/N: That was fun to write. I hope angry!Jody isn't too much out of character. I figured since Kim is known for swearing, I'll add this trait to Jody. Dean listening to Don't Fear The Reaper is my take at foreshadowing what we know happens at in 10x23.