Author's note: Yes yes yes, I know, I'm late. :'( I am only posting this short-ish update until next time. Finals week is starting tomorrow so I won't post another update until maybe Friday, May 10th or 11th or even 12th. Will try my best; College is so cramping my writing abilities right now. So sorry! Hope everyone's Easter went well!

Caution: Scenes of graphic sexual content ahead.

"As far as I can tell
I've been gone for miles now
And you know and I know
I don't know me very well
And I know and you know
If they found me out."

- Tori Amos

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"Soujiro." I breathe his name out, a shiver running up my spine soon follows as soon as I said it, "I'm.. I mean..!"

"What are you doing here?!" He whispers in a vicious, cutting tone, walking up towards me quickly, grabbing my forearms, "Let's get out of here! You don't belong here!"

I blink at him quickly, eyes wet with fearful tears, and I couldn't answer him, not while he looks like a strange nocturnal animal that crept out from the shadows. He nearly drags me out of that room and we were soon back in his bedroom, and I sit on the edge of his bed. I watch him nervously at him pacing around, looking down at the floor as he walks in a circle, probably thinking of how to punish me for the crimes I've committed today. Oh, Soujiro. If only.. If only you knew my other crimes. Without thinking, I gasp sharply from the pain in my chest of that realization, which caught his attention. He looks at me, eyes burning with anger.

"What were you thinking?" He asks me, now with a strange pinch of emotions in his voice, "Didn't I tell you not to poke through my life like that? Wasn't I good enough to you? Didn't I treat you well at all, for all of this time? Have I gave you enough fucks or money for you to keep your business to yourself?! Honestly, Kenshin, I.. You really are stupid."

I flinch, ".. I know. I'm sorry."

"Are you, though?" I look up at him just in time for him to walk up to me, until he is nearly towering over me, "Why? Why did you go in there? Don't you know that people shouldn't snoop around like that? Do you really think.. that I'm still hiding stuff from you? Wasn't I transparent enough to you, Kenshin?"

I grunt, my hands shaking as I try to reach up to touch him, but using his arms, he smacks them away from me. My arms hang limp and soon, so did my head.

"I'm.. so so sorry, Soujiro.." I don't know what came over me, but I started to weep. I'm so fucking horrible. I'm a horrible fucking person, and it shows. Why am I like this? Why am I exactly like my biological dad? Why can't I just.. why can't I just be a good friend? A good son? A good student? A good boyfriend, too, on top that? Why do I continuously to deliberately make everything so fucking hard for myself and other people? Do I enjoy making people unhappy? Do I like making myself angry and suspicious and a self-righteous cunt? I start to cry into my hands, collapsing.

I don't deserve anything.

Nothing at all!

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"Oh, Kenshin.. Stop.. stop crying," I hear Soujiro whispering in a sweeter tone now, cupping my face into his hands, so that he can see my tear streaked face, "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to freak out like that on you. I'm just.. I just don't like it when people want to get so up close and personal. That's how I was raised. Imagine knowing nothing but cameras, and reporters, and people trying to find any little dirt to spoil your family's name. Can you imagine how that's like, for just a minute? Never knowing a moment of peace and quiet, without worrying what the news reports are going to write about you next? Never knowing what it's like to just be a normal teenager?"

I gape at him, tears still overflowing. Soujiro.

He chuckles sadly, "I just.. I love you. I love being with you. And I don't want you to find something and get the wrong idea about me. I don't want you to run out on me. I've sacrificed a lot to move here in Kyoto, and to track you down. I am crazy about you, Kenshin Himura. I want you.. all of you. I'd devour you if I could.."

He leans in and I instinctively open my mouth, moaning in pleasure. Our lips touch and our tongues swirl around each other, as I move back towards the upper half of his bed. We continue to kiss each other as I fiddle with his shirt buttons, and he meanwhile tries to open my beaten belt to loosen my jeans. Moments later, my head leans backward over the edge of his bed, crying out in pleasure as Soujiro goes down on me, my hand gripping his hair all the while. I can't tell him anything, can I? Not only do I hold my own secrets, but it looks like Soujiro has his own cards held close to his chest, too. I guess it seems fair, but.. at the same time, his reaction has to mean something. Maybe his father really is hiding something. Something insidious. Something life ruining.

What could it be, though?

"Hrrmm, Soujiro, wait.. agh!" I try to sit up and take his wrists as a way to slow him down, "Wait.."

He comes up and looks up at me expectantly, and with a sweet smile and side head tilt, he giggles, "Yes?"

"I just.. Why are you trying to fuck me after I got caught sneaking around like that in your dad's room?"

He doesn't move, his smile still bright, "Why not?"

I scoff, "Get off of me."

He jumps back instantly and I take him into my arms, kissing him on the lips. He hums confusingly, and when our lips separate from each other, he whispers, "Kenshin?"

I rub my face against his lovingly, "I'm sorry, Soujiro. For everything. For being a dick to you. For snooping in your father's belongings without your permission. I'm sorry. I'm a fucking asshole."

"Kenshin!" He bursts out laughing, wrapping his arms around my neck, "Jeez! You are really hard on yourself today! What's going on? Are you feeling sick or something?"

"Maybe.." I mutter, melting into this hug, loving all the pleasurable sensuality he's providing me. The warmth of his body. The smell of his hair. The smoothness of his skin against mines. I could melt into him and nothing else would matter anymore. I want to make him cum now. At that dark thought, I start to gnaw on the side of his neck gently, and Soujiro bites his lower lip to hush himself. I think I know what to do. Maybe it's fucked up, and maybe it's the wrong thing to do at a moment like this.. But I can't get over his reactions to me being in his father's bedroom. I knew it has to mean something. I nearly smack Soujiro onto his pillows and I straddle his hips, pinning his wrists against the sheets, "Where is that black box?"

He blinks and then points his chin downward, "Under.. the bed?"

I retrieve it and open it, determined. Soujiro continues to lie on his back, quiet but most possibly confused by what is happening right now. I take out two handcuffs and a bottle of lube. Perfect. Soujiro lets me handcuff his wrists to the bars of his bed post, and I spread his legs with my knees. Rubbing lube over my hard cock, I watch intently as he looks at my dick with maddening lust in his eyes. I lean in, grabbing one of shoulder to help me aim carefully into his hole. Before I even let my tip slide in, though, I look at him. He looks back at me, his expression flushed and aroused yet full of questions. I don't do anything for the next minute. His brows furrow slightly, wondering when I am going to put it in. I smirk ever so slightly, and his eyes widen now with a flicker of fear, "Kenshin..?"

"You know I love you, right?" I mumble, and he gapes at me, not knowing how to answer that.

".. Um.. Yes? I know that?" His eyes dart slowly from the sides and then downward to look at my lower half of my body still not moving, "Are you.. going to..?"

"Look at me, Soujiro."

He does, grunting.

"I want to see your face when I put it in."

He gasps lightly, his face flushing hard.

The tip pierces his hole, and I groan at the sight of what I'm seeing; Soujiro's eyes flickering upward just once or twice, and then as I thrust my hip down to slowly slip my cock inside of him inch by inch, his eyes too, widen inch by inch in the same beat. Just as I am all the way in, I push even harder downward, his breath stuck in his throat at the pressing force against his prostate. I move my cock out smoothly out of him and do the process again, slower and tortuously this time to watch him close his eyes and mouth hanging open to let out a quiet sound. I do it again, his mouth this time letting out a confused, angrily impatient yet sexy groan, as if questioning me as to why I'm doing this shit.

"Haaah!" He breathes as I slide my cock in him slowly yet with a harder, harsher pump this time, "God, why the fuck..!?"

"It feels good, doesn't it?" I whisper hoarsely, smirking, "I could go faster. But.."

I pull out and then push in, much harder yet still at the same snail pace, making Soujiro arch his shoulders up and throwing his head back in pleasure, "Ahh!"

".. You'll have to tell me more about that room."

His eyes snap open to glare at me, "What the fu..!?"

I cut him off with me slamming my cock into him a little faster this time, and he cries out.

"Hmmm!" He whimpers, in pain or pleasure, it's hard to tell. But his lustful stare looking deep into my eyes are saying it's definitely the latter, "Do that again."

"Tell me what's on that laptop."

I wasn't aware of it at first, but for all of this time, Soujiro had his grip on my biceps this entire time. He tightens them, his eyes wavering, "I can't.. I can't tell you.. I.."

I slide myself out of him, my eyebrow arching up, testing him.

His breathing quickens a little as he tries to think of a way out, "Okay, okay! Um. He has.. he has work files on it, I think. But.. I think.. oooh!"

I cut him off again as I slide my cock inside of him. God, the insides of him are nearly burning me. It's so hot inside of him. I love it. I recover from that shock of pleasure before speaking, "Go on."

"He tells me to never use it. It probably has password protection on it. There's no way we can ever get into it. I won't lie, though.. I always wonder what's on it, too, ahh, FUCK!"

Now I'm thrusting into him repeatedly as normal now, throwing my head back to enjoy the sensation of fucking that tight little ass now. I knew there was something up with that computer. I've gotten his trust now. We have to break into that shit soon. Maybe later on after I'm done fucking the hell out of him. My God, how is this little slut so tight? When he probably fucked around before meeting me? Fucking whore. I'll teach him a lesson for being such a little skank. I groan out loud as I tilt forward to kiss him with feverish passion, and then I growl against his lips, "How many guys have you been with before me, huh?"

"Why? Jealous?" He answers with a playful sneer before licking the inside of my mouth to find my tongue, "Why do you want to know?"

I chuckle, feeling cruel today, "I've been with fifteen girls. How 'bout that?"

He scoffs, "Fuck you! Like I enjoy knowing that about you!"

"Aww, now look who's jealous?" I start fucking him harder and faster, the tightening heat around my cock is driving me fucking crazy, "God, your ass is so tight."

He can barely take in or exhale any breaths as I thrust into him savagely, nor can he even look straight ahead normally anymore, "Kenshin, I can't.. I can't take this, ahhhh!"

I don't know what came over me but I grab his throat and give it a good squeeze, holding him down, careful not to do it too hard so that he can at least breathe as needed. I fuck him even harder and faster, pushing myself dangerously to the brink of actually hurting him. My head is swimming and dizzy from the look of his face and the knowledge that his orgasm is coming soon by the look of his ardently stare. I let go of his neck and grab the sides of his hips to haul his bottom half off from the bed, and with my knees on the bed, I am able to fuck him at the speed of my highest velocity. I couldn't help but growl in deep pleasure now, Soujiro crying out like a wanton little bitch right after.

"Ken-ARRGH!" He yells and cums hotly all over himself and over the parts of my stomach and chest, and as I watch him arch his back and neck in the throes of his orgasm rippling through his body, I cum soon afterward. The waves of pleasure was also rippling through me for what felt like a really long time. I am shaking after the last spurt of my seed spits out. I have never felt so much pleasure like that in my life before. Holy shit. I let myself fall on Soujiro, our bodies and faces absolutely slick with perspiration. The room is spinning and I can't see straight. That was the best sex I've ever had.

"Sweet Jesus, that was.." I hear Soujiro giggling almost soundlessly, "So amazing. Oh my God. You fucked me so hard I swear I almost passed out. What has gotten into you today?"

I rub my eye sleepily, desperate to fall asleep, "I just love making you cum. And breaking you apart."

He takes in a shaking breath, "That's so hot. I'd let you destroy me if it means we can make each other cum hard like that."

I don't respond and he doesn't say anything more after that. We took a really nice long nap together on that bed, and after a few hours, we both got up to take a nice shower together. Later on after we're dressed in really comfy pajamas (shut up), I watch with sheer amusement from across the bed as Soujiro unravels the Christmas present I got for him. He takes out the object and looks back at me ridiculously, "Really?"

I shrug, "You like it?"

"It's a stuffed teddy bear."

"It used to be mine when I was little."

He gapes at me, then looks at the brown fuzzy bear, "Are you.. Are you serious? Oh my God. Oh my God! This is so cute, I can't even!"

He hugs the little shit in his arms now while I laugh, "Glad you liked it."

"This is so sweet. I love it. Thank you!" Now he's wrapping his arms around me, rubbing his face against mines affectionately.

Now to swoop in for the kill.

"Can we see what's on that laptop now?" I ask softly into his ear, embracing him back.

He hesitates at first, but then nods slowly, rubbing his face into my neck, "Yes."