Author's note: Hey guys! I'm so happy I'm still getting attention on this website, lol! Thank you to Mazoku, Satani, Cannibal Corncob, and mlisk41 for the reviews and story following. I'm so glad I'm back on a regular schedule now where I add a new update every Friday so that I can rest during the weekend. Hope everyone is having a great summer.
This update will be a bit shorter but very much smutty and sexy in return. Just so I can plan ahead on what's gonna happen between these two knuckleheads along with how the story will pan out. I have a feeling this fic is gonna need another, oh, 10 or so updates until it reaches it's final conclusion. So basically when the summer ends, so will this story.
Alright, enjoy the new update. Viewer discretion is strongly advised.
"Desperate and ravenous,
I'm so weak and powerless over you."
- A Perfect Circle
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With his hands over my hands, and his face just seconds away from lips meeting lips.. I watch in confusion at what Soujiro uttered just moments ago. Did he just fucking said what I think he said? Am I have a stroke? The movie continues to play behind me, monstrous sounds and crying violins to depict characters attacking each other on film. It seems fitting for this strange situation happening between him and I. The ceilings behind him glows bluish from the TV glare, flitting between white and then black with the movie's changing scenes. And every time, his blue eyes blossom and bloom, and my breathing is caught inside my throat. Did I really just heard what he said? That he wants to be.. inside of me? Soujiro, what the hell did you mean by that? What do you mean you want to be inside of me?
I don't.. I don't know if I'd like something like that?
I think I know why that is. I've always been proud of my masculinity, and of my sexual prowess with the fairer sex. I was always the one doing all the fucking, and my recipients were the ones who did the receiving. I was the one inside of people.. inside of other women.. inside of Soujiro. So to even think about the possibility of being on the receiving end of it now, terrifies me. Should I just tell him no? I mean, I have every right to my body and what goes inside of it. I plan to take on needles for ink work after high school ends, for awesome tattoos on my arms and maybe on my chest. Or my back. Not.. this.. His.. I shake my head, trying to get that mental picture out of my mind. No. I'm not going to accept this. I don't know why Soujiro thought that would be a good idea. I mean.. Today was super romantic and sweet and very emotional, so I think he's just saying shit without thinking. It has to make sense. I just have to tell him no, and reject his stupid idea of his.
"Soujiro, I.." My eyes frown, "No. I absolutely do not want that from you."
Soujiro makes a hesitating sound, eyes widening, and couldn't think of anything to reply, "..."
I shut my eyes, trying to calm down. My heart is racing so badly. With a couple of breaths, I break out in a sunny demeanor, completely unlike my character, "Come on! Let's finish the movie! We're missing out on all of the fights and I wanna know who's going to―?!"
Soujiro attacks my lips with his, hands grasping each other tightly now. I struggle but my body doesn't comply with my conflicting emotions, feeling my lips involuntarily opening themselves up to welcome Soujiro's tongue into it. I moan, my pelvic humping upwards without thinking, and Soujiro pins it back down with his own hips. I feel the familiar hot pulsing sensation in my groin as my cock begins to harden. Jesus H Christ! Can my body fucking not?! I whine and writhe as I try to fight Soujiro's tongue to put it back inside his mouth, but it was all in vain, since it just made Soujiro think that I'm just kissing him back normally.
Fucking shit!
I am quickly starting to feel crushed under Soujiro's feverish passion against me, and it is getting harder to fight back now. As soon as Soujiro starts to nibble on my bottom lip, I knew it was now or never; with all of my strength, I struggle to sit up and overpower him so that he's on his back now with me on top. Soujiro seems to think of this as an invitation, though, and wraps his legs around my hips to keep me on lock.
"Soujiro..!" I speak as he continues on biting my lower lip, "Please.. stop!"
He lets go of my lip and looks up at me with a sad smile, "I'm sorry. You're so hard for me to resist.. And I.."
I shake my head, "Dude. No. I'm not.. I'm not going to let you inside of me. I'm sorry."
Silence. The movie seemed to have ended since the bedroom has taken on a much darker hue and a long soundtrack is being played with no other sound effects. Soujiro softens his grips on my hands and I let them go softly before leaning over to kiss his forehead lovingly. I hear him whisper, "I'm sorry. I just love you so much, that I.. I wanted to know what it was like to be fused within your bones."
Wait a second. I said that to myself not too long ago, haven't I? Or did I said that to him before? I can't remember. I lean back to look at his face, that beautiful face and those beautiful sapphire eyes. Those long eyelashes, and those lips that are bruised from all the kissing. Could I have wanted something like that to happen to me, too? Could I actually.. enjoy it, somehow? I've never would've imagined myself in this situation, but.. Maybe there really is a first time for everything. Perhaps I'll even like it more than I suspect. Maybe this will somehow drives us two closer together.. and discover something new about myself.
Ugh. Goddammit. But what if I don't? What will be the risks of doing that?
"Kenshin.." Soujiro reaches out a hand to gently touch my face, "You're shaking."
Indeed, I am. I close my eyes and melt into his hand that rests on my cheek for a while. Fuck it. I'll do it. I mumble, "Let's do it."
"Huh?"
"Let's do it. You.." I gulp uneasily, ".. In me."
The room falls black momentarily, and then it glows blue again from the television set. From here, I can see Soujiro's surprised expression. We don't talk or move for what felt like a really long time. Kenshin wants someone to do it to him now? Blasphemous. Unreal. Impossible. But here I am, asking for it to happen. Soujiro still doesn't have a clue on how to react to what I just said, but I don't wait any longer. I feel like the more time passes, the more nervous I will get. I start to kiss him, my hands cupping his jaw lines tenderly. Soujiro lies there motionless as I go on a town in his mouth with my tongue, but slowly starts to respond back to my affection with his own tongue.
My clothes starts to peel off from me as minutes tick by. And since Soujiro was already bottom naked from me playing with him earlier tonight, all that was left was his shirt being taken off. Once we are both completely nude, he climbs back on top of me again, gnawing on my neck. He's never done that before, but to be honest, I really like it. I whimper helplessly as he grabs a fist full of my hair on the side of my head to pull it down, exposing my of my neck on the other side so that he can continue to suck on it. Sparks of pleasure run inside my veins from his sucking. My heart runs rapidly inside of me, meanwhile. I'm so scared but also strangely excited for what will be.
Before long, Soujiro is going down on me to get things started. I run my hands through his hair, my eyes staring at the ceiling, just hoping that I'll make it out of here in one piece. Ha. I guess maybe I am reacting over nothing. Maybe it won't be so bad, and perhaps it'll feel pretty good. I'm not sure if my body can accept.. Soujiro's entire self in me tonight, but maybe his fingers would do for now. I gulp at that thought. Shit. I really hope Soujiro knows what he is doing.
"S.. Soujiro.." I weakly call out, and he stops, humming and blinking curiously at me, "Have you done this before? Being inside another man, I mean."
He blushes and stammers, "Um.. I, um.. no.. not really.. I was always the one to receive it, but not.."
I smile and can feel my lips and the inside of my mouth dry as bone, "Shit. Okay. No problem. First time for everything, right?"
Kill me.
He smiles at me, nodding, "Yeah! You're right! I'm gonna be really careful with you, Kenshin, don't you worry!"
Kill me right the fuck now.
He continues sucking on me and I get all warm and tingly, exhaling, "Hah.. hah.. hah!"
Once he tastes my pre-cum, he decides that I'm ready. I grip on the bed sheets as he picks up the small bottle of lube and lubricates two of his fingers with it. Oh, fuck. Oh, fuck! What did I just agreed into? Am I even emotionally ready for something like this? Fuck, fuck, fuck. I am so fucked, in more ways than one. I shiver as he leans over kiss me for a bit before coming back up to help me spread my legs. My knuckles are probably white from the strong grip on the mattress now. I swear the ceilings above me is spinning. Soujiro goes down on me again and I feel the first brush of his finger in between my butt.
"Hmm!" I purse my lips, flinching from the slimy touch.
Soujiro stops, "Are you okay?"
I nod, looking and sounding really stupid. He laughs, which flairs my irritation now, "Stop laughing!"
"I'm sorry! You're just so cute when you're nervous!" He tries to bite back his laughter, "I promise.. I'll go really, really, slow. Okay?"
I sigh, "Yeah. Okay."
I feel the finger again and I just am about ready to fucking die again. Okay. Deep breaths. Clear your mind. Calm down. This is Soujiro. The love of my life. He would never dare hurt me physically while I'm naked and vulnerable like this. He loves me too much to do such a thing. With my body relaxing, Soujiro senses this and pushes the very first centimeter inside of me with his finger as carefully as possible. Aside from a tiny sharp pinch that then goes away, it wasn't so bad. I bite my lower lip, eyes wide at the ceiling above. Okay. That's the first centimeter. He has a lot to go. At that thought, my body clenches up and the pain returns. I yelp and Soujiro yanks his finger out in surprise.
"Are you okay?!" He lays a hand on my stomach.
"Y-yeah. Sorry." I blink, frowning, "I just freaked out for a sec there. Try again."
"Are you sure? Do you.. do you want me to stop?"
"No!" I almost sit up to look at him, "Please, continue! I.. I want this. I really do. I promise."
He looks so unsure and I lean all the way back down, smiling and nodding at him to continue. He sits still, looking at my body carefully for a while before he gets back to work. I feel the first two centimeters going through me and I am trying to breathe meanwhile to accommodate the foreign girth inside of me. He licks and swallows my cock to let the pleasure climb over the pain inside of my hole (ugh), and uses plenty of lube like every minute or so. I'm afraid he's going to use up all the lube before he.. No. I didn't agreed for him to use his dick in me, did I? I said fingers only. Yeah. That's right. Fingers only for tonight.
H'boy.
He keeps sucking and pushing slowly inside of me until his finger is all the way inside of me. Okay.. it's starting to feel pretty good thanks to the oral sex. I am breathing and moaning as he goes down on me happily. He slowly and very carefully slides in and out half way with his finger as he continues to deep throat me. With that and the careful pumping and the lube.. it isn't too bad. Doesn't feel bad at all, actually. Alien and strange and foreign, sure, but.. I expected it to feel a lot worse for some reason. Thank goodness I can try and stay calm even in dire situations. Not that being sexual with Soujiro is ever dire, but you know what I mean!
I then start to feel a second finger brushing up against my opening. Okay. Take it easy, Kenshin. You got this. I continue to breathe from my stomach to relax all of my muscles. I wonder who was the first guy to do this kind of thing with Soujiro when he lost his virginity. Whoever the dude who did that was.. Ha ha. I'll fucking kill him. I'm just kidding, but I'm still pretty jealous. Whatever, it doesn't matter. His second finger goes in with the first centimeters. Minutes go by, and so do the centimeters. There were times when it felt too painful or too hot down there that Soujiro would stop pumping and just focus on deep throating me, or adding more lube. He'd ask me a few times if I want his fingers out of me or if it's too much. Well, it is a bit too much, but.. I think I can handle it.
And so, he continues.
"Ah!" I cried out suddenly.
"Kenshin?!" Soujiro stops everything he's doing at that sound.
I lie there, in shock, and then I slowly stutter, ".. D-do that.. again."
Soujiro blinks, confused, until he moves his finger again just like last time, "Like this?"
"Hah!" I gasp and flinch acutely, "Ugh!"
"Does that.." Soujiro's smile fades into a dark smirk, "Feel good?"
He rubs that spot inside of me and I squirm, feeling saliva starting to pool inside my mouth. It feels so fucking good, what the fuck? What is happening to my body?! I grit my teeth and shut my eyes as if in pain, grabbing Soujiro's forearms helplessly as the pleasure rises inside of me. He fingers me properly now, smooth and quick movements throwing my body into a sea of ecstasy. I feel like I can't catch a moment to breathe in or think or say anything properly, because Soujiro's fingers just seems to shock my body again and again.
"Hey.." Soujiro sighs sultry, "Do you think you can take on my cock, now?"
"Hmmm!" I groan while he slows the movement of his fingers down so that I can respond to him, "I don't know! This is.. incredible, but.. what if you rip me down there?"
"Hm," Soujiro nods, "Yeah. Maybe you're right. You need more time and preparation. We can save it for a later date. Do you want me to continue fingering you, though?"
I shiver because the saliva is finally coming out from the side of my mouth and I had to quickly drape my arm over my face to hide it from him, "Yes!"
He starts laughing, "God, you're adorable. Okay. Relax for me, now.."
He fingers me and I soon lose control of all my usual composure; I am leaning my head back over the edge of the mattress and moaning from all the pleasure, panting and just behaving in a way that I've never acted before. I never knew I'd like something like this! This is insane! It feels terrific! I'm at a loss for words over the fact that I had feared something like this, that ended up being one of the most pleasurable experiences of my life. No wonder Soujiro acts so strange when I'm fingering him or fucking him in the ass. Getting your prostate stimulated is unlike anything I've been through.
I couldn't take it anymore and I whine exasperatedly, "Okay, fine! Fine! I think I'm ready!"
"Ready? For.. oh.." Soujiro slows down his fingering and soon retrieves them out of me completely, which felt nicely relieving, "Okay. Are you sure?"
"Yes!" I said that a little too loudly, so I cringe and whisper, "Yeah. Totally."
"Oh, Kenshin." Soujiro chuckles, popping the lid of the bottle of lube again, before squeezing it over his own dick. He leaves some to rub it in between my cheeks down below, as well as fingering me a little bit to get me warmed up and ready. My stomach is dropping from the highest level I've ever felt in my life, and it's scaring me. My face is searing and my heart is just one second away from going into a cardiac arrest. Everything around me doesn't feel real, and yet.. it feels hyper realistic all at the same time. I'm painfully aware of Soujiro's breathing as well as my own; the perspiration on my forehead that travels down my temples and into my hair. The dull, pulsing feeling inside of my.. well, area down there.. is making me embarrassed. Is it yearning for Soujiro or something?
Gah! This is crazy! I never thought I'd ever be on the "receiving" end!
I see Soujiro shuffling up to come in between my inner thighs while holding his dick. He lies his other hand on my torso for some reason, and he nods at me, "Just breathe, okay?"
I can't. I instantly freeze up all over and look at him like a deer caught in head lights. He sees this and blinks, frowning.
"Are you okay?"
I bite on my lower lip, nodding, "Y-yeah. Just.. nervous, I guess."
He sits there quietly, and then he smiles, "Yeah. I'm nervous too."
"Huh? Why?"
He looks down, that shy smile still plastered on his face, "It's just.. I think this is the first time I'm having sex with such a gorgeous boy like you. You really are so good looking, it kills me every time I look at you. Everyone likes how you look, Kenshin.. it's either that, or they envy you. I see why you're so popular with the ladies. It's just no secret, with what you've been blessed with. I don't know if you know this, but.. I'm fucking shaking like a leaf inside, ha ha ha!"
My eyes waver, "Soujiro.."
"I hope that you don't feel rushed or forced into doing something you're not ready to do. It's just.. tonight has been the most.. loving, and romantic evening of my life, and I feel so in love with you that I just want to.. claim you for myself. Like just.. leaving something of myself within you.. so that you will always remember me if anything bad happens.."
"Bad? Something bad will happen to you?" I prop up on my elbows, staring at him in concern, "Soujiro, what are you trying to say?"
Soujiro leans in to kiss my lips sweetly before responding, "Nothing. I just don't know what's going to happen in the future, is all. Will your friends kick you out of their group and will that alone be enough for you to leave me? Maybe so, and to be honest, I wouldn't be surprised or hold it against you. Will my father find out about us and force me to live someplace else so far away that you'll never find me again? Maybe so, and to be honest, I wouldn't guilt you into trying to do so. There's so much that can go wrong in the future, and really.. just for tonight.. I just want to let go of everything that's pent up inside of me.. and just live for the moment of being here with the boy I love with my entire heart."
Great. Now I'm crying.
"Soujiro, I..!" I hiccup, tears hot on their trails over my cheeks, "I promise you.. that nothing will come in between us! I'll always fight for you, and.. for us.. I'll always do everything in my power to make sure you stay in my life! I love you, Soujiro! I love you, I.."
I couldn't finish and let my sobbing take over, and Soujiro simply leans over to kiss me. We slowly descend down on the mattress together, him still on top of me. And in between tongues dancing together and feeling his thumb rubbing a single tear away from my face.. I felt it; the fresh prickle of getting pierced down there for the first time. I yelp weakly, stunned. Soujiro hushes me gently, kissing my cheek and my eye lid, as lovingly as he'd always been. I couldn't react properly before he very slowly begins to thrust his hips into me, careful to add very small increments of his member into me at a time. He coaches me quietly into my ear to relax, when to exhale and to think of something else besides the burning sensation down there.
Despite that, though.. it really does feel good.
"Ugh.. hnng.. hmm!" I have my arms criss crossed each other with my hands gripping on Soujiro's shoulder blades for extra support, "Hah.. hah.. unngh!"
"Hah.. Kenshin.." Soujiro moans as he's nearly all the way inside of me, "Do you.. need more of that.."
"Yes." I kiss his neck, knowing what he meant.
He carefully places his hands on the mattress to lean his upper body from me and reach for the bottle of lube. Trying to not pop himself out of me, he squirts some more of the clear liquid on the remaining length of his member as well as around the rim of my opening. I blush just thinking that. Jesus Christ. I hope the orgasm is worth it. At last, Soujiro places the bottle away and with his hands still on the mattress, just away from my shoulders, he starts to grind his hips downward. He is now all the way in and I am trying not to freak the fuck out. Oh my God. Oh my fucking God. He is actually in me. As he thrusts into me a little harder, I arch my neck with a silent groan, eyes wide and filled with indiscernible emotions. It took some time, but soon.. it doesn't hurt as much than it does feel fucking amazing.
"Ohh.. God!" I shut my eyes as the strangest feelings start to take over my body, with a level of pleasure that I have never experienced before, "Hah!"
"Hnng!" Soujiro trembles all over before going super hard on the thrusting, which.. is kinda hilarious. Oh my God.
"Ha ha, Soujiro, wait!" I had to hold my mouth because I kept giggling too hard, "Slow down!"
He does and he looks at me wide eyed, "I'm sorry! Are you hurt?"
"Yeah, dude, just.. slow down. You were going at it like a jack rabbit."
He blinks, and then scowls, "Well, sorr-ee!"
I touch his cheek, shaking my head at his adorableness, "God. You're perfect. Keep going. It feels.. sooo good."
He growls from underneath his throat at what I just said and attacks my mouth with his. He starts his thrusting again and he seems to be hitting a spot in there that drives me up the wall. With the head board hitting against the wall behind us, the bluish glow from the television screen, as well as the sound of Soujiro's sexy breaths and moaning in my ear sounds.. I'm starting to feel really dizzy. I am making sounds that I've never done before, sounds that would normally embarrass the shit out of me in other circumstances, but feels so freeing to do now at a time like this. I can't believe something like this would feel so good.
I love it.
"Hrrm," Soujiro smirks as he levels himself above me again so that I can look at his face, "I can feel you tightening around me in intervals."
I am shaking and feeling so hot all over that I can't respond properly without groaning, "..?"
He leans back down to whisper into my ear, "I think you're cumming."
Truthful to my naturally rebellious nature, I scoff, "No I'm not!"
He nods, his hips grinding deliciously hard and fast this time, "Yeah you are.."
"Huunnggh!" I throw my head back in pleasure, "No I'm not..!"
"Yeah you are.."
"No, I'm.." I feel a strange pull in my lower torso and it feels so good I start to shake, "I'm..!"
"Yeah you are.." Soujiro moans deeply, going faster now.
Fuck!
I've reached the end of the rope; my body convulses acutely as a shot of hot cum springs out of my cock and splattering all over both of our chests and stomachs, biting my lower lip to silence my scream. A blast of a coppery taste enters my tongue and I quickly realize that it's my blood from biting on my lip too hard. Despite that little painful moment, I am quickly brought back into the sea of pleasure as Soujiro thrusts into my hole until he, too, cums inside of me. Feeling another man's orgasm entering inside my body.. has to be both the strangest, and yet amazing, feeling on the planet. Because it belongs to Soujiro.. from his body and from his love for me.
Soujiro limps over my body and we lie there, panting and totally wiped out.
"Fuck.. that was.." Soujiro gulps, wheezing, "That felt so fucking good.."
I lean my forehead between the area of his neck and shoulder, "Yeah.."
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We took our time, catching our breaths and getting ourselves cooled down. We're lucky this hotel room has such a nice temperature setting going on right now so that we're not freezing nor boiling from the rigorous activity. Looks like we have to take yet another shower. What?! It's fucking awesome having a fancy-shmancy walk in shower! After we showered together (I had to fight with every ounce not to suddenly plummet myself into Soujiro's ass when he accidentally dropped the bar of soap in there), we walked out and checked the time to see it's nearly nine thirty. Two and a half hours until the fireworks show. Soujiro and I decided to watch another movie, snuggled up together under the blankets and everything, and we excitedly head out to the balcony around ten minutes before the show.
"Do you think we're gonna be able to see from up here?" I ask Soujiro, who's leaning over the railing to look at the night sky.
"I hope so! I didn't get this great room just so I can get a lousy view!" He laughs, which makes me smile. Everything about him is so pleasant and lovely. It's hard to keep my hands to myself when he's around. It's hard to keep my eyes on anything or anyone else, but on him. It's hard to think of much of anything except him and his beautiful face. I walk up from behind him and wrap my arms around him, snuggling up into his hair, breathing in that magnificent scent. Soujiro always smells good no matter what, even after sex. Soujiro sighs contently, "You've really gotten soft since you've met me, huh?"
I smile in his hair, "Yeah. It's all your fault. I was such a hard ass until you came along."
He chuckles, "Well, my apologies. Guess I'll have to spend the rest of my life making sure you don't get too soft on me."
I forcefully turn him around before kissing his lips, my grasp on his jawline firm yet loving. Soujiro stands there, stunned at this, but he doesn't push me away. I break away from the kiss, my look no doubt a cross between being hopelessly in love with him.. as well as being deadly serious for what I'm about to say next. His eyes look concerned and the cold wind picks up in intensity, his hair brushing over his eyes and forehead. No matter what time of day it is, Soujiro never fails to look exquisite.
"Yeah. You will spend the rest of your life with me, Soujiro." I kiss him before he could respond, shutting him up, and I break away once more to smirk at him, "If I ever do come across something absolutely horrible about you, or your dad, or your company, or your past.. it really doesn't matter now, does it? Because if you try and run from me.."
I pin my lower body against his, kissing him again with tongue this time, and he moans from it, "Hnng.."
I speak against his lips, "I will fucking find you. And I'll make you mine again. You won't know your own shadows from my own, because you and I will become one of the same. You are mine, down to the last dust of your bones.. If I find you again, I'll fuck you brutally and make you feel so good, there's no way you'll find it again with anyone again. I'm the only one who can make you cum so much. Don't you dare forget it. Am I making any sense to you?"
His eyes flutter upward and experiences an ecstasy shiver in his body at my intensity, "Yes..!"
I give him one last kiss, to seal the deal.
And at that moment, a single flair shoots up into the sky with a high pitch screech, prompting the both of us to look up in awe as it explodes in a furious white light.
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(To be continued)