Author's note: Rated M+ for strong sexual scenes.
"So try living life
Instead of hiding in the bedroom
Show me a smile
And I'll promise not to leave you"
- Red House Painters
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I finished my chores with my dad and he gave me the OK to rest in my bedroom afterwards. He says he'd love to spend some time with me, but he wanted to catch up on some work on his laptop. I gave him a funny look and asked him if he meant doing that investigation against Tsukino Seta, but he reassured me that he won't start right now. Sunday is the day of rest, after all, and it'd be better to start all of that shit tomorrow. He also wants me to go to school tomorrow, in case the cops want to face me.
I teased him and asked him if he wants me to ask for Mrs Kita's number during homeroom tomorrow. All I got was a stony glare and I laughed.
Anyway.
I lie on my bed and fiddle with my phone, checking out some apps and browsing the web, when I hear a familiar ping. My heart drops when I check my text messages and see "Soujiro 2" on my list. I made sure to save the number of that other phone after he called me with it, to prepare for his eventual re-contact with me. I'm happy we got to talk on the phone this morning; hearing his voice is always such a treat. It always sounds so soft and sweet to my ears.
hey babe! my dad wants to take me out to go shopping. i guess he's feeling bad for hurting me and wants to make it up. of course i don't believe he's actually sorry, but i don't mind draining his money for today. how are you, my love?
lmao that's right DRAIN that motherfucker out of every yen he's worth! i'm doing okay, just chillin. my face is really healing up nicely, so i will def be going to school tomorrow. i can't wait to see you again.
you're so sweet :D is there something you need at the mall?
uhhhh now that you've mentioned it, i do need maybe a couple of t-shirts and socks. luckily for us we are the same size so it shouldn't be hard.
yea okay, i'll get those for u then. i gotta go but i'll keep you up to date.
okay BYE THEN
BYE LOSER LOL
I chuckle and lean my head against the pillow completely, closing my eyes with a comforting sigh. I guess it can't be helped. I really do love being in this relationship with Soujiro. To think he was so against it before, and to think I tried so hard to reject him when he first came here.. It's honestly insane how attached at the hip we've become now. The only thing standing between us being together nearly twenty four hours a day, seven days a week.. is his dad. I open my eyes, humming.
I really hope that fucking prick doesn't try to hurt Soujiro at all today. I'd rather they don't spend the day together at all. But I mean, I do trust that Soujiro can keep himself safe in a large, public space; there's no way his dad would actually lay a finger on him in front of a bunch of people, not unless they want the press come after them with pictures and have online articles written about them coming out of it. He wouldn't dare put his image into jeopardy just like that.
So, I guess I do have nothing to worry about. But Soujiro better keep me up to date for today. There's no telling what his dad might be up to, secretly. I frown at my phone, feeling all of a sudden sick with anxiety.
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Should I try to sneak out and stalk them in secret?
I blink and immediately snap out of it. What the fuck is with me? I can't just follow them! What if his dad sees me? What if Soujiro sees me and gets pissed? He'd be in his right mind to! No. I can't. As much as I would love to see him right now, I have to be patient and not act on any impulses right now. Soujiro's got a point the other night when he told me that we need to take this slow. We would have to restart this whole process of keeping our relationship tightly under wraps, and I don't just mean our romantic love life. I also mean..
I gulp, my face feeling flushed. Fuuuuck. What I'd give to kiss those lips and let him suck my dick again. I growl and rub my hands over my face in frustration. It would feel so good to have him like that again, right here, right now. Ugh. Fuck. Oh well. Nothing I can do except touch myself. I get up from my bed and head to the bathroom, turning on the shower head. My dad did a great job renovating this part and it looks much cleaner than before. The steam starts to smoke through the entire space, and I strip myself out of my clothes.
I smirk. Time for some private fun.
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We arrive by our private driver at this upscale, luxury shopping mall center that I have been in before. It's where I went to shop for new clothes before enrolling into Kenshin's school, in fact. I've always enjoyed the atmosphere here. My dad decided to literally buy the entire place for ourselves for a few hours, leaving just the two of us and a chaperone to accompany us. All the shopkeepers were especially anxious to wait on us hand and foot for today. All the female retail workers were either gushing over our dashing good looks, or listening intently to my father every time he decides to talk about his company. While he's chatting with a few young women and making them giggle, I sigh secretly to myself, and decide to wander off into the men's suits section in silence. I really don't need to stick around while my dad wants to act like a fool.
My dad likes them young. There's nearly a fifteen years' gap between my parents when my mother was alive. She was twenty-one to his thirty-five when I was born; they apparently met when she was just seventeen going on eighteen years old, and living with her parents back in her home out in the countryside. He loved her charm and beauty, completely unlike any other women he's ever known, according to him. So of course, with some promise of money to her parents, he snatched her up and married her within a few months time. She was pregnant with me about a few years later after that. At my age right now, I can't even imagine holding an infant in my arms. I don't think I can do that even when I'm twenty-one years old either, like when she had me!
My mother really did suffered a lot, didn't she? It disgusts me that he wanted to impregnate such a young girl when he was at that age. I shiver, revolted by the sheer thoughts of it.
Trailing my fingers against the fabrics of the suits hanging on either the mannequins or on the clothing hangers, I can't help but think about Kenshin. He was wearing a suit when he took Kaoru to the school dance. He looked so good that night, it was maddening. I remember coming into the school with my date and seeing them together; how handsome he looked in that suit, and how much I wanted to just go over there and kiss him on the lips, despite Kaoru being right there and all. I suppose my date wouldn't have appreciated that one bit, despite her not really feeling anything towards me. But, I held myself back, for everybody's sakes. I only took that other girl out because I felt sorry for her broken heart at the time. She was going through her own break up with some other guy, and said how hurt she felt that he decided to take someone else to the dance. Wanting to be a gentleman and all, of course I told her I'd be more than happy to take her to the dance and help her get her mind off of him. I did that as a friend, after all.
I scoff at that memory. I really, really shouldn't have done that with Sayo Amakusa.
And then Kenshin, being such a moody little bastard like he always is, decided to not only take Kaoru to the dance, but actually get into an entire relationship with her as well! Like a real, actual relationship! The kiss they shared on the dance floor, all while I was sitting at that table not too far from them, was enough to break my heart into the next century. I remember how horrified I felt looking at them doing it. I remember watching them with tears in my eyes and my knuckles trembling from grabbing onto the edge of my seat so hard. I remember rushing out of that seat and ignoring my date's questioning, even telling her to please just shut the fuck up and let me be, which was so uncharacteristic to my usual friendly self.. And crying my eyes out in the boys bathroom.. Wishing I could just text or call Kenshin to scream at him to just stop kissing Kaoru already..
It was a rough night. The roughest night of my life, almost. I hated Kaoru so much for letting him kiss her like that. So of course I came onto Kenshin for that. Maybe.. Maybe I did wanted to hurt her badly, deep down.
I sigh bitterly, looking up at the ceilings above me. There are these beautiful chandeliers hanging on them. Kenshin is never going to feel welcomed in a world like mines, would he? I look at the floor, crestfallen. I don't know why, but I can't stop thinking about those two. Why? Is it something I'm just worrying over nothing? Am I feeling nervous for some other reason? I suppose it's just so hard right now, emotionally; so much has been broken completely down in my life, and all secrets are now becoming exposed. My father is not dumb. He knows that I am seeing someone right now. He probably saw those text messages already and is just trying to find some way to move us out as soon as he is able to.
I feel like I resent Kaoru so much right now. She represents something I've always dreamed about in my own life: The imagery of being painfully normal and thus, loved for it. I can't help that I was born this way. I can't help that I can only feel arousal towards the male body instead of the female form. She gets to be with men and no one will ever say anything about it, ever. If anything, she gets celebrated for it, all the while I get spat on like I am vermin. She got to have Kenshin first, romantically speaking. She got to be his girlfriend first. She got to spend so many years of her life with him as a friend first. So of course, it's hard not to be envious over her.
And what's worse right now, is that I haven't seen a hair nor hide from her at all nowadays. It's enough to make me extra nervous about it. I wonder where on Earth she is right now these days. The other guys seem evasive about it, but I know I have to pry more, because this is killing me. What if Kaoru is going around, telling my private business to anybody who would be willing to listen to her? I can't have her do that to us. To me, especially.
That does it. I whip out my new phone while hiding in a corner somewhere, and start texting Kenshin.
hey babe. i am just wondering, but whatever became of miss kaoru kamiya? i don't wanna bring up any bad memories between you two or whatever, but i guess i'm just wondering.
My father still hasn't given me my actual phone back. I don't know where it is, but it must still be locked inside his home office. I really wish he could just give it the fuck back to me already and stop being such an asswipe. The phone vibrates and I look down to read it.
yeah i guess the guys haven't told you, but she basically moved in with some other family from out of town. she is not in kyoto any longer.
I blink at the screen, bewildered. Kaoru moved away? All over such a short relationship between them? I don't know why, but that makes my blood start to steam. My eyes narrows and I begin typing.
do you know where she is? i hate what i've done to her but i don't want her to completely uproot her entire life just because of me..
I look over my shoulder to see if father is around. I don't want him to know about this secret phone. I feel the phone vibrate again.
sano and yahiko wouldn't tell me, but it can't be that far. and anyway, she's the least of my concerns right now. i have you in my mind, first and foremost, to think about. and some other shit too haha.
I'm still not convinced, for some reason. I exhale, annoyed.
such as?
like... the police and shit, bro? wtf is with you today?
Really?!
um, yeah. it's called i fucking miss you and maybe i just need to be comforted, kenshin. this is what you are supposed to do as my boyfriend.
It's quiet for a moment much longer than usual. My stomach drops. Is he ignoring me? I want to shoot him another text, but I hold myself back. Finally, he responds.
oh. do you want me to call you?
Tears are spiking my eyes now.
no... i just want to cry right now.
cry? why, what's wrong?
it's just... i'm scared you miss her. like, in that way.
dude. you're the one i want. not her.
really? you swear?
i'm fucking dead serious. dude! i hate to remind you but who was it that i broke my fucking face for? who's the one who's doing all of this just to keep a relationship continuing? who's the one i've been saying "i love you" COUNTLESS of times now? it's YOU. it's always going to be YOU. stop being an idiot already!
I chuckle bitterly. Oh, Kenshin. For some reason, I don't really feel all that relieved.
i know. i guess... i guess i'm still fucking mad deep down over you doing those things with her. i don't have any reason to be like this, i know, but... yeah
i think i get it. and i wish i could apologize for hurting you like that. but like i said before, hon.. you are the clear winner here. you're the one i want so much. you're the one i want in my future, too. not her. it was never gonna be her. i promise.
Okay. Now I feel relieved, thanks to reading this. My heart starts to float inside my chest happily and I sigh. Okay. So maybe I am just having weird anxiety over nothing. Of course. I gulp, my smile weak and trembling. I miss him so much. Why can't this day be over already. I would do anything to see his face again and kiss it until it's all better from all that's been done to it. I can't bear to stay away from him anymore. But this is my fate as of now. I have to play pretend and take everything slow with him. I can't afford to mess things up anymore than it is now with both of our shenanigans.
thank you, kenshin. i love you so much.
i love you too. god, i miss you.
soon, babe, soon. i will let you know if my dad will give me my other phone back plus whether i'll be at school tomorrow or not.
please do.
i better go, but pls take care of yourself.
I put my phone away when I see, from the corner of one row of hung suits, that my father is walking through the mall outside of the store that I am hiding in right now. He is with a younger woman. She can't be older than twenty-five by the looks of it, and my stomach starts to churn. I thought my dad was seeing someone. Maybe they broke up and he never told me? Well, maybe it's better he doesn't give me any details like that. Like I said before, he likes them young, and I hate hearing about it, anyway. No one could ever replace my real mother. Certainly not to younger women who's only looking for a meal ticket and some money to coast by.
I sigh before braving myself to put on my usual cheery face, and head down to where they are at. Though they know of my presence, the young woman was immersed with what my father is telling her, and my father promptly ignores me as I walk from behind them.
This is my life, after all.
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We shopped around for a bit and I got what I needed to purchase. I even got what Kenshin was asking for, because I am such a good boyfriend like that. It was a bit tense between my father and I, but we made it through. He was more into talking with that other tramp than with me, so I just quietly did my shopping before we both headed on home. He mentioned needing to cancel our usual Sunday dinner with me, and I very nearly wanted to snap at him and ask if it's because he's going out with that whore from the shopping mall instead. But I smiled and told him that it's fine, that I needed to catch up on some reading for today and to enjoy himself.
I need to get away from him, anyway.
Now back in my bedroom, I feel too dirty and gross after spending the morning and early afternoon with him, so I've decided to take a second shower for today. I've taken the liberty of buying myself some new shampoo and conditioner, and wanted to give it a shot. It smells great, and I imagine Kenshin would ask what I've been using since I smell so good. I blush and smile at that thought. Afterwards, I used a new bar of soap and made a mental note to introduce Kenshin to it the next time he comes back here. If he ever actually gets to be here again. I sigh, deflating.
Fuck my life.
I shut off the shower heads and dry off with a towel. I still have the rest of the day to relax, but I'm still feeling anxious. I still need to talk to father about what's going to happen this week. Will he let me go to school, or will I still be under house arrest? Will he ever give me my old phone back? I dress in some comfortable clothes and sift through my shopping bags out of sheer boredom, when there is a knock on my door. Just like that, all of my questions are about to be answered. A male butler, who's name I don't remember nor care to, bows to me humbly before speaking: "Master Soujiro, your father would like to have a word with you in his office. Shall I take you there?"
I tilt my head to the side with a smile, "Certainly. You may escort me."
He does so, and I follow him side to side down the hallways to where that dreadful large door looms ahead. I clench my fists secretly on both sides, but keep my expression steady so as to not rouse any suspicions in my walking partner. As he politely knocks on the door, I can hear my father's voice asking us to come in from the other side, and we do so.
Father is wearing a black silk pajama set to rest comfortably as he works on his laptop. The same laptop I broke in with Sano and Shakku all that time ago. I bite my inner bottom lip at the sight of that thing, but again, kept my composure. I can't let my dad know about that. As the butler takes his leave and shuts the door behind me, I look on ahead at my dad as he looks back at me with a stern expression.
It's quiet in here. I can hear my own heartbeat inside my eardrums. Will there be more punishments? Will he hit me again? He doesn't say anything for a while and neither did I.
Finally, he nods and mumbles, "Was today fun?"
No.
"Yes! I really love the new clothes that you got me!" I chirp, really trying to play up the happy son act.
He chuckles, "That's good. I'm sorry we won't be able to have dinner tonight like we usually do, but it's a business thing. You know how it is."
I laugh nonchalantly, "That's quite alright, father! I know you have a lot of work to do, so it's no problem!"
He is quiet for a moment, and he smirks wider, "You're probably wondering when I will be giving you your phone back."
I look at him, my smile placid against my face. I don't respond.
He chuckles to himself, "Fine. You may have it back. I never was able to look at anything through it. Company that makes it made their user security quite clear with them; I would have needed your face in front of it to open."
Thank you, modern technology!
He opens his drawer where he sits to retrieve my phone and sets it on top of the desk now, "I hope that this and the shopping today are both sufficient in my apologies to you, Soujiro."
I hesitate, looking at my phone. It looks to be turned off completely. Maybe the batteries on it are dead. I'm not one to be very careful on keeping the battery life on it as high as I should since I tend to forget to charge it most of the time. Maybe Kenshin is not the only one who's bad at stuff like that. I finally take a few steps towards his desk carefully, my smile weakening in it's confidence, but I keep it on never the less. I take the phone in my hand and grasp it firmly with both hands in my chest. I look down at my father with relief in my eyes.
"Thank you.. Father."
He is staring at me now, as if trying to dissect something out of my own eyes. Does he sense fear in me? Does he revel in the fact that I am afraid of him? I look at him, confusion and a hint of trepidation no doubt fading into my eyes, too.
And then, he says something that stops me in my tracks: "Kenshin Himura."
I look at him vacantly, stupefied.
He sniggers, "Well now, that got your attention. The company's billing department sent over some information about covering medical expenses of one of it's employee's dependents, which is the man who you told me to hire. And of course, that boy's named popped up in the documents. Kenshin Himura. Who is he?"
I gulp, but I quickly come back with a chuckle, "O-oh. He's.. he's the guy who stood up for me against that gang of ruffians, sir."
"Hm," He nods, "So he's the one who defended your honor against your bullies. Because you don't know how to keep your sickness to yourself. Fascinating."
The grip that I have on my phone tightens. Fuck you. What I'd give to clobber something hard against your fucking skull until you're as good as dead.
"But," He gets up and I take a step back nervously, "I must say, I am impressed that this young man was brave enough to fight against such a strong individual who tried to pester you. This Kenshin sounds like he's got a lot of fighting spirit. He had to have an operation done to his face to fix that nose of his. I'd like to say that he's a real good friend of yours, but I must say.. I'm a little suspicious."
I don't say anything, fear spreading in my heart like ink expanding in water.
".. How can someone you've befriended just mere months ago, would go out of their way so much as to get themselves in such bad shape? Even I would never let someone else break my face just because they've said a few mean words to you."
That's because you don't love me.
My smile trembles and so do my words, "I suppose.. Maybe I just met a true friend for once in my life."
He sighs, "Soujiro. What friend? You don't have any friends. Who could befriend such a degenerate like yourself?"
My eyes flutter close and I fight with everything I can to not let the tears flow out. Don't let his words hurt you, Soujiro. You're stronger than this.
He watches me carefully for a while and then grumbles, "Fine. So you met a true real friend, then. I'm sure this young man means a lot to you."
I look at the floor with a sad smile, "I don't know how to thank him."
"Well," He scoffs, "You've certainly thanked him with the bills we had to pay him. The ones I had to pay for, in fact. I think that should be more than enough."
I tremble as my eyes downcast even further downwards, "Yes, sir."
He is quiet for a moment again, and then sighs again, "I am going to set down some new rules. You will be going back to school starting tomorrow morning. You will do what you need to do for your classes, and then I want you to come straight home afterwards. I will not be handing you your keys back for this reason. You will not be going out after school anymore, nor will you be going out during the weekends. You are to focus on your studies and that's it."
I grunt, the fear in my heart now turning into pain. I can't go out anymore? I can't.. I won't be able to see Kenshin after school anymore?
"I would like to meet this Kenshin fellow on the upcoming Friday evening, to properly meet and thank him for protecting you. You won't be able to see him or anyone else anymore. We will be preparing for our departure and head back home to Tokyo during the summer."
I whip my head up at him, stunned beyond belief. He must've loved the way I look now, because his smile is wide and sickening.
"I figured you would enjoy the summer back at home where you belong. I wanted to introduce the company culture back at the original headquarters before you head off to university. Think of it as a summer internship of sorts to get you properly started," He turns around to face his wide windows that overlooks the courtyard below, "Not to mention.. I have someone I want you to meet Wednesday evening. She is my current beau's second cousin who's about your age and is in the process of trying to find a suitable partner for a future marriage. I figure that would be perfect for the company to enjoy in a couple of years' time. You will meet this young girl and you two will be in a proper relationship. This is not a negotiation."
The floor below me opens up and I am falling down in slow motion, horror encompassing my entire being. I can barely stand to be in that room any longer, but my feet are stuck and I can't move.
He turns around with a self-assured smile and gives me a nod, "That will be all, son. Run along and enjoy the rest of this fine Sunday."
Kenshin..
My knees buckle and I nearly collapse, but I turn around on my heels and carefully make my way to the door.
Kenshin..
I turn the door handle and got myself out of that room, my entire body still quivering in shock.
Kenshin..!
I make my way back to my room and shut the door behind me before hurrying back into my bathroom, ripping all of my clothes off from my body. I turn on the shower heads, blasting it on full and the temperature nearly as hot as I can withstand. The water burns and singes on my body, and I grit my teeth. With sound proof walls, all doors locked, and the sound of the water swooshing violently against me and the tile floors.. no one can hear me now.
Kenshin!
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And finally, I could scream.
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"He said what?!"
I look at Soujiro incredulously as he leans against his locker, staring down at the floor in dejection. It is finally Monday morning, and near the beginning of homeroom. While students walk by us, laughing and chatting up a storm about other inane subjects, here we are, both completely speechless over the news that Soujiro has to fucking go back to Tokyo in the summer.
He shrinks into himself with a wince, "I'm sorry.. Kenshin.. I couldn't.. stand up to him.."
I sigh. Even now, Soujiro's always full of apologies when it just isn't warranted. Poor guy.
"Dude, no, don't be like that," I shake my head, wanting so much to touch him right now, but knowing that we're in a public space stops me from doing so, "It's not your fault. We'll think of something, I promise."
He looks up at me, not convinced at all, but he decides to say nothing and looks back on the floor with a side glance, grunting.
"Hey guys!" We hear a familiar voice calling out to us and I am met with a friendly pat on my back by none other than Sanosuke, "What's going on?"
"His fucking dad basically just told him that they're moving out this summer," I respond while turning to look at him, "Back to Tokyo."
"What?"
"You guys," Soujiro sighs, straightening himself up and leaning away from his locker now, "We shouldn't panic right now."
Sanosuke sneers, "Right, like hell I should be calm right now!"
"Sano," I put my hands up in a defensive stance, "Just hold on a minute, okay? I told Soujiro that we'll think of something."
"Like what?" Sanosuke crosses his arms in front of his chest, waiting impatiently.
I sigh, "I don't know right now. I have to think about it. But I think we should contact Shakku again."
"Shakku?" Sanosuke blinks, "Oh, because he's a computer whiz?"
"No, because he's a fucking ballerina dancer." I scoff, pinching the bridge of my nose exasperatedly. At least it made Soujiro giggle behind me.
"So then, we'll need Shakku's help to maybe spy on the dad? That's a great idea! I could get in contact with him today, we've been playing online these days anyway so it's no biggie." Sanosuke nods.
"Goo-oood morning!" We hear yet another familiar face behind us all and we see Yahiko saluting us happily, along with Megumi and Misao standing on both sides of him, "How're you all doing?"
"You're in a good mood." Sanosuke chuckles, "And good morning to you ladies as well."
"Charmed, I'm sure," Megumi puts out her hand to which we all witness in stunned silence as Sanosuke promptly takes it in his hand to give it a little kiss on the top of it.
"W-whoa," I stagger backwards, "Are you guys.. like..?"
Megumi takes her hand back and sneers, "Yeah right! Take a joke, will ya?"
The rest of the gang have a proper laugh, except for Soujiro and I. Although things seem to be more or less back to normal as a group, there is still one more person who is still a little iffy with us, and that's Misao. She is looking at us dead on meanwhile, and we both feel on edge with her. I wonder if she's still in a lot of contact with Kaoru. I wonder if she'd even let me talk to her again.
Wouldn't hurt to ask, right?
Right. I'll just have to find a proper time and place to confront Misao later and see if she can get me back into contact with Kaoru again.
As the laughter dies down, Misao takes a step forward and she looks right at me and, with the most serious voice I have ever heard from her in my life, says, "Kenshin. I'd like to speak with you.. If that's okay."
Oh. Well.. Fuck. I guess she must've read my mind. Still doesn't fail to knock the wind out of me and I could only respond by staring at her, surprised by her breaking the silence like this.
She doesn't move or say anything else, though. Just frowning into my eyes, and we look at each other in silence. I hear Sanosuke telling the others "Come on." quietly, and the rest of them start to walk past us both. One by one they walk on, and the last one to leave is Soujiro, who at the very least trails his fingers gingerly on my back as he passes me by as a silent way of telling me he will wait for me in the homeroom. My eyes flashes at him just in time to see him look at me from behind his shoulder, nodding and smiling mutely. I smile back, nodding and he walks on back to homeroom, leaving Misao and I alone finally.
I watch her as she takes her time, her eyelashes fanning across her cheeks as she looks down at the floor.
I really missed Misao so much. I am not one to express emotions like this openly, but I've thought of her a lot during her absence in my life. As much as I love my other guy friends, as well as the girls in general.. Misao is the one who never made me feel judged as a member of the opposite sex. Kaoru was someone I definitely used to feel nervous around, because she's technically richer than all of us before Soujiro came around; Megumi has that certain "too cool for you" girly girl shit that makes me feel some type of distance from her, even if I do care for her a lot. Misao's the only girl who knows what it's like to be piss poor, being made fun of for that by our peers, and not being one of the best students in school. She's very much into the whole being yourself thing that also comforts me a lot, and something I can rely on heavily whenever I feel especially lonely back then.
Misao is truly the only girl in my life who feels so desolate at the face of society, just like I do.
"I, um.." She finally begins, looking at me with flushed cheeks, trembling lower lips and glassy eyes, "I just want to say.. That I'm sorry. For everything. For ignoring you. For Soujiro. For your.. face.. I was so scared that something worse has happened to you, and I.."
She starts to cry and I don't wait. I immediately embrace her into my arms as she starts sobbing into the crane of my neck, the feeling of her wet tears so sweet and warm against my flesh. Just like that, we reconnect and reconcile as the two true blue friends I always knew we could be. I could never afford to lose this girl again. She trembles as she cries harder, and while some students would stop and stare, they knew better than to say anything and kept their polite distance. I just held onto her as she lets her emotions loose. It's the least I could after putting her through hell like this.
"I missed you, so much.." She whimpers, rubbing her eyes against my shoulder in a vague attempt to dry off her tears clumsily.
I smile into her hair that smell of strawberries today, "I missed you, too."
We stay like that for a while until the bell started ringing, and the sounds of everyone else rushing off to their respective homerooms prompts us to disengage from the hug, and we look at each other with tear-stricken smiles. I held her hand as we walk back into homeroom together, and we take our seats with the others finally. She sits next to Megumi as I sit behind Soujiro like I always do. Sanosuke is sitting on the other side of me while Yahiko sits in front of him. Just like the good old days.
The only one missing, of course, is Kaoru Kamiya, who would sit next to or behind Megumi. Or even me.
But alas, it will be just us for now.
The rest of homeroom was a blur. I can't stop thinking about whether the police will come in to speak to me or Soujiro today. We even went up to Mrs Kita's desk for a quick chat to see what's going on, and she told me that apparently the local police station have another large case to take care of, so she isn't sure when they will be coming in. But she will keep a close eye out and will keep us both up to date, and to try to focus on our schoolwork meanwhile. Soujiro and I thanked her and wish her a nice rest of the day. I honestly cannot believe it took meeting Soujiro Seta to actually get along with my homeroom teacher. Something so unfathomable to me several months ago.. is now an actual, everyday reality.
Soujiro and I behaved completely platonic for the rest of the day. We focused on our work during classes, and kept our conversations short and to the point. We try not to look at each other longingly for too long—which is so much harder than you would believe—and we would pass notes to each other in-between classes to tell each other things like how much we miss each other, how much we want to hold each other in our arms, and what else happened in each other's lives. Apparently, Soujiro told me right after homeroom that although his father gave him his original phone back, that he's worried it's being taped and tracked right now. I can't help but agree with that notion, because I'm sure that's exactly what a son of a bitch like him would do. We have to be extra careful with our relationship this time.
"He wants to meet you this Friday for dinner," He whispers to me while we sat next each other during third period Biology class, "He wants to thank you properly for saving me back there against Shishio."
"For fuck's sakes, really?" I whisper back, "I'm finally going to meet this fucker?"
He nods, confirming.
"Well then," I shrug, cracking my knuckles as if preparing for a fight, "I accept the challenge. We will need Shakku's help for when that time comes, so this will definitely be a win for us all."
He smiles. More than anything, I bet he wants to kiss me right about now. But as usual, we just can't.
But I know what I can do for him today.
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As we finally reach our final period of the day for gym class, we both got dressed in the locker rooms. We head outside for our track run, and start stretching in the middle of the vast field. I partnered up with Soujiro and we help each other stretch. As we do so, I lean in from behind him to whisper into his ear, "When we start running, follow me. Okay?"
He stiffens all over, but nods anyway, "Okay."
I ignore that pulsing feeling inside my gym shorts. Not now. Not yet. After the five minute stretching session with everyone is finally complete, the gym teacher blows his whistle and announces that we will begin our two mile laps. He tells us to get into our positions immediately. Soujiro and I stand next to each other and get into our jogging position. I have to say, even with just a white cotton shirt and black gym shorts, Soujiro still looks like the most dashing guy I've ever seen in my life. I grunt, trying to downplay my blush by pretending to cough behind my hand to cover my face.
Our gym teacher walks in front of us all and holds a small starting pistol up into the air. We have our game faces ready.
"On your mark.. Get set.. Go!"
Bang!
And off we all went, starting with a light jog around the track. I made sure not to go too fast so as to not lose sight of Soujiro, or to leave him too far behind me. We more or less jogged around the same speed, eyes forward and pretending to be into this. The other students kept passing us, and we let them. The coach kept his eyes on all of us, and we are careful to keep our eyes on him, especially the further we all ran down the track. Soujiro's in great shape, with the way he keeps a nice, even pace by my side; I seem to be losing my speed little by little, on account of me being a heavier smoker than him.
As we both catch sight of the coach facing another teacher who came out to tell him something, I knew it was now or never. I start to quicken my pace to catch up with Soujiro and exhaled, "Follow me!"
He nods quickly and starts to trail behind me, the both of us starting to run quickly. All the other students are quite far from us, and I start to see a pathway on the side that I used to go down before. It leads to a forest that Sano and I ventured through before to smoke some weed in between classes. I've never gone super deep into it, but it might be fun. I need to be somewhere as private as possible for what I'm about to do with Soujiro. As I near myself towards the pebbled path, I take a deep breath and bolt through it with vigor, Soujiro following me promptly from behind me.
The pathway leads down a hill and into a very large, open field of grass. Kyoto is famous for our natural scenery, and I am once again reminded of how lucky I am to be a country boy. Because of how steep that hill was, no one else can see us unless they walked on top of said hill to look down below. The forest ahead looks to be quite far, but I know it's worth the travel. We can afford to receive a zero for today, to be honest. I just need to be with Soujiro.. Feel his skin against mine.. Taste him for all he's worth.
I just miss him so much.
We slow down to a light jog again, my lungs almost burning from all the running and heaving. God, I should really fucking quit smoking. This sucks! As the trees become bigger in my line of vision, my heart, which was quick to begin with, really starts to hammer against my chest in anticipation. We soon slow down to a quick walk through the trees, and instinctively, we start to hold each others' hands. There is a pulse in my gym shorts as soon as I feel his hand in mines, and I gulp nervously. I look at him and his eyes are focused ahead of us, as if he too, is just as nervous yet excited for what's about to come next.
It's been too long already.
The deeper we walked into the forest, the slower we begin to walk. The air is thick with the smell of wet grass, moss and wood. I can feel my breathing slowing down and the feeling the clean oxygen entering my lungs. As we look up and around, the trees start to become denser and more closely knit together, the atmosphere becoming darker and cooler by the minute the more we go deeper. There is a small sound that captured both of our attention, and it's a small stream. The water smashes against the rocks and, along with the faraway noise of singing birds in the distance, creates a type of mood that's exactly what I'm trying to create here. We both stop walking, watching the water.
Soujiro steps near the stream as he gasps quietly, "Oh, Kenshin, this is beau—"
I pull him back towards me and he spins into my arms. I grab the back of his head and start to kiss him passionately, already pitching tent in my shorts again at the sound of his surprised grunt and helpless whine as my tongue slides into his mouth eagerly. My other arm scoops from underneath his bottom to pull him up towards my leg, and I start to rub said leg against his crotch. He moans feebly at this and immediately starts to hump and grind against my leg. Our tongues desperately smack against each other, the sounds of saliva and groans competing against the rushing waters near us.
The hand that was on the back of his head now slowly starts to travel down from the back of his neck, to the side of it near his jawline, down his throat, and now sliding down his chest and stomach. His breathing hitches as this happens and I can feel him getting rock hard on my thigh. Fuck, he feels so good even without any of his clothes off! I groan darkly under my throat as my fingers trail under his white shirt and now sailing towards back up his chest; I feel the familiar nub of his nipple and start to stroke it between by thumb and finger. He flinches at this touch and whines a little louder in my mouth, and takes this as an opportunity to stop kissing my lips to start gnawing at my jawline instead.
"Fuck..!" I hiss.
"Kenshin," He growls against my neck, "Fuck.. me..!"
I waste no time in helping him out of his shirt, his skin nearly glowing in the midst of this dark forest. My eyes drink in the milkiness of his flesh, and he pulls down his gym shorts to reveal his naked glory in front of me. The skin on his dick is flushed with a dusky rose tint against the rest of his otherwise porcelain skin, matching the now hardened pink nipples on his chest. With swollen lips, blushing cheeks, and electric blue eyes, Soujiro is the absolute imagery of angelic beauty. My breath is stuck in my throat as I look at his beauty up close.
I want him.. I want him so badly!
"Take off your clothes," His voice is nearly hoarse with desire, and I do as he says. He kicks off his shoes and peels off his socks to complete his own undressing while I work on myself. As he starts to touch himself, he realizes I am digging into the pockets of my gym shorts and hums curiously, "What're you doing?"
"I've come prepared," I smile, taking out a couple of condom packets and a small tub of lube, "See?"
"Where'd you get those things?!"
I laugh, "The condoms were from the nurse's office and the lube was from that trip we took, remember?"
"Oh, Kenshin," He shakes his head, laughing, "What am I gonna do with you?"
"I think I have an idea.." I bite my bottom lip and arch both my eyebrows upward at him playfully.
"Haah!" He exhales lustily a few moments later as I start to finger him with two lubed up fingers in order to stretch him out and prepare him for my eventual entrance. He bucks into my knuckles the more deeper I go, and I start to suck on his nipple hungrily. He tastes so fucking good after being away from him for so long. We are now lying down on the grass and on top of our clothes. We don't have a lot of time to mess around as much as I wish, so he leans into my ear and whispers, "We better hurry or else they'll wonder where we went."
"God," I groan, fapping his dick with my other hand meanwhile, "Whyyyy can't we just stay here forever!"
"Hurry, Kenshin," He bites his lower lip and eyes nearly closing from his clouding lust, "Just fuck me already."
I growl and stop masturbating him, taking my fingers out of him. I place the condoms on both of our dicks so we don't end up soiling ourselves before having to head back to our gym class. We simply can't afford to leave any damning evidence behind that we are fucking each other on school grounds. We are already in enough trouble as it is. With both respective condoms on, I sit in between his thighs and holster him up, spreading his legs. I want to see his face when I enter him. With just one calculative thrust, I pierce into his hole and his mouth hangs open, eyes rolling in the back of his head in pleasure.
He finally makes a tiny squeak, and I go psycho just by hearing that. With both hands on his hips, I begin thrusting into him quickly and without holding myself back. I throw my head back and shut my eyes from the overwhelming, tight heat I'm experiencing around my cock. Soujiro starts to gasp and moan like crazy meanwhile, saying my name with that delicious voice that I am so crazy in love with.
"Uhh, Kenshinnn!" He nearly sobs with rapture, "Does my hole feel good for you?"
I grab his upper arms to haul him up so that he is straddling me now, kissing him feverishly. I pull back to groan, "Yeah.."
He moans again before kissing me, tongues fighting to reign over each other like before. I wrap both arms around his waist as he wraps his own arms around my neck, skin slapping against skin as I thrust upwards into him. The pleasure is indescribable and I can feel myself getting closer to the finishing line, as much as I wish I could savor this moment for a while longer.
"Mmm, Soujiro," I moan against his lips, "It's so good.."
Suddenly, Soujiro unwraps his arms from my neck and pushes me down so that he is sitting on top of me completely, and he starts fucking me back by grinding his hips on top of my cock. I take in a sharp breath that sounded like a shocked gasp, but it's cut off the second he comes down on my dick furiously with his crushing weight of his torso. I groan helplessly as he continues this maddening dance against me, his hands on my chest and nails nearly scraping my skin off. He's being too rough with me right now..
"Arrgh, Soujiro, wait..!" I mewl powerlessly, "It's too.. It's too much, I can't..!"
He slows down a little bit, but the way his hips are swerving against my hard on is still so fucking crazy. I don't know for how much longer I can hold on at this rate. My hands shoot up to grab the sides of his hips in a feeble attempt to get him to slow it down, but he is relentless in his passionate frenzy. What's gotten into him today? I know a lot has happened and he's probably feeling like he's about to lose all control over his own life, but this is still so strange of him to do. He looks almost hurt and angry with the way he looks at me; his skin a sanguine tone of red, teeth gritted into a scowl, eyes smoldering into a blue that's almost painful to stare into for too long.
Is Soujiro.. mad at me?
"Sou," I grunt painfully as he keeps hammering himself onto me, "W-wait.. Are you mad at me or something?"
He is gasping and panting, the rest of the flush covering his neck and chest now. He doesn't answer me for a few moments as he continues with this strange freakout, but he suddenly curves his hip at a much slower pace and his skin cools down, lifting his head up to look right at the sky as he breathes heavily, "My dad... meeting you.. Aha.. Hahaha.. ahhh..!"
I blink, muddled by his weird response.
"Gawwwd!" He moans in a higher pitch, "This is just perfect! Fuck!"
I groan as he continues with his grinding, my hands now sliding upwards to touch his little waist, his perfectly flat abs, and even over his toned torso as it contracts and releases with every thrust he puts on me. I guess maybe I shouldn't interrupt his little meltdown. I would be going just as insane, too, if my dad is a powerful billionaire who can control all of my movement, all of my relationships, my entire life.. I'd be just as furious and helpless, to be honest. Poor Soujiro. I'd do anything to take him out of this hell. There has to be something my friends and I can do to help.. But what can we do?
I still haven't a clue yet.
"Kenshin," He looks back down at me, his eyes glassy with passion now, "I want you.. to give my dad.. aghhh.. a hard time.. mmm!"
"W.. What?" I frown at him, confused.
He smirks now, panting, "When you two meet.. Make him embarrassed.. haah.. confront him and the fucking company.. mmm.. threaten his ego.. anything.. Ken.. Shin.. be the bad boy I know you can be.. fuuuuck..!"
He goes faster again, my lungs crushed by the air I try to take in at that last sharp second, "Haah.. Souji..ro..!"
I get it now. He wants me to be a menace like I always am, but to his dad now. But is that really a good idea? I would think he would have wanted me to make a good first impression, and not make his father more suspicious of me than he might be by now. But with the way Soujiro is looking at me now, a cross of pleading and vengeful fury over his dad.. I guess he wants me to avenge him for all the pain and suffering his dad has put him through. I finally nod, understanding my assignment. Make his dad mad. Got it.
God, this feels too good. I'm going to cum like a motherfucker soon.
"You want me to be a dick to your dad? Is that it?" I finally start jabbing my hips upwards repeatedly, making him cry out in pleasure, "I can do that.."
He lifts his chin up towards the sky again, laughing and moaning, "Yes.. Yes! Make him so fucking mad at me.. I want him to be afraid that a bad boy like you is fucking me.. How does it feel to get to fuck the CEO's son, huh?"
"Uugh!" My eyes are rolling in the back of my head now, back arching, "It's.. it's so fucking good.. Fuck!"
"Uhnnn, yeah!" His grinding is starting to become more erratic and incoherent now, speeding up considerably, "I love being fucked by you! My dad is gonna be so fucking pissed.. If only he can hear me like this now.. Right there, Kenshin.. yes! Harder! Oh god, yes..!"
"Soujiro..!"
I'm about to cum.
Soujiro senses this, so he screams, "I LOVE GETTING FUCKED LIKE THIS, DAD!"
That last few words he said were done in such a loud shout, that if we had been anywhere near our class, they'd think he finally lost his fucking head. But for some reason, that made me so delirious in my lust, that I finally couldn't take it anymore. In that last few hot seconds, I clutch my nails into his hips and I groan as I cum finally inside of him. The orgasm is ripping through my body in a way I've never felt before. Jesus fucking Christ! At that, he too, finally cums, clawing his nails down my chest violently as he is thrown into a sea of absolute ecstasy. It all happened so quickly, that the pain barely registered in my brain. Thank god for the condom I put on his dick because I would have definitely been in such a huge mess by now. His hole keeps pulsating like wild around my dick, trying to suck out any last drop of cum out of me as it can. I can hardly breathe as I watch him nearly convulse on top of me.
He trembles as he whispers, "Fuck.. fucking fuck! That was.. the best.. orgasm ever.. Kenshin..!"
As his last shiver of orgasm finally leaves his body, he starts to laugh, and I am trying to catch my breath meanwhile. Goddamn, that was the best joyride of my life, too.
"Huhhh, fuck, that was so.. amazing," He is still laughing and shaking, but manages to look back down at me, "That was the best cum you've ever given me. I love you so much.. God.."
I shake my head, "I love you too. But holy shit, Soujiro. You look so fucking good right now."
It's true. His hair is now nearly scattered into a halo shape of sorts around his head, the sweat and tears now gives way to a much more radiant complexion, and his eyelashes are lush and dark from his crying. I've never seen him completely lose his composure like this before; he has come close plenty of times before since I've first known him, mind you. But this.. This is the first time that he has finally given into his rage against his father, especially what he said about enjoying being fucked like this.
I'm glad I was the instrument to his metamorphosis. He finally hates his father as much as I do.
We slowly try to catch our breaths and trying to slow down the dizzying effects of our collective orgasms. I guess we both needed that good, hard fuck. It's honestly nice to know he still finds me irresistible despite the white bandage over the bride of my nose from the surgery. It's due to be taken off sometime this week, so as to let the stitches dry off and let them pop off naturally by their own. I don't know what I'm going to do about the scarring, though. Maybe the girls would know how to deal with that with their own feminine wisdom or some shit. I take a final breath in and out, relaxing completely.
Soujiro still seems to be going through it, his body shivering from the lasting after effects of his orgasm. I watch him, in awe of this show, stroking the front of his thighs lovingly as he is trying to come down from it all. Every so often, I feel him flinching and I hear him gasping quietly here and there, and I'd give him a reassuring squeeze with my hands here and there to comfort him. Is he having multiple orgasms right now or something? Either way, he looks really fucking happy, with the way his body keeps twitching and the way he giggles with his eyes closed sleepily.
"Soujiro..?" I call out his name quietly.
Everything slowly crawls to a complete stop after a minute of this, and he finally sighs happily, "Okay. I'm done. Fuck."
I slowly sit up and wrap my arms around him again, nuzzling my face into his hair. It's damp from his sweat and heat. "Soujiro.. You're really one of a kind. I mean it."
He sighs, also nuzzling his face into my neck lovingly, "Thanks."
"Let's get dressed and get out of here. I don't want us to get detention." I carefully slip out of him and help him as we both get up from the ground.
He chuckles, "If we get detention together, at least we'd be together again. I can't even bring you or anyone else over, or even go anywhere else after school."
"Jesus," I shake my head with a glare, "It's like he's treating you like a child."
"Tell me about it," He deflates, completely bummed out, "At least, I have Friday evening to look forward to, when I get to see you in my house again."
"Hey," I lean in to kiss him chastely on the lips, "I'll be there. Don't worry."
He smiles sleepily, "I know you will."
(To be continued..)