The Good Old Cheering Days
A/N Future Dawn is self reflective ok?!
Sunnydale, the world without shrimp 1997
Dear Diary,
Now I had a bit of a foray into cheerleading back in high school, but it didn't go particularly well. Xander said it was because I'm not very well coordinated. I'm gonna blame Glory's monks for that one, they could've made me a bit more flexible. Not that Buffy's tryouts went any better. If I recall correctly she got kicked off the team for accusing people of being witches. That was an interesting turn of events.
I've met Amy Madison a few times and I don't really like her but Buffy said she was good once. Willow told me stories of how they used to 'hang out' in Junior High, but I guess people change because she totally gives me the wiggins now. I can't really imagine it now, Buffy, Willow, Cordelia, Amy and Harmony all in the same high school class. I guess I didn't really have that. Everyone from my class sorta spread out after Sunnydale was destroyed, they went to live with relatives in other states or they moved to LA.
I remember Buffy coming back from school in her cheer outfit, one day she was so happy because she'd had a successful practice and I know she felt normal for once. Not that I cared much because I was jealous. She was waving pom poms around all day and I was sitting in math class. How is that fair?! Now I get it, but back then I berated her and folded my arms a lot. I guess I was kind of a brat.
I so wanted to be a part of something. I hadn't really made any friends yet and Buffy already had so many, I felt like a spare part most of the time. One night I walked into Buffy's room late at night and took her cheer uniform from her chair. I stood in front of the mirror in Buffy's clothes and decided I looked stupid. I don't she ever knew because I didn't tell anymore. But I started to cry because her clothes were too big for me and the skirt kept falling down. It made me feel even worse, like I was too small and insignificant. Just the sister of someone cool.
See, I didn't know Buffy was the slayer yet. Mom didn't know either and me and Buffy weren't that close, we weren't those kind of sisters. The type that tell each other everything and are always hanging out together. We weren't like Blossom and Six. Buffy had her own friends and I had mom. So I took off the soppy uniform and put it back in Buffy's room. I didn't want anyone to know how I felt. So I put back the stupid uniform and cried myself to sleep. It was the next day that Buffy came home and said she was off the team.
Dawnie Xx