Thank you all so much for sticking with me through my first Fifty Shades Of Grey story and I want to thank EL James because as I have said without her we wouldn't be able to write our stories
I need to apologize for a mistake in the last chapter. One of my reviews I read showed me I made a mistake when I wrote three hundred thousand that Elena stole and it should have been three hundred million like I said from the start of the story. Please forgive me and I called myself proof reading it a few times and posting late last night. I must have been really tired. I will try to catch all my mistakes from now on
This chapter wrote itself***********
{Warning this chapter is going to get very emotional kleenex may be needed}
{{Christian and Ana talk about the past}}
They are all sitting around the table talking and laughing
"Oh my lord Ana that was delicious. Well hell there isn't anything that I have ate of yours that was bad."Christian says rubbing his belly
she smiles at him "Thank you Christian glad you enjoyed it. Do y'all want anymore? There is still plenty left, come on grab another piece Christian you know you want to." she says giggling and dangling a piece in his face
"No ma'am I can't eat another bite. Guys you better eat there is a lot left."Christian tells them
"Would you like a tour of my new home Christian?" she ask him
"Sure I would love to see what all you have done."he says
"Alright guys, we are going on a tour of the house. Anything y'all need before we leave?" she ask
"No ma'am we are good… going to sit right here and drink our beer and talk to the other security guys in a few minutes. I saw them pull up I am pretty sure they are getting their bags out."Davidson says
"Alright, offer them some food please. Thank you." she says
They walk out the back door and around the porch to the front of the house. Christian opens the door and they walk in.
As you walk in you see a grand foyer that is brightly lit by wall lights and a stunning chandelier with high ceilings, and marble floors. To the left you see an old fashioned antique table holding a gorgeous bouquet of lilies. As you walk further into the foyer you see two curving staircases. Walking on in you see the great room or living room as we call it back home. It's an open floor plan that's what I wanted with this beautiful handmade rock fireplace you can see here but it opens to the dining room also. So warm and cozy on cold winter nights. Cuddle up in my big recliner there with a blanket, a good book and a cup of hot chocolate and I am set for a while.
"Let's go upstairs and I will show you the rest of my home." she says
"Lead the way my lady."he says and follows her
'How many bedrooms and bathrooms do you have? This place is huge." he says looking around
She smiles at him, grabs his arm and says "Come on there are 8 bedrooms and 8 bathrooms all ensuite. There's also a full size bathroom downstairs and one down in the gym.
This is the blue room well because it's blue. I may change the colors of the rooms but not for a while. The bedrooms are all very big and have sitting rooms with a couch, chair and even a desk. Look at these floor to ceiling windows and the view is of the sound. All the bedrooms are facing the sound and they all have balconies with lounge areas." she says leading him toward the ensuites
"Check these bathrooms out, they are almost as big as yours. I love them plenty of room all have the rain showers and the showers are separate from the bathtubs."she says
"Wow nice I like the rain showers and there is plenty of room." he says raising his brow
"Come on, let me show you my master suite." she says dragging him out of the bathroom laughing
"Here we are. My room is twice the size of any of the other bedrooms. I have two huge walk-in closets that go into the bathroom which I think was a pretty smart idea. That way you just walk out of the bathroom and right into your closet without having to go through your bedroom. There is also a large area for shoes and there is a place set up for a mirror and a dressing area. I have more than enough room here and not half enough clothes to fill it, much less shoes." she says
"Why don't you have enough clothes and shoes to fill this space?" he ask
"I am just too busy to go shopping unless I desperately have to."she says
"So if you had the time you would probably fill your closet?" he ask
she looks at him funny and laughs
"Not really but I always buy what I need when I need it. For instance, if I have to go away to meetings and I don't have enough I will buy what else I need. If I have an event I need to be at I will buy a gown and accessories that I have to have. I see no sense in buying five or ten gowns that you may not even wear and then they just hang in your closet until they are faded and no good or outdated."she says
"I see well I guess that makes sense but I have always saw mom and Mia go crazy shopping for more clothes than anyone could wear in a lifetime."he says smiling
Wonder what she would think of all the clothes and shoes I purchased for my subs at one time. My God they had clothes to last for years and never run out. My personal shopper made sure of that…better keep that to myself but I know she remembers talking about the clothes I got them.
"Yes, as I said, I see no reason for it until I have to have it. Besides I am not crazy about shopping."she says
Who is not crazy about shopping? Good lord the women I know love to shop and spend money
"Mia and her friends all they do is shop till you drop. Well she did."he says smirking
"I guess when you grow up with money it's easy to spend. I am not like that. What daddy and I had when I was growing up was enough for me. We had a roof over our heads, food on the table, a warm place to sleep and a bed to sleep in. We had clothes on our backs, a warm heavy coat in the winter when needed, you know.
Material things will never make you happy. Sure they are nice for example luxury cars, high fashion clothes, bags, expensive furniture and appliances, name brand jewelry and so on."she says
"Yes I have a new home but I worked for it and it took me years to decide if I wanted one. Yes lI bought this place with my hard earned money from my business." she tells him
he just looks at her and nods
"I don't care for fancy cars, just a safe one that will get me from point A to point B. Nice clothes to wear don't have to come from Neiman Marcus or some fancy name place. I am here to impress anyone. What you see is what you get. If I have to go out yes i will dress nice
Hell I wore Walmart and Target for years and still do sometimes. I am not into silks and satins. I don't indulge in spa treatments every week. I do my own hair unless it needs to be trimmed but I am damned if I am going to go to a salon that charges 200.00 just for me to sit in their seat for ten minutes to cut my hair. People have lost the meaning of money. If they have it they are going to spend it on whatever makes them happy no matter if it's jewelry, clothes, cars, boats, planes if they want it they are going to buy it. It's nice to have a yes but once it is gone what do you have to show for it?" she says
"Yes I agree with you ,we have lost the meaning of money. We blow it on anything and everything we want. Not what we need but what we want. I am at fault there, as are a lot of people. I like nice things like my cars, my homes, clothes, and nice restaurants. Things I can buy and god forbid I did blow a lot of it when I shouldn't have but then I felt like that was my way to help and care for them. But you know it was just me feeling guilty for what I did to them especially after I would hear them crying in their room at night. I am a sorry excuse for a human being.I treated them like they were nothing but a plaything for my pleasure." he says hanging his head
"I am sorry to say this to you but if you had stayed away from the bitch that wouldn't have happened to them and you wouldn't feel guilty and sorry for yourself." she says daring him to deny it
"I know and I am sorry and yes if I hadn't gone back over to her house I wouldn't have been like that but she made me like that." he says
"You know something…never mind, let's get out of here. Come on, let's go to my catamaran and talk and get out of my bedroom." she says
"Alright let's go and grab a cold bottle of wine on the way." he says trying to ease the tension in the room
They walk out of her bedroom and down the hall the back stairs and grab a cold one and head out the door.
"Hey guys we are going to walk down to the dock and my catamaran for a little while. See y'all later." she says
"Alright Ms. Ana we will keep our eyes peeled and lookout for you both but everything has been fine all night." he says
They walk down to the dock not speaking both thinking about what's been said and what needs to be said
He helps her up on the dock of the catamaran and joins her. Looking around damn this is ..wow…how can she handle this big catamaran? Hell this is a yacht.
I would have trouble with it by myself. I bet she has a crew for this 100 ft yacht. What in the world was Ray thinking of buying her something this big? Granted it is a beauty from what I have seen so far. She turned the lights on. They are a pale blue color. I guess that color so the lights don't hurt your eyes. Oh my god it is gorgeous.
Browns and oranges , earth tone colors are nice. I like it.
"Well what do you think so far?" she ask him walking over to him
"This is a beauty. I mean it is gorgeous all 100 ft of it. What was Ray thinking about buying you something this big ? I mean I would have to have a crew if it was mine."he says
"Christiann do you not think I can handle this yacht?" she ask him point blank right in his face
"Well as I said I would have to have a crew with me to handle this. So yes I don't think you can handle it alone." he says
"Thank you for your honesty and no I can not handle this on my own I would not even attempt to." she says
"Well now that is settled come on show me the rest please." he says
she takes his hand and leads him by the captains chair down the stairs to the galley to show it to him. he looks around very impressed
"It has the state of the art appliances, the table let's out to seat 8 and also makes into a couch and it's very comfortable."she says
He looks around and likes what he is seeing. Maybe it's time to change colors and stuff in my catamaran when I can claim it again.
"How many does she sleep? Are all the cabins on the top deck or the bottom deck because I see this is 2 decks." he says
"She can accommodate up to ten guests and crew." She says
"Daddy knows what colors I like so he gave them my colors and they incorporated them into each room and all around. I love earth tone colors they are warm and refreshing."she tells him
she drags him right along not that he is complaining at all
"All the berths are alike so I will show you this one and not go through each one." she says
"They all have queen size beds with all the bedding you will need. They are all equipped with towels, wash cloths, all the soaps, shampoos, conditioners , razors, toothbrushes, well you get the picture. Daddy has someone come out and check everything once in a while when I bring it back in if I have company on board but never have had anyone here but you and my crew well besides daddy and his buddies going fishing." she says
"Next room is mine. Come on, I'm on the top deck and I'll show you why." she says pulling him right along with her.
She opens the door and he is met with the sweetest smell that has ever touched his nostrils. What is that smell? Damn what a bed and I thought my was big. Damn she has me beat and still has room to walk around in here. Love the colors so warm and comfortable you could stay in here all day.
"What do you think?" she ask him
"I am thinking what is that lovely smell and where did you get a bed that big and I am also thinking it is time to change the color scheme on my catamaran that needs to be updated when I get her back. Little Annie is a yacht to die for. She is absolutely a beauty." Thank you for me showing her to me." he says
"Well, open the balcony doors over there and look outside." She tells him
He is stunned She has her own pool and hot tub
"Damn Ana Ray went all out when he bought you this. I have never seen anything to compare it to. It cost him a pretty penny. I know that much.
"I'm sure it would have but you know daddy always liked to work with his hands even though he was working for the president. A few of his guys from the service opened their own business and got funds to start making boats and from there they went to bigger and better boats, yachts and super luxury yachts. Anyway daddy helped build this one and a few others with the guys." She says
"So Ray got this at a steal then? Saved a lot of money, I am sure." He says
"Yes he sure did but I don't know or want to know what he paid for it. It's his money and it was a gift to me. So I'll always treasure it." She says smiling
" You know between you and I I would have been happy with a jon boat." She giggles
"I do believe you would have been just to go out on the water and fish." He says walking over to her and putting her hair behind her ear
"Aww Boo no thanks needed I wanted to show it to you and I am glad you like it. Maybe in a few days we can take it out. With a crew of course." she giggles
He laughs and says "Yes definitely with a crew if we go a long way out." He tells her
"How about we go sit on the deck and talk?" She ask him
Yeah I knew this was coming. Might as well get it over with to see where we are at and where we can take it. Because I want her in my life. I have missed her so much over the years but was just too damn stupid to realize what I let happen to us.
"Hey where did you go? What's on your mind? You know you can tell me anything? I won't judge you for what happened in the past because when you started this with the bitch you were fifteen years old. Yes you knew it was wrong there is no way you can make me believe otherwise. You wanted it because you were a horny teenager and a beautiful older woman came on to you. That's all I'm going to say right now but I will give you my opinions on things. So be ready to listen to them." She tells him pulling no punches with him because she wants to know the truth of why he really broke her heart that day so long ago
He looks at her but doesn't know how to respond to what she said. I know she is going to give me hell but I hope and pray she will listen to me. She said she will not judge me
They walk out of her room and go sit on the deck where the lounge chairs are and the comfortable looking sofa that looks like you could sink in and get lost
"Would you like something to drink Christian? I had wine brought down if you would like a glass." she tells him
He clears his throat and shakes his head to clear it too
"Yes, wine sounds good. Are you having any?" he ask her
"Yes I'll have a glass with you."she says smiling and pours them both and hands them to him and sets the bottle down on the side table. He gives her her glass. They both just sit there looking out into the night sipping on their wine
"Alright this isn't getting us anywhere just sitting here wondering what the other is thinking you know?" she says
"Yes I know but I don't know where to start and I am scared. I will admit that to you. I am scared shitless that what I tell you and explain to you will make you never want to have anything else ever to do with me after this mess is all over with. And it seems like it is coming to an end soon." he tells her standing up and walking over to the front of the boat
She sits there contemplating what he is saying or trying to say. She knows this is hard for him to explain what happened years ago but she is entitled to an explanation for the wretched way he broke their friendship up.
Hell we were almost a couple then the fighting and drinking started. He got worse and his parents were tired of his ways. So instead of letting me help him when I ask him and ask Grace….what was I thinking
Yes I asked Grace to give me some time with him to see if I could maybe help his anger and fighting and she told me that I was just a teenager and didn't know how to cope with him and it was better to leave with the adults.
To this day I still can't believe she told me that. I wonder what I was thinking back then because I was only fifteen too. I didn't know how to really help anyone but my daddy. But daddy told me I was a good listener and told him what I thought about things and he said that I not only had sympathy for others but I did not judge others. I was a caring soul…those were his exact words to me
Oh my god what am I going to say to her to make up for all the time we lost? All the time I was a son of a bitch to her and all she did was try to help me. She got my grades up and as long as she was with me I managed to control my anger of fighting. humm he thought
"Why did I say that? Elena always told me she would help me with my anger that I didn't need Ana but I remember Ana did help me too. She would always come to my rescue when someone got too close to me or she saw me getting angry in class or in the hall.
God I still don't know how to do this….Just open your damn mouth and speak you asshole. You caused this shitstorm between you two by listening to the blonde bitch …I tried to get you away but no you wanted to get fucked by an older woman…and man she was old enough to be our mother….she knew better and as Ana said while ago you did too. So open your yap and tell her all of it…I mean all of it or I will..you know I can and will…one question slick…do you want her in our lives as your girlfriend and our future? honest answer now mate…oh dear lord go away and yes I want that more than anything but don't know if that will ever happen now. I am a screw up a jerk of epic proportion….won't get any sympathy from me on that because you always put yourself down and I am fed up with it man…..god I hate him
"Christian it's getting late and I am getting tired waiting on you. Are we going to talk tonight or put it off till later?" she ask him
He is listening to her and thinking if he should put it on the back burner for now ... .no I can't do that. I need to talk now and finish this…he turns and sits on the couch and asks to join him. their wine forgotten for now
"Ana, will you please come and sit with me?" he ask her
"Ana." he calls her name a little louder
"Oh sorry, I was thinking about something. Or are we talking tonight?" she ask him
"Yes we are I am going to spill the whole horrid truth to you and hope and pray you that you don't run or throw me into the sound and drown me." he says looking at her
"I won't drown you and I won't run. I will listen and not speak and when you are finished we will discuss what you said. And like I said, I will give you my opinion." she tells him
"Alright as you know as we got older and started high school I was getting into more fights than I did in middle school. Granted those in middle school were nothing like high school. Usually when I would say back off they did even the silly girls."he said
she just nodded her head motioning with her hand for him to continue
"Now here we are coming back from summer and it's our second year in high school and we are in the tenth grade that year and everyone knows how bad of a temper I have and they all know I can't stand to be touched. But they pushed my buttons to the point where I wanted to beat the hell out of them. They just wouldn't mind their own damn business. They either want to pick on me or the girls want to mess with me by touching me." he says
They girls wanted to be around me and didn't like that you are always there sitting with me , talking to me and helping me with school work. They were some jealous bitches let me tell you. They thought you were trying to take me away from them. They didn't know we were friends and neighbors." he said looking at her and sees the sad look on her face when he said friends
"Anyway as the school year continued my grades started falling and you were there again to help me pull them back to passing. I was very thankful that I had you to help me. Ana I thought the world of you back then and still do. I am so sorry what for I put you through." he says looking sad
"My fighting got to the point where I was getting expelled every other day or week and mom and dad were fed up with me. You know this because I would come to your house just for peace and quiet most of the time. You were there for me, you helped me do better." he says
"It's just the fighting got worse and they threatened to send me away if I didn't get better. Dad said I was a disgrace to the family, making him and my mother look like they didn't know how to raise a child and just let him run wild. I remember him yelling at me over and over. You know I thought they were really going to do it."he says
"As time went on they never did. Dad still yelled at me in his office and told me I was a sorry excuse for a son and I would never amount to nothing. You know after all that time I started believing him then my dear mother started to tell me about how her club mom's and friends were ashamed to be seen with her because of how I acted at school. You know, come to think of it, I think it was Elena that told her what the club ladies said or she made my mother believe that because I never heard her say anything to dad about it. And she did continue her club meetings and afternoon parties.
She told me to straighten up or else she would take me to military school herself and leave me there until I learned to act right and behave myself."he says sighing
"You know I really thought she would at one point. I kept waiting for that fateful day but it never came. Another day came a painful reminder of what I went through as a child. Do you know what that was Ana? Do you?" he ask her looking her in the eyes she shook her head no
"That was the day that she told me she wished she had never met me. That it was a day she will live with forever and ever." he said crying with tears running down his face
Oh my God, how could Grace say something like that to him? She knew how fragile he was and how much he wanted and needed her but she didn't care. I remember her pushing him away even when he told her he got a B on his test and she would look at him and say do better next time. I couldn't believe she would say that because I helped him pull a D to B and she wasn't happy. For God sake you don't talk to an emotionally disturbed child like that and she is a damn pediatrician
She pulled his head down on her lap and started rubbing his head and shoulders. Hoping to make it a little better. He just grabbed her and put his arms around her waist and held on for dear life while he cried
They sat like that for a while until he got his emotions under control and was able to continue. Ana reached over and got his glass and told him to drink it.
"I am sorry about that Ana. I never wanted you to know what she said to me that day."he tells her
"You know we were becoming good friends, hell best friends even before we finished ninth grade and we were getting closer during the summer. We were always at your house in the pool or at mine. We were always seen together and I guess that's what made the guys pick on me so much and the girls hate on you." he says
"Do you remember one time we were all in the pool? Me, you, Elliot and a few of Elliot's friends we were just having a good time when one of El's buddies decided to come up behind you and grab you?" he ask her she nods her head
"I remember I swam over to you just as he pushed your head underwater and you came up choking. I grabbed you and took you out of the pool, made sure you were alright and then jumped his ass. I was yelling and mom and Elena walked out to see what was going on."he says looking at her
"Anyway I told them what happened and mom asked if you were alright you said you were just a little scared was all. She checked you over and while she was doing that Elena was staring at me like I was her buffet or something licking her lips and smiling but as soon as mom turned back to me she wasn't looking at me anymore. I thought that was strange but never told my mother about it. I wonder why now that I didn't." he says pulling his hair
Ana reaches over and pulls his hands out of his hair
"I also remember them talking while I was sitting there with you. Elena said it was just fun, a little horse playing was nothing to worry about and you were fine. Do you remember that day?" he ask
"Yes I do I almost drown that day and Mrs. Lincoln thought it was rather funny cause I saw her laughing when your mother wasn't looking and I saw the way she looked at you too." she said
"Elena also said kids will be kids no harm Grace don't worry about it." he said
"Now I think about it, why would she say that when she didn't have any kids and my mother listened to her. They walked off but before they got in the house I heard Elena say that it would be good for me to come work for her and her husband because they needed some rubble and stuff moved out of the back yard." he said thinking
"I don't know how long it was before mom told me that I had to go over to Elena's. But I was doing better in school you were tutoring me and my grades where better and my fighting wasn't as bad as it was before." he said
"I tried to explain that to her even showed her my new test grades and all but she said I had to start working for Mrs. Lincoln that it would keep me busy and burn off my excessive stress and anger. She said Elena told her it would help me." he says
"But how the hell would she know that?" he ask her
"She wouldn't cause that blonde bitch to have never done hard labor in her life. She just wanted you in her clutches." Ana yelled at him
Christian just looked at her sighing
"I am so sorry I didn't mean to yell forgive me? I just despise that bitch so much."she said
"Hey don't worry about it it's alright."he says
"Ok now back to the part I hate to talk about. I went over there after school remember. I told you mother was making clean rubble out the Lincoln's back yard." he says
'Yes." that's all she would say
"Well the first day was hell. I mean it was like 100 degrees and I had just pulled my shirt off when she Mrs. Lincoln walked out with a glass of lemonade and asked if I was thirsty. I said something like it's about time. And she told me I needed to learn some manners. I told her to mind her own damn business. That's when she kissed me and grabbed me never touching me anywhere else."he said trying to gauge Ana's reaction
"She told me I needed to learn how to control my anger and walked off. Just like that leaving me standing there with a hard on from hell."he says barely above a whisper
"Just before I was leaving to go home she said be here after school tomorrow and I will teach you control and she walked away."he says
"I went home and sorry to say but I jacked off to her touching and kissing me. And needless to say instead of going to your house to study I went back to Mrs. Lincoln's. I did the work and was getting ready to leave when holy hell she walked out in a see through nightie with nothing on underneath it." he says
"She told me to come inside but I hesitated because I knew something didn't feel right. I stood there and told her I was done and I needed to go home for supper. She told me she called Grace and told her that I was still working and would be home later. That's what she told me. Then she said she wanted show me something and that she had snacks on the table for me."he says
"She walked over to me and grabbed me again then kissed me and damn she slapped me and kissed me again and like a horny teenager I followed her in her house. I didn't want anything to eat so she jerked down my shorts and gave me a blow job. Stood up and said if I wanted more to come back tomorrow but not to tell anyone what she had done and there would be more where that came from. I pulled my shorts back up walked out without saying a word and went home and never told anyone what she did to me." he said looking at Ana but she wasn't looking at him
"After school the next day I blew you off saying I had work to do and I couldn't study with you and to this I am sorry for that. That I lied to you so many times." he says
"After I got there she met me at the back door and invited me in and showed me to a room downstairs that scared the hell out of me. It was a dungeon, a medieval dungeon with all kinds of things on the wall. Whips, canes, belts, and at that time things I never knew of. I saw a big bed and she pulled me over to it and as she was talking to me she pushed me down on the bed and she was rubbing and grabbing me again and yes I was getting hard. She kissed me and slapped me again then pulled my shorts down and off and sucked me off again. She told me I needed to learn how to control myself and she was going to help me. She pushed me on the bed mounted me and fucked me she took my virginity that evening. She wasn't nice about it either."he says
"well anyway to make a long story short she told me if I told any one even you that none of you would believe me and she would say I raped her and my parents would believe her over me. She said her and my mother were talking and she knew about my touch issues and she could help me with that. That's when she said I had to do better in school to get all the negative people away from me. She meant you know. She didn't like you and she said you were a bad influence on me and after we were together for a little while and all the shit she was showing and telling me I was hers. I signed her contract and pulled my grades up. I wasn't fighting anymore. Mom and dad were better they were happy but they never ask what changed me." he says
"She saw us one day outside either your house or mine. She wouldn't say which but she told me I was in a contract with her and I could not have anything to do with you . No friendship, no talking. We couldn't be friends, we couldn't see each other outside of school. She basically told me I had to get rid of my best friend and like a stupid bastard that I am and I did just that but there is more to it. Do you want to hear it? I really hope you do because it will help with why I really pulled away from you. I don't know why I didn't tell you or Ray what she said but I didn't." he said waiting on her to give me a yes or no…and he thought back to that conversation ike it was yesterday
"Come in and shut the door boy and go down to the playroom and undress and assume the position. I will be down very soon and you better be ready."
"Yes mistress." he walks down to the room feeling something is off but can't put his finger on it anything he did wrong
"Boy did I not tell you that you are not to have any outside contact with that little girl except at school?" she says
"Yes ma'am." he says
"Then tell me why I saw you getting out of Ray Steele's car earlier today. When I drilled it into your head and ass with a cane that they are not the right people you associate with.'she says walking over to him and hitting him on the back with her cane
"My mother wasn't able to pick me up from school today and she asked Ray to give me a ride home. That is all I was doing was getting a ride with them nothing else." he tells her
"From now on you will not ride anywhere that little bitch is at, do you hear me boy?" she yells and slams the cane down on his back again
"Yes mistress." he says
"Stand up and go lay on the bed with your arms above your head and do not move them. I am going to tie you up."she says she sees the fear in his eyes…" don't worry boy I won't touch your chest or back." she says
After she has her way with him and right before he walks out the door limping she stops him and tells him
"If I ever see or hear Grace say that Little Miss Perfect has been around you or you anywhere near her I will not only beat you but I will get her and she will be in so much pain that there won't be enough medicine to keep the pain away. Do you hear me, boy. You will get the same treatment as she will get and I will make it hurt her so much that she will hate you for making me do this to her. I will have someone come in and rape her and if she runs her mouth I will say I saw you running out of her house pulling your clothes up . Now who do you think will believe you a horny teenager or me, a lady of society? I do believe they will believe me, not some randy young stud." she said
Oh hell why didn't I think that Ana never would have said I did it and I wouldn't let it happen anyway. Why didn't I just go to dad and Ray or hell Ana she would know who to tell? Hell I let my dick do the talking I reckon after the bitch sucked me off again..Damn I hate myself and I am going to see that that bitch gets everything coming to her and then some.
"Ana what's it going to be? I also had a huge revelation while you were thinking I was thinking back to my conversation with Elena that day." he says
"Please tell me what she said and did to turn you against me. I know the bitch was jealous of me and damn I was only fifteen years old.. she was so insecure of herself. Ok tell me."she says
'Ana she said that if I didn't stay away from you that she would beat you and then have someone come in and rape you and say I did it because she saw me running out of your house and no one would believe me over her. That I was just a horny kid… I hate myself for falling for her lies when I could have told Ray and dad about that and I didn't even think anything about you standing up for me if it happened but there was no way in hell I was going to let that happen to you. But like a dumb horny kid I didn't say anything and lost the best friend I ever had. If you hate me back then I know you hate me more now." he says with silent tears falling down his cheeks. He looks over at Ana and she is crying too.
"Ana, that's the day I walked over to your house and asked to speak to you, remember? We walked outside to the back deck and sat down neither saying anything for a while. Then all of a sudden I jumped up and said I can't do this anymore remember? I didn't want to be your friend, I didn't want to have anything else to do with you. Don't sit with me at lunch and don't talk to me. I don't like that you crimp my style. I can't get a girl cause you are always around me. Do you remember all of that? God I wish I never said any of it. I hate myself even now for repeating it after all these years." he says still crying
"Christian after all this time I never hated you. I didn't like you and you broke my heart into a million pieces that day. You never once looked at me as you were saying all that to me. It was like I was just Hell I don't know …it was like I never meant anything to you that we were never friends or close to being best friends. I always wanted your friendship and we were always doing things together, going places. Next thing I knew I was getting blown off cause you had to go to Mrs. Lincolns to work didn't have time for me at all. I was so sick of you saying not today I have to work till late tonight or no I have to work Saturday that I just quit asking. And you know something?" she ask him
"No, what?" he is afraid to hear it
"Not once did you ever miss me asking you'd just look at me in the hall or in class and walk right by me like I didn't matter to you anymore. which now I know I didn't because you were with the bitch letting her fuck, suck and beat the hell out of you when you when you should and could have reported her for child abuse and rape and the threat she made on me. But you stayed with that bitch for six count them six fucking years letting her beat you and never told a soul. How could you just turn your back not only on me and daddy but your own family? Tell me please. I really want to know. Was the bitch that good or were you so scared that she would blab about you . Damn Christian you were a child of course a hot older lady comes on to you a young horny teenager and wants to grab you and kiss you . Don't you know that wasn't right? Even though she did it you liked cause you got a hard whoopie do…reality check here Mr. Grey, any guy would get a hard on from someone touching him like that and especially for the first time. That bitch knew it was wrong but she wanted a new young stud to practice her sadism on. She wasn't a dominatrix, she was a sadist and you didn't know the difference." she says
"It's late, I'm tired and I know you are so let's put this on the back burner for now and we will talk later, just know that I don't hate you christian im very hurt and disappointed but never will I hate you." She gets up, hugs him and kisses his cheek.. see you in the morning or later today goodnight."
She walks off the boat and leaves him sitting there thinking about everything that was said and what wasn't said…because he knows she has just got started and he has no idea how it is going to end. But he is going to make sure that woman is his no matter what loops he has to go through to get there
That's it for now y'all. Hope you liked it
Chapter 9 later it will continue with Christian thinking and what Ana wants to say to him